Dreams and reality have been completely confused, the so-called boundaries have lost their meaning, Lan Li's life, Chu Jiashu's life, the vastness of the universe, the narrowness of the hospital bed, the beauty of dreams, and the cruelty of reality...... All of this had turned into a mess, and now, he had no way to think and distinguish:

To live, or to die. This is the only struggle in the soul, there is no dream, there is no freedom, there is no hope, so what is the difference between life and death?

He couldn't even speak inarticulate and drool, and he was denied even the right to shake his head and refuse. He refused, he didn't want to live like this.

So, even though he looked at the shattered Ding Yanan, he knew that he was so cruel, but the words still went on and on, not even a complete syllable.

"Yes, so I'm a selfish bastard, I chose to give up, not you, I gave up on you, I gave up on myself, let me go, please let me go, okay? I've been stuck here for so long, I don't want to be stuck here for a lifetime, and I don't want to be trapped for a lifetime. It shouldn't be like this, things shouldn't be like this. ”

As he spoke, he burst into tears again and looked at his mother earnestly, "Please, let go, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." Tears flowed down the braces into his mouth, bitterly sour, and then he began to cough violently, as if his lungs were about to vomit.

In the hazy sight, he stared at the familiar and unfamiliar face, and the memories that he once thought were gradually fading awakened one by one in the corner.

It's been a long time, but that face doesn't seem to have aged, it's still the same as it remembers it, every wrinkle on his forehead is because of himself, and the bloody fingers pierce his heart, truly reminding him that she has paid the price of her life for him.

"Mom. The moment the words came out, he couldn't stop crying, it was really a long time, "Let me be free, okay?"

At the same time, it also liberates you.

He can embrace freedom, and she can embrace freedom, death is always painful, but one day it will come, and she will only be able to start her life again if he is gone.

After putting on the braces, for the first time, his voice was transmitted accurately, but it was like a dagger, and it was fiercely inserted into Ding Yanan's chest. In the hazy vision, he only saw Ding Yanan standing in place with a stunned face and sad eyes, tears completely bursting, and he stood in place at a loss.

The two of them looked at each other quietly, but they refused to back down to each other, the silence was slowly spreading, and after all, Ding Yanan was defeated, she shook her head, shook her head desperately, but couldn't say a word, and finally could only leave the ward quickly and flee.

But he couldn't do anything, he was still trapped on this hospital bed, and he could only watch his mother's back disappear completely, and his body didn't react at all, like a marionette, motionless. Then, even the vision became blurred, and all the scenery seemed to disappear into tears.

Living like this, life is better than death.

"You're a coward. ”

There was a crisp and soft voice in his ears, and reflexively, he turned his head, and then he saw the figure standing next to the hospital bed, wearing a familiar set of hospital gowns, and the wide garment hung empty on the emaciated shoulders, like a burlap bag.

This is because the muscles of her body are shrinking little by little, and her already emaciated body is gradually leaving only a skeleton, and the clothes that originally fit are slowly becoming wider, reminding onlookers from moment to moment that she is moving towards death step by step.

Everyone knows this, but everyone avoids it. Only they always pretend to be light-hearted, turning those sad things into jokes, and even laughing. They, that's him and Heather Cross.

"......" Heather, Heather actually stood next to the hospital bed like this, but their roles were reversed, the person lying on the hospital bed became him, and the person standing next to the bed became Heather. His eyes widened, his brain had completely lost the ability to think.

Between the roles reversed, the boundary between reality and illusion began to blur, he had completely lost his judgment, that chaos was becoming more and more turbulent, was he Chu Jiashu or Lan Li? Is this fantasy or reality? What is a dream and what is real? More importantly, isn't Heather dead?

Everything seems to be messed up, completely messed up, has he already begun to have fantasies?

Dumbfounded, he couldn't help but open his mouth slightly, staring at Heather in front of him, unable to make a sound at all. He tried to reach out his right hand and touch Heather's rosy cheek, only to find that he couldn't move at all, and that frustration turned into anger.

Heather's eyes couldn't help but flash a trace of tears, and slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, "Moreover, you yourself should clearly know that those are all excuses, you chose to give up, but put all the fault on other people, ostensibly to relieve your family, but in fact, it's just that you refuse to continue to fight, you don't want to continue to persevere." You're a coward. ”

Heather's eyes were so bright and so vivid, a little tear glittering, as if carrying the stars in the sky, that halo burst with vitality, fresh and smart.

Involuntarily, his sight was clouded with a thin layer of tears, embarrassed and dignified.

Subconsciously, he wanted to raise his right hand to wipe away the embarrassment and embarrassment from the corners of his eyes, but then he found that his body still had no sensation, so he could only close his eyes, let the tears slip down, and then close his eyes tightly, tightly, and gritted his teeth to prevent his emotions from leaking out.

At this moment, he was so vulnerable, like a newborn baby, all the defense lines, all the masks, all the equipment were completely confiscated, and Chiguodi showed his most vulnerable and true side.

There was a faint warmth on his cheeks, and a small hand gently wiped away the tears on his cheeks, and then Heather could be heard chuckling, "This is the second time I've seen your fragility." ”

He slowly opened his eyes, revealing a look of bewilderment.

Heather seemed to understand at once, explaining, "The first time was in the garden of the hospital, where you wrote the song 'The Beast'. Remember?" said Heather with a smile as she withdrew her fingertips, "and in your melodies and lyrics, your vulnerability is revealed, and it wasn't until that moment that you became real. ”

"Until then, you seemed like just a perfect prince charming, the object of every little girl's involuntary crush in her heart, but when you grow up, you forget it in a blink of an eye, but after that day, everything changes, it becomes different. There was a hint of nostalgia in Heather's eyes, as if she had entered the fragments of memory.

He couldn't help but be stunned, and a trace of astonishment slipped through his eyes.

Heather pursed the corners of her lips shyly, and then smiled generously, "Why, can't a girl be bold in the face of her crush? Besides, you have already glimpsed my secret, haven't you? I am not a white lotus. ”

"Poof. He didn't hold back, and chuckled. There was a slight pause, and then he saw the narrowness in Heather's eyes, and the two of them laughed happily at the same time.

Before they knew it, the two of them gradually quieted down, staring at each other, not speaking, just letting the air slowly surge, and then, like a rising tide, the sadness and despair, the helplessness and pain, once again completely filled the silent space.

"I know, it's not easy. Heather opened her mouth to break the silence.

"Trust me, I know better than anyone. I know what it's like to clearly see your end and destiny, and no matter how hard you fight, it won't help, and I also know what it's like to chase your dreams and embrace freedom, which is already extremely difficult to say, and even more difficult to execute, and you can't even see the direction. ”

After a moment's pause, Heather's voice lowered, "I also know how easy it is to choose to give up, and how difficult and painful it is to choose to persevere. Those who have not experienced it, they can never understand the difficulties they imagine are less than 1 in 10,000 compared to reality. ”

"We're all the same. Heather whispered, a poignant and lonely smile, "Now, I finally know. We are all the same. ”

The two exchanged glances, and a trace of forbearance flashed in their eyes, and after a slight struggle, they quietly fell into calm.

It is like standing on the height of the universe, only a piece of dust is seen in the sight, everything is calm and calm, but in the dust world under the microscope, the sky is cracking, the mountains are roaring and the tsunami, and the pain can only be experienced by the dust itself, and other people are only bystanders after all, and they are only another world after all.

Through dreams, through reality, and through ...... Life-and-death. He and she finally reunited and saw each other's truest faces, they were not special dreamers, just ordinary people struggling on the line of life and death, trying to break free from the shackles of fate and have a moment of beauty in their lives.

Even if it is fleeting, there are no regrets.

Heather didn't go on, the truths he had taught her, and now she had come to wake him up. He and she, like two sides of a mirror, clearly see their own projections.

"Remember, how it all started?" Heather smiled widely, "I mean, all of it, not just the 'Pacific War,' not just getting rid of the shackles and pressures of the family, but here, where everything started, remember when the seeds first started to sprout, what was that scene?"

"Truman's World".

He remembers, he remembers.