Chapter 38: I'm Sorry
"I remembered, I remembered, I remembered all the things I had forgotten, I remembered everything"
Yang Shuting burst into tears, raised her head, and looked at Qiu Yuhong, a mature professional woman wearing glasses in front of her, as if she had returned to her high school days in her eyes.
Qiu Yuhong became the bullied girl in front of her again.
Yang Shuting and Qiu Yuyun are friends, not only because Qiu Yuyun is good at studying, but also because of Qiu Yuyun's temperament.
She likes the feeling of being with Qiu Yuyun, she is empathetic, this is a friendship between girls.
Yang Shuwen has also thought many times that although Qiu Yuyun will be bullied, she will definitely protect Qiu Yuyun, she will go to the teacher to teach those bad students a lesson, and she will become the best friend with Qiu Yuyun
For Yang Shuwen, she sincerely wants to be friends with Qiu Yuyun.
She did the same
She felt that being with Qiu Yuyun was more meaningful than talking about things that were not nutritious with other classmates.
But Yang Shuwen never thought that she would be more cowardly than she imagined.
Yang Shuwen knew that Qiu Yuyun was being bullied by bad students, but she was not afraid, she thought that she could protect Qiu Yuyun, as long as she told the teacher and told the parents, she could stop these bad students, so that they would no longer bully Qiu Yuyun, and she could also help Qiu Yuyun.
But when she really faced the three bad students, Yang Shuwen was scared, she was really scared.
She has never been bullied, and she doesn't know the sense of powerlessness and fear that the bullied person feels when facing bullying.
Many times she will think, why don't you resist when you are bullied?
As long as you resist, then others will not bully you again.
But this is easy to say, but it is even more difficult to do.
You can't bear the feeling of being bullied all the time every day, there is a way that only a thousand miles to catch thieves and no thousands of miles to prevent thieves.
Especially when you tell the teacher and tell the parents, you get only a so-called punishment that is not light or severe.
And she also has to face more revenge, fear and fear impact in Yang Shuwen's mind, she never thought that she would become the kind of person she has always hated.
But she was really scared.
She was really timid
When she confessed Qiu Yuyun's location, what Yang Shuwen insisted on in her heart was shattered
She couldn't believe it, or she couldn't bear it at all, that she would become the one who betrayed her best friend, the one who betrayed her best friend!
This psychological burden and guilt weighed down in his mind
When Qiu Yuyun completely disappeared the next day because of the transfer of schools, this burden and guilt became even heavier, and it followed Yang Shuwen like a shadow, pressing Yang Shuwen out of breath.
Until she completely forgot about this Qiu Yuyun.
And subconsciously, it all became a nightmare that could never be forbidden.
Today the nightmare woke up.
Yang Shuwen looked at Qiu Yuyun in front of her with tears flowing, the nightmare that had been suppressed in her heart for decades and the recovery of her memory.
With it comes a tsunami-like sense of guilt.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I'm really sorry, Qiu Yuyun is sorry, I'm really sorry"
"It's me who is too cowardly, I am really too cowardly"
Yang Shuwen cried hysterically, and tears poured out like a flood.
It was the biggest secret hidden deep in her heart, and with the revival of memories, the guilt, the indelible pain swept over.
I see.
Although Cheng Yiping didn't know very well, looking at Yang Shuting crying in front of him, he seemed to have some understanding.
As people say, if it doesn't happen to you, you won't understand the pain of the person in question at all.
Maybe Yang Shuwen really wants to be good friends with Qiu Yuyun and become best friends.
But when danger really comes, how many people can really get along with each other?
Can we really move forward together?
It is always human instinct to drive away evil and avoid evil.
This can't be said to be Yang Shuwen's fault, she was also protecting herself at that time.
It's just that it is undeniable that her every move did bring indelible pain to Qiu Yuyun.
Perhaps for Qiu Yuyun, being bullied by a bad girl is far less scarred by being betrayed by her most trusted best friend.
This is what people say is that the closest person is often the one who hurts the most.
Qiu Yuhong stood up straight, looked at Yang Shuwen who fell to the ground, her face was unusually complicated, she started slowly, closed the door of the office, and closed the blinds at the same time, making the entire office a closed place.
Then he turned around and came to Yang Shuwen's side.
Are you going to fight? Are you going to give a slap?
Cheng Yiping's heart moved, unconsciously moving his steps, if Qiu Yuyun really started beating Yang Shuwen, then should he stop it or should he pretend not to see it?
Cheng Yiping had some hesitation, after all, if it was him, he would definitely fight when he met someone who betrayed him before, and he was the one who hurt him the most.
After all, some things are not so easy to forgive.
But to Cheng Yiping's surprise, Qiu Yuhong didn't make a move, but pulled Yang Shuwen up, pressed her to the seat, raised her head, and her eyes were flowing with crystal tears, and said word by word
"I didn't blame you, I didn't blame you from beginning to end, I was sorry for you"
"If I really want to say forgiveness, it should be that I ask for your forgiveness. ”
What does that mean?
What exactly is this routine and development?
Cheng Yiping's eyes widened, the conscience of heaven and earth, he really didn't think that the development of things would turn out like this.
According to Qiu Yang Shuwen's recollection of memories, it should not be that Qiu Yuyun was bullied by the bad students on campus when he was on campus, and finally escaped to the utility room in the backyard.
And Yang Shuwen ran to the teacher for help, but met a bad girl on the way, and confessed Qiu Yuyun's hiding place in order to protect herself.
According to the usual plot development, Qiu Yuyun should hate Yang Shuwen to the core, why should he pray for Yang Shuwen's forgiveness instead?
And said that she was never blamed?
What the hell is going on?
Not only did Cheng Yiping feel strange, but Yang Shuting, who cried bitterly and recovered her memory, was also calmed by Qiu Yuhong's words.
Raising his head, tears streaming down his face, he spoke
"Don't comfort me, don't comfort me, Qiu Yuyun You should hate me, you should hate me, it's all my fault, if I wasn't too cowardly, if I wasn't too scared, if I didn't betray you, you wouldn't have been forced to transfer schools, and you wouldn't have been found by them, all of this is my fault, it's all my fault. ”