Wiping away my tears and putting back in my diary, I ran straight out of Duoduo's room and ran outside, the scorching sun was scorching the earth, and I walked in the sun, with mixed feelings in my heart.

In the two days of the college entrance examination, I went to the examination room with only a shell, and casually drew twice on the paper to complete the task. As soon as the task was over, I immediately looked for Uncle Lin and went straight to the point: "Uncle, I graduated from high school and don't want to go to college anymore, I want to go out and find a job!"

Uncle Lin's cloudy eyes stared at me for a while, then he sighed deeply and said, "Are you going to go out to find Duoduo?"

Uncle Lin's words hit me at the point, and my heart couldn't help but tremble, my throat seemed to be blocked by something, and I was speechless for a while.

Uncle Lin patted me lightly on the shoulder, and said helplessly: "Don't look for it, I have found all the places I should find, and I have already asked people to help me inquire, and they will tell me immediately as soon as there is news of Duoduo." Laizi, I know your thoughts, you listen to your uncle, everything has nothing to do with you, it's my responsibility as a father, don't worry about going to college, finish college well, okay?"

I bit my lip and cried with tears in my eyes, my throat was blocked even more unpleasantly, and I couldn't open my mouth.

Uncle Lin looked at me deeply, then slowly took out a cigarette and smoked it fiercely.

The exhaustion and pain in his heart were all written on his face, and his forehead was full of wrinkles.

I clenched my fists tightly, and finally made a hoarse voice and shouted, "Uncle!"

In the end, all the words are in this shout, two words, full of too much, too much.

When Uncle Lin heard this, he immediately extinguished the cigarette butt, showed a very kind smile, and said to me, "How is the college entrance examination?"

In the blink of an eye, he seemed to have put aside his previous anguish, and only had the most genuine concern for me in his eyes.

I didn't dare to touch his eyes, lowered my head, and said softly: "It's not good!" The sourness in my heart is getting stronger and stronger, I can't bear Uncle Lin's love for me, I just want Duoduo to come back soon, I hope Uncle Lin will give all his love to Duoduo.

However, Uncle Lin is always better than my psychological load to me, and after listening to my words, he still said very kindly: "It doesn't matter, no matter what university you study, as long as you can get a college diploma, it's okay!"

I held back the tears in my eyes, slowly raised my head, looked at Uncle Lin, and choked up, "Why?"

Uncle Lin took out another cigarette, took a puff, and then said leisurely: "This is what I promised your father, what he regrets the most in his life is that he didn't study hard, so that he made a mistake that he regretted for life, so he wants you to study hard in college, have a career in the future, don't follow his old path!"

Hearing my dad, my heart couldn't help but tremble, and a sense of longing that seemed like a different world suddenly struck, I said hoarsely, and said desolately: "Uncle, what did my dad do, why can't I even visit the prison once over the years!"

Uncle Lin paused and said secretly: "It's nothing, he's just atoning for his mistakes." Laizi, don't worry, your dad will come out, so you have to study hard and don't let your dad down!"

I always know a little about what Uncle Lin said, but I understand very well that Uncle Lin's uncomplaining and unrepentant dedication to me over the years is all because of my father. Although I now feel that his kindness to me is too heavy and heavy, and it makes me very uncomfortable, but in order not to disappoint my father who is in prison and Uncle Lin, there is only one choice for me. So, I gritted my teeth, looked at Uncle Lin, and nodded solemnly.

During the summer vacation, I tried my best to find flowers, but after all, it was empty, and with deep regret, I stepped into the threshold of university. This is a tertiary school that does not enter the stream, the atmosphere of the campus is erosive, and the students are all kinds of people, they do not like to study, they only love to compare and show off.

I heard people say that in this pheasant university, most of the men are gangsters, and most of the women are pheasants, and the whole campus is an alternative society, but I am an alternative among the alternative.

The combination of inferiority complex and high self-esteem is a combination of me, inferiority is innate to me, I have scars on my face, my body is weak, and my family is special, which creates my inferiority. As for this garbage university, I don't like it in my heart, but it seems to show my high level in the dark.

Maybe it's not my fault that I'm ugly, but if I'm ugly and pretend to be tall, it's particularly annoying.

Although this university is far away from my hometown, although the people in the university are no longer the same people as they were at the beginning, although there are no more flowers in my world, but I have never escaped the fate of being hated, I can clearly feel that this is a garbage university student in my eyes, and everyone hates me.

I didn't expect others to have any good attitude towards me, and I didn't have the mood to care about the eyes of irrelevant people, I was still the same as when I was in middle school and elementary school, living lonely in my own world, eating alone, going to the library to read books alone, walking on campus alone, hiding in a quiet corner alone, ignoring anyone and anything.

Occasionally, I used the mobile phone that Uncle Lin gave me to call him to report it, but other than that, I barely spoke. In the eyes of my classmates, my loneliness is high-minded, very pretentious, my ugliness, very eye-catching, even if I don't mess with anyone, but I will inevitably hear some ugly words and see some disgusted eyes.

It was a very ordinary morning, and I entered the classroom with my head down as usual, but, as soon as I walked to the door, suddenly a person ran out of the classroom in a hurry, and collided with me, and immediately, an angry female voice sounded: "Hey, ugly, no eyes!"

Suddenly, I was stunned, this tone was too familiar, and a sour water immediately gushed out in my heart when I was familiar. How many days have passed, Duoduo has been ugly and weird, and the dog I scolded is bloody, and the words that I was afraid of before now sound so kind.

I couldn't help but raise my head and look at the other party excitedly, at this moment, she was constantly patting her clothes, while muttering in disgust: "What bad luck!"

She disliked me like feces, but I didn't care at all, I just stared at her in a daze, she had an unfamiliar face, big eyes, curled lips, and she was dressed in a very fashionable way, and she exuded a refreshing smell of perfume.

When I was stunned, she suddenly pushed me away, said 'get out of the way' and ran away in a hurry.

Since then, I have unconsciously begun to pay attention to this girl, she is in the same class as me, called Xu Nan, is a student union cadre, her personality is flamboyant and spicy, likes to dress up, loves to wear stockings, many boys are salivating for her, but I only have casual attention to her, I dare not have too many delusions, through her, I can always find the shadow of Duoduo, I just want to get some comfort from her.

With her, my blank life seems to add a touch of color, but I didn't expect that this color would become stronger and stronger.

It was a Friday evening, the school was closed, and the school gate was full of cars as always, and many well-dressed young girls got into these cars, and the owners of the cars were either the guests they served or their godfathers.

That day, I happened to pass by the school gate, and I have always turned a blind eye to this commonplace phenomenon, but suddenly, I saw Xu Nan also get into an old man's car, and immediately, my footsteps stopped, and a thousand emotions suddenly appeared in my heart.

At this moment, the Xu Nan I saw seemed to be Duoduo, she was dressed very sexy, wrapped in black stockings, and wearing heavy makeup to greet her guests. For the sake of the so-called face, for the sake of comparison, for the sake of brand-name bags and clothing, she did not hesitate to sell her soul.

I regret it, I regret that I didn't do my best to stop Duoduo, I hate myself for being cowardly and cowardly, so that Duoduo made mistakes again and again, and finally ran away from home and never came back. I told myself countless times that if God gave me another chance, I would have to stop her and not let her leave with hatred.

And at this moment, it seems to be a chance given to me by God, I can't tell whether the girl in front of me is Xu Nan or Duoduo, I only know that the self-blame and guilt buried in my heart for too long drove me, so that my steps moved forward quickly, and at the moment when the car started, I ran to the front of the car in time.

The old man in the car immediately stopped the car, staring at me inexplicably, I ignored him, walked directly to the passenger seat, and whispered to Xu Nan, who was full of surprise: "I have something to say to you!" After speaking, I walked to the side of the road and waited.

Xu Nan looked at me, turned his head to look at the old man, and said a few words to him before getting out of the car.

When she came to me, she didn't look at me squarely, but said impatiently: "What are you looking for me, tell me quickly, I still have something!"

She stood so close to me that I suddenly became nervous, and half of the courage I had mustered up seemed to be gone.

I was in a trance, as if I realized that I was impulsive and confused, but even though I knew that she was not Duoduo in front of me, there were some things I still wanted to say, but I didn't know where to start.

Seeing me squirming and pinching, Xu Nan became even more impatient, she glared at me with disdain, and said, "It's okay, I'm leaving!" After saying that, she turned around and walked back towards the car.

Seeing that she was really gone, I didn't have time to think about it, and immediately blurted out: "Wait!"

Xu Nan quickly turned around and said with a little anger: "If there is a fart, let it go, is it done?"

I swallowed my saliva, took two steps forward, stood in front of her, and said boldly: "Xu Nan, don't do this kind of thing again, with your conditions, it is not difficult to find a better boyfriend, there is no need to go the wrong way for money and harm yourself." Money is important, but there are some things that money can't buy back, you are young now, you can squander your youth, but when you are old in the future, you will regret it, regret what you are doing now, regret selling your body for money, regret dedicating your youth to old men. Go back, don't be wrong again!"

These words have been held in my heart for a long, long time, and I want to tell her as soon as I see Duoduo, I hope she can listen to it, and I hope everything can be done again. Although I also know that Xu Nan in front of me is not Duoduo, I still hope that she will not follow the old path of Duoduo, and I hope that she can have a bright future.

However, I didn't expect that I mustered up the courage to persuade kindly, but in exchange for a hard slap from the other party, and her monstrous anger: "I said you're fucking crazy, that's my own dad!"

After saying that, she turned around and left, extremely cold and arrogant, leaving me with a sluggish face...