Reading the two diaries she left behind, for Lin Bin, it is undoubtedly like traveling through time and space, looking back on the days and years she once experienced. Those sorrows and pains, those joys and sorrows, all followed her words and formed one picture after another in his heart.

In these words, he can deeply feel the innocence, beauty and kindness of the girl, as well as the helplessness and loss revealed in them.

If he could, he wished he could be by her lonely and strong side, and accompany her to fight the disease together.

At the same time, he hated himself and hated why he only knew this now.

Once, he kept scolding her for being too stupid, once, he hated him to the core, once, he scolded her for cheating, once, he felt that she was the most ruthless and ruthless woman in the world.

However, these former thoughts, these impressions that he once thought he would never change about her, were now completely subverted in his heart.

Someone once said to him that when a person scolds you fiercely, it may not be that person's heart is better, and it does not necessarily mean that this person has completely lost his love for you, because scolding is also a way to express love. Just because, scolding, means that she cares about you and cares about you.

A long time ago, he always thought it was ridiculous.

Not long ago, he had always thought that even if this kind of thing really happened in this world, it would not happen to him. Except for his parents, he didn't believe that if someone beat him and scolded him one day, it would be for him to express love for him.

If it is really for his good, there are some things that can be said directly, and why do you have to use your hands or mouths?

Through these years of experience in this indifferent and unwarm society, he knows very well how selfish, self-interested, and hypocritical people in this society are, and most of them are just vanity and grievances.

Now, however, he felt that he was too stupid.

He didn't even know how to understand her suffering, he just blindly complained and hated her, but he didn't know how painful she was, how hard she was. She has her own hardships, and there are some things that she can't talk to outsiders about, and she can't talk to others.

After reading the two thick diaries in front of him, Lin Bin sat for a long, long time.

He had some enlightenment. But I don't know how to express what I think, feel, and think in my heart.

Suddenly, he remembered a poem by Xin Qiji, and felt that this poem was quite similar to his state of mind at this time.

Xin Qiji once wrote the word "Ugly Slave", and in this word, it said: The young man does not know the taste of sorrow and falls in love with the floor. Fall in love with the floor, and worry about the new words. Now I know the taste of sorrow, and I want to talk about it. I want to say that I will be resting, but I will say that the weather is cool and autumn!

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The drizzle is gentle, and the rain is slightly cold.

The gray sky is just like Lin Bin's mood at this time.

After resending her two diaries, he went to the cemetery where she was.

Of course, this address was also given to him by her brother.

In fact, her brother called him to her funeral and invited him to attend, but at that time, her death was too big a blow for him.

He couldn't bear to see the picture of her burial, he was afraid that he would have an emotional breakdown and completely lose control at that time, so he didn't go in the end.

At the same time, he didn't know how to deal with her parents.

Therefore, he did not come until now, to see her.

When he came to the stone monument of her cemetery, standing under the green pines and cypresses, his eyes suddenly moistened involuntarily.

The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place.

Ten years of life and death, without thinking, unforgettable. There are no words for each other, only a thousand tears.

There are some people, some things, he believes that he will never forget for the rest of his life, and he will never forget them for a lifetime.

Acacia is like the sea deep, and old things are like the sky. Thousands of teardrops are even more heartbreaking.

If you want to see without a cause, it will be difficult to end up. If there is no fate in the previous life, wait for the reunion and wish in the next life.

Caressing the stele, he wept emotionally, and after a long time, he spoke to her affectionately, and he said so many things to her.

At the same time, he also confessed to her again affectionately.

"I will live happily ever after, but at the same time, you will always be in my heart, and I will never forget you. After a pause, he continued, his voice low and flat, but full of determination. "I will try to make more people happy. ”

It's a simple eleven words, a simple sentence, but it's not simple.

Therein lies a kind of ambition.

In this world, human nature is actually selfish.

No matter whether something good or bad happens, the first thing everyone will think about, and everyone's first reaction is to take care of themselves first.

When good things happen, don't let the benefits you deserve fall into the hands of others, and you can't let yourself suffer. If something bad happens, don't let yourself get involved and get involved.

How many people think about others? worry about whether others have lost benefits, worry about whether others are in danger and in danger?

Therefore, it is easy to make one person happy, but it is not so simple to make more people happy. Among them, there is great love and great ambition!

He wants to start doing something that will bless others and make them happy.

Leukemia is a malignant tumor of the blood and hematopoietic system. According to the degree of differentiation of leukemia cells, it can be roughly divided into two categories: acute and chronic.

Acute leukemia has an acute onset, in which the bone marrow and peripheral blood are mainly blasts, and the onset is accompanied by mucosal and skin hemorrhage. If left untreated, patients often die within six months. Chronic leukemia, on the other hand, has a slow onset and is relatively insidious, and is basically asymptomatic in the early stage, and is often detected at a later stage when other serious diseases are examined.

In today's society, the situation of "poverty due to illness and return to poverty due to illness" is staged from time to time in real life. Due to the aging of the population, the progress and updating of medical technology and equipment, and other reasons, the medical expenses borne by residents are rising year by year, and the basic medical insurance is simply difficult to solve the heavy burden that the masses have to bear due to serious diseases.

Because of a serious illness, many families have become miserable.

He is ready to dedicate his part and do what he can for those patients and their families in need

Her death because of this disease was the pain of his life.

Therefore, he does not want to see more lovers who love each other separated from life and death, he does not want to see more parents send white-haired people to black-haired people because of it, or young children have lost their loved ones since they were young and cannot enjoy the care and love given by their loved ones.

Life is a suffering.

In this world, every minute and every second is staging joys and sorrows, love and hatred.

Life is a purgatory.

Dark, rotten, filthy, unbearable, as long as there are people.

But in the same way, where there are people, there is also the brilliance of human nature, the longing and yearning for truth, goodness and beauty.

Lin Bin wants to be one of the practitioners of truth, goodness and beauty, and bring a trace of warmth to the miserable people in the world as much as possible.

This, he believed, was what she would love to see.

Because, she is very gentle and kind.

In today's society, many people are selfish, including a lot of love now. Many of today's so-called loves are just products driven by profits. There is no selfless giving, selfless dedication. Some of them are just because of the loss of a little interest, and they make a big move, and even like fire and water.

Love knows no bounds.

He's not that great.

He's just an ordinary person who couldn't be more ordinary.

Therefore, in the future, he will never forget the girl who did not ask for anything in return for him and endured all the pain and sorrow alone.

She will always be the person he loves the most.

Not to think about it, but also unforgettable.