Chapter 8: Departure
A few days later, at noon, when I was having lunch at the unit, Qin Sheng suddenly came! I said, "You never come at noon?" He said, "Can you come out for a while, I have something to say to you."
I hurried out with him, and his face was not very good. I asked, "What's wrong with you?" He didn't come up with a clue for a long time. When I saw him like this, I was anxious for him. I said, "If you don't say anything more, I'll leave." So, he spoke.
He said: I am not a local, I joined the army after graduating from high school, and I have been in the army until now, almost ten years younger. However, my parents urged me to go home and get married, saying that the woman's family was in a hurry. He looked at me and continued: What should I do?
When I heard that, I felt a little stupid! I asked, "So you have a girlfriend?" and he said, "I had it before you," but I never decided on a relationship. If you say no, I'm determined not to go back.
I looked at him now, thinking about him before, and I suddenly had a feeling that I had been deceived? I said to him fiercely: I am not interested in other people's things, you can do whatever you want! I wish you happiness in advance!
He listened to me say this, nodded and turned away......
I was a little reluctant in my heart, but I didn't feel sad because he didn't belong to me.
How many men and women in the world pass by like this, and how many people will smile at you! But I am still a little sad, because it is not easy to meet in this life......
In the days that followed, I was a little depressed and talked a lot. The curator saw it, but he didn't say anything. He tried to keep his distance from me and didn't want to disturb me. I know it in my heart, and I understand it, and I am very grateful for his silent concern.
Within a few days, I asked the curator for leave. He was very worried, and said, "I can give you a fake, but you have to report to me every day, tell me where you are, tell me if you are okay, or I won't approve your leave!" I nodded and agreed to him.
In the past few days, I have been shopping, watching movies, and walking to bookstores. I talked to him on the phone every day and told him I was fine. On the last day of the holiday, I was reading a book at the book bar, when suddenly a person sat down across from me, and I smiled, it was the curator! I said, "Why are you here?" He said: I haven't seen you for the past few days, and I don't dare to disturb you, so I'm really worried! So I'm following you today! I looked at him and smiled that I hadn't seen in a few days. When he saw me smiling, he said, "If you laugh, I'll rest assured!"
I've got something to do, I've got to go! I'll pick you up from work tomorrow morning, and I'll see you tomorrow! I'll say goodbye to him!
Happy things, unhappy things, will always be replaced by time......
Early in the morning, the sun is shining. The chirping of birds and the peach blossoms on the trees, such a good scenery must have a good mood!
I went downstairs and saw that his car had just arrived, but there was already someone in my seat. I nodded and smiled, and sat down in the back. That person was none other than the woman who threw the cup. I was a little nervous, wondering what kind of relationship he had with her, but I didn't want to think about it, after all, it was between them, as long as it didn't concern me, so good.
The car was moving at the same speed as usual, but I put on my headphones and listened to the music, not paying attention to what was right and wrong. I didn't observe the look on his face, I didn't listen to what they were saying, I just thought I was on the bus. I closed my eyes, listened to the music, and enjoyed the sun and warm breeze.
Suddenly, a sudden brake interrupted my comfort! I couldn't make out what was happening in front of me, but when I saw their expressions, they must be arguing! I ignored it, and immediately got out of the car, telling myself that I don't want to see or listen......
After a while, he came and asked me to get in the car, and there was no woman in the car. He asked me to sit in the front, and I still chose to sit in the back. He said, "Why?" I said, "I just want to be in my place." He didn't force it, and I didn't ask much, as if nothing had happened.
Along the way, none of us spoke......
It's the same with a day's work, none of us pay attention to anyone. It's not that I don't want to talk to him, it's that I don't really know what to say.
In the evening, on the way to work. He opened his mouth and said to me, "Don't you want to know what happened in the morning?" Don't you want to ask me? I said, "If you want to say it, you will naturally say it, and you don't want to say that if I ask, you are also talking nonsense." When he heard this, he smiled......
The next morning, I went downstairs to buy breakfast. I saw a figure of a person who was familiar, the woman who threw the cup, but this time it was just herself. Did she come to me? I think so.
She smiled and said to me, "Do you have time?" I want to have a chat with you.
It was the first time she had spoken to me, and the first time she had been so polite to me. I said, "Of course, you can say it quickly, my family is still waiting for me to buy it and go back early."
She took a few steps back and forth in front of me, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Do you know my relationship with him?" I said, "You don't have to ask me?" you say yours, I listen to me, you are responsible for speaking, I am responsible for listening.
She continued: I have been with him for three years, and until you appear, he doesn't care about me anymore. I want to continue with him, but he only has you in his heart, and I don't know what to do, so I can only mess with him again and again. I plucked up the courage to come to you this time, and I wanted you to leave him? You should just pity me, okay? We've been here for three years, and I don't want to give up on him.
I said, "Are you going to tell me this?" If that's the case, then I'm going to buy breakfast. She continued: I really have no choice but to come to you! I said: I have never intervened in other people's feelings! I have not before, not now, and never will be. With that, I left.
I don't know why, I wasn't surprised or sad after listening to her words, maybe I had a rehearsal before (Qin Sheng). I was very calm in my heart, and I thought that this woman must really love him, otherwise she would not have come to me to talk about this.
I bought it early and went home, and I ate more than usual!
At 7 o'clock, I went downstairs on time and he came to pick it up on time. I still sat in the back and didn't look at him. He talked to me from time to time along the way, but I only used a word or two to deal with it.
He did not drive the car to the unit, but to the river. He got out of the car, and I didn't. He came up to me and said, "Come down, let's talk." With that, he opened my car door and I got out of the car.
He said, "Don't you have anything to ask me?" I said, "No, just say whatever you want!" You are responsible for speaking, and I am responsible for listening. He hesitated for a long time and still didn't say anything. I said, "If you can't say it, don't say it." I only have one sentence, I will not intervene in other people's feelings, if it is a mistake, I say sorry. After saying that, I turned around and went back to the car, and then he got into the car, and we were silent all the way......
In the days that followed, I began to distance myself from him. He didn't force me to do anything, and he still kept his distance from me, and the relationship between me and him gradually cooled down. This lasted for about two or three months, and I submitted my resignation letter to him.
He took the letter and asked me, "Why?" Why do you have to do this? I said, "It's so far from my house, it's so inconvenient." He said, "Don't you want to see me?" I said, "No, you're thinking too much!" He didn't say yes or no. Anyway, in the days that followed, I never came to work again.
My mom didn't say anything about me after I quit my job, she just asked me what I wanted to do next, and I told her that I wanted to stay at home for a while, review the materials, and prepare for the graduate school entrance examination. My mother said, "Don't you plan to go there again in the future?" I said, "I won't go there again unless there are special circumstances." Mom said: Your parents will support your decision. (I'm glad my parents understood me.) )
The days passed quickly, and more than a month passed in the blink of an eye. During this time, I was very calm, I didn't think about superfluous things or superfluous people, and I lived a leisurely life.
Originally, I thought that life should go on like this. But I didn't expect that one morning, such a peaceful time was broken again.
This morning, I went downstairs to buy breakfast as usual, but a familiar car and a familiar person appeared downstairs. No need to ask, of course he came for me.
I politely walked over and said, "Hello." He said, "No, can you accompany me today?" I said, "There is really no need for this." He said, "Just one day." I said, "I have to buy an early home for dinner, and you can wait if you want."
I really made him wait, and he was still there for more than two hours.
When I got in the car, I didn't say anything, just let him drive and didn't know where to go. I don't know how long it has been open, but there are green mountains in front of me. We got out of the car and sat down at the foot of the mountain, and everyone was silent for a while. Looking at the green mountains and breathing in the fresh air, I feel very good! I don't think too much about it, and I don't get tired.
He came up to me and said, "Do you miss me after all this time?" I said, "Occasionally, it's impossible not to want to." He said, "Why don't you come to me?" You have my phone number? I said, "Why do you need a phone call when you don't want it?" He said: You can really be so free? I said: Otherwise, I cry and cry every day, pestering you to make trouble, is that good? He said: I really wish you were like this, so that I can have a sense of existence. But you didn't come to me, I don't feel like I exist. I said: It's not that serious, you will have someone else by your side. He said, "Are you still angry with me?"
I said, "No, it's only a one-time encounter between me and you." Now that I know your situation, I should choose to leave! If I continue to be obsessed, then what am I? Is it a junior? or a junior? Then I will not be able to forgive myself......