December 2, 2002 Cloudy and clear

The school didn't seem to know about the fight we had before, and the leader of Class 6 didn't tell the teacher, and everyone in Class 6 seemed to have smashed it and swallowed it in their stomachs.

Although this has put my worries down for the past few days, I also feel a little unworthy for them.

It is this kind of connivance that created the birth of the school bully, and inaction in the face of injustice is always the biggest mistake.

But I also did nothing, and even became an accomplice.

Chongshu said, this world is like this, if you don't be cruel to others, you are cruel to yourself.

I don't know, I just see myself when I see the people in Class 6 clenching their fists but not daring to make a sound.

I am also weak, and it can be said that everyone is weak. The difference is that some people choose to vent, while the other part, and the vast majority of people, choose to forbear.

Stop thinking about the unhappy things, think about the happy things.

For example, Shen Sijia was asked in class today, and the answer was stumbling, and the Chinese teacher said that she didn't know what to do.

This is quite pleasant, I used to be ridiculed by her for being timid as a mouse when answering questions in class, but today I look at her, haha, I feel super cool.

After class, I deliberately ran to her and said, I don't know what to do.

As a result, she chased and beat her all afternoon.

December 6, 2002 Sunny

The sun in December is not as fierce as before, and the sun is no longer unbearable, warm and comfortable.

Today's heart is also warm.

Zhen Songni spoke to me for the first time.

I haven't had any verbal communication with her since I entered school.

Before writing to her, I only made eye contact with her. And after that, I kept running away from her. Don't look at her anymore, and try not to think about her anymore.

But at the end of class today, I was busy copying the physics homework of my deskmate, but I heard her say,

Li Muyang, it's time to hand in your math homework.

I didn't look up, but I knew who it was.

The first time she called my name, her voice was sweet.

Even though I hadn't spoken to her, her voice was so familiar to my ears. Her smile when she is happy, her sigh when she is depressed, and even her every breath I take can make me feel that it is her.

I didn't dare to look up, or even breathe.

I haven't done it yet...... I say.

Then I'll wait for you. She said.

She said she was going to wait for me, but my heart was like a honey jar had exploded, and my heart was about to stop beating!

When she looked up again, she had already left and returned to her seat.

Physics homework back to you, get the math homework, hurry up! I yelled at my desk.

Zhen Songni only took over as the representative of the math class this week, and it was her task to collect all the homework in the class.

Although I had already decided to cut ties with mathematics, I now seem to have the urge to reconcile with it.

You two are really enemies. You're terrible at math, but she's the representative of the math class, hey, fate. Chongshu said.

December 7, 2002 Sunny to cloudy

I'm still reminiscing about Zhen Songni's sentence "I'm waiting for you" yesterday.

Haha, I don't know why, today I just keep laughing, and I keep laughing when I think about it.

Takaki said that my jaw was about to drop to the ground, and I couldn't close it all the time.

I said what to be afraid of, if I lived like that every day, I would rather be like this all the time.

He won't understand me, he didn't catch up with Liu Chuanfeng's sister, he seems to have lost interest in girls. followed Liu Chuanfeng all day long, and threw himself into his gang career.

But seeing my attachment to Zhen Songni, he seemed to feel something.

He asked me, are you quite familiar with Shen Sijia, right?

What is familiar, Lao Tzu had a grudge against her in his last life, what?

He said, "What do you think I chased her?"

Haha, I laughed out loud.

Are you sure you're going after that man?

He said, people are very beautiful, where is the man's wife?

Originally, Chongshu was right, Shen Sijia didn't look like a man. But her personality is too much like a man, and such a woman really can't stand it.

I think she likes you a lot, Takaki said.

Like me? She wished I was dead, I said.

I think she's pretty good, Takaki said.

I turned to him and said, okay, don't think about it, that woman is crazy.

I think you're a lunatic too, he said.

9 December 2002 Cloudy

The high school football league has finally come to an end.

Living up to expectations, Class 4 won the first league championship.

Except for the life-and-death battle with Class 8, the rest of the games were all big wins.

In order to celebrate the team's victory, Liu Chuanfeng held a banquet outside the school to invite all the little brothers who supported him.

Naturally, Chongshu and I are among them.

Actually, I don't support him.

What the hell he plays, cut, if I play, he won't be enough for me to see.

But thinking so in his heart, he shouted like everyone else, "Brother Feng is mighty!"

Chongshu shouted especially loudly, and he was so happy that Liu Chuanfeng toasted him three times in a row.

Not surprisingly, Chongshu fell again.

Lao Tzu had to help him back to the dormitory again.

Back in the dormitory, lying in bed, Takaki suddenly said to me,

Let's form a team next time.

I looked at him with some surprise, wouldn't you?

I can't learn?" he said.

What's wrong? Get drunk, you. I say.

Lao Tzu also wants to have a good time. Chongshu said, with a serious face.

13 December 2002 Heavy rain

It's raining and it's cold.

Chongshu replied that he wanted to learn to play football with me, and he also pulled several classmates in the class who used to play basketball.

When it didn't rain a few days ago, this guy was really aggressive and kicked with me.

I'm happy for them to learn, so that finally someone can play with me.

If it hadn't rained today, I would have asked three classes of people to come to a friendly match, but unfortunately it was too rainy.

The reason for choosing Class 3 is because they are weak enough.

It's so hard for our team to win.

Everyone couldn't even figure out where they were, and they all day long around me asking what was offside, what is the difference between a penalty kick and a free kick, why is it 11 men and not 10 and not 12?

To be honest, I was able to barely answer except for the last question.

I don't know why football is 11 people.

But I heard that the origin of football is Keju in China, and I think it's because the person who invented the sport is an old bachelor. So he drew those who loved him on a ball, and then found 11 people to kick them away to vent his inner anguish.

But Chongshu said that 11 is an Arabic numeral, and the Chinese would not use it when they invented Keju.

He said that this was my own imagination in the heart of an old bachelor.

I guess.

Otherwise, why doesn't she even talk to me these days?

December 18, 2002 Light rain

It's been raining for the past few days, and there's nowhere to go for practice.

It's depressing to have no ball to kick, but what's even more depressing is that Zhen Songni has stopped talking to me.

Every time she collected my homework, she asked me to collect it at the same table, and she didn't even approach my desk.

Last time I wrote such a sensual letter to her, I was never treated like this by her, why is it like this now?

Chongshu said that this is the mentality of a slut.

If she keeps ignoring you, you don't think it's a big deal. But as long as she treats you nicely and ignores you later, you'll be like eating.

Is it?

I don't know, I just know that now my mouth stinks, it really feels like I've eaten.

The change in attitude towards me in between shows what happened.

What the hell is going on?

December 23, 2002 Cloudy

Chongshu is causing trouble again.

But this time it's not his fault.

It turns out that one of his brothers in junior high school had been beaten up, and even though they hadn't had much contact since the last disciplinary incident, Takaki decided to stand up for him.

I don't know if it was because of my influence, but instead of going to someone to fight, he asked that person to apologize to his brother.

But the other party's attitude was very tough, not only did he not apologize, but he also beat Chongshu.

Chongshu didn't say anything this time, and Liu Chuanfeng stopped first.

No one in this school dared to bully Lao Tzu Liu Chuanfeng's brother!

Since Chongshu has a yellow card on his body, if he is caught fighting again, he will definitely be expelled. In order to prevent him from being expelled, Liu Chuanfeng resolutely refused to let him participate in this operation.

So Liu Chuanfeng took Zou Long, me and a little brother to the second class and taught the guy who beat people a lesson.

It's the first time I've hit someone so hard, I don't know why, I think of the dark green on Chongshu's face, I can't get angry, and punch that person a few times.

Just like last time, Liu Chuanfeng's incident will not be discovered by the school.

Chongshu is also famous, and there is a legend among his classmates in the first year of high school. The guy in Class 9 is the brother of Liu Chuanfeng, the boss of the first year of high school. In order to help him get ahead, Liu Chuanfeng brought more than 100 people to call him back.

I swear, there are absolutely not more than a hundred.

But fifty is there.

December 24, 2002 Cloudy

Yesterday's fight was known to Shen Sijia.

To my surprise, she didn't taunt me this time, and she didn't choose to tell the teacher.

I don't know why, Shen Sijia seems to be in a very low mood recently.

Today she told me that it was Christmas Eve, so why don't you give me an apple?

How about I give you a durian on your head?" I asked her with a smile.

But suddenly, so suddenly, she cried.

This time she no longer cried wolf howls, and unexpectedly, her tears fell.

I panicked.

To be honest, this is the first time I've made a girl cry.

Although the other party is Shen Sijia, that little girl I wish she was living in pain every day.

But it was precisely because she cried that Zhen Songni actually spoke to me for the second time.

You bastard, why did you make her cry?

She almost roared.

I'm at a loss......

Looking at Shen Sijia who was dripping down tears, and then at Zhen Songni who was yelling at me, I really felt that the world was suddenly all against me.

I hurriedly said sorry to Shen Sijia for the first time.

But at that time, she had been helped up by Zhen Songni and stepped aside.

It turns out that every girl is the same, although it is your enemy, but when she is really sad and crying, you will be overwhelmed and feel congested.

December 26, 2002 Sunny

Yesterday's Christmas was not very pleasant.

And the atmosphere today is hardly pleasant for me.

Zhen Songni spoke to me for the third time, but the content of the conversation surprised me.

She said, Shen Sijia likes you, do you know?

Of course I don't know!

Doesn't she fight against me all day long, wishing she could see me die? It's Christmas, not April Fool's Day, do you want to play such a big joke on me?

But Zhen Songni's expression told me that she wasn't joking with me.

Yes, she and I are just classmates, classmates who have spoken to each other a few times.

It's definitely a joy to have someone like it. No matter who the other party is, whether she is ugly or beautiful, she always likes you, which makes people feel inexplicably satisfied. What's more, in addition to her almost temper, Shen Sijia is also a beauty.

But what makes me hard to be happy is that the person who likes me is Shen Sijia, who has always been messy with me, and the person who told me about it is Zhen Songni, who I have always liked.

Compared with the overwhelm when I cried Shen Sijia the day before yesterday, my mind is even more blank today.

What do you want me to do? I asked Zhen Songni like this.

Her answer was also extremely simple, and it was good for her.

I actually want to say, but I like you.

But I couldn't say it after all.

Because what I wanted to say to her was in that letter, which cost me so much thought.

But that letter has long since sunk into the sea, and there is nothing......