Guan Xiaohuan is 5 years older than him, she likes his obedience and well-behaved, and he likes her maturity and generosity. In a foreign country, men and women who are also Chinese are easy to approach.

Guan Xiaohuan still confided in Fang Shanmu about her love experience and feelings as always, but Fang Shanmu's reply was no longer as warm as before, because he was already in love with Sheng Chen at this time. Guan Xiaohuan didn't notice Fang Shanmu's carelessness, and still excitedly told Fang Shanmu that she was going to marry Yu Chen, and Yu Chen was her real son.

Fang Shanmu persuaded her to calm down, in 2000, there were not many Chinese students who went abroad, so there were few choices for love, and when she returned to China, she would not be able to withstand the dazzling test of domestic love. Guan Xiaohuan didn't listen, and thought that Fang Shanmu was jealous of her.

When Fang Shanmu stayed in the capital after graduating from university, Guan Xiaohuan and Yu Chen also returned to China together. Yu Chen is from the capital, he stayed in the capital, and Guan Xiaohuan also stayed for him. Guan Xiaohuan wanted to get married, but Yu Chen repeatedly shirked it. As Fang Shanmu said, as soon as he returned to China, his eyes were full of domestic beauties, how could Yu Chen marry Guan Xiaohuan, who was 5 years older than him and already showed signs of aging?

Soon, Yu Chen had a new love and dumped Guan Xiaohuan. Guan Xiaohuan is in pain, and it is useless to die or live. Men's thinking is decision-making, and what is said is a decision. And a woman's thinking is tentative, thinking that a man's decision is testing her...... Guan Xiaohuan wanted to redeem Yu Chen, Fang Shanmu persuaded her not to do useless work, she didn't listen, and tried everything to persuade and impress Yu Chen.

As a result, Yu Chen was angered by using too much force, and Yu Chen told her that she was much older than him, and women aged faster than men, and when he was 35 years old, she was 40 years old, like a mother, how could she take it out?

Years of pride and confidence were blown away by Yu Chen. Yu Chen used a man's most unbearable dark psychology to attack Guan Xiaohuan with vicious language, Guan Xiaohuan had no power to parry at all, so he could only retreat in embarrassment, was shot through the heart with ten thousand arrows, and returned to Shimen alone to heal his wounds.

On the eve of Fang Shanmu's marriage to Sheng Chen, he went back to Shimen, just in time for a high school reunion. At the party, he was pushed next to Guan Xiaohuan. In a trance, seven or eight years of time passed by whizzing, and Guan Xiaohuan, who was haggard and aging, still vaguely still had the youthful and beautiful appearance of the year.

Guan Xiaohuan no longer has the previous jumping and free and easy, she looks down, depressed, she doesn't talk much during the banquet, no matter how others persuade her to drink or make fun of her, she always has a sparse and blank expression.

After the meal, everyone coaxed and hoped that Fang Shanmu would send Guan Xiaohuan home, but without waiting for Fang Shanmu to speak, Guan Xiaohuan pushed the boat along the water and offered to take a walk with Fang Shanmu.

The two went to the high school campus and walked along the playground that they once knew so well. The playground is still the same, but after several renovations, it is no longer the dilapidated appearance of the year, the new running track and the basketball court full of science and technology, only the tall poplars around it still stand in the position of the year, and do not say a word.

The night breeze was blowing, the surroundings were quiet, and it was during the summer vacation, and there were not many people on campus. The two walked three laps along the runway, all silent. Until he was tired of walking, Guan Xiaohuan proposed to sit down.

"I always thought I was lucky to always meet someone I liked and liked at the same time......" Guan Xiaohuan's voice is more vicissitudes and maturity than before, if she used to speak like a bright stream, now it is like a slow river, carrying the color of many years, flowing slowly and heavily, "So I have been chasing love since I was in high school, I have liked a total of five people before and after, and I have been in love with three people, and each love is an unforgettable memory." ”

Fang Shanmu didn't speak, he thought that Guan Xiaohuan only had two real relationships - Guo Youyou and Yu Chen, Zheng Chaoyang and Hong Kong boyfriends were not counted, but Guan Xiaohuan was counted as Hong Kong boyfriends.

"I know the most detailed about every love I have in love, I have only told you alone, and I can't believe anyone else. I don't know why, I just think you're credible and reliable, and I want to tell you whatever you have in mind or secrets. You are like my life safe, as long as you keep it here, it is absolutely safe, and you can take it out anytime and anywhere. I've always been the best buddy for you, and we're friends above the state of unfulfilled lovers, until I returned to China and found out, it turned out that after so many years, I turned around and found that true love was around. ”

Guan Xiaohuan took out his mobile phone and put on a song, which was Zhang Yu's "Little Sun": "You always smile like a flower, and you always look at me drunk and desperate." You should be cared for, cherished, seriously loved, held in the palm of your hand, like a ship that has never docked, and finally has your harbor. You should be more selfish, more greedy, more persistent, more understanding, and take all my heart. You give me the love that I never expect to reciprocate, let me treat ...... well"

Fang Shanmu heard something, but remained silent.

"Please forgive me for finding out that the person I love the most is you, it was too late, and I also know that you have the person you love the most and are ready to get married. But I hope you can stop and look back and think about it, from youth to maturity, in the most precious nearly ten years of life, we have never left each other for a moment, even if we are not together, but in our hearts we spend together. Yamaki, you say, in our past lives, can we still find someone who can replace each other?"

"Can't!" Fang Shanmu admitted in his heart, but he was still silent, he didn't want to say anything, he didn't want to explain anything, he just wanted him to go all the way, silently accompanied Guan Xiaohuan for many years, and hoped that she could have a good home. The past is not possible, but the future can. Life is a process of moving forward and letting go of the past.

In all fairness, his liking for Guan Xiaohuan has also persisted for many years, although it has been buried in his heart, he also hopes that he can have the opportunity to take root one day and grow into a towering tree, which is not in vain for his companionship and dedication over the years. But after falling in love with Sheng Chen, he knew that if the company back then was only supported by the spirit of liking and not admitting defeat, then the love for Sheng Chen now is that he really wants to spend the rest of his life with her.

In a man's life, different women he meets at different stages will have different ideas. When the love first opened, it was just a simple liking. When I was in college, I wanted to fall in love with her and hold hands for the rest of my life. After entering the society, I just want to get married and start a family, complete the necessary procedures in life and the responsibilities that should be assumed.

"So, I hope you will seriously consider it, even if it is only a one percent possibility, I will give 100 percent of my effort and be with you regardless of everything. In order to repay you for your care and dedication to me over the years, I am willing to do everything I can to be good to you until you are touched. Guan Xiaohuan had tears in his eyes and grabbed Fang Shanmu's hands, "Shanmu, please give me one last chance, okay?" I don't trust any man anymore except you." I don't want to be hurt in love anymore, I just want to love you well and burn my last hope for love for you. ”

Fang Shanmu gently withdrew his hand: "It's not early, I'll send you home." ”

Guan Xiaohuan was stunned for a while, and smiled miserably: "Got it...... Walk with me a little longer, okay?"

When he walked halfway around, Fang Shanmu's shoelaces opened, and Guan Xiaohuan took the initiative to squat down and tie his shoelaces for him. A simple action of tying shoes, Guan Xiaohuan spent five minutes. Fang Shanmu noticed that Guan Xiaohuan's shoulders were constantly shaking, she was trying to hide her sadness and crying, he wanted to persuade her, and even wanted to tell her not to do this, one day she would meet someone better who made her heart move.

But he didn't say it, he knew Guan Xiaohuan too well, she is a person who will be desperate every time she encounters love, no matter how seriously she was hurt in love last time, when love reappeared, she still had no hesitation as before, as if she had never been injured.

I don't know when it rained, and neither of them brought umbrellas. Sending Guan Xiaohuan downstairs, she suddenly threw herself into Fang Shanmu's arms, crying and choking: "If, I mean if there is no Sheng Chen, will you choose me? Don't lie, I just want your truest answer." ”

"No!" The resentment that had been accumulated in Fang Shanmu's heart for a long time finally broke out, "Xiao Huan, you don't know men too well. It wasn't until now that I realized that in your mind, I had always been a spare tire that I could rely on at any time. When all your main tires are unusable, you will find that the spare tire is really useful and can be straightened. Before you fall in love with your Hong Kong boyfriend, I am willing to be your spare tire, share the joys and pains of your love, and grow up with you. But after you meet your Hong Kong boyfriend, I feel like I don't want to be your spare tire anymore because I'm just your emotional trash can and emotional recycle bin......"

"And most importantly, you told me all the details of your relationship, all of it! including kissing and ....... Do you know how possessive a man is of the woman he likes, and he can't see her being held by others, let alone the last step! Since the breakthrough in your relationship with your Hong Kong boyfriend, deep down in my heart, you are no longer the girl I like and can look forward to, but just a lesbian table that is closer to you than ordinary classmates. All the imagination of love related to you in my heart has collapsed, leaving only the memories of the past. ”