Han Lu seemed to think that I hadn't heard clearly, so she repeated: "I said, let's go and put incense sticks on her another day! Forget it, let's do it today, we all have time." ”

"No......" I suddenly felt a little puzzled, and then asked, "What do you mean by putting incense sticks on her?"

Han Lu was also stunned for a moment, looked at me expressionlessly, and asked in surprise, "You...... You don't know yet, do you?"

"I don't know what? What are you talking about? Chen Yi, what's wrong with her?" I asked three times in a row, and the whole atmosphere became tense.

Han Lu hurriedly shook his head again and said, "That's, that's nothing, I'm talking nonsense, I don't know what I'm talking about......"

Han Lu was obviously wrong, and at the same time, I also realized that something was wrong, so I immediately became serious and said, "You straightened your tongue and spoke, what the hell is going on? Chen Yi, what's wrong with her?"

"It's okay, Adong, you just don't say anything to me!"

"Tell me quickly, what's going on, Han Lu, you can't fool me, if you don't tell the truth, I'll jump out of the car right now!" I said, and I unbuckled my seat belt and made it look like I was going to jump out of the car.

"Oh hey, don't be impulsive, I say, I say ......."

After Han Lu pulled over the car, she took out her cigarette and lit it before she sighed and said, "You don't know, it seems that she didn't tell you, I thought you knew, so I didn't tell you......"

In fact, at this time, I already realized the seriousness of the problem, and he said to put incense on Chen Yi, isn't it obvious?

But I can't believe it, how can Chen Yi be so good......

In silence, Han Lu took two puffs of cigarette and continued: "Chen Yi passed away three years ago, it's a pity, it's a pity!"

After hearing the news, I was not very excited, but was unusually calm, and after being silent for a long time, I said lightly: "Brother Lu, this kind of thing can't be joked. ”

Han Lu sighed heavily, patted me on the shoulder, and said earnestly, "Adong, I'm not joking, it's all true. ”

"No...... You're lying to me, impossible, absolutely impossible!" I couldn't accept this fact and shook my head desperately in denial.

Han Lu also looked very sad, and sighed again and said, "Ah Dong, I know that Chen Yi's matter will definitely deal a big blow to you, but you must be good, and you must not be impulsive!"

To be honest, it's hard to calm down, although I'm very Chen Yi has no relationship, but I can't accept the fact that she has left this world, I can't accept that a woman who used to have an inextricable relationship with me has left this world, I can no longer hear her voice, I can no longer see her smile, and there will never be any news from her......

I suddenly remembered something, and turned to Han Lu for confirmation: "You tell me, when I saw you and Chen Yi together in the hotel in Kyoto three years ago, did you deliberately do it for me?"

Han Lu didn't deny it, he nodded, and said in a deep voice: "Ah Dong, I wanted to explain this to you a long time ago, but you didn't give me a chance, and you always held a grudge against me at that time. ”

I remembered that when Han Lu first came back from Kyoto, we had a class reunion, and after the class reunion, he asked me out, saying that he had something to say to me, but at that time I always hated him and didn't give him a chance to speak.

Thinking of this, I slapped myself heavily, because I regretted it so much, why did I target Han Lu so much at that time, why I couldn't listen to him.

When I was about to pump myself for the second time, Han Lu finally made a stop, he grabbed my hand hard, and said urgently: "Adong, you calm down, don't be like this, don't be impulsive......"

I tried to calm down, but I couldn't calm down, I clenched my teeth, and my voice almost came from between my teeth: "So, you knew it when you were in Kyoto, didn't you? But why didn't you tell me at that time?"

Han Lu patiently explained: "Adong, in fact, I only found out that day, that day Chen Yi made an appointment and said that you were also there, and wanted to invite me to dinner, but she was the only one who went there, and then she told me all this, and she asked me to help her play this scene, otherwise I would jump off the windowsill...... Adong, I really can't help it! Chen Yi ...... She loves you, and she is afraid that you will be sad and sad when she learns about it, so she uses this way to let you leave her. ”

I really didn't expect things to turn out like this, and I can't imagine how sad Chen Yi must have been after I turned around and left that day, why was she so stupid, why did she have to face all this alone?

Seeing that I wasn't talking anymore, Han Lu tentatively let go of my hand, and then patted me on the shoulder again to show comfort: "Adong, you relax, Chen Yi just doesn't want you to be sad when she does this, but if you are like this, she will not be happy if she sees it in the sky." ”

"What caused her death?" I asked, expressionless, lifeless.

"Carcinoma, lymphoma is advanced. ”

I wondered, "Why is it late? Why didn't I know it in the early days?"

Han Lu sighed and said, "We don't know, maybe she hid it from everyone, at that time, she found out that she should have gone for treatment at the beginning, she told me, and she gave up in order to save money." ”

"To save money?!"

Han Lu nodded, and said, "This is what she said, at that time, you all just came out of school, and you didn't have any money, and she didn't pay much attention to it at that time...... And then there's her family, you know, she's a combination family, and she has a half-brother, and that brother seems to have just been admitted to college, and she sent the money home. ”

I remembered it, I remembered it all, Chen Yi was really frugal at that time, she didn't let me buy her more than a hundred yuan, and most of my money was sent home, I was quite uncomfortable at the time, but I never thought that she was going to school for her younger brother.

In this way, Chen Yi has never had a good time in her life, she is always like this, she always doesn't like to trouble others, she always resists everything alone, she is too kind, a little too kind.

I couldn't control it anymore, my nose suddenly became sore, and tears flowed out, and I couldn't stop it.

Han Lu didn't comfort me anymore, he only said, "Let's cry, let's cry, let's vent!"

It was really hard for me to accept this fact, and I suddenly felt in a trance, and it felt like it was all like an unreal dream!

I remember when I was in Kyoto, Chen Yi and I rented a basement for 500 yuan a month, and how happy we were at that time!

In the single room, which could only accommodate one bed, we always had a bowl of noodles for two people, and we had a great time.

We always look forward to a better life, she said: "Adong, we must buy a big house in the future, I want a very spacious balcony, I want to plant rhododendrons on it." Every morning I wake up and I can smell the flowers when I open the curtains......"

Yes, she especially loves azaleas.

She still has a dream, although she is a graphic model, but her dream is to be a mountain village teacher.

Yes, she told me that her father was an excellent village teacher, and when she was very young, her father was killed trying to save a student who was trapped halfway up the mountain when her father was on his way home to send his children home.

She was as kind as her father, why didn't I think of it? Why am I so stupid?

Why would I believe that she was with my best buddy?

The more I thought about it, the more I hated myself, and the more I thought about it, the more I blamed myself, so much so that I couldn't stop crying......