I had the urge to hug him again, but it only lasted for a moment. I gave up

The accusations against him that had been prepared also disappeared. I don't want to hurt him with words, but I don't want to leave any more gaps, so that Su Ke, who is looking forward to being liked and loved, has a chance.

Without waiting for my stepmother, I ran away, like I was bound by time, and no matter how much I struggled, it didn't help.

The heart is restless, as restless as if you can't find your favorite song in an ordinary twilight. Because I don't want to settle, I'm tearing. It's not that we're going to be together, it's that I'm afraid that he's going to be with me.

I was standing on the balcony on the second floor, and the rain curtain separated us. I added a bit of lonely background music to my head at the right time, mixed with the sound of rain, until nothing could be heard, until there was only the sound of rain in my world. How can you be lonely, if you are lonely, you will not be firm.

There was only a curtain of rain between us, no, I held out my hand, ah, and a glass of glass.

The rain hadn't stopped, and I heard my dad's voice ringing downstairs, and he seemed angry. The stepmother also came back, and it was too embarrassing to come to the house.

She's right, it's really not a glorious thing, and the neighbors all come out to watch, of course, the ones who love to gossip the most.

It's very noisy, I don't know what they said. I could only vaguely hear my dad shouting, 'I'm looking for a junior-'.

After lying on and tossing and turning for a long time, I realized that he was talking about Zhao Yilun. It's about the lies I told, so it's to be expected. You see how despicable I am, I can't face it myself, I can't say cruel things, I can't make up my mind, so everything is pushed to others.

But I can't push my heart to others. It's like eating and going to the toilet, which others talk about at most, but no one can replace anyone.

So I didn't even have an umbrella, I went out barefoot, and when I got to the front door, I almost fell because the floor was too slippery.

"You let him in. "That's what I told my dad. Before that, he was holding the wooden stick in his hand when I came back that day, and he was ready to teach Zhao Yilun a lesson, and it was probably just a scare, so he wouldn't really fight. He always beat my brother and me with only a stick, and no matter how big a mistake he made to other people's children, he would at most tell his parents, speak ill of each other, and then walk away proudly.

That's how I guessed him, but I saw a bruise on Zhao Yilun's arm, and I didn't know if it was my eyes, I thought it was a bruise. My dad raised his stick and wanted to hit it, but Zhao Yilun avoided it and dragged me up.

"Why don't you come out without shoes!"

"What are you doing with a stinky boy!

"Uncle, listen to me!"

"I haven't seen anything, I've seen a lot of little white faces like you stepping on two boats, listen to your explanation, I'll make your mouth hard-"

"It's not me, you let me finish!"

"Put it down, put my girl down, hurry up!"

"Listen to me, it's not what you just said!"

"Fuck off—"

He didn't really roll, but rushed into the house with me in his arms, brought a towel to wipe my feet, and thought that he couldn't catch a cold. My dad dragged his bloated body close behind, and the stick was so long that he jammed several times when he entered the door. The gold-framed eyes were also slanted to the tip of the nose, and the lenses were dripping with water.

It's kind of funny, I'll admit it, but I can't laugh.

To borrow a phrase, it is very appropriate to describe yourself at the moment. He who lies has nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

So I can't look forward any longer, I rely on lies as an umbrella, and once I have expectations, the lies will be exposed. At that time, the world outside the umbrella will either be exposed to wind and sun, or stormy.

I squeezed Zhao Yilun's hand, and my dad stopped on the side when he saw this, and didn't say anything more, still showing an angry expression.

"When I left, there really was a lot that I didn't say to you. ”

"After that, take it slowly, don't rush. ”

"You're pretty good at getting yourself down, do you know what I'm trying to say?"

"Anything is good. ”

He didn't look up, he was half-kneeling, the water in his hair sliding down my legs, and it was so cold, even his hands.

I took a deep breath and said lightly, "Just now, when we first met, I saw you. ”

"What do you say, Zhao Yilun...... When I saw you, I didn't feel it at all. ”

His hand shook a little, and the towel fell to the floor, and he picked it up again as if nothing had happened.

Let me think about what else I can say to keep the distance between us. Say something......

I said those great truths that were even more despicable than lies, "You see, if I told you that I was afraid that you would dislike me, or directly said that you would have felt that I had you in my heart, but now I say that I see that you don't feel anything, it's not that I'm lying, it's really not feeling anymore, that is, I don't like you anymore." ”

As for whether Thaksin believed it or not, I don't know. Before he could hear what he could say, my brother came in, grabbed his clothes, and with anger in his eyes, he said unceremoniously and coldly, "Get out." ”

It wasn't until my brother slammed the door shut that I came back to my senses.

He wanted to scold me, but he held it back.

Dinner was also very stuffy, and he finally couldn't help it, and called my name, "Su Ke-"

Everyone at the table was frightened. My brother continued to hold the bowl as if he was fine: "Eat." ”

I remember when he came to see me at school, he told me that everything should be considered, at that time I was really lazy, I didn't want to delve into emotional things, I always felt that injecting thinking into it was something else, everything had changed, and it would be better to do whatever I wanted.

Then hopelessly, I have been lazy, I have not been able to think, I have not questioned, so, I saw Zhao Yilun and Lin Weisheng together, I was abandoned by my mother, and I was dragged to hell by beasts.

I excuse myself, it can't be all my fault, they have to do this to me, what can I do?

Blame all the faults on others, and live like a resentful woman, maybe I'll feel better.

"Don't let me see you let him in again, do you hear?" my brother warned me.

"Ah, it's raining again......"

"Did you hear me?"

“……”

It was already dark, and there was nothing to see outside except where the street lights could reach. I listened to the sound of the rain, which was hitting the ground. I don't think Zhao Yilun will be stupid enough to stand outside the door and wait for me, just like the first time I recognized my mother that day, she didn't wait for me when I went out with my umbrella.