I stumbled out of the hospital, and it was Christmas and it was all the buzz everywhere.

It's just me, floating alone.

I feel so helpless, I miss my father, I miss my mother, and I miss him.

I would love to go back to our home and see it again, even if it's from a distance, it's a goodbye to the past.

I only look at him, and in the future, I don't look at him, I don't think about him!

I got out of the car, and with every step I took, those memories played out in my mind like a rewind, those touches, those sweetness.

I don't know how our room is now, that pot of moon flowers has not been watered for so long, it must have withered.

There is also the turtle we bought together, Junxi said that the turtle is the best to raise, and it has a long life, just like our love, even if it is wind and rain, it will live well.

It was a cold and gloomy day, and I wrapped myself tightly in the hat on my down jacket.

A taxi sped past me and nearly hit me.

The driver's scolding came: "Looking for death, I don't have eyes!"

I bowed my head and ignored it, I really wanted to find death, and if I died, I didn't have to be so painful anymore, and I could be freed.

But I can't, I'm dead, what will my mother do?

As soon as I arrived, I saw a familiar car downstairs, it was the Song family's car, and I recognized the license plate number.

Could it be that Jun-hee 。。。。。。

I didn't have time to be stunned, so I quickly hid behind a tree, for fear of being seen.

I just wanted to take a look from afar, but I didn't expect to meet the Song family.

I don't know if Jun-hee is here or not, but I'd love to see him one last time.

I hid there and didn't dare to move, time seemed like half a century had passed.

I finally saw someone coming out of the staircase, it was Junxi, followed by two people, I guess I was looking at him.

He lost a lot of weight, his head was down, and his hair grew a lot, covering his eyes, and I couldn't see his face clearly.

The cactus he was holding in his hand was something I kept next to his computer desk to protect it from radiation.

Before he got into the car, he turned his head again, looked around, his eyes stopped behind the tree I was hiding in, I was afraid that he would see me, so I quickly hid and did not dare to look again.

"Xia Xia。。。。。 "The screams were terrible, heartbreaking, and at that moment I wanted to rush up and tell her, I'm here, I'm here!

But I can't, only in this way can he forget the past and live a good life.

Song Junxi was stuffed into the car, I watched the car go away before I dared to appear, I stood there stunned and looked in the direction that had long since disappeared.

Not a single tear was shed!

Feeling like my body was about to explode at any moment, I crouched down with my head in my lap and only a low whimper.

Joon-hee, this time, we're really going to break up, forgive me!

I couldn't find a suitable job, and finally with the help of my landlord's grandmother, I found a job as a dishwasher in a restaurant in the town, 800 yuan a month, although it was not much, but the market was like this, which was already on my grandmother's face.

I couldn't find a better job, so I had to do it first.

The lady of the house, who was also a good person, took pity on me, remembered that I was young, and was not bad to me, and allowed me to eat two meals, lunch and dinner, in the restaurant, which was a great favor to me at that time, and I could save a lot of money for two meals.

They knew that after my mother was hospitalized, they gave me half a day off every week to visit my mother.

I went to the hospital and brought back my mother's clothes to be washed, washed them and then sent them to the hospital.

Grandma saw me working so hard and sympathized with me: "Girl, you are still so young, isn't it a pity to wash dishes all your life?"

"Grandma, there's nothing to be sorry for, I just want to make money to treat my mother, and I don't want to think about anything else!"

I rubbed my clothes and talked to my grandmother: "Grandma, do you have anything to wash?

I've now fully accepted my current life, washing dishes and serving food every day, day after day, and I've been very tired for these two months, but when I bought my mom a down jacket with my first month's salary, I feel like this kind of life is very steady.

Every time I serve a plate, I think about my mom and whether she used to repeat such boring work day after day.

I was so tired that I couldn't straighten my back every day, but the thought that every penny I earned could potentially cure my mother's illness made me feel refreshed.

"Grandma doesn't have any clothes to wash, since you came, grandma hasn't washed clothes for a long time, Xia Xia, if you do this again, grandma will be embarrassed, you can't wash dishes for a lifetime, when your mother is well, she knows that you are washing dishes, she will be distressed!"

When my grandmother knew that I was only 17 years old, she regretted helping me introduce me to this job, and I should be studying in school at this age.

I only told my grandmother that I didn't finish high school, I didn't tell her about dropping out of college, and I didn't want people to know that I had that past, not because I was afraid of losing face, but because it hurt my heart, and I would feel heartache when I thought about it.

"Grandma, I know, I want to study on my own when my mother gets better, and now the state also recognizes self-examination diplomas!" I told my grandmother with a smile, not wanting her to worry too much about me.

"Alas, what a hard-working child, when your uncle comes back for the New Year, grandma will ask and ask him to help you find a job in City A, so that it will be easier for you to take care of your mother and make more money!"

"No need grandma, I'm fine like this!" I lowered my head to keep her from seeing my reddish eyes.

I rubbed my clothes harder to hide my panic.

My grandmother talked to me and went back to my room, and I sat alone in the water room washing clothes, thinking about the sound of children setting off firecrackers outside, reminding me that the Chinese New Year was coming soon.

In those years, people still attached great importance to the New Year, and it was only the twentieth month of the lunar month, and the couple had already closed the store and returned to their hometown.

They said that there was only one chance to go home for a reunion every year, and they wanted to go back to accompany their children, and they opened after the Lantern Festival.

When I left, in addition to my salary, they gave me an extra 200 yuan to buy my mother something delicious, and the eldest sister said that their life was not easy, and there were two children and old people in the family, otherwise they should give me more!

I shirked it, but in the end I still accepted it, people are poor and short-sighted, and two hundred yuan is also very important to me.

I have been secretly visiting her for the past two months, and the doctor said that my mother has recovered well during this time, and although she still can't remember what happened before, she rarely went crazy.

The emotions are well controlled, as long as she is no longer stimulated, she may be able to recognize me slowly in the future, but for the sake of treatment, I still have to restrain my emotions and try not to let her see me.

I almost cried when I heard from the doctor that she had hope of recovery, and I saw through the door of the ward that we were eating by ourselves, and after eating, I took a rag and wiped the bed and windowsill.

The doctor also stood behind me: "You see, in fact, it's normal when she's not crazy, and she likes to do things very much, the corridors of our hospital don't have to be cleaned now, she will clean first every day when she gets up, but no matter how we hint at her, she doesn't remember the past!"

I wiped my tears: "Thank you, doctor, my mother will definitely remember me one day, thank you for your extra trouble!"

"Don't worry, it's all about us!"