She was surprised to see that I was still alive, could it be that she thought that this was the last time she came to see me?

I tried to make myself as calm and calm as I could, so that she could not see that I was actually very excited, because I knew that she was worried about me all the time and blamed herself.

She rushed over and hugged me with tears, and the long-lost warm feeling instantly swam all over my body, and I hugged her for a long time and was reluctant to let go, because once I let go, I would have no reason to hold her like this again.

I promised her that I would never force her to do anything again, but she told me that she had figured it out and was willing to let go of her hatred for Meng Shuwei, and I was really relieved.

Originally, I still regretted it, blaming myself for being too anxious, and if I hadn't forced her to accept my opinion so strongly, she wouldn't have made such an impulsive move.

Qingya also told me in the afternoon that if I really died this time, she would definitely not let Meng Lu go, I know Qingya's temper very well, she has never been alarmist, and she will try to do it when she says it.

For example, she once said that she wanted to treat me, so she decided to study medicine, and finally became a doctor of medicine, and she is still trying to find a way to save me.

After chatting with Meng Lu for a while, Qingya brought Ling Xi and Lu Zhenting in, and then cooperated with me to perform a loving scene in front of Meng Lu as we discussed in the afternoon.

This was reminded by Qingya during the discussion in the afternoon, and she said that the biggest reason why Meng Lu was still in love with me after knowing that she was my fiancée was that she still had illusions about me, and the people who gave her this glimmer of hope were the two of us.

Although Qingya and I have always appeared in front of Qingya as a couple, we have never made any intimate movements, so this time, I kissed Qingya's forehead in front of everyone.

Brother kissed his sister's forehead, this shouldn't be too much, right? I think Ling Xi is also a person who has spent time abroad, and his mind should be relatively open-minded, and he won't mind.

I secretly looked at Meng Lu's expression, her eyes were very sad when she saw me kissing Qingya's forehead, as if she was very sad, I guess she felt at that time should be like the night of New Year's Day at her house, I saw her and Li Muchi when they were ambiguous.

Thinking of the uncomfortable feeling that night, I couldn't help but feel sorry for Meng Lu, it was all because I was not good, and I didn't grasp my feelings well, so that she fell in love with me, so sad and sad now, I hurt her.

She didn't stay long in the hospital and left, and her mood was very low, I was so worried about her, I wanted to call her to comfort her, but Qingya stopped her.

She said righteously: "You are tantamount to giving a life-saving straw to a dying person, you always show up when she needs care and help, give her hope for life, how can she not be emotional? But you have to understand that you are not helping her now, but harming her." ”

I looked at her, and couldn't say a word to refute it, I was so good at doing bad things, wasn't that what I was talking about? I shouldn't have provoked Meng Lu in the first place, otherwise she wouldn't be so embarrassed now.

Qingya glared at me with big beautiful eyes, "Since you have decided to let go of her and let her learn to go on her own, then don't give her any help, if you can help her for a while, can you still help her for a lifetime? I am working very hard to cooperate with you in acting, helping you, don't let me feel cold, all my efforts are in vain!"

"Okay, I see, I just don't call her. I smiled heartlessly at Qingya.

When the love is strong, the love becomes thinner, but now it is really not affectionate! I shouldn't be affectionate anymore, or swing the sword to break the love thread!

Qingya was forcibly left in the hospital for observation for two days, I removed the ugly gauze wrapped around my head, only pasted it on the wound, and then was discharged from the hospital.

I don't actually reject the hospital, I've been here a lot over the years, and I'm a regular visitor here, especially this year, and if the hospital has any point cards, I'm sure I'll be able to redeem gifts.

But I still prefer the outside air, although there is too much car exhaust, at least there is no pungent smell of disinfectant water, I like the feeling of being able to breathe freely, and my whole body can relax immediately.

Qingya had already driven my car back from the speakeasy, parked in the hospital parking lot, and I drove back to my apartment.

I have lived in this apartment for several years, and my feelings are still very deep, and I even thought that when I was going to die, it would be better to come back here.

I don't want to die in the hospital, there are already so many deaths, so why add me to another one? I don't want to die at my parents' house, so they will think of me as long as they are at home, so why should I bear it?

At the end of the year, there are a lot of things in the company, and I really want to go back quickly to finish the work that has accumulated for so many days, but I have no choice but to let me go back from Qingya to Lu Zhenting, and even Li Sisi will not let me go back, and they all tell me to rest, so I have to stay in the apartment.

The apartment is a two-bedroom apartment, I only need one bedroom, and there are no guests who usually come, so the guest room is used as a study by me, and I put a few bookshelves in it, and I basically stay in the room when I don't go out.

In the modern era of online books, I still prefer physical books, and I can only experience what ink fragrance is when I touch the paper, so I like this study very much.

Qingya studied piano when she was in high school, and then went abroad when the piano was left at home.

After she returned to China, she would come over to play a song when she was interested, and she also played a four-hand game with me, and asked Ling Xi to record it as a mobile phone ringtone, this person is a little narcissistic.

On Saturday night, Qingya and Ling Xi watched a movie on my side until late, Meng Lu suddenly called and said that she was looking for her, I gave the phone to Qingya, she hid in the study to answer, and after a while, she came out and gave me the phone.

Meng Lu said some very strange things, her voice was confused, and it sounded like she was in a very low mood, but it was not the feeling of sleep, but like she was drunk.

Did something happen to her again? Didn't she say that she had let go of her hatred the last time she was in the hospital? What is it for now? This person always makes me feel uneasy!

I wanted to ask more, but although she didn't hang up the phone, she lost her voice, and my whole heart rose to my throat, especially when I thought of her last sentence: "Xiaobai, promise me, you must be happy!"

I didn't have time to think about it, I took out the key I took from Li Sisi from the drawer and went out, Qingya wanted to stop me, but I yelled back, and I didn't let her go with me, I directly handed her over to Ling Xi.

I was scared all the way, I chose to let her go when she needed care and help the most, is this too cruel for her, will she not be able to think about it, and feel that she has nothing to love?

Thinking of this, I became more and more anxious, taking advantage of the fact that there were fewer people and fewer cars in the middle of the night, I increased the accelerator, and this was the first time I drove the car so fast since I got my driver's license.

When I came to Meng Lu's apartment, my hands were trembling when I opened the door, I was so afraid that when I opened the door, I would see my lover who had lost his life, why didn't I find out about this problem earlier? Is it because I haven't contacted her for the past few days?

As soon as I opened the door and turned on the light, I saw Meng Lu curled up quietly on the sofa, I walked towards her quickly, and before I reached her, I already smelled a smell of wine, she was really drinking.

Condescendingly, I caught a glimpse of her phone falling to the floor, my heart skipped a beat, and I quickly leaned over and reached out to probe her snort, fortunately, she was fine, it really scared me to death!

I exhaled and took a few deep breaths to calm her down, and then woke her up and asked her loudly what she was doing.

She thought she was dreaming, and when she looked at me, her affectionate eyes made me feel distressed, how could she fall in love with me? No, I couldn't give her the happiness she wanted.

Sighing helplessly, worried that she would catch a cold if she slept on the sofa like this, I carried her into the bedroom, and when I wanted to pull the quilt to cover her, she took the opportunity to pull and fall on the bed.

She hugged me tightly and regarded my appearance as a dream, so she had no scruples and boldly expressed her love to me, she liked me, and she hoped that she would never wake up in this dream with me.

I thought she just wanted to get drunk and relieve a thousand sorrows, but she told me defenselessly that she was actually committing suicide, I was not wrong before, she had lost the courage and hope to live.

I hugged her, my eyes suddenly became hot, my nose was sour, Zhou Mingchuan's derailment did not knock her down, but the hopeless love between me completely defeated her, I hurt her.

She was very drunk and soon fell asleep, I covered her with a quilt, and then sat on the edge of the bed, looking at her quiet sleeping face stupidly, and cried in front of her for the first time.

Meng Lu, what should I do with you? Seeing you like this, I really feel distressed, how I want to be able to take good care of you for the rest of my life.

When I love you, you don't love me, I'm relieved, now I still love you, you are in love with me, and I don't dare to face or accept, I'm sorry for you!

Reaching out and gently stroking her face, my tears fell one by one, silently hitting the quilt, knowing that men should bleed without tears, but the tears just couldn't stop.

The boy has tears and doesn't flick, but he hasn't reached the sad place!

I'm not a weak person, after knowing that I don't have long to live, I can face it with a smile, and I can silently endure the pain of every episode, but now I cry like a child.

In the past, I wanted to go with the flow and live one day at a time, but looking at Meng Lu tonight, I didn't want to die for the first time, I really wanted to live to be seventy or eighty like most people.

I want to be with Meng Lu, marry her, and then run the company together, and have a lovely child, I promise that both boys and girls will be pampered in the palm of their hands.

Death is not terrible at all, what is terrible is the human heart, there are too many reluctances in life, my relatives, my lovers, are deeply entangled in my heart, so that I can't let go.

Wiping away my tears, I lay down beside Meng Lu, hugged her tightly in my arms, kissed her forehead, her face, and wanted to live with her like this for the rest of my life, at sunrise and sunset.

I fell asleep with her in my arms that night, and woke up early the next day, and seeing that she was still asleep, I went out to clean up the living room, and then went down to buy some food, and was going to make her lunch, for she had not yet tasted my craft.

I was going to wait for her to wake up and persuade her to give her hope for life, but when I came back from buying groceries, she not only woke up, but also told me that she would not do anything stupid again.

She seems to have suddenly figured it out and grown up, but the price she paid was too great, if she hadn't run out of gas, she would have been a cold corpse now, what else could she talk about?

Seeing that she is in good condition, there must be no problem in taking care of herself, I thought about Qingya's words, and I didn't want to give her an ethereal hope of love, so I didn't cook for her, and left after saying a few words to her.

My tone was very heavy, and she looked a little aggrieved, but I couldn't help it, I kept singing red face, and it was time to play a black face, so that she wouldn't continue to rely on me.

But even though she said that she would not do stupid things in the future, I still didn't feel at ease, and I kept watching her carefully when I went to work, and I started to worry as soon as her expression changed.

She did what she said, and nothing like that happened since, but her temperament has changed, and she has a feeling of seeing through the red dust, but it is not very serious, and she is saved.

There is one thing I have always been unsure of, that is, Meng Lu's feelings for Zhou Mingchuan, although she seems to no longer care, I always feel that she still has this man in her heart.

Zhou Mingchuan is her first love, they have a three-year relationship and a five-year marriage, and they were still a model couple in their school back then, it is indeed untrue to say that she let go so quickly.

When the Chinese New Year was approaching, Meng Shuwei was finally going to hold a wedding with Zhou Mingchuan, she invited Meng Lu to participate, but Meng Lu didn't seem to want to go, I think this is a good opportunity to test her heart, and I hope she can go.

At first, she didn't agree, which made me naturally suspect that she didn't dare to face this fact, or rather her own heart.

But then she still agreed to go to the wedding, as if to prove it to me, but I don't feel too worried that she will go alone, after all, Meng Shuwei is with Liu Weiqiang, I am afraid that there will be some conspiracy in this wedding.

At this time, it was best for Li Muchi to accompany Meng Lu, but unfortunately Meng Shuwei's day was too late, and Li Muchi had already gone home on vacation, so he had to accompany Meng Lu by himself.

On the day of the holiday, I still got up very early, and that morning I was reading in the study, and the door was suddenly kicked open, and I was able to enter my apartment freely, and there was only one person who was so violent.

Sure enough, as soon as the door opened, her figure flashed in, walked to the desk and asked me menacingly, "Brother, your words don't count, you're a villain!"

I looked at her in surprise, I don't know where to provoke her again, I think I have always been very promised, what I can't do will never be easily said, for her teacher to ask the guilt, I can't figure it out like a monk in Zhanger.

Although her temper is not very good, she is by no means an unreasonable person, I must have offended her somewhere, but I didn't understand it for a while, so I could only ask, "What's wrong?

"Didn't you promise to ignore Shu Menglu's affairs a long time ago, why did you accompany her to the wedding of her ex-husband and sister?" she screamed as she slapped the table.

"How do you know?" I was going to hide from her, because I knew she was going to be angry.

"She called me, what, you still want to hide it from me?" Qingya gritted her teeth and gurgled as if she was going to kill.

Meng Lu really cared about Qingya too much, so for this matter, she specially called Qingya to ask for her opinion and asked her if she agreed to let me go.

Ling Xi followed behind her, and when she saw this, she hurriedly and gently persuaded her, "Qingya, you be quiet, this is not a quarrel, he is your brother." ”

Qingya glared at me fiercely, "I don't have such a brother who doesn't know life and death, is selfish and untrustworthy!"

Seeing that she was so angry, I quickly explained, "Well, I promise this is definitely the last time, as long as I find the answer tonight, I will never worry about her business in the future." ”

"I don't believe you, you'll just perfunctory me!"

"I didn't perfunctory you, and I've already decided that I will leave the company completely in two months, so you can rest assured, right?"

"Why wait two months and don't go from today?" she still refused to give up, the man was stubborn like a donkey.

Ling Xi shook his head helplessly on the side, he has always seen Qingya angry about my affairs recently, he must be very annoyed with me now, right?

I explained in a low voice, "At the end of the year, things are too busy, and I have so much work to do, there is no way to hand it over, can you just give me a little more time? ”

"Really?" Qingya's eyes immediately lit up, "You said it yourself, I didn't force you." ”

"When did I lie to you?" I was utterly defeated by her.

After returning from abroad, she told me that there was a new treatment in Yinguo that might help me, and asked me to try it, but after checking the information myself, I felt that there was no hope, so I never agreed.

This time, in order to let her beat me to accompany Meng Lu to the wedding, I took the initiative to agree to her in a hurry, and it seems that I will really go to the hidden country next year.

The wedding banquet was in the evening, and I went to pick her up in the evening, and she didn't talk much along the way, but after arriving at the hotel, we were surprised to see Liu Weiqiang, and we felt more and more that there was a problem.

I quietly pulled Meng Lu outside the hotel and discussed with her that I would find out their purpose next, and tonight was not destined to be a peaceful night.

Sure enough, not long after the dinner began, Meng Shuwei took the initiative to come to us, she took Meng Lu away alone, and I was entangled by Zhou Mingchuan, but fortunately, I personally sent Meng Lu to the place designated by Meng Shuwei.

Moreover, from the moment she left my sight, I dialed her mobile phone and wore Bluetooth headphones, although I couldn't see what Meng Shuwei was doing to her, but I could hear it clearly.

Meng Shuwei is really inhumane, she actually found Liu Weiqiang to force Meng Lu, if we hadn't been prepared, Meng Lu would have been harmed by them for the rest of her life, I suddenly didn't want Meng Lu to continue to associate with people like Meng Shuwei.

We wanted to leave as soon as we saw through their plot, but we were delayed due to some things, and unfortunately, I suddenly fell ill at this time.

When I had a headache, I felt it, but Meng Lu had to hold the child in order to free up Zhou Lijuan's hands and time to eat, so I had to endure and continue to stay.

Finally waited for Zhou Lijuan to finish eating, and I hurriedly took Meng Lu away, but halfway through the car, I couldn't help the stomach tumbling over the river and the sea, stopped the car to avoid Meng Lu's sight and vomited.

It's like this every time, I'm already used to it, but with Meng Lu present today, I have to be careful in everything, if she sees a hint of it, then I can't imagine the days to come.

My head was aching more and more, my consciousness gradually began to drift, and even my vision blurred, and I gripped the steering wheel with both hands, occasionally pinching myself hard to bring myself back to consciousness.

Meng Lu asked me to go to the hospital, I knew what my situation was, so why bother? I brought her out, I had to send her back safely, after seeing Meng Shuwei and Liu Weiqiang's ruthlessness, I couldn't rest assured of her.

It was because of my persistence that she almost had a car accident.

I knew that my situation was not optimistic, so I deliberately drove the car very slowly, but as the headache increased violently, my mind became blank, my eyes were wide open but I couldn't see clearly, I didn't notice the red light at all, and I just ran over.

It was the first time I had run a red light since I got my driver's license, but there were no pedestrians at the time, so I was lucky enough to avoid a car accident, and I reduced my speed even lower.

Originally, I planned to send her to the apartment and go back, but Meng Lu was probably frightened by my previous behavior, seeing that I was in a bad state, she said that she wouldn't let me go back like this, and threatened me to call Qingya, so I had to compromise.

It's so late, it's cold, I must not pull Qingya out of the bed, and Ling Xi must come with her as soon as she goes out, so everyone will be affected by me again.

I rested in Meng Lu's apartment for a while, hoping that the situation would ease a little, but it turned out to be the opposite, the situation was getting worse and worse, and she kindly gave me cold medicine, which made my stomach start to resist again, and I couldn't help but vomit again.

But she didn't realize that it had something to do with her, and after I vomited the medicine, she kindly poured water and let me take it again, and then I was tossed again, and she stopped giving me medicine.