Since Eleven spoke, Shen Nanyan has been looking at her.

His eyes were burning and his expression was complicated.

Originally, in such a situation, Eleven shouldn't have said anything, but she just wanted to do her best to resolve the current deadlock between her and Shen Nanyan.

So under Shen Nanyan's gaze, she continued to speak.

"For a long time, you have always said that you love me, but Nanyan, counting the nine years we have known each other, I have always thought that what you said was a joke. You have been thunderous in that year of marriage, no matter how you have no feelings for me, I am dead, and in the end, the clouds are light and the wind is light, and I have always felt that love is sacrosanct, and you say that love will only make me feel panicked, you know?"

Panicky?

In the past, Shen Nanyan just felt that Eleven's words were too glorified, but now he feels that Eleven's words are still a bit excessive.

He couldn't figure out why the word panic was used by her in the relationship between the two of them.

"Eleven, you love me, don't you?"

He looked at her pale eyes and asked unconsciously.

If she didn't love him, she probably wouldn't mind so much.

But since he loves him, why don't you want to be with him again, because he woke up late, because of the improper way he used to manage his marriage?

This is the first time that Shen Nanyan asked her in such a tone if she loved him.

Eleven couldn't tell what it was like.

She just lowered her head and smiled, the condition of her eyes was getting worse and worse during this time, she thought about a lot of things, and even now, she was sure that she would only love one person in her life.

He asked, and Eleven suddenly thought of what Xie Qianen said.

- All of us know that you love Nanyan, but he himself doesn't know, maybe this is called the authorities are obsessed with bystanders.

Is it?

Her liking is so obvious, but as a party, he still doesn't know?

She didn't know, Shen Nanyan didn't know under what circumstances it had been so long.

From Xu Qing's time, she felt that this kind of thing should be able to be seen very clearly, Xu Qing liked her at that time, and she found out from getting along with each other that love and dislove are actually obvious things.

and now Xie Qianen......

However, it cannot be ruled out that she is too sensitive, and she sees a lot of things clearly and transparently.

"Yes, I like you. ”

Eleven didn't know what she was thinking, and at that moment, she stared at Shen Nanyan's bottomless eyes and said this.

likes the words, because in her opinion, in Shen Nanyan, it will seem too heavy to say love, and it is too frivolous to say that she has a good feeling, maybe it is most appropriate to say the word like at this moment.

got the expected answer, and the first thing that appeared in Shen Nanyan's heart was joy.

He happily shook Eleven's hand, his tone distinctly excited.

"I know that you have feelings for me, otherwise, how could you care so much about that marriage, otherwise how could you care so much about my relationship with other people, eleven. ”

His eagerness fell into Eleven's eyes, and she didn't say anything, not even the warmth in her eyes.

Shen Nanyan was thoughtful, her reaction was too quiet, he gradually calmed down, but he still refused to let go of her hand.

"What are you thinking?"

Eleven raised his head: "Nanyan, why are you so excited?"

"What?" he stared at her with mixed eyes.

Eleven was not silent, and went straight down: "My feelings for you, in fact, many people know. ”

A lot of people know about it......

Shen Nanyan's heart sank.

He suddenly understood why Eleven was so calm and indifferent.

Yes, she liked him, even if she didn't hide it, he said to her as soon as he asked, but their problem was not whether Eleven loved him or not.

Eleven witnessed Shen Nanyan's eyes gradually darken, she knew that Shen Nanyan was a smart person, and when she said this, he could actually understand what she was trying to express.

How to say it, in the earliest days, she chose to marry Shen Nanyan because she loved him, and later separated not because she didn't love, but because she understood some things.

Now those things are still the same, it makes no sense that she chose to be with him again because she still loves Shen Nanyan.

Therefore, in a word, she still loves him, but this kind of love is not the kind that chooses to remarry when her mind is hot.

"Eleven, you still blame me, don't you?"

Blame?

Eleven chuckled: "How could I blame you." ”

"When you first arrived in the Hidden Country, I was angry that you went abroad, and I didn't answer when you called me, and then I called you again, and you said that you wouldn't answer anything, aren't you angry or what?"

Shen Nanyan's voice was low and pleasant, and in many cases, it always made Eleven lose his mind.

Like at this moment.

It has actually been a long time since she first arrived in the Hidden Kingdom, but it was Shen Nanyan who said these past events, and she couldn't help but think of that time again.

On the day she rescued Nuo Nuo, she made a phone call to Shen Nanyan before she fell into a complete coma.

When people encounter danger, they will always do something beyond the control of the brain, that day, the moment before being hit by a car, a lot of things appeared in her mind, there was the scene when Shen Nanyan rushed into the fire to save her when she was young, and later at the funeral, Shen Nanyan led her and said that she would still have him in the future, and there were also scenes after marriage, Shen Nanyan maintained some scenes intentionally or unintentionally.

It's all some warm times, and at that moment, she found out that except for the fact that Shen Nanyan didn't love him, everyone else was good to her and couldn't find fault with her.

So, there was that phone call.

To this day, Eleven can still remember that after the car accident, she made a phone call at the last moment, and no one answered until she hung up automatically.

And her heart also changed from excitement and fear at the beginning, to indifference later.

After that, she didn't call Shen Nanyan again.

Hospitalized, until discharge, Eleven had some time thinking about that phone call.

But she never remembered what she was going to do on that phone call.

Later, she didn't think about it either, as for what the content of that phone call would be, she would say something to Shen Nanyan, obviously it didn't matter anymore.

At this moment, the old thing was mentioned by Shen Nanyan, and when it came to the words of blaming him or not, Eleven remembered that day again.

Is it strange?Eleven asked herself.

Maybe it's weird, at that moment, she was lonely and desperate in her heart, her whole body hurt to numbness, she didn't even call her sister, she dialed his phone with the last trace of sobriety, but he never answered.

But this strange thing seems to be just that moment, whether to answer the phone or not, it is Shen Nanyan's business.

There are so many unsatisfactory things in the world, and Shen Nanyan misses so many calls every day, she can't ask him to answer her calls.

The reason is the same as she can't ask Shen Nanyan to love her.

"You don't answer the phone for your reasons, how can I be angry, you think too much, Nanyan. She spoke slowly, not in a heavy tone.

Shen Nanyan stared at her for a moment, as if he wanted to see something else from her bland expression.

But no, from the beginning to the present, her reaction has been very flat.

He suddenly felt a sense of powerlessness, as if no matter what he did, he couldn't make her change her mind anymore.

"So, Eleven, don't you want to be with me anymore?"

Eleven's eyes fell in the distance, and his voice was soft: "Nanyan, at least at this moment, I don't have such thoughts. ”

Shen Nanyan was silent for a long time: "Okay, I understand." ”

……

As soon as Eleven returned home and sat down, Xu Qing came.

The two sat opposite each other on the couch, and Eleven smiled and said, "Did you just walk for a long time?"

Xu Qing crossed his hands and said in a normal tone: "No, I saw you and Shen Nanyan talking downstairs, so I just stood there for a while." ”

See her talking to Shen Nanyan?

Eleven was shocked: "You know everything?"

Xu Qing smiled: "I haven't found out, it's really stupid to say." ”

Eleven pursed his lips, and a lot of words came to his lips, but he didn't know how to express it in the best way.

Over there, Xu Qing spoke again: "Actually, I have many chances to guess that it was him, in China, you never made video calls with him in front of us, and even ordinary phone calls have to be avoided a lot, if it weren't for his inappropriate identity, how could you be like that." ”

Eleven lowered his head, and the hand hanging by his side was completely loosened at this moment.

She didn't hide it anymore, and since Xu Qing found out, there was no need to lie again.

"Well, it's him. ”

She admitted in person that even if Xu Qing guessed it, she still had a moment of heartbreak: "So, the person you have loved for many years is him?"

Eleven replied lightly: "Well, we have known each other for a long time, and I am not an ordinary Ye family, I am the second daughter of the Ye family of the Jiangcheng big family nine years ago, my family is all gone after the fire accident, only me and my sister are left, my sister You should have heard me tell you, she is the current manager of the Ye Group." ”

The amount of information is too large, and Xu Qing reacted for a long time.

"So, you are the one Shen Nanyan saved back then?"

"It seems that many people in Jiangcheng know about Shen Nanyan saving me. ”

"I only faintly heard some of them. Xu Qing said.

Eleven said slowly: "We have known each other for many years, for so long, we have always been very good, and Xu Qing, I had a marriage with Shen Nanyan, which started in my junior year and ended before I came to the Hidden Kingdom. ”

At this point, Eleven didn't want to hide from Xu Qing, and in a paragraph, she made her relationship with Shen Nanyan clear.

Xu Qing probably didn't expect this to be the case, he sat on the sofa for a long time and didn't say a word.

spoke again, and his voice was a little hoarse: "No wonder, you are so determined, but there is one thing I don't understand, since you love him so much, why do you have to separate." ”

Why separate?

Xu Qing would also ask this question, and Eleven lowered his head and smiled slightly: "This question has been asked to me by many people, and it seems to be a very important question." ”

Xu Qing didn't speak, just looked at her.

Eleven got up from the couch and walked slowly to the window.

"But in this world, if everything is separated together and has to say right and wrong, then what is the meaning of life? ”

"Is it because you're sick?" asked Xu Qing, standing not far behind her.

Eleven thought: "Maybe, but this is definitely not most of the reasons, what I really care about is what I felt in our marriage that year." ”

"Doesn't he love you?"

Eleven was stunned and said with a smile: "Xu Qing, you are speaking more and more directly now." ”

"You love him, so you will worry about him, how much affection he has for you, whether he loves you as much as you love him, it is precisely because of these considerations that you feel that it is not painful to be together, it is better to be completely and happily separated. ”

Xu Qing has high emotional intelligence, and Eleven knows it.

But when it came to the most critical place in one or two sentences, she was still a little surprised.

"Pretty much. ”

She didn't say it explicitly, just said it.

"Did he come to ask you to get back together?" Xu Qing asked again.

Eleven was silent for a moment, not knowing whether to say yes or not, indeed, in her opinion, Shen Nanyan's series of behaviors were somewhat contradictory.

Just like the sentence downstairs that ended the topic just now, she couldn't understand what Shen Nanyan meant, and she didn't know if he really listened to her words and would choose to leave here and return to Jiangcheng.

She didn't speak, Xu Qing thought to himself that she probably didn't want to speak, so in the silence, he slowly changed the topic.

"You've been in Prague for a while, how's it going, the situation with your eyes. ”

Xu Qing came so far away, and it was inevitable to ask about the situation of his eyes.

Eleven knows.

So she was silent for a moment and said, "Dr. Luo said that what is in my head is getting infinitely closer to the optic nerve, and at this rate, I should soon be completely blind." ”

"Completely invisible?"

Xu Qing's eyes were full of sadness.

is completely invisible, which means that Eleven has to give up directing completely.

Her eyes can't see how to evaluate whether a performance is good or bad, how to master those things that are necessary for directors.

Thinking of Eleven's talent in directing, Xu Qingxin continued to sink.

"Is there no cure?" he asked.

Eleven said: "There is no way at the moment, the position is too dangerous, and Dr. Luo does not dare to operate." ”

Doctor Luo Xu Qing knew that he was the person who was responsible for the whole process of Eleven's condition, and he was also a relatively capable doctor.

That's what he said, and that's what must be the case.

"Eleven, you're sad. ”

Saddened?

Eleven did not deny it: "It was really sad at the beginning, but then slowly, slowly, it seems that there is no feeling anymore, and after coming to Prague, I have been planning for the future." ”

Make plans in the future, what plans, Xu Qing naturally understands that he plans for life after being completely blind.

In the past, Xu Qing just felt that Eleven was weak, and many things couldn't get into her eyes, and later she even felt that she was still a little arrogant and unkind.

Until now, what happened after the car accident, what happened to her and Shen Nanyan, Xu Qing suddenly realized that in fact, Eleven is very strong.

She seems to be weak, but in fact she is smart and wise, and she has her own opinions on the relationship between her and Shen Nanyan from beginning to end, and she also tries her best to look at the great sadness caused by the car accident with the most optimistic attitude.

In life, many people can't do it to her level.

Sometimes he is also thinking, life is a long road, there are so many forks in the road, how can Eleven be able to walk such a good temperament, attitude, and outlook on life.

"What are your plans in the future, do you have any plans to go back to Jiangcheng for treatment?"

Returning to Jiangcheng to treat Eleven didn't think about it.

"Going back is also to make my sister worry about all kinds of troubles, all kinds of troubles, I'll stay here for the time being, and when there is any news from Dr. Luo's side, I'll consider whether to leave here and go to other places." ”

Xu Qing thought for a moment: "That's fine, it's just that in this way, you won't have anyone to take care of you here, and your eyes are ......."

The rest of Xu Qing didn't finish speaking, and Eleven knew what he was going to say.

"I don't need to be taken care of, it's been a while, in fact, I've figured out what I should be groping, and my basic life is pretty much the same. ”

Xu Qing looked at her with hesitation on his face.

Eleven happened to see it when she turned around, but she just smiled, but didn't ask.

And Xu Qing was only for a moment, and then he changed to another calm expression: "Wait for what you want to eat, I'll make it for you." ”

"It's all good. ”

"Then I'll just watch and do it. ”

"Hmm. ”

Xu Qing was busy in the kitchen, and Eleven sat in the living room taking medicine.

As for what Xu Qing didn't say after hesitating just now, she didn't ask.

Xu Qing has always been measured, since he didn't say anything after hesitation, then there was no need for her to ask again.

At noon, Xu Qing cooked rice, very simple Chinese food, but it was full of flavor, and Eleven ate a lot more than usual.

even secretly made a comparison between Dr. Luo and Xu Qing in his heart.

After the meal, Xu Qing prepared to leave.

Eleven originally wanted to send him downstairs, but Xu Qing refused.

"You are in a special situation now, where do I need you to send. ”

Eleven was a little embarrassed: "Are you really leaving? You haven't been there for a day." ”

"It's not much, there are still some things on the Hidden Country's side. And, Er'er, I was supposed to tell her not to stay long. ”

Erer, Xu Qing's girlfriend, her full name is Wener.

Eleven has seen Er'er's photo, and is a very gentle girl.

When she laughs, she has two pear vortices on her face, and she is a very warm girl.

"Erer is a very good girl, Xu Qing, you have to treat her well. ”

Xu Qing nodded: "I know." ”

"Well, you know it's fine, if there is a chance in the future, I hope we can sit and eat together, you take Erle with you. ”

Xu Qing was slightly stunned, and subconsciously asked, "Do you want me to be with Erer for the rest of your life?"

Eleven replied with a chuckle: "That's natural, Xu Qing, love should be for the purpose of marriage, for a lifetime, it's not easy to meet a suitable person, and it's even more difficult to stay together, so you have to cherish this girl." ”

Xu Qing looked directly at her face, and half-sounded, he nodded: "Okay, I know, I will." ”