Twelve years old is the age when you desperately want to grow up. I envy my neighbor's sisters who went to college, who can perm their hair, put on makeup, and wear all kinds of beautiful little dresses.

However, it's nice to be able to go to junior high school. At the very least, I was able to get rid of my identity as an elementary school student and act as an elder to the boys next door who were in the sixth grade.

We are just different, I am a junior high school student, and they are still in their early elementary school days.

When I stood at the admissions office of Tianhua Middle School to report to the office, I felt that everything was incredible. The school uniform, the elementary school's Shimizu somen suit, was changed to a sailor suit that covered the knees. Even the table is one for each person, and each person has their own small bookcase.

The voices of the boys in the past were very magnetic, and the voices of the seniors in the second and third years of junior high school were even lower. When the team shouts slogans in unison, they are less immature in the lower grades, and they can even distinguish the difference between the voices of boys and girls.

With curiosity about everything and a sense of superiority in going on to higher education, I began my junior high school life for three years.

There is a kind of person in this world who, because his life has been bleak, is prone to fantasize about only poetry and a distant future.

Fantasizing and fantasizing, gradually going against reality. Indulging in the beautiful future that you have woven for yourself, even if you are covered in bruises, you can still find a way to comfort yourself, at the very least, the future is worth looking forward to.

It wasn't until reality penetrated the fantasy that they discovered that in addition to poetry and distance, the future also existed in reality.

I belonged to one of those categories, and from that time on, I became a little bit more distant from my fantasy self. In the end, it became unbearable in Yan Jia's eyes.

In the first week after military training, because of his arrogant personality, he became best friends with Pei Ning, the best-looking girl in the class, and Yan Jia, the best girl in learning.

The so-called best friend is only defined by the thinking that should be at that age.

A best friend is someone who can wear the most beautiful clothes in addition to the school uniform. A best friend is someone who is happy even if he eats half of the cake he eats. The best friend is the person who waits for each other when he runs 800 meters, even if he is reduced to the bottom......

Best friend..... Just what I thought was my best friend.

We can share everything we like, but when faced with the other person's past that we can't understand, we choose not to understand, but to scoff at it.

Yan Jia didn't like to talk since she was a child, and Pei Ning and I were diametrically opposed personalities.

On that day, it was still a warm wind, and we stood on the empty playground, the light blue skirt slightly raised by the wind.

We talked about everything, from Tiannan Haibei to the handsome guy in the next class, and then from the popular TV series at that time to the latest flavor of bread in the supermarket.

The girl's thinking is very jumpy, and everything is so nonsensical.

We talked about family.

The first to speak was the taciturn Yan Jia. As for why it's so abnormal, she said we're best friends.

She began to talk about her mother.

I still remember that her face was filled with a smile that she had never seen before, and that smile revealed the youthfulness of a girl who had just entered puberty, and there was a hint of uneasiness in the youthfulness.

She said, "My mom is a madman. It is said that it was bought by my dad when I was young, and she didn't like my dad, but there was no way, my dad had already paid for it. My mom wanted to run away, but she gave birth to me. But she still wanted to escape. ”

"My dad dragged her back and broke one of her legs. And then, and then she went crazy. In my memory, it seems normal that I don't remember my mom that day, but she can't remember my name. She was only nice to me. ”

Her face was not shocked, Pei Ning and I were speechless in surprise, and the potato chips stuffed in our mouths fell to the ground with a clatter.

"That means you're the daughter of a madman, am I right?" Pei Ning simply threw the bag of potato chips in his hand on the runway.

The wind swept over, rolling up a faint smell of potato chips, salty, and astringent.

I also began to question her, "Have you been lying to us? Didn't you tell me on the first day of school that your mother was the one who brought you to report?"

My mom made an appointment with me to take me away, but she didn't show up once. So the way I understand it, I can't stand deception the most.

"Yan Jia, you are talking, Su Ke asked you, why did you lie to us?"

“...... No, me, that's ......"

She couldn't say anything.

The taste of potato chips on the playground is more astringent, and people who are astringent want to vomit.

We have been in a cold war for a month. A month later, her mother went crazy and found a school.

Pei Ning, who was sitting in the seat, sneered and said loudly: "Hey, I'll just say that paper can't hold the fire, Yan Jia doesn't even dare to recognize his mother." ”

The class was in an uproar.

The secret that Yan Jia tried his best to cover up was made public in this way.

She went into the office and was not sheltered by anyone.

I heard the representative of the English class who was counting the papers say that the teacher scolded Yan Jia to the point that it was nothing like a criticism meeting.

The reason was that her mother wailed in the corridor for ten minutes, disturbing students' classes, affecting the revision of the third year of junior high school, and dragging down the school's admission rate.

She came out crying, and behind her was her disheveled mother, giggling.

We all leaned over the window and watched, whispering from time to time.

"Go—I'll tell you to go!" she yelled at her mother, until she collapsed and trembled.

However, the woman obviously didn't understand her words, and she could only salivate and say, "Jia—buy you candy to eat, don't cry." ”

"Who's going to eat your candy!

"Why don't you go home!"

"Go—please, go, why do you have to be my .......?"

"Jia, eat sugar - eat sugar, don't cry. ”

She cried heartbreakingly.

At that moment, from the perspective of a bystander, we could not understand this person who was different from ourselves.

The boy behind Pei Ning and I came over to add fuel and vinegar, "Hey, Su Ke Pei Ning, didn't you and Yan Jia have a good time, why don't you go over and pull her?"

Pei Ning was dismissive, "Heh, pull her, she was shameless as a student representative last month and said that her mother is a teacher and teaches her how to do it." ”

The boy was silent and smiled dismissively.

Lies are the mask that can disguise our invulnerability, and under this mask, everyone can be perfect.

But once exposed, the price paid is not something that anyone can afford.

Man is sometimes a selfish creature to the core, and he can deceive others in order to become perfect, but no one wants to be deceived.

With such a contradictory and distorted psychology, I can only stay with Pei Ning.

We selfishly hate Yan Jia together.

In the end, it became unbearable in the eyes of ourselves and Yan Jia.