This night was the most uncomfortable I had in recent times, it was very cold in the house, I shivered with cold and sweated in pain, curled up in a ball, and hugged myself tightly had no effect, I had to be cheeky and beg Meng Lu to sleep with me for one night, I needed her temperature.

She didn't agree at first, but then she lay down beside me, and I took the opportunity to hug her tightly, feeling her temperature, and I finally felt better.

I woke up many times that night, and each time I was woken up in pain, my clothes were wet with cold sweat and dried by body temperature, I hated this slimy feeling, but I couldn't help it.

Finally, I got up quietly and left the key I had taken from Li Sisi, so that I could no longer enter Meng Lu's apartment at will.

I don't like people who can't do it, since I promised Qingya to leave Meng Lu decisively, I must do it, I have made her very disappointed and sad, and she must not go on like this.

After last night's incident, I am already very sure that Meng Lu has let go of her love for Zhou Mingchuan and walked out of her hatred for Meng Shuwei, so I can rest assured, I hope that she can accept Li Muchi after the year, and the two will start a new relationship.

Feelings don't need to be vigorous, like Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai can sing and cry, as long as you can have me, I have you, love each other, and for a long time, even if it is plain, it is good.

People are born with seven emotions and six desires, and greed has harmed a lot of people in the world, if you can look down on your feelings and don't ask for too much, then life will inevitably become better.

My head still hurts, but the air in the morning is good, and with such a long break last night, I can already drive, as long as I drive slower, and there are relatively few pedestrians and vehicles on the road so early.

I was going to go back and take a shower and change out of my clothes, and then go to the hospital, because the company was on holiday, I didn't need to call Lu Zhenting, and suddenly felt a little more relaxed.

The hospital is different from many units, even if it is a statutory holiday, there are still many people on duty, and there will be people who are sick or injured every day, so Qingya's vacation is different from mine, she has to go to the hospital today.

I came back very early, Qingya hadn't gone to work yet, and when I came out of the shower, she came over to ask about the wedding last night, but she saw my sick look, and she was going to the hospital without saying a word.

I pulled her hand away and smiled, "You go to work first, I'll come over after washing the clothes, don't worry, I have returned the keys to her house, and I won't care about her affairs in the future, I will only actively cooperate with your treatment." ”

She looked at me in disbelief, "Is what you said true? After you left yesterday, I still wondered, will you fool me again, will you really go to the Hidden Kingdom for treatment after you deal with the company's affairs?"

Here it is again, I am most afraid of her distrustful eyes, sighing, I reached out and rubbed her head, "I won't fool you again this time, you can go to work with peace of mind, don't be late." ”

"Can you still drive in your current state? If I don't wait for you any longer, we'll go together later." She was still not reassured.

"I know very well in my body, I've gotten through the toughest moments, and it's absolutely fine to drive. "I didn't dare to tell her, I had just driven back, and knowing that I was staying at Meng Lu's overnight, she must have to think about it again.

She reached out and probed my forehead, "Hmm...... Fortunately, it's just a low-grade fever now, but you have to pay attention, I'll go to the hospital and wait for you first, I'll arrange everything for you, and come directly to the office to find me. ”

"Okay, then you drive carefully. I waved my hand and watched her leave.

When I was drying the clothes after washing, Meng Lu called, I didn't answer after a look, I hung up directly and sent her a text message, telling her that I was fine, and Qingya took care of her, so that she could rest assured.

Although it was very uncomfortable last night, the onset of the disease this time was not serious, and after doing my homework at home, I took a break before going to the hospital to receive the simplest.

If the situation is not serious, as long as the fever goes away, just like a small cold, the only difference is that external medicine is useless for me, and I can only take intravenous injection.

I left the hospital in the afternoon, didn't go back to the apartment, and went straight to my parents, this may be the last year I spent with them, and I can't help but cherish it.

During the Spring Festival, I have been accompanying my parents and visiting relatives and friends with them, and most of my relatives don't know about me, so I don't feel sad, but my aunt's family knows.

When I went to my aunt's house, Qingya was not there, and she was not on duty in the hospital, so I didn't know that I was going to play crazy again, and without her as a person who adjusted the atmosphere, the atmosphere between us has always been weird.

I don't know if it's because of the weather, or if the illness hasn't recovered at all a few days ago, only a few days after the Spring Festival, my illness broke out very seriously once, and I fell into a long coma.

Qingya took advantage of my coma and didn't ask for my opinion, just discussed it with my parents, and arranged a palliative operation for me, and she did it herself, so I didn't even have a chance to refuse.

Palliative surgery, as the name suggests, is incurable, and can only temporarily relieve the symptoms, prolong my survival time, and strive for other treatment opportunities.

Due to my health, I couldn't go to work on time, so in order to let me recuperate with peace of mind, Qingya confiscated my mobile phone and only took a book to pass the time for me every day.

I'm very worried about the company's situation, according to the usual practice, there will be a meeting at the beginning of the year, and I don't know if Lu Zhenting went to see his future father-in-law and mother-in-law and came back, as well as Meng Lu, and now Li Muchi should also come back, how is their relationship developing?

Later, when I was in better health, under my soft grinding and hard bubbles, Qingya returned the phone to me, and I hurriedly called Lu Zhenting and told him that I had something to do and would not be able to go to the company a few days later, and by the way, I cared about his lifelong events.

Unexpectedly, because of the distance, he and Li Sisi were strongly opposed by her parents, and the marriage came to naught, and he was sad to death, but he couldn't leave his family to live with her parents.

As an only daughter, Li Sisi couldn't give up her family affection and choose love, so she insisted on coming over to be with Liu Jun, and only a fool like Meng Lu would steal the household registration book to get married for Zhou Mingchuan, and almost fell out with her family.

But it's really rare for her to be the best parent, she can forgive her at that time, but later she did that kind of thing to her for the sake of a Meng Shuwei and money, and I feel sad for her when I think about it now.

When my body was almost recovered, I was discharged from the hospital and went back to work in the company, according to the promise to Qingya, I began to hand over my work to Lu Zhenting and Meng Lu, and the shares were not planned to be withdrawn for the time being, and I was going to keep them for my parents as a pension fund.

At this time, it was already February, and I was so reluctant to think that my days in this company were one day or one less day, and the most important thing was that after leaving, I couldn't look up and see Meng Lu concentrating on work.

In the two months since the surgery, although I have had two episodes of illness, it is not serious, only some of the simplest symptoms.

But one thing I am more and more worried about is that I may become blind before I die, and I have felt that my eyesight has deteriorated at night lately, and I am much more careful when driving than before.

Eyesight is also an important reason why I don't want to be with Meng Lu, I'm afraid that after I finally get with her, I wake up one day and find that I can't see the light anymore, so even if Meng Lu stands in front of me, what can I do?

Originally, he was counting on Li Muchi to be able to give Meng Lu happiness, but when he came back after the year, he brought a girlfriend, and I heard Meng Lu say that it was his first love, and he was married once before, and he met at the class reunion a year ago, and the old love came together when he rekindled.

In this way, I subconsciously began to worry about Meng Lu's future, and I said to Qingya: "How did things turn out like this? Li Muchi married another woman, so what should Meng Lu do?"

Qingya glared at me angrily, "What do you care about so much? She is not a child, she has already been divorced once, if she finds a man again, she will definitely open her eyes and look carefully, this time it is not thanks to her previous refusal? If she was successfully matched by you a year ago, wouldn't she be sad again now?"

I thought about it and felt that what she said was right, this time Meng Lu did a good job, at least she was much calmer than me, I saw that I was really sick and rushed to the doctor, and almost killed her.

I told Qingya that I would leave the company in two months, but because of selfish reasons, I delayed it for another month, and it was not until the end of April that the work was finally handed over and I had to leave.

The night I left the company, I invited Meng Lu and Zhenting out for dinner, and saw me off at that time, and it was not so easy to see them again in the future.

Zhenting has been very depressed because of Li Sisi's affairs, and there has been no change in a few months, which can be seen in the depth of affection, but unfortunately I can try my best to help him with the company's affairs, but the emotional matters must be handled by himself.

But in this way, he is a lot more concerned about the company's business, and I obviously feel a lot more relaxed in the past few months.

That night, Zhenting left after eating, deliberately leaving the space for me and Meng Lu, I asked for a bottle of red wine, I was not drunk, but Meng Lu was a little drunk, so I had to send her home and kiss her.

I was very restrained, I didn't do anything more excessive, even if there was no Li Muchi, I still couldn't touch Meng Lu casually, I was a man who couldn't afford to be responsible, and this would bring her a lot of harm.

She wanted to leave me behind because she didn't know, and she hugged me tightly from behind, begging me not to go, her tone was so sad and deeply reluctant.

I really wanted to stay, even if it was only for one night, I was willing to do it, but I was very sober-minded, and I knew that I couldn't give her a future, so I ruthlessly broke her hand and resolutely left her apartment, without even looking back.

As I broke her fingers around my waist one by one, my heart ached and I couldn't breathe, and every effort felt like it was going to exhaust all my strength.

I am such a cruel person to leave the woman I love so ruthlessly.

Stepping out of her room, I walked quickly into the elevator, let out a long sigh, leaning against the wall and unable to take a step, my heart ached, as if I had taken a knife and dug out my heart, leaving only a hollow, I don't know what to use to fill this gap.

Affectionate parting since ancient times, it is even more cold to the Qingqiu Festival.

The ancients loved to be sad in spring and autumn, and now it is obviously the most beautiful April day in the world, but I inexplicably feel a chill rising from under my feet, and instantly swim all over my body.

I didn't go back to the apartment that night, I went to my parents' side, and then I never went back, and two days later I boarded a plane to the hidden country, and Qingya specially asked for a few days off to accompany me.

Meng Lu thought that I was going to spend my honeymoon with Qingya and blessed us, but I could only smile bitterly in my heart, so it was okay, at least she thought I was happy and would not worry about me.

When I arrived in the hidden country, many things were arranged by Qingya, but she only had a few days off, and my mother wanted to accompany me, but I refused, so when Qingya left, I was left alone.

I stayed abroad for almost three months, during which I have been receiving treatment, and I have spent a lot of money, but the effect is not very obvious, and I am also a dead horse as a live horse doctor, so I don't care very much.

I have been thinking about leaving, I don't want to waste the little time I have left in the hospital, it is really not worth it, Qingya advises me to hold on a little longer, maybe there will be a miracle.

What is a miracle? Extremely difficult to do, something unusual, I have long passed the age of fantasies, I think I don't have this luck, I packed up my things and left the hidden country.

I once wanted to travel around the world, but no one supported me, it was all opposition, and I took advantage of this opportunity to go abroad, so I didn't return to China immediately after leaving the hidden country, but went around several nearby countries to enjoy the exotic scenery.

A trip to a foreign country that made me feel very comfortable, and I felt like a normal person now, and I could run freely, which was really good.

I wanted to stay outside for a few more days, but a few days later, I received a call from Qingya, telling me that something had happened to Meng Lu's family, her father was seriously ill, and I immediately had no intention of traveling, so I bought a ticket to return to China as soon as possible.

I went back to see my parents first, rested at home for a day before returning to the apartment, and when Qingya came back from work, I knocked on the door of her apartment.

She opened the door and was very surprised to see me coming back, looking at me with wide eyes and stunned, "Brother, why did you come back all of a sudden, and you didn't even say hello?"

"Didn't you say that something happened to Meng Lu's family?" I asked her anxiously, "How is her father now?"

"I was discharged from the hospital a long time ago, Alzheimer's, and I can't die for the time being, but I can't be cured. Qingya pouted and let me into the house.

Ling Xi came over to greet me with a smile, and said to me while tying an apron: "I'll eat here in the evening, I'll do it right away, and let you taste my craftsmanship." ”

I looked at him with some surprise, I clearly remembered that Ling Xi couldn't even cook rice in a rice cooker before I left, it had only been more than three months, and even the dishes could be fried?

"Surprised, isn't it?" Qingya looked at me with a grin, "If a man wants to live well and please his wife, he has to be able to enter the hall and go down to the kitchen." ”

"That sounds like it. I walked to the sofa and sat down, wanting to continue to inquire about Meng Lu's family.

Qingya didn't contact Meng Lu, this time it was because Meng Lu's father was hospitalized in the hospital where she worked, they met unexpectedly, so that's all they knew.

"Well, I'm moving. During the meal, Qingya suddenly said to me, "Ling Xi bought a house a few years ago, and it has been renovated for a long time, and we are going to move in this weekend." ”

Today is Friday, the weekend is the day after tomorrow, I didn't expect me to come back just in time to help her move, maybe this is also a kind of fate, if I come back a few days later, knock on the door of this house and can't see her.

It's just time for me to come back!

I was going to go to Meng Lu quickly, so I helped move and went to see their new house, but I delayed it for a few days and never contacted Meng Lu.

Despite this, I still got some news from Zhenting, knowing that Meng Lu had already dealt with her parents' affairs, and it was handled well, it seems that I was too worried.

Meng Lu has shortcomings, yes, but doesn't she also have advantages, and she is not stupid at all, just a little stupid, as long as she lets go of her hand, she will definitely be able to grow up, my worries are superfluous.

After I was done, I asked Zhenting and Meng Lu to have dinner together, and after a few months, everyone seemed to have changed a lot.

Zhenting became more and more silent, and it seemed that he had not yet come out of Li Sisi's feelings, while Meng Lu was a lot more mature and stable, with an intellectual beauty.

Just like the time before leaving, Zhenting took the initiative to leave first, leaving the space for me and Meng Lu, I drank some wine with her, and she knew that I was not married when she saw that there was no ring on my finger.

How could I marry Qingya? She's my own cousin, which is not allowed by law, it's just a show.

A secret was revealed, and then it was a little out of control, Meng Lu thought of the relationship between Qingya and Ling Xi from my relationship with Qingya, and I was overwhelmed by the questions thrown at me one after another.

Originally, I wasn't going to send her home, but when she asked me, I couldn't bear to refuse, and she said that she had something to tell me, so I had to send her to the apartment, and then I realized that her so-called business was actually to be with me.

In the past, because of Qingya's relationship, she had to restrain her feelings, but now that she knows that I am not married to Qingya, and Qingya is still with Ling Xi, she has no worries.

I don't want to promise her, just a short-lived person like me, not only can't give her the happiness she wants, but also brings her infinite pain, that's really cruel.

I told her that she would regret loving me, but she was very firm and said that she would rather regret it in the unknown future than leave a lifetime of regrets.

This sentence touched me deeply, I have always been worried that she will regret it, but I never thought that there would be many regrets between us, so I let it go and agreed to her desperately.

I didn't stay in Meng Lu's apartment that night, I sat for a while and left, and she sent me out with a look of disappointment and loneliness in her eyes.

She must have wanted me to stay, but I wasn't sure if I could do it if I had just impulsively agreed to be with her, and I had to go back and think about it.

I started thinking about it on the way, asking myself if I really wanted to be with her, how much time I had to spend with her, and what could I give her?

Thinking of her infatuated appearance, her reluctant expression, my heart hurt like a knife, and it was a blunt knife, and I could even hear the sound of the blade rubbing against my heart.

In the end, I gritted my teeth and decided to fulfill her wish and let her move into my apartment from tomorrow, even if it was only for a few months of happiness.

Qingya didn't give me back the key to my house after she moved, she said that she would call me at least once a day to make sure I was okay, and if no one answered, she would come over immediately, so the key had to be kept.

I had no choice, so I had to go out the next day and get another set of keys, and then step on the dots to pick up Meng Lu from work, and from then on, we started our cohabitation life.

After returning to China, I have not looked for a job, nor have I returned to the company, in my current situation, I am afraid that I will not have to mention work again in this life, so I can only be a housewife and man at home with peace of mind.

Life with Meng Lu is very monotonous, but plain is true, I can hug her to sleep every night, feel her real existence, and when I open my eyes in the morning, I can see her quiet sleeping face, isn't this a day when I have always been with my mother?

She has to go to work, so I get up every morning to prepare a nutritious breakfast for her, and then send her to work, get some food at noon, and pick her up when she gets off work.

I will buy a lot of fruits and snacks at home, watch movies while eating with her at night, go to the bathroom together before going to bed, rub each other's backs and massage, and then I do the laundry.

Her hair is already very long, I wash her hair every other day, I wash her hair for the first time, rubbing her long and soft hair, the indescribable warmth in my heart, especially when blowing her hair, there is an inexplicable sense of happiness.

I didn't tell Qingya about being with Meng Lu, lest she think about it again, but in the end she still knew, because Meng Lu and I ran into her and Ling Xi when we went to the mall.

That day, Ling Xi was supposed to take her to pick a diamond ring, and they were about to get married, Meng Lu had sharp eyes, and saw them at a glance in the vast sea of people, and then we were discovered by them.

Qingya pulled me aside, avoiding Meng Lu's gaze, and asked me angrily, "Didn't you leave her a long time ago?

I smiled, "yes, we're already together." ”