"The operation some time ago was quite successful, and I only saw a message from Xiao Qi yesterday, she said that she hadn't seen her for a few years, when would we meet and everyone would get together, and asked me when I would be able to return to China and come back from the United States. There are very few friends who still have my contact information, and she is one of them. How can I see them when I am like this? I had to say that I had no time and could not return to China for the time being, so I put it off. ”

"Recently, I often see my mother crying secretly behind my back, and I also see my father often red-eyed, and my brother seems to have become a lot more lonely recently. I don't know exactly what's going on, but when I asked if anything had happened recently, they just said no. I don't know if the doctor told them something......"

"The girl who had been in love with her brother for a long time suddenly broke up with her brother. I heard my brother and mom talking at the door. Although I kept pretending to be asleep and didn't see them talking, I knew that my brother was crying, and I faintly heard his whispered crying. I knew that he loved her very much, and when I was with her before, he kept mentioning her to me, saying that she had all kinds of virtues, and that he would let me see her in the future. I met the girl who would have been my future sister-in-law, she was indeed very beautiful, and she was very good at talking and behaving, and she was ready to talk about marriage, but she broke up suddenly, and my brother must be very sad......

Their relationship has always been very good, why did they break up suddenly? Among them, is there a reason for me? Because of me, let their marriage be delayed again and again?

Brother, I'm sorry......

Although I said that I couldn't cry, the tears still fell involuntarily. Luckily, Mom fell asleep. Otherwise, she would have to worry again. ”

Xiao Qi said that a female classmate who had a good relationship before got married and gave birth to a pair of dragon and phoenix fetuses, which are particularly delicate and beautiful. She asked me why I didn't have children with my 'husband', and joked that once I had a child in the future, I would have to bring it back to China for her to see, and she would be my child's godmother. When she has a child in the future, maybe she can get married to a baby. Kids......"

Recently, my physical condition has been bad again, and I inexplicably remembered the song "Hairpin Phoenix" left in the pavilion when I went to my alma mater Chunhui High School when I was in college, and I remembered the love between Lu You and Tang Wan, I don't know why, I suddenly felt a little sad, a little sad, and a little lonely.

The world is thin, people are evil, and the rain sends dusk flowers to fall. The wind is clear, the tears are remnant, and I want to write my heart, leaning on the oblique column alone. Hard, hard, hard!

People are different, today is not yesterday, and the sick soul is often like a swing. The sound of the horn is cold, the night is dark, I am afraid of people asking questions, and I pretend to be happy with tears. Hide, hide, hide!

I don't know if anyone will see that song. Even if later generations see it, they will laugh at the predecessors who wrote this poem there for having a fault, right?"

"If I have time recently, I will still work hard to read some books, I have been reading Cao Xueqin's "Dream of Red Mansions" for the past two days, I have to say that the scene of Lin Daiyu's funeral flowers is really beautiful, looking at the funeral flowers she wrote, I can't help but feel sentimental.

Flowers and flowers are flying all over the sky, who has mercy on the red incense?

The gossamer is soft and fluttering, and the flocculent is lightly stained with the embroidery curtain.

Three hundred and sixty days a year, the wind, frost and sword are strictly pressing.

When can the bright and fresh beauty be, it is difficult to find it once adrift.

Flowers are easy to see and difficult to find, and the front of the steps is sad to bury the flower people.

Leaning on the flower hoe alone to secretly shed tears, sprinkling empty branches and seeing blood marks.

May the slave give birth to wings and fly with the flowers to the end of the sky.

At the end of the day, where is the incense hill?

If you don't collect the beautiful bones, you can cover the wind with a pinch of pure land.

The essence is clean and clean, which is better than dirt and ditches.

Now he died and was buried, and it is not known when he will be mourned.

Nong is burying flowers and laughing idiots, and he knows who it is when he buries Nong.

At the end of the day, where is the incense hill?

Try to see the remnants of spring flowers gradually falling, that is, when the red face dies of old age.

Once the spring is full of red and old, the flowers fall and people die without knowing. ”

"In the past few days, the whole person has lost a lot of weight. The doctor said that surgery might be necessary. When listening to the doctor's words, my mother still shed tears, although she endured it. Although Dad and Brother did not speak, they remained silent, but they could clearly feel the sadness that emanated from them and permeated the air.

If I could, I would have liked to have passed away from this world sooner, so that they would be less sad. I know they're overwhelmed. Say good to be optimistic, say good to be strong, but at this time in the middle of the night in this person, looking at the mother who fell asleep on the chair due to fatigue, tears still fell uncontrollably. She and her father are a lot haggard, and there are a lot of snow-white silver threads in the original black hair, as a daughter, I feel like a failure. ”

"Relatives have been coming to the hospital one after another, and I've never seen them run here so aggressively before, and they know that I'm dying?

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Is he okay......

Are you happy?"

"My condition has completely deteriorated, and I will have to have another operation tomorrow. Looking out the window, the stars are exceptionally bright today, and I wonder if I will have a chance to see such a brilliant starry sky.

If the surgery fails, it can be considered a complete relief. Laugh~

I suddenly wanted to write a lot of words.

Mom and Dad, if your daughter is gone, take good care of yourself. Over the years, although you have not said anything and have tried to be optimistic in front of me, I still know that when I am asleep, in places where I can't see, you don't know how many times you have cried. It is my daughter's unfilial piety that has made you worry about me so much over the years, and made you run around for me.

I am honored to be your daughter in this life, and you love me so much. If there is really reincarnation and reincarnation in this world, I hope that I will be able to be your daughter in the next life. to repay the kindness of birth and nurturing that cannot be repaid in this life.

Brother, if I'm not here, Mom and Dad will have to take care of you alone. Forgive my sister for being so selfish and left first. Actually, I don't want to leave either, I'm really reluctant to let you go.

Brother, I don't know if you broke up with that girl because of me, if yes, I'm sorry.

As you told me at the beginning, that girl is really good, and if you can, you might as well chase her back. The first time you brought her to see me that day, I could tell that she loved you very much.

I'm really glad she was able to be my sister-in-law and take care of you and mom and dad in the future. I believe she will be a good wife and daughter-in-law.

You used to ask me if I had someone I liked, and I remember that day I just smiled and then fell silent. Actually, I have someone I care about. It's just that we are doomed to be impossible, and I am destined to be with him and will only drag him down. We are doomed to be impossible.

In that case, I can only make him happy.

Now, I'm afraid he still hates me to the core......

However, it doesn't matter, hating me alone can make him completely let go of his feelings for me, and let him find a good girl to live happily again, then it is worth it.

My love is imperfect, and I can only make him happy. However, brother, I really hope that your love can be perfect, and a lover can eventually become a family.

Also, after I leave, I have to advise my parents not to be overly sad.

My body is gone, my soul, my heart is always by your side.

- Unfilial daughter, sister Akeliu"

Seeing this, Lin Bin was very sad, and his tears had already flowed down like a flood that had burst the embankment.

It turns out that tears can really go on endlessly......

"The operation was over, and although Mom and Dad didn't say it, I knew it had failed. When I fell asleep, I faintly heard a voice, and this voice was somewhat like you.

Is that you? You've been here?

No, it's better not to be you, I don't want you to see me what I am now, and I don't want you to be unhappy and unhappy because of me.

Don't be your ......"

This is her last words, and these words are no longer as beautiful as those before them, but crooked, like ghost drawings.

Obviously, these words were written when she was extremely weak, with her body trembling and trembling, using up all her last strength and burning her last fire of life.

Looking at the words she wrote with her life at the end, Lin Bin cried even more, and his heart hurt to the extreme.

"Why did God take you away so cruelly?" he said with great pain and sorrow.