Eleven stood in the doorway, her face flustered for a moment, and then she slowly opened her lips, her voice calm.

"Why are you here?"

"Why were you so polite to me just now?" Shen Nanyan stared at her with a pair of starry eyes.

Eleven's hand hidden in his clothes was secretly tightened, but his face was silent.

"I'm sorry, I was thinking about things and didn't pay attention to your face. ”

"Really?"

Eleven tugged at the corners of his lips: "Of course, could it be other reasons?"

Shen Nanyan looked at her, relative to a few seconds, he said, "You have lost weight." ”

Eleven chuckled, "Skinny?" I think it's just right. ”

Shen Nanyan's inky eyes were deep: "Don't you invite me to sit down?"

"Do you want to sit? There's a bit of chaos at home. She said quietly.

"Eleven, we've been apart for so long, I'm coming to see you, aren't you even willing to invite me in and sit down?"

"It's not that you don't want to, since you're here, come in. ”

Eleven gave up space.

Also, she shouldn't be so mindful, she cares too much, but it looks like nothing is right.

Shen Nanyan walked in, and Eleven followed behind.

Disorderly?

Shen Nanyan looked at the room in front of him, there was not too much furniture, and there were not many things.

But clean and tidy, where is the mess she said.

Thinking of this, Shen Nanyan turned around to look at the person behind him.

But Eleven has always kept a long distance from him.

He looked back, and she just laughed.

No, it's not that he's smiling because he's looking back, it's that she's smiling all the time.

From the moment he appeared, she had been smiling until now, and the smile on her face was extraordinarily quiet.

It seems that no matter who appears here, she has this look.

Because of this discovery, the expression on Shen Nanyan's face froze for a moment.

On the sofa, Shen Nanyan sat down for a long time, and Eleven slowly walked over.

She whispered, "Why did you suddenly come to the Hidden Kingdom?"

Shen Nanyan wanted to say, don't you welcome me when I come?

But thinking of the scene at the door just now, she obviously didn't welcome him.

To say anything more, it's just fearless self-inflicted harm.

"I'm coming for you. ”

Eleven stood on the edge of the sofa, and opened his mouth slightly because of Shen Nanyan's words: "Yes, I'm very grateful, thank you for remembering me and coming to see me like this." ”

She was polite and polite one sentence at a time, but Shen Nanyan felt extremely awkward and strange.

"Eleven, I think we need to talk about it. ”

With this sentence again, Eleven smiled unabated: "Is there anything else we need to talk about between us?"

"Yes, we need to talk a lot. ”

"Really? You say, I listened slowly. ”

As she spoke, she slowly moved to the single sofa and sat down.

With his hands in front of him, he looks like he is well-behaved.

"Eleven, it's been more than six months since you came to the Hidden Kingdom, and we've only seen each other twice, and I've spent the past six months thinking about a lot of things. ”

"Hmm. ”

Her attitude was not enthusiastic, although it was indifferent in her daily life, Shen Nanyan still frowned.

"Don't you want to know what I've figured out?"

"Does it matter whether I want to or not?"

"Yes. ”

She chuckled, but didn't say a word.

Shen Nanyan still opened her mouth in such a wordless silence.

"After five months of separation, many people have asked me what kind of feeling it is, I don't say anyone, but secretly I know that there are not as many days and nights as yours, and I also try to make my life the same as usual, I go to work on time and leave work on time, but I often feel empty and bored. I even think about you a lot of the time, I think about what you're doing, if you've eaten with other men, if you're on dates, and I'm going to think, do you think of me in the dead of night?"

Shen Nanyan rarely said so many words, Eleven heard it in his ears, his heart was slightly surprised, and his face was really impassive: "We have lived together so much, you sometimes think that I belong to a normal phenomenon." ”

She explains.

Shen Nanyan didn't know if there was a problem with his expression, or if Eleven didn't understand.

He was silent for a moment, trying to say it in a more gentle way.

"Although it is not my wish to marry you, I did say at that time that I would not love you, but I would be good to you, but after a year of marriage, many large and small details in the past, you will shock me every time, you ask me if I love you, I have not given you any answer, maybe you are going to divorce me because of this, after the divorce, I have been thinking, what is the difference between love and not love, we have known each other for so many years, from the time your parents left, I decided that you are my responsibility. I've always thought like this, until you firmly want to divorce me, no matter what I say, you won't regret it, I began to know that love is a must for you, and I was also thinking, what is love, I have been away for so long, I have made countless attempts, eleven, I now get the answer. ”

Eleven didn't speak.

Shen Nanyan's burning gaze kept locking on her face: "Now I'm finally starting to understand, Eleven, I love you." I didn't say it before, because I didn't know what love was, and even later, I didn't know it when I loved you, missing you, divorcing you, right and wrong, but now, I really understand, eleven, what I love is you, not the identity of Shen Nanyan's wife, let alone the established fiancée agreed upon by my grandfather. ”

Eleven lowered her head, Shen Nanyan said so much, she basically didn't open her lips.

At the beginning, Shen Nanyan didn't have much apprehension, but under her silence, his heart began to be uncertain.

He expressed his mind so bluntly, but as for her, her expression didn't change much from the beginning, and she didn't interrupt him, but this reaction was not normal.

"So, Eleven, do we have a future?"

Shen Nanyan said this carefully, he said it so affectionately, his face was calm, but his heart was turbulent.

She lowered her head and didn't say anything, but she knew that Shen Nanyan was waiting for her response.

"Nanyan, we have known each other for many years. ”

"It's been nine years since I saved you from the fire. ”、

"Yes, nine years. I used to think that it was so difficult to give up for nine years, but then I realized that the hardest thing was not to give up, but to have a deep relationship between us. ”

"But now I say I love you. ”

Nanyan. She still called his name, her voice soft and unwavering.

"I'm not afraid that you don't love me, but I'm afraid that you think you love me. ”

He stiffened and stared fixedly at the top of her head, "What do you mean?"

"We don't have a future. She said she didn't look up at him the whole time.

Shen Nanyan's heart was slightly cold, and there was a hint of bitterness on his face.

"So you still don't believe I love you?"

"It doesn't matter whether you believe it or not, now that we have come to this point, we have also divorced, many things are actually in the previous stage, since it is the previous stage, then there is no need to say anything else. ”

She rarely spoke aggressively, and in the past, Shen Nanyan only thought that she was quiet, gentle and easy to speak.

Now I understand that this is the way she speaks, gentle but invisibly hurtful.

Just like this moment.

"Eleven, I didn't understand it before, it was I who ignored your feelings, didn't you even want to give me such a chance?"

"Maybe I should say sorry to you. ”

"I'm sorry, I, Shen Nanyan, have come here from Jiangcheng thousands of miles away, is it just for you to say sorry?"

She pursed her lips and didn't speak.

Shen Nanyan couldn't stand such silence, he suddenly stepped forward and grabbed her hand.

"Eleven, we can do it, right, I admit I ......"

"Okay, Nanyan. ”

Before Shen Nanyan's words could be finished, he was interrupted by Eleven faintly.

"It's no longer possible for us, and I'm grateful that you're thinking of me now, but it's not that people always have to look forward. She looked into his eyes, and her gaze seemed to penetrate him to see something else.

"In the past, I thought love was a necessity, and I also hoped that you would love me, but then slowly, I found out that love is not, there are other things in life, and wasting all my time on the so-called love will only make me make you miserable. ”

Shen Nanyan's eyes were calm, and he was as secretive as he was.

After a long time, he finally let go of her hand, and it was at this time that Eleven realized that his hand was trembling weakly.

Because of this discovery, Eleven unconsciously closed his eyes.

"Okay, I still lost you by myself, since you have decided so, everything I say is miserable and powerless, probably in your heart you still hate me. ”

Shen Nanyan's voice came into his ears, and Eleven remained silent.

Hate?

How so.

She loved him so much, how could she be willing to hate him.

……

When did Shen Nanyan leave, Eleven has no idea.

It was probably when she was groggy because of the effects of the drug.

When I woke up on the couch, there was no one in the living room.

Shen Nanyan had already left, but she had another blanket on her.

It was probably laid for her by Shen Nanyan before leaving.

There was a missed call on the phone, and Eleven glanced at it.

It was Dr. Lo, who was in charge of her condition.

Sitting up from the couch, Eleven dialed the doctor's phone in a moment of silence.

"Miss Ye, today is the day of your re-examination, I called to ask, why didn't you come to the hospital?"

Dr. Luo is a Chinese doctor who has been in the country for many years.

"Sorry, Dr. Luo, I still have something to do today, so I didn't go to the hospital. ”

"Can you come tomorrow?"

Eleven paused, a little inexplicably tired.

"I don't want to go to the hospital tomorrow, can I wait?"

"Whether to wait or whatever, it is Miss Ye's own will. But there is one thing I need to tell Miss Ye, Miss Ye's condition is very bad, and I personally recommend coming to the hospital for treatment as soon as possible. ”

Eleven put one hand on his temple: "I understand, trouble Doctor Luo." ”

"It's good that Miss Ye understands, I told you before that I want you to be hospitalized, but Miss Ye refused, so let's rely on Miss Ye's wishes. ”

Dr. Lowe said this with a little anger.

Probably because of a disobedient patient like her, it's upset.

"Doctor Luo, I'm sorry for you. ”

"It's not bothering, Miss Ye decided to come over that day and just tell me in advance. ”

"Okay. ”

Hang up.

Eleven sat on the couch and lost his mind for a long time.

How could she not know what Dr. Lo meant?

The body is her own, and she is able to sense her physical condition before even the doctor.

Her condition is indeed getting worse and worse......

Hidden country, Xie Qian'en villa.

Shen Nanyan sat opposite Xie Qianen, one with a gloomy face, and the other casually drank tea.

"You're looking for her?"

"Yes. ”

"Look at your face, didn't you get any good results?"

"Can I understand that you are laughing at me right now?"

The gloomy tone was as if he was going to freeze to death.

Xie Qianen sat there loosely.

"How could I laugh at you, you are my brother, you can see your heart clearly, I am too late to be happy for you. ”

Shen Nanyan snorted coldly, as if he had heard some big joke.

"If you can really think so generously, how can you think about her for so many years. ”

"I've said it all, I've never ruined your relationship, it's been so long, she doesn't even know that I like her. ”

Shen Nanyan said lightly with thin lips: "Really, are you still a little great?"

"If you want to say that, I don't have to object, no. ”

Shen Nanyan: "......"

He didn't speak, Xie Qianen chuckled and said: "She's like that, when she's happy, she's extremely happy, and when she's not happy, she's really nothing." You have always thought that she is obedient and sensible, but in fact she is not, she has always known everything better than anyone else. ”

"She never said she loved me, and many times I wondered if she really didn't have any feelings for me anymore because she was so determined and didn't regret it. ”

Xie Qianen smiled: "Do you still think like this now?"

"Isn't it strange that I think so?"

"Hehe, I thought you saw your heart clearly, and at the same time, you also saw Eleven's heart clearly. ”

"What do you mean by this?" Shen Nanyan then asked.

Xie Qianen didn't say a word: "What I tell you can only be regarded as what I tell you, in fact, what many things are like depends on you to discover little by little." ”

Shen Nanyan frowned: "Xie Qianen, I find that I can't understand her more and more, is it because I have been separated for too long, or because of something else." ”

"Can't understand it? Maybe you've never understood it. ”

"What about you?"

"Me?" Xie Qianen lowered his head and played with his fingers.

"Early on, I thought I understood, but then I realized that she was difficult to understand, and I didn't understand it. ”

There were a lot of meanings in these words, and Shen Nanyan was silent for a while.

"Since I love her, I won't let go easily. ”

"Perhaps, that's your will. ”

……

On this day, Eleven came out of the hospital and was just about to go back when he received a phone call.

On the phone, the woman's voice was polite and polite.

"Miss Ye, Nuo Nuo wants to come and see you, do you have time now?"

On the other end of the phone, the woman spoke in Chinese, but every word was sincere, and Eleven called her Mrs. Mancher.

"I've just come out of the hospital, and if you want to go to me, you may have to wait for me for a while, and you don't have anything at home, so you might be snubbed. ”

Mrs. Mancher's voice was apprehensive.

"Where is Miss Ye, how can we need Miss Ye to entertain us, it stands to reason that we should take care of Miss Ye day and night. ”

Eleven laughed silently: "Since Mrs. Manche said so, then just bring Nuonuo over with it." ”

"Okay, Miss Ye. ”

After talking to Mrs. Mancher and hanging up the phone, Eleven stood at the entrance of the hospital, raised his head, the sun was hot overhead, and Eleven stood for a long time before leaving.

……

At the door of the apartment, when eleven arrived, Mrs. Manche and Nuo Nuo had already arrived.

From a long distance, Eleven ran over as soon as he got out of the car.

Nuo Nuo is a four-year-old girl of mixed Chinese and British descent, with a delicate and cute little face.

"Eleventh sister. ”

The sweet child's voice sounded in his ears, and Eleven's expression did not fluctuate too much.

Still smiling, she crouched down.

"Nuo Nuo is here, how is it, how are you doing lately?"

"Sister, we're fine, my school just had a holiday, and I've wanted to come and see you for a long time, but Mommy keeps saying that I'll wait to call you to see if you have time. ”

A four-year-old girl, when she talks to her, she looks sensible and obedient.

Eleven was very emotional, and he felt happy while sighing.

"Nuo Nuo is really sensible. ”

"She really wanted to come and see you all the time, and I said it several times before, but I was always afraid of disturbing you, so I didn't bring it. ”

Mrs. Manche stood there, and said with a smile on her face, eleven times with a polite and polite smile.

"Mrs. Manche is polite, there is nothing to disturb or not to disturb, if you want to come over in the future, you can just bring it with you, anyway, I'm bored alone. ”

"If you say so, I'll take Nuo Nuo over for a walk in the future. ”

"Okay, let's go, let's go in. ”

Nuo Nuo took Eleven's hand, and Mrs. Manche followed.

She walked very slowly, very slowly.

Mrs. Manche kept looking at her.

Watching her take tentative steps, watching her occasional trepidation and uneasiness.

Mrs. Mancher's eyes were red, but she kept refusing to speak.

Until the glutinous child bluntly said, "Sister Eleven, has the condition of your eyes deteriorated again?"

Eleven's steps paused, and Lady Mancher reprimanded Nuo Nuo.

"How can I say it, Nuo Nuo, your eleventh sister is just walking slower. ”

"But my sister secretly clenched my hand several times, and I could feel my sister's nervousness. ”

Mrs. Mancher's voice was choked.

"This is that we are sorry for your eleventh sister, you can't say that, say this, your eleventh sister will be sad. ”

The mother and daughter said one by one, and by the end the atmosphere was very gloomy.

Eleven stood to the side, and she didn't speak again until there was no more sound.

"Mrs. Manche, my condition is indeed getting worse again, Dr. Lowe said, and my ability to see is getting worse and worse. ”

Mrs. Mancher's eyes were red, and her tears were suppressed from falling.

"I don't regret it, I don't regret it, I don't regret it. ”