Xiaoxue's condition is slowly recovering, and I am very happy to see her so healthy.

It's just that the child's psychological shadow is getting bigger and bigger, especially after communicating with her that day, I clearly know that Xiaoxue wants to have a father very much now.

When I got home from work that day, Xiaoxue came back earlier than me, and she was now able to go to and from school on her own, playing with a little child in the neighborhood.

"Xiao Ming, you haven't returned my things last time?" Xiao Xue said.

Xiao Ming is a little boy, about the same age as Xiao Xue, she didn't even look at Xiao Xue and said, "I won't give it back to you, what can you do to me?"

I just want to walk over and ask what the hell is going on, especially when I see Xiao Ming like this, the little boy bullying the little girl.

In fact, it is also very common in childhood, but parents should not sit idly by.

At this time, Xiao Ming suddenly said, "A wild child without a father, I'm not afraid of you." Let me tell you, my mom said you don't have a dad, and you're the most pitiful kid in our community. With that, he ran away.

Xiaoxue stayed there and didn't speak, just stood. I thought my daughter would cry, but surprisingly she didn't, just silently picked up what she had dropped on the ground and turned to go home.

I followed my daughter and looked at her lonely back, and my heart was extremely uncomfortable.

Xiaoxue has been wronged, how did I be a mother?

When I returned home in the evening, Xiaoxue still looked at me with interest and said, "Mom, I, I did very well today, and the teacher also rewarded me with a big red tweed." ”

"Xiaoxue is awesome. "I was holding my daughter.

I don't know why Xiaoxue doesn't tell me anything until now, and every time she tells me, she says that she is the happiest thing, should I talk to my children about it.

What is most lacking between us right now is communication.

"Xiaoxue, mom wants to ask you a question. ”

Xiaoxue looked at me and said, "Mom, you ask." ”

"Xiaoxue's mother wants to ask you, are you having fun at school?"

Xiaoxue blinked her eyes and said, "Mom, I'm so happy, why are you asking this all of a sudden?" she suddenly looked at me strangely.

"But Mom wants you to tell me everything, Mom doesn't like you to hide everything in your stomach, it's really bad for your health. I said earnestly to the child.

Xiaoxue looked at me and said, "Mom, I think you are a very strong woman, although our living conditions are not as good as others, but you sent me to school and gave birth to me as an adult, I think Mom, you are the best person for me, you are my dearest relative now." After Xiaoxue finished speaking, she hugged me tightly.

I was a little stunned when she said such a thing.

I was holding my daughter, Xiaoxue's heart was too fragile, she needed a father. She has also shown this feeling countless times.

Especially once when we were walking on the road, he saw a little girl's father, holding the little girl high around his neck.

Xiaoxue watched it for a long time, and she kept looking at me blankly.

I understood my daughter's thoughts, but I didn't say anything because I couldn't give it to her.

At this point, I really blame myself and feel guilty.

I should think of a way to stop going on like this, and I must take on a mother's responsibility for Xiaoxue.

At night, Xiaoxue fell asleep, and I sat in my room, thinking back and forth about my life like this and my young years.

Some people say that when I was young, it was really very crucial, life was very long, but when it was critical, it was like a few steps, and those few steps were very important when I was young, from my choice of work to the choice of my lover and the birth of Xiaoxue, what have I experienced?

Now that I think about it, I just feel that the past is unbearable.

I played Rene Liu's "So You're Still Here" over and over again, this kind of music is very in line with my current mood, and that kind of melody makes me feel like it's really like life, so you are here.

But who is here, only me, I have my own child, I thought we could live well, but I ignored the child's feelings, she is not happy.

It is also very hard for me to be a woman with a child, and a divorced woman is really hard and sad.

Originally, the child was my only hope, but now the child is physically and mentally traumatized, how can I be a mother?

If I want to say that I want to give Xiaoxue love now, but I go to work every day, how can I have time to care about her, and only for a while at night, the child has to go to bed early and go to school the next day.

I can't take the children around on weekends, and I'm usually busy with work, but if I want to give her pocket money, now I only earn enough money for the two of us to live, and we don't have any extra money to live with.

Thinking of this, my heart trembled again. I can't go on like this.

Listening to the music, I fell into deep contemplation, I should find a father for my child, but who should I look for?

I suddenly remembered Yang Shu, Yang Shu and Xiaoxue had a very good time that day, I feel that Yang Shu is like Xiaoxue's father, he should not be like Li Minfang.

Poplar I have known him for the longest time, I know him, he is a kind person.

That's right, he likes Xiaoyu very much, I know this, even if there is no love between the two of us, as long as he is good to Xiaoxue, then I won't pray for anything.

But how can I say such a thing, and even if I say it, can I say that I can move him? I am a little embarrassed, in fact, this kind of thing is a very humiliating thing, especially when a woman says to a man that she likes her and loves him.

Yes, it's a shame, but I'm going to give it a try, in order to find happiness for Xiaoxue, even if it's a shameful thing, I'm willing to do it, because I'm a mother.

I looked at my watch, and it was past nine o'clock.

I gently dialed Poplar's phone.

"Hey, hello. Poplar said on the other end of the phone.

"I'm Lan Lan, have you forgotten me?" because I listened to his tone, as if he didn't know me.

The person on the other end of the phone hesitated, "Who is Gao Lanlan? I don't know, who are you looking for?"

"I'm looking for poplars," I confirmed again.

"I don't know him. "This voice is very unfamiliar, it shouldn't be a poplar, isn't this a poplar's phone?

I read it carefully, and Yang Shu once told me that his phone number would never change, but what is the matter with him changing the number now.

"Aren't you really a poplar?"

The person on the other end of the phone said impatiently, "Who are you? I'm really not a poplar, you look for a poplar, you go to the radio and shout, don't call people at night to harass people, and let my wife misunderstand." After saying that, he snapped and hung up the phone.

I scolded secretly in my heart, but I was thinking in my heart, why did Yang Shu's phone change? Why did he suddenly have no information like this?

I did the math, I hadn't been in contact with Poplar for months, and even though we were in the same city, we were like strangers.

Yes, I should have found out what happened to Poplar.

Shen Xuanhan He was busy in the hospital during this time, I had completely forgotten him, my mind was only on my daughter, and I didn't care about having such a person around me at all.

It was because of him that I left my hometown and came to this big city.

I wanted to ask our leader for leave, but the leader wouldn't let me.

Especially my director, I have already mentioned that he is a very selfish person, who treats his superiors with a nod and a bow, flattering everything, and doing it.

But he is all at the lower level, and he himself is completely a powerful person, no matter how much time I take up and how much work I have to do, he works overtime.

He doesn't care about anything, but I can't lose this job now, because when I get this job, I have nothing, and I'm really struggling with what I'm going to do.

I don't even know why the world is so unusually bumpy for me.

Uncle Yang's phone didn't get through.

Gently picked up a book and told me in this book that a woman should first think about life from her own advantage, for example, God may make you miserable, but you should think about what you have, what you cherish.

Yes, I should think about it now, I have children now, I'm still young after all, I'm at least healthy now, because every time I see that kind of inspiring story about people with disabilities, I feel very lucky.

And one of my classmates, every time I think of him, I feel really lucky.

Because her situation is very sympathetic, my classmate must know that her husband is only 26 years old, and when they were just a year old, she also had a baby in her womb, but her husband was diagnosed with leukemia, that is, blood cancer.

What kind of concept is this, such a young person, but life closed the door to them early, the pain can be imagined, I remember that at that time, my classmate took the child to the hospital every day to see his husband.

They spend every day in the strong smell of disinfectant water, but the children grow up day by day and become cute.

But his father, who must go all his life, is going to go day by day, and he is so young that he is going to leave them.

Later, I don't know what happened to them, and my classmate has also deleted her husband's photos in the circle of friends since then, and only she and the child are left.

She posts photos of her baby in her circle of friends every day, such happiness, such sweetness as if she has a baby sick all over the world, isn't this a kind of happiness?

Maybe her husband is gone, but he can leave her with a healthy son, which is already rare.

So what can we healthy people say compared to those who are more unfortunate?

So now I think about it because I should still cherish my current life more, and the life in front of me makes me happier, happier, and has the ability to be happy, which should be more important than anything else.

Okay, then I'll go to bed early, get a good night's sleep early, today Shen Xuanhan and serious things, everything is like a mystery, I will ask the leader for a leave tomorrow and go see them.