I am fully responsible for this matter, there is no reason to trouble Mr. Driver, I think, if Jin Yebai dies, I will pay for his life, if he is lucky enough to survive, all the losses will be borne by me.

Song Qingya was finally persuaded by Ling Xi to sit down on the bench, but she still buried her head in his arms and cried.

At this moment, I wish I also had a warm chest for me to rely on, but no, the only one I could rely on was already in danger of being harmed by me.

Jin Yebai, I swear to God, as long as you can survive, I will promise you anything, whether I want to let go of my hatred and help Meng Shuwei, even if I move back to my parents' house to bring Meng Shuwei a child, I am willing.

I just want you to live well now!

But now that I'm thinking so, do you know? Can you hear me? Do you know how much I want to be with you, hand in hand for the rest of my life?

Leaning against the cold wall, I slid down weakly, squatted on the ground and covered my face and cried silently again, I wanted to go back to the past, I wanted to make this happen, I wanted to make life happen again.

Every second of waiting outside the operating room was torment, and I didn't know how long it was, Song Qingya finally stopped crying, and then began to scold me, I listened silently, without any rebuttal.

Ling Xi persuaded her on the side and told her to shut up, saying that this is a hospital, and the doctor is still in it to save the dead and help the injured, and she must not disturb others with noise, and then Song Qingya quarreled with him.

As soon as they said anything to her, I slowly turned a deaf ear, and all I could think of was the scene when Jin Yebai was knocked down, and the warm blood on my hands.

I don't know how long it took, the whitter in my ears suddenly quieted down, and then Song Qingya's anxious voice sounded, "Doctor, how is the patient?"

I looked up when I heard this, and saw that the door of the operating room had been opened, Song Qingya pulled Ling Xi and was asking the doctor about Jin Yebai's situation, I also quickly stood up, my head was dizzy, I reached out in time to hold on to the wall, and only then could I stabilize my shaky figure.

After a while, I walked over and heard the doctor say, "The patient's trauma is not serious, but there is an unexplained lack of oxygen, which has caused a serious burden on the brain. ”

The doctor's tone was calm, but I was anxious to die, thinking about the blood on my hands just now, I took it for granted that the lack of oxygen to the brain was caused by the wound, so I said loudly: "His head is injured, and there is a big wound." ”

"I'll go in and have a look. Song Qingya said that she was about to break in.

The doctor grabbed her in time, "It's the operating room inside, you can't go in yet, we'll send the patient to the ward soon." ”

"I'm also a doctor!" Song Qingya threw down this sentence, pushed away the doctor and strode into the operating room.

Ling Xi then followed, but was stopped by the doctor again, he silently looked at the doctor and said, "I am the doctor here, I understand those rules!" After speaking, he also entered the operating room.

As soon as the two of them left, I was the only one left outside the operating room, I was not a doctor, so I couldn't go in as openly as they did, so I could only continue to wait anxiously outside.

When the doctor saw me standing still, he asked, "You're not a doctor, are you?"

I nodded, and when I saw that he immediately showed a relieved expression, I whispered, "What are the consequences of a lack of oxygen to the brain?"

The doctor looked at me sympathetically, "This patient inside is severely hypoxic, and he has just been in shock, and if the situation does not improve, he may never wake up, which is what you often call a vegetative person, or stop his heartbeat." ”

My body shook like a thunderbolt in my head, and I could barely stand.

Jin Yebai, how could he become a vegetative person, how could he die like this, obviously except for the wound on the back of his head, I didn't see any bleeding in other parts.

The doctor soon went in, and I stood at the door of the operating room, looking at the red words "during surgery", and suddenly it occurred to me that sometimes bleeding from no part of the body can kill people, and it will die faster.

Tears slipped down unscrupulously, I really wanted to kneel down and beg the doctors inside, begging them to save Jin Yebai, I wanted to beg him even more, begging him not to die, not to die in my hands like this.

It is also strange to say that Jin Yebai was pushed out and sent to the ward not long after Song Qingya and Ling Xi entered, but unfortunately Song Qingya didn't let me get closer from the beginning to the end, and even the ward didn't let me in.

I stood at the door of the ward, and just wanted to go in, she pushed me out, "Shu Menglu, you are not qualified to see him, you hurry up and get out of me, I don't want to see you again." ”

"I beg you, please let me look at him, just a glance, okay? I will leave at once, and I will never disturb you, really, I beg you. "I begged so much.

"Please?" Song Qingya's arrogant expression quickly replaced worry, and she sneered, "How do you beg, kneel down and kowtow to me?" If that's the case, I might consider letting you look at him." ”

She wants me to kneel for her and kowtow?

I froze, staring at her with wide eyes, I couldn't believe that what she had just said was true, but her expression didn't look like she was joking at all.

Ling Xi walked over and scolded Song Qingya in a low voice, "Qingya, don't go too far, I believe that Yebai will not be willing to see you do this now, and Miss Shu didn't mean to push him." ”

"Didn't you mean it?" Song Qingya snorted coldly, "You let her say whether it was intentional or not, can it still be the third watch in the middle of the night pressing the road and pushing around like a child?"

I pushed him on purpose, I didn't want him to pull me, but I really didn't want him to crash, and I regret it now, I wish I was the one lying in the hospital bed now, and I would bear all the pain for him.

"Even if it was on purpose, she definitely didn't want him to be hit by a car, I think there must be a reason for that, just let her go in and see him, you see how worried she is now." Ling Xi softly persuaded Song Qingya.

Song Qingya clasped her hands on her chest and glanced at me, "Okay, I'll let her go in to see him, but." She paused, deliberately betraying the pass, and then continued, "She must kowtow three times at the end of his bed first, otherwise she won't talk about anything!"

She's serious, she just wants to see me kneel and kowtow, okay, I admit it, as long as I can see Jin Yebai, don't let me kowtow, even if it's for me to jump off the building!

Without any hesitation, I looked at Song Qingya with a firm gaze, "Okay, I promise." ”

Song Qingya was stunned, and Ling Xi's gaze also moved to me, looking at me in surprise, they must have thought that something was wrong with their ears, so they heard it wrong.

So I solemnly repeated, "I'm willing to kowtow to him, as long as you let me go over and see him." ”

"That's what you said, don't regret it if you go in!" Song Qingya said and immediately took a few steps back to make way for me.

Ling Xi withdrew the gaze that hit me and looked at Song Qingya again, "Qingya, don't be aggressive, it's really too deceitful." ”

Song Qingya's eyes lit up, and she glared at her angrily, "You don't care about my affairs, you are so endless, believe it or not, I will drive you out?"

"You!" Ling Xi was a little annoyed.

I silently walked to the end of Jin Yebai's bed, really knelt down, kowtowed three times to the silent person on the bed, then stood up and walked around to the bed, looking down at Jin Yebai.

The ward became unusually quiet when I kowtowed, and I didn't look at what Song Qingya and Ling Xi's expressions were now, surprised, satisfied, curious, or disdainful, because these were no longer important to me.

I looked down at Jin Yebai, his eyes were tightly closed, gauze was wrapped around his head, and he was wearing an oxygen inhaler on his mouth, his face was pale, and my heart was like a knife.

Originally, I thought that Song Qingya would really only let me take a look, but I didn't hear her speak after standing for a while, and when I turned my head, I realized that she and Ling Xi were no longer in the ward.

"Jin Yebai, I'm sorry for you, if you can wake up, I will definitely change my mind, let go of the hatred in my heart and live a simple life, although I can't repay my grievances with virtue, but I will no longer be dominated by hatred in life, I will be the Shu Menglu you hope for, strong and kind." ”

After this time, I really figured it out, no matter what Meng Shuwei once did to me, it was in the past, if I kept holding on to it and couldn't let go, then she would become my nightmare.

Maybe I didn't do anything to retaliate, but I didn't have the ability, did I?

The joy I felt when I heard the bad news about her was a testament to how much I hated her.

Hatred is a double-edged sword, while hurting others, it will also hurt myself deeply, I didn't understand his good intentions until now, looking at Jin Yebai, who was angry.

After all, he still cared about me, afraid that I would be hurt, whether it was from others or himself, so he persuaded me to let go, if I could wake up sooner, this tragedy would not have happened.

Although Song Qingya didn't come to kick me out of the ward, I still went out consciously, and as soon as I opened the door, I saw Ling Xi standing against the wall with Song Qingya in his arms.

Seeing me come out, Song Qingya immediately broke free from Ling Xi's embrace and glanced at me silently, that look made me very confused, with a sense of compassion.

Ling Xi stood still, watched Song Qingya enter the ward, closed the door, and didn't suddenly speak until I walked in front of him and was about to leave.

"Miss Shu, Qingya cares too much about Yebai, she did a little too much tonight, I apologize to you on her behalf here, I hope you can understand her mood and forgive her, okay?" Ling Xi's words were gentle, his eyes full of guilt.

"I know it's my fault. Seeing that Ling Xi was very reasonable, I begged him, "It's inconvenient for me to come to the hospital, can you give me a contact information, I want to know his situation." ”

Ling Xi thought for a moment, then looked at the ward again, and then nodded, "Okay, you remember, my number is 186......"

I took out my mobile phone and quickly wrote down his number, thinking that Jin Yebai's car was still at the bar, so I told Ling Xi the address and asked him to relay it to Song Qingya on my behalf.

Ling Xi responded, and I left the hospital and returned to the apartment alone.

I didn't dare to call Lu Zhenting to tell him about it, if he knew, he would definitely get up and rush to the hospital immediately, this is their friendship.

Sitting on the sofa all night without sleeping, I watched the window slowly light up, and I wanted to call Ling Xi's phone, but in the end I held back, it was really not suitable to disturb people so early.

I can't go to the hospital anymore because Song Qingya is here, so I went to the company very early, and now that Jin Yebai is not there, then his work should be done by me, the culprit, so as not to be busy when he wakes up.

Lu Zhenting stepped on the point with Li Sisi to go to work, and it was even strange that he didn't see Jin Yebai.

"Hey, Yebai is actually late, and he doesn't even squeak?" Lu Zhenting sat down in the boss's chair and went to turn on the computer.

"He's in the hospital. "They will know this news sooner or later, maybe I shouldn't wait for Lu Zhenting to come to the company to say it, but should call early in the morning.

"What's wrong? Are you sick again? He doesn't seem to be in good shape this year. Lu Zhenting stared at me and asked.

It's okay that he didn't ask, but as soon as he asked, my tears fell, Jin Yebai was not sick, he was pushed to the car by my own hands, and as soon as the tears came out, I choked up and couldn't speak.

Li Sisi didn't care much about it, but when he saw this, he immediately ran over in a hurry, pulled the paper on the table and wiped my tears, "Why are you crying?

"He was in a car accident and was pushed out by my own hands. I threw myself on the table and cried bitterly.

Lu Zhenting and Li Sisi may have been shocked by the news, and the small office immediately fell silent, and after a while Lu Zhenting asked, "Which hospital is he in?"

I whimpered and told him the name of the hospital and the ward number, and he immediately got up and went out, and Liss wanted to follow, and he stayed behind to take care of me.

Li Sisi pressed his hands on my shoulders and asked anxiously, "Lulu, don't cry yet, tell me what the hell is going on? How could you do this? Although he is going to marry Song Qingya now, and you seem to be in love with him, it won't make you do such a crazy thing." ”

"I didn't mean to, I didn't notice a car coming, I really don't want him to die, woo......" I raised my head, reached out and grabbed Li Sisi's waist, hugging her and crying even more unscrupulously.

She gently rubbed my head and said softly, "I knew that you definitely didn't have a heart, but why didn't you go to the hospital and come to the company instead?"

"Song Qingya won't let me stay there, I don't have a face left, I'm sorry for her, I'm sorry for Xiaobai, I'm sorry for anyone, I'm the most vicious and ruthless person in the world. "I was incoherent and felt like a sinner for the ages.

Liss kept comforting me softly, and after a long time I calmed down, she pulled me to the bathroom to wash my face, and instead of going back to the office immediately, I went to a café downstairs.

I know what Li Sisi means, although the company's two offices are separated, but the sound insulation effect is not very good, my mood is so unstable, it is very bad for everyone to know.

When I came to the café, Liss warned me first, "Lulu, this is a public place, no matter how sad and sad you are, you must refrain from crying, otherwise it will be very embarrassing." ”

I nodded, watched her order two cups of coffee, and waited for her to ask, knowing that she must have a lot of questions in her mind that I wanted to answer.

It wasn't until the coffee came up that Li Sisi spoke: "You take a few deep breaths first, and then tell me what happened yesterday, you can't be excited or cry." ”

I gently stirred the coffee in my cup, lowered my head and didn't answer her question, but just asked her, "Siss, have you noticed that I've changed, become very bad and bad?"

Li Sisi was stunned for a moment, and looked at me suspiciously, "Yes, how come I don't know, could it be that Jin Yebai said this about you? That's why you pushed him under the car in anger?"

I shook my head, "Sisi, I've really changed, I used to be tolerant of people and everything, and I hope everyone can live a happy life and live a happy life." ”

Li Sisi nodded, "It's true, that's why I became good friends with you!"

My voice choked again, "But now I complain about people, especially Meng Shuwei and Zhou Mingchuan, I wish they didn't end well, I only remember that they hurt me, but I never thought that they also gave me a lot of good memories." ”

Li Sisi disagreed, "It's they who are not right first, they hurt you ruthlessly, and you didn't do anything excessive to them, if you change someone else, maybe you will have to use a knife to cut people and retaliate fiercely." ”

Thinking of Jin Yebai's words, I said in a low voice: "I really didn't retaliate against them, but they were hurt because of me, and after a lawsuit, Zhou Mingchuan lost nothing." ”

Li Sisi said, "He deserves it, whoever let him cheat, adults must be responsible for their own actions!"

I sighed faintly, "We also went to the door to drive them away, forcing him to send someone under the fence, my dad didn't like him very much, looked down on him, I think his life must be very difficult now." ”

Li Sisi glanced at me, "Shu Menglu, please don't think of yourself as a virgin, okay? I don't like it!"

I looked at Li Sisi with red and swollen eyes, "But Xiaobai ...... him"

Li Sisi interrupted me, "If you do something wrong, you should be punished, I don't think as long as you are a normal person, you will not think that you are excessive, but just let him go out of the house, isn't this what he asked for?"

I think there is some truth in her words, I am not wrong, this is all Zhou Mingchuan's own fault, even if I didn't have children at the beginning, so he couldn't explain it to his family, but then I didn't get pregnant? It was he who refused to admit it.

"Okay, this incident should be his retribution, but when we learned that Meng Shuwei's life was threatened, we not only wished that she would die, but also cursed the child, is this too much? After all, the child is innocent. ”