I was thinking wildly, my body was knocked down, caught off guard, and almost hit the table, I turned my head and saw that it was Chen Lin.

She looked at me with a bit of disdain: "You will pretend to be pitiful, it's really annoying!"

I really wanted to stand up and reason with her what the hell I had done to make her hate being like this.

However, I have too many concerns, if I am the only one who hopes that I still have such courage, the worst result is only to be isolated by my classmates, I am not afraid, but now there is him, I can't take risks!

I don't have to admit my bad luck, I can't let him accompany me to admit it.

I clenched my fists tightly as I watched her walk past me with her toes high, trampling all my dignity to the ground.

And I can't do anything about it.

I'm a wreck!

Song Junxi came back with food: "What's wrong?"

I shook my head a little numbly, Song Junxi looked at me deeply, wanted to say something, and finally silently put the rice in front of me, I reluctantly ate a bite by myself, the taste is the same as chewing wax!

Song Junxi saw that I was almost stuffing rice into my mouth mechanically, and he took the rice bowl in front of me: "Xia Xia, don't eat if you don't want to, you will get sick if you eat like this! I'll send you back to the dormitory!"

I'm in a bad mood, even if I go to the classroom, where can I be in the mood to read.

"No need, I'll go back by myself!" I didn't look at him, and ran in the direction of the dormitory.

I'm very afraid that Song Junxi will be good to me now, and I am even more reluctant to treat me, and I can't say those words, feeling that I am guilty of unforgivable when I say it.

I also want to tell him loudly and unscrupulously that I like him, I want to be with him, and even want to be with him for a lifetime, but a lifetime is so long, if he is tomorrow, I am like a mustard, I can't catch up with him at all.

So, I never dared to say those words, not because I didn't love them, but from the beginning, I knew I didn't deserve them!

This has always been my deepest concern, I used to be able to deceive myself, and I enjoyed the days with his care and care, I think, Xia Xia is really the happiest person, indulging in the sweet dream he prepared for me and unwilling to wake up.

However, when Chen Lin broke into my dream and woke me up, I could only run away in embarrassment, just like now, Cinderella still has at least twelve o'clock magic, and I, Liu Xia, have nothing, this is the reality, in real life, there is no pumpkin carriage to pick me up, and there is no crystal slipper, only the reality of smashing your heartache!

When I returned to the dormitory, I sat on the bed alone in a daze, silently crying.

Li Lan came back from outside to see me crying, and hurriedly came over: "Xia Xia, what's the matter, I saw that you were wrong in the morning, did you have an awkward relationship with the team leader, did he bully you? I'll ask him!"

I shook my head and grabbed Li Lan: "No, it's none of his business!"

"Then what's wrong with you?" tell me!" Li Lan asked with concern.

"Li Lan, I'。。。。。。 "How am I going to tell her all this.

"It's always better to say it, and I can help you think of a way!" Li Lan twisted the hot towel and handed it to me: "Hurry up and compress your eyes, otherwise how will you go to class in the afternoon like this!

"Li Lan!" I wiped my face and calmed down my mood a little: "Chen Lin knows about me and Junxi!"

"Ah, how would she know, this is a bit troublesome, Chen Lin likes Song Junxi, anyone with a discerning eye can see it!" Li Lan frowned, feeling that things were very tricky.

"So, I don't know what I'm going to do anymore, I want to break up with him!" I whispered, my head down.

"You stupid, didn't you break up with the head of the team to praise her!" Chen Lin immediately shook his head and disagreed with my idea.

"I don't care if she's satisfied or not, I don't want Junxi to be difficult, if Teacher Han knows this, according to his personality, he will definitely take all the responsibilities alone, I don't want to be like this, Li Lan, I will only drag him down if I am with him, I want him to be good, he can have a better choice!"

"Why are you so stupid, the head of the class has such a proud personality, if you break up with him, he will hate you!" Li Lan and Song Junxi were classmates from junior high school to high school, so they naturally knew each other better.

"I'd rather he hate me, as long as he's good, I don't want everything about him to be affected because of me, Chen Lin is right, I'm not worthy of him at all, I'm just a child of their nanny, Li Lan, let alone being a girlfriend, I don't even have enough weight to be his friend, I think very clearly, long pain is better than short pain, it's okay to divide it now!" I sighed, and the tissue in my hand was twisted into a ball and pinched in my hand.

"You've figured it out, but you're 。。。。。。 It's going to be sad, I know what it's like!" Li Lan tried to persuade me.

I shook my head: "Even if it's sad, it's worth it!"

"Silly girl!" Li Lan hugged me and let me stick to her.

"Don't tell him, I don't want him to know!" I said in a low voice, and I decided, today, I had to tell him no matter what.

"Song Junxi is such a smart person, he will understand if he thinks about it carefully, you may not have deceived him!"

"Anyway, I must break up with him this time!

"Alas!" Li Lan sighed: "If you miss him, you may not meet someone better than him in the future!"

"Do you think I will be able to like others in the future?" I looked at Li Lan, very calm, now that I have figured it out and decided that I should do it.

I washed my face again, combed my hair in the mirror, exhaled, and made myself look a little more energetic, I decided to confess to Song Junxi after school in the afternoon, I missed this weekend, and it was going to be next week, and I won't go back to Song's house this week, so as not to be embarrassed when the two of them meet.

The first period in the afternoon was biology, and the remaining two classes were self-study, and today Saturday, the last class was not attended, and school was dismissed nearly an hour earlier than usual.

I pretended to be cleaning up the drawers, and waited until the classmates were almost gone before I glanced at Song Junxi.

His face was not very good, and I looked at him: "Let's go, you didn't say you were going home this week!"

"I don't want to go back, I want to read at school tomorrow, there are a lot of exam papers that I haven't had time to do. "I wanted to smile, but I found that my face was so stiff that I wouldn't move at all.

It turned out that even after preparing for a long time, it was cruel when I wanted to say those words, and I really couldn't say it when I looked at his face.

Moreover, Li Lan is right, he may have guessed that I am abnormal.

As soon as I opened my mouth, he avoided the topic, obviously not wanting to continue, in fact, I had a chance to talk about it in the morning, but he interrupted me.

Song Junxi seemed to be trying his best to suppress his emotions, "It's okay, tomorrow we didn't say that we were going to go to the movies, it would be more convenient for you to go out at school, I'll pick you up at school tomorrow, let's be together, okay!"

Song Junxi smiled a little reluctantly, came over and pulled my hand, I was ruthless, I always have to face it, I dodged it all at once: "It's not good!"

I was afraid that I couldn't help it, so I sniffed: "I won't be free tomorrow, and I won't be free in the future, Song Junxi, let's 。。。。。。 ”

"Xia Xia!" Song Junxi interrupted me again, his eyes were slightly red, and he looked at me seriously: "I know that you were a little stressed when you didn't do well in the last exam, and blame me for not thinking about it well, I didn't think of this problem, Xia Xia, if you don't want to go this week, forget it, we still have time, besides, I asked, there are no good movies released recently, we will go again when we have time in the future, and when you want to go, I won't go home this weekend, I will accompany you to study those topics!"

"Song Junxi, don't you want to be like this anymore, okay, I said, it's not that I don't have time tomorrow, but I won't have time in the future, don't you understand my words?

Let me tell you, you have seriously affected my studies and normal life, there are some things I have been planning to tell you for a long time, I should have told you before, my greatest wish is to be admitted to a good university, and you have affected me, affected my studies, my life, and even, snatched my first place, I care very much, Song Junxi, let's break up, break up immediately, I don't want to waste time on you in the future!"

When I said this, I looked out the window and didn't dare to look into his eyes at all, for I was afraid that when I saw his hurt eyes, I would be sad, I would be reluctant, and I would not help but throw myself into his arms and cry.

My hands were folded together, pinching tightly, my nails digging into the flesh, it hurt, but I couldn't feel it anymore, it was numb.

"Xia Xia!" Song Junxi turned my body: "You lie! You don't think that way at all, do you?"

I lowered my head, for fear that my tears would be seen by him: "Xia Xia, you speak!"

"I'm not lying, that's what I'm talking about, Song Junxi, didn't you always mind that I snatched your first place before, you kept saying that you liked me, you just planned it for a long time, in order to regain your first place, now that your goal has been achieved, you are satisfied, at this time I said that you should be happy to break up, so, don't pretend to be in front of me anymore, I will never fall for you again!" My heart is crossed, so I simply say it more harshly, and when I continue to suffer from it, I can't be indecisive and hurt him!

Sure enough, Song Junxi's expression was a little depressed, even sad: "Xia Xia, do you actually think of me like this? In your heart, I, Song Junxi, is such an unscrupulous villain for his own purposes?" Song Junxi sneered, and then looked at me seriously, as if he wanted to see through my heart.

Seeing him sad, my heart felt a dense pain, I almost couldn't breathe, and bowed my head weakly: "Yes!"