After shopping and arriving at her house, she carried out a detailed division of labor, Li Muchi worked in the kitchen with her, just like the male and female hosts, I couldn't help but envy and be very pleased to see it.

She arranged for me very simply, just set the table, and it would be done in a few minutes, and I wanted to take the opportunity to back up the keys to her house, so I went out halfway.

But I regretted it halfway through, even if I loved her and wanted to care for her, I had no reason to back up her house key, right?

By this time they had already prepared dinner, and when I got back, everyone was moving, and the four of them sat together in pairs to drink, and I had no intention of drinking at first because of the elegant prohibition of alcohol.

I don't want to die so soon, really!

Recently, I have listened to Qingya's words, she doesn't let me do anything, I don't do it, she doesn't let me eat anything, I don't eat, I always want to live a few more days, see more people I care about.

Li Muchi served her vegetables very attentively, stuffed her entire bowl of noodles, and called her shallow very affectionately, and her words were gentle.

It's not that I haven't seen you and me when she was in love with Zhou Mingchuan, but seeing Li Muchi with her this night, I felt very uncomfortable, this may be what people often call jealousy.

But who am I to be jealous? Didn't I just want to get them together from the beginning? Now that everything is going according to my goals, why should I be uncomfortable?

Silently picking up the rice in the bowl, I rarely even go to the dishes, and I regret a little that I didn't find an excuse to leave earlier, in fact, what if I can't eat the food she cooks?

Tonight's table of dishes, Meng Lu didn't make it for me alone, and didn't Li Muchi have the credit for it? I'm really willful again, since I knew that Meng Lu was going to divorce, I don't seem to be so easy to grasp my heart.

After eating, I began to pour myself a drink, while thinking about my behavior, I suddenly hated myself, I actually didn't want to let go of Meng Lu at all, I used to worry that she was a married woman, and I couldn't cross the bottom line of morality.

But now that she's free, my greed is revealed, that's why I kissed her last time in the car, and I'm so uncomfortable at this table today.

It turns out that Jin Yebai is not a good person, he is not only selfish, but also so hypocritical, he obviously wants to get it, but he pretends not to care and wants to push it away.

Thinking that I was so bad, I even forgot my original intention, and I still wanted to get Meng Lu's body and mind, I really wanted to slap myself a few big mouths!

Li Sisi didn't drink well, she got drunk quickly, and started a drunken madness, I watched coldly from the sidelines, asked Zhenting to send her home, and Meng Lu and Li Muchi sent them downstairs together.

When they came back, I had already drunk half a bottle of wine, and I was a little drunk, and some of my feelings were even more uncontrollable, Meng Lu seemed to notice my strangeness and began to interrogate me, I had to use Qingya as a shield.

Li Muchi behaved very much like a male host, he accompanied me to drink the rest of the wine, I was even more drunk, he was also a little drunk, and left after eating and drinking.

Meng Lu kept urging me to go back, but I asked about her and Li Muchi, I persuaded her to be with him, this is my selfishness again, I hope to see her relationship have a home, and I also hope that her home can become my firewall.

My selfish face was revealed again, which made me hate myself even more, and the more I wanted to escape, so I decided to leave the company after the year, swing my sword to break the love thread, and use distance to block my growing desire/desire for her.

The alcohol soon took effect, my body began to heat up, and an unprecedented urge kept rushing through my body, but before I was controlled by desire, my stomach cleared my mind a little.

The feeling of churning in my stomach made my consciousness clearer, and I vomited in the bathroom for a long time, almost spitting out the bitter bile, and I was so uncomfortable.

After leaving the bathroom, I wanted to go back, alcohol has eroded my brain nerves, it's not that I'm fine if I vomit the wine, if I continue like this, I will definitely do something to hurt Meng Lu.

But this fool had been urging me to hurry back, but now he wouldn't let me go, and pushed me down on the sofa, and I looked at her and suddenly became frightened.

Drunkenness/sex isn't something that only happens on TV, and I was about to lose my control, so when she reached for my coat, I pulled her into my arms.

Love but can't get, I've been driven crazy by myself, in the dead of night, in the alcohol numb my nerves now, I can't do anything, hold her tightly in my arms.

Because we are just friends, I basically don't have a chance to hold her like this, so as soon as my hands are wrapped around her waist, I am reluctant to let go, I really want to hold her like this all the time.

Her body was soft and warm, and she looked at me with a pair of confused and somewhat confused eyes, smelling the fragrance of the shampoo on her hair, and I kissed her lips again immorally.

What happened later, I can't remember, I was really drunk and unconscious, and I tried very hard to suppress my desires, except for kissing her, I didn't take the initiative to possess her body.

I felt that I had a very beautiful dream, in the dream Meng Lu took the initiative to hand her over to me, and went to Wushan Yunyu with me, I was very satisfied, thinking that I had finally changed from an old boy to a man.

When I woke up the next day, it was already late, and it was past the time to go to work, and I was lying in bed alone, and Meng Lu had long since disappeared.

I checked the sheets and they were clean and didn't leave any traces, so I didn't know if I had just had a dream last night or if I really wanted her.

She prepared breakfast for me, I rushed to the company, and I didn't eat, and after I arrived at the company, only Meng Lu was alone in the small office, presumably Lu Zhenting stayed at home to take care of the drunk Li Sisi.

At lunchtime, I asked Meng Lu about last night, and her expression was light, neither happy nor worry-free, and she only asked me to treat it as a dream.

It's a dream, which means it's not a dream, it turns out that I really wanted her last night, so that she turned me into a real man, but unfortunately I didn't feel it at all.

I was worried that this incident would affect her relationship with Li Muchi, but she said that she didn't have that kind of relationship with him, and he had no right to interfere with her kind of thing, anyway, this matter was settled.

At this time, I am embarrassed at night, and a pillow of yellow sorghum dreams floats away, that's all.

Meng Lu and Li Muchi's development seems to be going very well, the events of that night did not have any impact on them, I, an irresponsible man, dare not mention a word in front of others, I can only silently say sorry to Meng Lu in my heart.

We deliberately avoid the topic of New Year's Day, and even deliberately avoid being alone, but sometimes this kind of solitude is unavoidable.

Meng Lu once followed Meng Shuwei during her pregnancy and discovered one of her secrets, that is, Liu Weiqiang, a mysterious man she raised outside.

I have been investigating this person for a long time, and then I made an amazing discovery, so I was going to take Meng Lu to see it in person, and by the way, I asked her for something, hoping that she would be able to agree to me after reading it.

Meng Shuwei is Meng Lu's own sister, Meng Lu is a kind person, and she has always cherished family affection.

Even people like me, who cherish life very much because they don't live long, so I sincerely hope that everyone can treat life well, once hated her, let alone Meng Lu.

People often say that impulse is the devil, but hatred is more lethal than impulse, thinking of Meng Lu's gritted teeth every time she mentions Meng Shuwei, I am really afraid that she will fall into the abyss of hatred and can't extricate herself.

If I still have a lot of time, I will definitely guide her out of the hatred step by step and patiently, but unfortunately God has never given me this opportunity, I can only try to use the shortest time to resolve the hatred in her heart.

Her flesh-and-blood relationship with Meng Shuwei is my best breakthrough, I hope to use her innate compassion to awaken her kindness, and Liu Weiqiang is a key for me.

In fact, I deceived Meng Lu, I didn't lose it when I followed him before, and I had already investigated him clearly, this man was destined to ruin Meng Shuwei, if she didn't understand how to let go.

Tonight, I took Meng Lu to see with my own eyes how bad this man is, and what will happen to Meng Shuwei if she follows him, but Meng Lu's reaction hit me hard.

She was occupied by hatred, blinded by her eyes, and extinguished her sympathy for Meng Shuwei. What's more, she also wished that Meng Shuwei was ruined by Liu Weiqiang by herself.

I'm so sad, Meng Lu was not like this before, the one I love will not treat human life like a mustard, let alone be so cold-blooded and ruthless, I like her kindness and truthfulness.

Because I wanted her to redeem herself and break free from the shackles of hatred, she quarreled with me, reacted very emotionally, and said something that made my heart ache, she said that she hated me.

I was in a hurry, the love hidden in my heart suddenly confessed like this, I told her that I don't love Qingya, I only love her, and I have only loved her one in this life, and I kissed her lips for the third time.

She seemed to be frightened by me, and at first she was quiet, but then she suddenly bit me, and I suddenly let go of her, and she became even more excited.

I apologized to her and tried to comfort her, but she couldn't listen to anything, she just hated Meng Shuwei for robbing her husband and letting her get the double betrayal of love and family affection.

She felt that it was she who was hurt, and I didn't think about her from her standpoint, so I didn't have a backache when I stood and talked, and accused me of standing on her side and supporting her like Liss did.

If I don't think about her, why should I be so anxious that she will come out of the shadow of the past? Seeing her hurt, my heart was almost suffocated, but she didn't understand anything.

It's really painful to love her like this, I'm about to lose it, Meng Lu, why can't you understand my hard work? Hatred will ruin people, I don't want to see the day you regret it.

Even if I die early and can't see that day with my own eyes, I can still imagine the picture of your pain when I know you, I just want you to be well, do you understand?

I can't help but confess to her just now, and I must not say more things on my mind, otherwise how will I face her in the future?

Now I don't need Qingya to remind me, I can already feel her careful and hidden love for me, if she hates me because I want her to let go of her hatred, then hate!

I'd rather she hate me than live in the shadow of the past, feeling the most pitiful person while feeling self-pitying, and hating her beloved ex-husband and blood-dissolved sister.

Probably because I was in the wrong way and too eager to get things done, the result got worse and worse, she got out of the car excitedly and ran out into the street regardless of it.

I saw that she was so impulsive, so I was relieved, and hurriedly got out of the car, chasing her while shouting to stop her, but she ran faster and faster, and I could only continue to run and chase her.

I couldn't outrun her when I ran with her before, my physical strength was limited, and I couldn't breathe if I ran for a long time or too fast, and tonight was the fastest running in my life.

I was almost running desperately, and there was only one thought in my head, I must catch up with her, otherwise it would be too easy for her to have an accident on the street in her current state, how could I be willing to let her have an accident?

So, I finally caught up with her for the first time, and I think this should be the last time, the potential of people is limitless, but I don't have a chance to explode.

I grabbed her and humbly apologized to her again, she still didn't forgive me, she was righteous and wanted to break off her friendship with me, her tone was extremely firm, I felt that something was broken in my heart, was that hope?

After she finished speaking, she wanted to leave, I reached out to pull her, but she pushed me out, hit a speeding car, and fell to the ground, the back of my head hit the ground, and my head hurt violently.

Why did it hurt my head? I secretly screamed badly, and when I saw Meng Lu running towards me, I tried to pull the corners of my mouth and smile at her, and persuaded her to let go of her hatred for the last time, but what I got was not her promise, but her confession to me.

She said she didn't hate me, she said she loved me, yes, she really was in love with me.

It's a pity that this situation can be recalled, but at that time, I was confused, how could I bear her love? I am just a person who dares to love but dare not say.

After being hit by a car, I didn't feel any pain on my body, the only thing I felt was my head, but after a while, my consciousness was blurred, and my eyelids became heavier and heavier, and I could barely hold them up.

My brain began to lack oxygen, and my breathing became more and more difficult, and suddenly I was so afraid that I would die like this, so Meng Lu would definitely think that she had killed me, and she would blame herself, and in fact, even if I really died, I would not have been hit by a car.

Meng Lu, I have a secret I want to tell you, in fact, I was not destined to live a long time, the verdict given to me by the hospital was that I would not live to be thirty years old, and now I am twenty-nine years old, and I may die at any time.

I couldn't say it, because it was already dark in front of me, I couldn't see her at all, I couldn't even hear any sound, I hated the feeling of being trapped in the dead silence.

I don't know how long I've been in a coma, and when I woke up, I only saw Qingya sitting on the side with red eyes, holding my hand tightly, but not Meng Lu.

"What about her?" I quickly asked Qingya, "Is she okay?"

Qingya's tears immediately fell, let go of my hand and said angrily, "You are still caring about her, do you know that you almost couldn't wake up?

I looked at myself, and except for the bandage on my head, everything else was unharmed, and it didn't seem that the accident was serious at all.

"I'm sorry, Qingya, I didn't expect things to turn out like this. I looked at her embarrassedly, raised my hand to wipe her tears, and smiled reluctantly, "Aren't I okay now?" don't cry, you cry so ugly, be careful that Ling Xi sees and dislikes you." ”

The way a woman cries is actually not really ugly, especially a big beauty like Qingya, I just don't want to see someone cry for me, I'm not Jia Baoyu, I don't need a Lin Daiyu who spends her life to return tears.

Qingya sniffed, pushed my hand away, wiped her eyes randomly, and glared at me angrily, "It's okay now, but do you know what the situation was before this?"

"What's the situation?" I leaned back on the bed lazily, and I didn't feel any discomfort except for a slight headache, and this pain was only pediatric compared to the pain I felt when I got sick.

Qingya likes to sell guanzi, and when she saw that I asked, she continued, "In the morning, the hospital gave you a critical illness notice, and my aunt was so frightened by you that she fainted on the spot. If you still have a conscience, don't squander your life like this. ”

I gasped, looking at Qingya and didn't know what to say, it was all my fault, I was so unfilial, and my parents worried about me.

Qingya continued, "You should know that this incident has nothing to do with the car accident, it is caused by the lack of oxygen in your brain, this is a very serious matter, you will be fine when you wake up, but you may become a vegetative person when you wake up, or directly brain death, no matter which result, it will be a great harm to our relatives who love you." ”

"Do you continue to help me keep this matter a secret from Meng Lu?" I looked at Qingya with anxiety, she was now rejecting Meng Lu more and more, almost treating Meng Lu as a god of death.

"Don't worry, I won't let you down, but I hope you can also think about it for us, don't scare us like this in the future, okay?Even if you don't live to be thirty years old, then you should still have time, don't end this life yourself in advance, give me some hope, okay?" Qingya tears rolled in my eyes.

I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at her, making others sad and sad for me was the last thing I wanted to see, so I hid my illness from everyone except my relatives, for fear of seeing Qingya's situation.

"Okay, I'll finish the company's affairs as soon as possible and leave, and let her go completely as soon as possible and let her live on her own. "I made a painful decision.

"Thanks, take a break, I'll call your parents and tell them the good news." Qingya stood up as she spoke, "They have been guarding you all morning, if it weren't for me and Ling Xi forcibly pushing them out, I don't know how long they would have to stay." ”

"Elegant. I called out to her and said to her from the bottom of my heart, "Thank you, if you really have a next life, I will definitely repay you for this kindness." ”

"The next life is too far away, you better get better quickly, let me go and eat every night, I don't like outside food, I only love your cooking skills." Qingya smiled.

"Well, you didn't tell my parents about the car accident, did you?" I asked uneasily.

"Are you afraid that I will confess Shu Menglu, the culprit?" Qingya walked to the door and looked back at me, "Don't worry, I won't cause you trouble, I will only help you." With that, she went out.

I don't know what other people's cousins are like, but I am really closer to Qingya than my own brothers and sisters, she is good to me so that I can be moved as soon as I think of it, I can have such a cousin, this life is enough,

Not long after, my parents came, my mother took my hand, touched my face and cried and laughed, and my father stood aside with a serious face, neither of them mentioned Meng Lu.

They came to the hospital for me too much, it was an ominous place, I didn't want them to stay too long, and after a while, I used the excuse of resting to let them go home, but my mother refused.

Qingya understood my thoughts best, and echoed that I should rest, and patted her chest and assured them that she would take good care of me, so she persuaded my parents to go home.

After my parents left, I sat on the bed and thought about it for a long time, for the matter between me and Meng Lu, I felt that it was really not okay to drag on like this, she had already been moved by me, if there was no Qingya, she would never suppress her feelings so much.

But Qingya is not my real fiancée after all, our so-called marriage date has been delayed again and again, and even Li Sisi has asked me several times about the specific wedding time, and if it continues like this, it will be suspicious sooner or later.

I think it's time for me to draw a clear line with Meng Lu, her refusal to accept Li Muchi's pursuit must have something to do with me, it must be my existence that interfered with her choice and made her unable to make up her mind.

After thinking clearly, I discussed with Qingya, and was going to ask Zhenting to help bring Meng Lu over, and we were going to act a scene for Meng Lu to see, so that she would retreat and die for me.

In the evening, I was much better, and I called Zhenting to bring Meng Lu over as promised, and I met Meng Lu alone first.