"The world is thin, people are evil, and the rain sends the dusk flowers to fall. People are different, today is not yesterday, and the sick soul is often like a swing rope......"

"This handwriting is very much like her ......"

He muttered to himself, sadness in his eyes, tears in the corners of his eyes.

We lingered in the pavilion for a long time and rested for a while before leaving.

Subsequently, we left Chunhui High School, our hometown, which was full of youthful memories and childhood memories, and returned to Hangzhou, the city where I now work. The day after returning to Hangzhou, he returned to the city where he worked, and returned to the city that made him extremely sad.

And when he got home, he received two things.

These are two very special things.

These are two thick diaries.

This is her diary.

In these two thick diaries, many things about her over the years are recorded, which are secrets that can only be buried deep in her heart and cannot be told to others.

When she was alive, no one but her had seen the diary, and no one knew what was written in it.

Until her brother found it, turned one of the pages, and saw the words written inside.

"This is what she left behind, and I think I should show you. ”

Also when Lin Bin received the notebook, a text message was sent to his mobile phone.

When Lin Bin opened the first page of the diary, the familiar and beautiful handwriting came into view, and the corners of his eyes couldn't help but moisten again.

Then, he read it word by word very carefully.

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Elementary school years –

"Today, Lin Bin asked me to translate a few lines of poetry for him, but I didn't expect to suddenly say that he liked me very seriously, which made me very overwhelmed and scared. After telling the head teacher, the head teacher should punish him severely......

"In the last few days, I haven't seen him come to school. I heard that the head teacher asked him if he was wrong, but he has always been as stubborn as a cow and has always refused to admit his mistake. Eventually, the teacher called his father and mother to the school. I don't know what happened to him...... ( •̥́ ˍ •̀ू )”

Seven days passed, and he still didn't come......

The classmates in the class were talking about it in private. I asked his best friend about his recent situation today and went to the hospital after school to secretly see him.

I saw that he was limping when he walked, his leg seemed to be badly injured, it was very inconvenient to walk, and he needed someone to help him......

I hope his injuries will heal soon, pray pray~"

"He finally came to school, and he hadn't been here for half a month. I don't know if anyone will help him make up for the missing homework. Also, he still didn't have the slightest intention of repenting. This makes me really angry, why are we still obsessed because my legs are injured like that? We are still children, that's not what we should say to do!

Woo...... I said very cruel things to him today, I have never said such things before, I used to watch people on TV to say this and then copy it. Maybe he won't be obsessed anymore, right? Mom and Dad and the teacher said that now we have to study hard and study hard. Although his Chinese grades are good, he is also too poor in other subjects, and he still needs to work harder.

Not...... If I have such an attitude, I can make him study hard, study hard, and make progress, it will not be a bad thing. Come on, come on!

Hehe, of course, so do I, in order to get into a top university, I have to work harder! ╰(* ́)'*)╯

"I was very satisfied with the graduation exam of elementary school, and I boasted a little. (﹡ˆoˆ﹡)

It's just that I'm going to part with my friends who have been with me for six years, and I'm a little reluctant and sad.

Oh, by the way, it seems that he did well in the exam, and he has improved a lot. Well, it seems that the indifference that has always been working is still working. ”

High School –

"I just came to Chunhui today, and I vaguely saw a person who looked a little like him, is he? He was also admitted here? If it was really him, it would be good. Because this shows that he has really worked hard in the past three years. ”

"Some time ago, a strange and unfamiliar female classmate in the class suddenly took a letter and handed it to me, opened it, but found that there were several love poems written in it.

Legendary love letters?

He probably wrote it......

I have to say that his writing is getting better and better. It's just that I can't respond to him......

On the night of receiving the love letter, I suddenly had a high fever, and the fever did not go away for a long time, and the doctor said that there may be some problems with the body, and it is very likely that I have some kind of incurable disease. I think my father, mother, and brother must be very sad and sad in their hearts......

When I came back from the hospital with my brother in the morning, I happened to hear the female classmate who brought me the love letter call his name, and in the distance, I also saw a faint figure. He's coming to me, asking for my response.

You should see that my brother and I are a little close, so I wonder if my brother is my boyfriend, right?

But that's fine, because of this, it's good that he is completely dead......

Those words this afternoon should have made him very sad and despairing. It's the first time I've seen him cry, and it's still so painful. To tell the truth, seeing him crying in pain like that, my heart suddenly felt so uncomfortable, as if there was a knife that cut everything in half in half.

But, what's the solution? There's no way......

It's not that I don't like it, I just can't like it. It's not that you don't love, it's that you can't love.

My illness is likely to drag him down. Heaven has doomed us to be impossible......

Just let me be a ruthless person as always, and be a nasty fellow who is cold and indifferent and makes him hate him to the extreme. ”

"Although I have been paying attention to my body, my health has been getting worse and worse recently, and I have been to the hospital many times and have been checked many times. It's already affected the class a bit. No, no, you have to cheer up, and you have to work hard to make up for the lessons you have missed! Come on, you have to believe that you can do it!"

After graduating from high school –

"Although I didn't do well in the college entrance examination, I am still very happy to be able to go to university. It's really nice to be able to meet so many friends from all over the world. I heard that he did well in the exam and went to a very well-known and prestigious university. I don't know, in that university, will there be such a girl who makes him deeply like, and then spend the good time in college with him, and then get married and have children. If that's the case, silently wish him happiness with the one I haven't had a chance to meet in the distance. ”

"After successfully completing the university, the long-cherished wish of so many years can be regarded as a complete fulfillment. There is always a feeling of having no regrets in life. College is really wonderful. ”

"My health is not good again, I have to be hospitalized again, and this time I have to go to Hangzhou to see it. I don't want my friends to worry about me, I like to see them laugh. I don't want my own business to be known by him, and let all those years of hard work be in vain. In order to hide it from them, and for him to be happy, maybe he has to make up a reason......"

"The condition has deteriorated again, and I have to have surgery again. In the past few years, my parents have spent a lot of savings for me, although they didn't say anything on the surface, but I deeply understand that they have not been easy these years, and I know that they are very worried about me. My brother also postponed the marriage for me, I don't know if that girl will have an opinion. As a daughter, as a younger sister, I'm really sorry for them......

I can't cry, let alone cry in front of them......

I can't let them worry about me anymore, all the pain, all the sorrow, all the all, just let me bear it alone!

I've got to be strong, and I've got to try to smile no matter what. Well, a must smile ......"

Looking at it, two lines of tears immediately flowed from Lin Bin's moist eyes.

Through these words, he seemed to see a living her.

Reading the sentences composed of these beautiful words, one picture after another appeared in his mind, which was the scene when she wrote these words.

When writing the diary of the last few years, she must have been very painful in her heart, right?

As he thought, his heart couldn't help but grow more and more sad.