My name is Jin Yebai.

I am a person with no future.

I can't give anyone a lifetime commitment, so I can't let go of love like a normal person, otherwise it will inevitably hurt the person I love completely.

Love, I don't want to hurt, so I can only choose not to love.

I breathed desperately, overdrawing my limited life, feeling that every minute and second of my life was snatched from the hands of Lord Yama, this kind of race against death, I had a very hard time, but I never gave up.

Life is precious, how can I be willing to die?

Some people say that when God closes a door for you, he will open a window for you, and I am not a Christian, but I like that.

I always believed that God was fair and that it didn't give me a future, so it gave me a smart brain.

I graduated with honors in high school and was admitted to a key university, and I met a senior who was two years higher than me during my school, his name was Lu Zhenting, and then we partnered to open a very small company in the year he graduated.

How small is this company?

In the beginning, he was the only one who went to work.

By the time I graduated and joined the company, five years later, the company already has several employees, and the income is okay, at least we don't have to worry about food and clothing, and we have a car and a house.

In the afternoon, when I was at work, I suddenly received a call from a crazy girl.

The crazy girl's name is Shu Menglu, she was my high school classmate, and she married a phoenix man as soon as she graduated from college.

I have a good relationship with her, so good that I can talk about anything except love, and when I call her a crazy girl, she keeps calling me Xiaobai.

Lu is white tonight, I am Yebai, she is Meng Lu, we are destined to have a great relationship.

She called to tell me that Zhou Mingchuan seemed to be cheating.

Zhou Mingchuan is her phoenix male husband, I don't have any feelings for this man, as long as he is good to her, this is enough, the person is her own choice, I just hope she can live happily.

I called her a crazy girl for a reason, she was really crazy in high school, like a tomboy, and she was very impulsive, just like now, when she saw a woman's underwear, she immediately wanted to call Zhou Mingchuan to question.

Even if a man really cheats, as long as he is not caught raping in pairs, at least nine out of ten will not admit it.

I know that she loves Zhou Mingchuan very much, and naturally I don't want her to have an unpleasant relationship with him because of this, if Zhou Mingchuan really does something sorry for her, then I must seek justice for her.

So I went to her house in person and gave her an idea to catch Zhou Mingchuan, it would be better if she didn't cheat, so that she wouldn't be sad and sad.

She did what I said, but in the end she betrayed me, so that Zhou Mingchuan, who had always suspected that my relationship with her was impure, knew that I had arranged everything before.

I have to say that she is really a little stupid in Zhou Mingchuan's affairs, which is probably what people often say, women in love have negative IQs.

Therefore, she didn't contact me for a long time, I think she must be angry with me, or because Zhou Mingchuan was angry and didn't dare to contact me, she was always moved by his smile.

It just so happened that I was too busy and I was afraid of upsetting her, so I didn't take the initiative to contact her as before, and I was busy with the company's affairs.

During the three-day holiday of the Qingming Festival, I wanted to ask her out to play, so I sent her a text message to ask her how she spent the holiday, but she told me that she went back to her hometown with Zhou Mingchuan.

Zhou Mingchuan's hometown is quite far away, it will take two days to come and go, and she has to sweep the tomb, presumably she can't spare a quarter of an hour to give it to me during the three-day holiday, and I haven't replied.

After the Qingming Festival, Zhou Mingchuan suddenly came to me, with a gloomy face, and it seemed that the visitor was not good.

Sure enough, when I dropped my job and took him to a café near the company, he said to me as soon as I sat down, "Mr. Jin, can you please stay away from my wife in the future?"

I was a little upset, and replied in a deep voice: "I'm just friends with her." ”

How unconfident does a man have to be to drive away all the opposite-sex friends around his wife after he gets married? Zhou Mingchuan's ability is not bad, so why bother?

This will only make people look down!

His face became even more ugly, "I know you're just friends, but you're good friends who talk about everything, and she told you a lot of things that I didn't even know, didn't she?"

I didn't make a sound, because what he said was right, Meng Lu would say anything to me, and a lot of it was related to Zhou Mingchuan, such as what he did to make her unhappy, or bought her something.

But these are inconsequential, and the most important thing is that even if she is wronged, she will not seek comfort from him, but she comes to talk to me, especially in the past two years.

Because she has never been able to conceive a child, she is always disliked by his parents, but she can't go to him, so as not to make him embarrassed in the middle, and she has to come to me as an outsider because she can't say it.

The purpose of my existence is to be her angry bag, to comfort her when she is sad, to laugh with her when she is happy, and if she cries, I can even lend her my chest, as long as she doesn't mind.

Zhou Mingchuan saw that I acquiesced, and a trace of ruthlessness flashed in his eyes, "If you want her to live a happy life, don't disturb our peaceful life anymore, otherwise you will bear the consequences, I don't think you should be willing to see her hurt in any way, right?"

A nameless fire rose in my heart, and I said coldly, "You threaten me?"

He sneered, "What about the threat, she is my wife now, and as a married woman, she shouldn't be too close to an unmarried man like you." He said self-righteously, "Isn't it because you think so much about her?"

I have a bad idea for Shu Menglu? Don't I just want her to have a good life? If it's wrong to even care about someone, then what's right in this world?

When I sighed, he took two sips of the coffee he had just served, and then put it on the table, "Say it again, don't disturb our lives in the future, you are not welcome!"

With that, he paid for his cup of coffee and strode away, leaving me alone in my chair.

In the past, I thought that Zhou Mingchuan could be admitted here from the countryside, and he must have something extraordinary, but now it seems that he can just read.

After this meeting, I saw his inferiority, his narrow-mindedness, and stinginess, this is definitely not a good man, let alone Meng Lu's lover.

Originally, I wanted to tell Meng Lu about this, but when I thought that she loved Zhou Mingchuan so much, I couldn't say it, otherwise she would definitely say that I was a despicable villain who was suing behind my back.

I don't want to leave a bad impression on her, but I hope that when she thinks of me, she will only say that Xiaobai is a good person, not that I am a villain, deliberately destroying the harmony of their family.

Perhaps the existence of some people is a mistake in itself, just like me, and it has been caught between them for no reason, and it has become their unstable factor.

On the weekend, she took the initiative to call me and said that she was going to ask me out, I thought of Zhou Mingchuan's warning, refused her invitation for the first time, and according to Zhou Mingchuan's request, asked her not to contact me too often in the future.

I'm not really afraid of Zhou Mingchuan, I'm just afraid that she will be hurt, I don't want to cause trouble to their married life because of my short existence, or I won't feel at ease even if I die.

I've had enough trouble in my life, my parents, elders, my relatives and friends are all worried about me, and I really don't want to add to it.

Meng Lu roared and asked me if I wanted to break up with her, I was silent, let alone break up, it was very painful to reduce contact with her like this, but I couldn't tell her that I cared so much about her.

I asked her a question I had asked when she first got married, asking her if she was happy and why. As a result, she told me that Zhou Mingchuan was the greatest happiness in her life.

With her answer, I was also relieved, since Zhou Mingchuan could give her happiness, then what else could I do except follow Zhou Mingchuan's request and stop bothering them?

Meng Lu, I bless you!

After that, she didn't contact me again, and I didn't reach out to her, and we went from best friends to strangers.

When it was May Day, she suddenly contacted me again, saying that she was looking for me for something important and asked me to have a meal together.

I thought something had happened to her, otherwise how could she have found me anyway when she said she wouldn't be in touch?

In order to prove the innocence between us to Zhou Mingchuan, she arranged a disguised blind date for me without my permission, the woman was her colleague Li Sisi, and she didn't even come to the scene.

Fortunately, she is also smart, she didn't come but found a spare tire, and made an appointment with Zhenting, so after I walked away angrily, the two of them sparked a spark of love.

I was really angry that she arranged a blind date for me, she didn't know anything at all, so she made such an arrangement, but I couldn't tell her the truth, so in the end I started to get angry with myself again.

Why am I a person with no future? If I can live normally, why should I be so secretive, I am so tired of living like this, I can't even face my own heart.

At this time, my aunt's daughter Song Qingya had not been back from studying in the hidden country not long ago, and her job had just stabilized, so she took advantage of the holiday to ask me out for coffee and talk about the past few years, but I knew that she was actually an excuse for me to continue chatting and inquire about my physical condition.

She found a boyfriend during her study abroad, his name is Ling Xi, he is a very Sven man, and he is also a medical doctor, and he brought him with him when she met me this time.

I was not in a very good mood because of Meng Lu's arrangement of blind dates, Qingya was a very careful person, and when she saw that I was absent-minded, she asked, "Cousin, do you have something on your mind?"

I didn't want to trouble her, shook my head in denial, lowered my head and stirred the coffee without speaking.

"No matter how long we haven't seen each other, aren't you still my cousin? She flattened her mouth, "Say, is it because of women?"

"Elegant. Ling Xi was probably afraid that she would say the wrong thing, so he hurriedly called out to her and signaled her to pay attention.

She glanced at Ling Xi indifferently and continued to ask, "Is it still that Shu Menglu? What trouble did she get into this time, she has been married for so many years, can't she stop learning?"

It's all my fault, I've been talking to her about Meng Lu since I was in high school, so much so that it became a habit for me to tell her almost everything, and she has become the person who knows me best in the world.

The relationship between us, in addition to being related by blood, is still a very good friend, just like me and Meng Lu, but the difference is that many things that can't be said to Meng Lu can be told to her.

If it weren't for Qingya, I would have lived a more tired life, because my secret can only be buried in my heart and become an increasingly heavy burden, so I am really glad that God gave me such a cousin.

I told her about Meng Lu's blind date for me, and asked her, "Qingya, what do you say I should do now?"

If I really don't get along with Meng Lu to death, I can't do it. Especially after I saw Zhou Mingchuan's true face, I couldn't let go of her even more, worried that she would be hurt by him.

Qingya held her chin and thought about it, her big eyes kept blinking, wandering between me and Ling Xi, but before she could think of an idea, Ling Xi spoke first.

He said: "It's not that difficult, you find a woman to pretend to be your girlfriend when necessary, and let her believe that you have taken off the single, and it should be fine, right?"

"Good way, why didn't I think of it, Ling Xi, or you are smart!" Before I could express my opinion, Qingya had already clapped her hands and shouted. Then he leaned over and kissed Ling Xi's face.

"Looking for a fake girlfriend?" I wasn't sure about looking at Qingya and Ling Xi, they really made me envious, but it was just envy, I wouldn't be jealous of anyone.

The two of them nodded solemnly at the same time, and then began to discuss who to find to be a fake girlfriend, I think this is a bit difficult, not only to have good acting skills, but also to tell the reason.

But just as I was meditating, Qingya had already volunteered, "What is there to worry about this candidate, isn't there one in front of you?"

Ling Xi and I both looked at her in a daze when they heard this, and I suddenly realized that she was indeed the best candidate, but looking at Ling Xi again, it was obvious that she was unwilling.

Who would be willing to let his lover pretend to be someone else's girlfriend?

"You dislike me?" Qingya looked at me displeasedly, "Is there anyone more suitable in this world than me?" ”

"That's not what I meant. I hurriedly explained, looked at her in embarrassment, and gave her a look, signaling her to take care of Ling Xi's feelings, I just didn't want Ling Xi to be sad.

She immediately understood, looked at Ling Xi seriously, and suddenly asked, "Ling Xi, do you love me?"

Ling Xi was inexplicably asked by him, but he still replied very seriously, "Love." ”

"Then do you mind if I play this scene with my cousin?" Qingya continued.

Ling Xi showed a hint of embarrassment on his face, and he didn't answer immediately, and hesitation meant that he minded.

Qingya raised her eyebrows, "Ling Xi, if you want to fall in love with me, you have to meet me first, if it weren't for my cousin, I would never go to study medicine, so in the end, it was he who let us meet." If you don't even want to help with this little favor, then I can only say that you are too cautious, and I am very disappointed. ”

When she went to study medicine, she didn't believe that I would die, and she said that she must cure me, so she insisted on applying for the medical major.

I remember that on the day she got the medical school admission letter, she came to my house to find me, and said to me with a firm gaze: "Brother, don't worry, I will not let you die!"

It's just that she waited until she finished college, went abroad for further study, and got a doctorate, but it still didn't change the destined result, which made her very helpless, and even said that she was sorry for me.

Ling Xi seemed to have just learned about this, looked at me in surprise for a long time, and finally said, "I don't mind, when you face that Ms. Shu in the future, he will be your boyfriend." ”

In the end, the matter was settled like this, and I am very grateful to the two of them for making such a big sacrifice for me, especially Qingya, who is really willing to do anything for me.

When she first returned to China, Qingya lived at home, and Ling Xi had been living in a hotel because she was not a local, and her job had stabilized at this time, so the two thought of renting a house to live together.

Qingya knew that I didn't live with my parents either, so she asked me to find her near where I lived, so that it would be easier to take care of me, and Ling Xi had no opinion.

It just so happened that no one had moved in after the house opposite where I lived moved out, so I rented it for them, Qingya was very satisfied after seeing it, took Ling Xi's hand and squeezed her eyebrows and said, "In the future, we can not eat out for dinner, my brother's cooking skills are first-class, and we have a mouthful." ”

Ling Xi looked at her in surprise, "How do you know, didn't you just return to China? Could it be that he practiced good cooking skills before you went abroad?"

"Of course, he will cook his own food in junior high school, and my mother often compares the two of us, and I feel like a tragic person when I compare it. Qingya pouted, "If you are half as powerful as him, I will definitely marry you immediately, without the slightest hesitation." ”

Ling Xi was even more surprised, looked at me weakly and asked, "May I ask, how did you do it?"

I smiled, "Because I have so little time, I don't want to waste a minute." ”

The light in Qingya's eyes suddenly dimmed, and she looked at me sadly, "Is it really worth it for you to overdraft your life like this?"

"It's worth it!" If I don't overdraw my life, I won't be able to experience a lot of the beauty in the world, I can't control the length of my life, I can only try to expand its width.

Whether it is studying, living, or working, I try my best to do my best, and I just want to leave no regrets in my short life, except for untouchable love.

I didn't take the initiative to tell Meng Lu about finding a fake girlfriend, because I didn't know what to say, so I couldn't make a special phone call to tell her that I had a girlfriend, and I asked her not to do boring things in the future, right?

During the Dragon Boat Festival holiday, Meng Lu suddenly called me, just when I went back to my parents' house for the holiday, my aunt's family also came, and the two families were ready to get together for dinner.

Seeing Meng Lu's call, I thought it was a good opportunity, so I pulled Qingya, who was bored playing with her mobile phone, to my room and asked her to answer my phone, which was also the first time she contacted Meng Lu as a girlfriend.

I didn't say anything to Meng Lu this time, Qingya just said a few words and hung up, the moment she returned the phone to me, I felt so painful in my heart, I didn't know if it was right to deceive Meng Lu like this.

But I have no choice, no matter what, I can't let her know that I can't afford the responsibility of marriage, otherwise she will be worried, and I don't need more people to take care of me.

We didn't contact each other for a long time after this phone call, which Qingya asked me for, and he said that since he couldn't give Meng Lu happiness and a future, he shouldn't care about her as a friend, which would only disturb her life.

My time is getting shorter and shorter, and I will leave her completely soon, I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to accept Qingya's opinion and no longer take the initiative to contact her, and she rarely contacted me.

One night, I was still sitting in bed reading a book, and the phone rang suddenly, and I picked it up and saw that it was her call, but it rang and hung up, and I couldn't even listen.

Why would she call and not let me answer? Could it be that something happened, did Zhou Mingchuan do something to her, she wanted to call but was stopped by him?

I hurriedly went back, but she asked me to introduce her to a good lawyer, and she was going to divorce Zhou Mingchuan, because Zhou Mingchuan was with her sister Meng Shuwei and was already pregnant with a child.

Zhou Mingchuan still hurt her in the end, I really regret it, if I had told Meng Lu earlier that he was not as good as she imagined, and let her leave her earlier, things would definitely not have turned out like this.

In order to get her out of the sea of suffering as soon as possible, I hired a very good lawyer for her, named Lu Pengfei, who has only withdrawn the divorce lawsuit and has never lost the lawsuit.

It is difficult to invite such a person, but fortunately, I am friends with him, and others have to queue up for a lawsuit, but I directly cut the queue. As a principled person, I originally disliked cutting in line the most, but for the sake of Meng Lu, I was willing to give up my principles.

Qingya heard that Meng Lu's husband was cheating and was going to fight a divorce lawsuit, so she looked at me with a worried look and said, "Can you just hire a lawyer for her, and don't get involved in other things?" ”

I refused, "Everything I do is voluntary, as long as she can be free and free from pain, it doesn't matter how much I give, besides, I can't care about her for long." ”

Qingya's eyes turned red, "Sometimes I really want to know how much you love her." I know that I can't use my brain too much, but I always work hard for her like this, but I don't let her know anything, what are you doing so recklessly and without regrets?"

With a long sigh, I gave her a very helpless answer, "For wishful thinking for ten years of love." ”