Looking at Duoduo's back gradually moving away, my soul seems to have been drained away, all kinds of emotions are entangled in my heart, I even lost the courage to stop her, the whole person seems to be still in chaos, and I haven't even fully figured out what happened just now, until Duoduo completely disappeared in front of my eyes, I suddenly realized that my heart hurts so much.

At this time, Uncle Lin also slowly walked to my side, looked at the empty door, and sighed heavily. Maybe it was because Duoduo had insulted me too much since I was a child, and Uncle Lin was used to it, so Uncle Lin didn't ask me anything about Duoduo's attitude towards me just now.

And I, even though I really wanted to know how he found out about Duoduo, I didn't dare to ask more, I just stared at the place where Duoduo disappeared, sad. I thought, if I saw Duo Duo again, I would explain to her, but Duo Duo really never came back, she left us with only that stubborn and sad back, and she walked out of our world like this.

Uncle Lin didn't lose his anger at the beginning, so he didn't look for Duoduo, but later he felt that something was wrong, and he immediately searched all over the world, but he couldn't find it, Duoduo, as if the world had evaporated, and it never appeared again.

This family, lost the flowers, and suddenly became withered, Uncle Lin seemed to have aged a lot all of a sudden, and his original courage disappeared, although he was still very good to me, but he was obviously absent-minded.

I see his concern for his daughter, I am not used to such an Uncle Lin, I am not used to such an atmosphere, and I am not used to the absence of Duoduo's home, day after day, I am looking forward to Duoduo's return, and even I would rather her come back to retaliate against me, I don't want to never see her.

I really want to explain to her, I really want to apologize to her, that day, if I had a little more courage to stop Uncle Lin from beating her, if I were a little more decisive, I would immediately make it clear to her that it was not my secret. Perhaps, Duo Duo will not be so desperate, and perhaps, she will not really not come back.

However, I can't turn back time, there is no regret medicine in the world to take, only guilt and self-blame are in my heart, seeing Uncle Lin, who raised me like a son, is getting haggard day by day, I am really uncomfortable, but I am not his biological son after all, I can't fill the lack in his heart.

My life is getting worse and worse, my grades have plummeted, many times, I just stare at the pen that Duoduo gave me, alone in a daze, in my mind, lingering, always Duoduo's voice and smile, although she has bullied me for so many years, although she is rebellious and domineering, but I really, really want to see her again, how I hope that this family can be restored to the past, Uncle Lin is still that Uncle Lin, Duoduo is still that Duoduo.

But everything can't go back to the past.

Time passed quietly in endless dullness, the day before the college entrance examination, Uncle Lin went out, and I stayed home alone.

Looking at the photos of Uncle Lin and Duoduo on the wall, I fell into contemplation again, and before I knew it, my footsteps moved away and moved into Duoduo's room.

This is the first time I entered Duoduo's room, she has a habit of cleanliness, the room is very neat and clean, everything is in order, as soon as I enter this house, Duoduo explicitly forbade me to enter her room, here, it seems to be my forbidden place.

Today, when I came to this forbidden land, my heart became more and more depressed, and I really couldn't figure out how this girl who loves cleanliness could do such a job and how she could come to such a point.

I swayed gently inside, feeling the past of the flowers, and inadvertently, an old pink diary on the bookcase came into my eyes, and I couldn't help but take it down and slowly open it.

I don't have a quirk of peeping into other people's privacy, but I really want to know about Duoduo's past and want to know what kind of "trouble" she has!

Turning to the first page, I was immediately infected by Duoduo's upright and beautiful handwriting, judging from the date written on it, it was when Duoduo was seven years old and in the first grade of elementary school.

In the first grade, I just started to learn to write, but I didn't expect Duoduo to already know how to keep a diary, but she didn't write every day, or when something happy happened, she recorded it, each of which was just one or two sentences, such as "Today my dad bought me new clothes, I love him to death!", "Today my dad took me to the zoo to play, so happy!", "I scored 100 points in math, and my dad praised me!"

Turning through the pages, almost every diary of her has the words of her father. Through the fragments of her diary for more than a year, I also know that Duoduo's mother ran away with someone when she was very young, and it was her father who raised her with a handful of and urine.

In a single-parent family, Duoduo's dependence on her father is a little deeper than that of ordinary children, and Uncle Lin, who is also a well-deserved good father, gave up a lot for Duoduo, for fear that her stepmother would treat Duoduo badly, so she didn't remarry.

Duoduo, once a very sensible and obedient daughter, since she was a child, she listened to her father's words, studied seriously, and her grades were always among the best, because her little heart was very clear, only when the grades were good, her father would be happy, she saw her father happy, she was happy herself, she was immersed in that endless fatherly love and lived a satisfied life, but unfortunately, all of this was ruined because of my appearance.

When I turned to the diary that Duo Duo wrote when I was eight years old, a striking diary suddenly touched my heartstrings.

The content of the diary is: "Today my father told me that he was going to pick up a younger brother and go home, I firmly disagreed, but my father scolded me, this is the first time my father has murdered me." In the afternoon, Dad brought back a boy with a scar on his face, I didn't like it when I saw it, but Dad was very good to him, I hated him!"

Before they saw me, Duoduo hated me, and after seeing me, Duoduo hated me even more. Only now did I realize that she hated me for no other reason, but because she didn't want to share her father's love with others, and she was more worried that her father would ignore her in the future.

I stared at this passage closely, and I felt a lot of emotion in my heart. After a long time, I continued to flip back, and the next few diaries basically said how ugly I was, how her father valued me, and how he ignored her. In order to attract her father's attention, she deliberately did some unusual things, but she still didn't get attention, only criticism, and she hated me more and more.

And, when I continued to flip through and turned to the back, I found that one of the diaries was particularly eye-catching, the page of paper seemed to have been soaked in water, and the handwriting on it was very scribbled: "Dad beat me today, in order to protect that ugly monster, Dad actually beat me, this is the first time he beat me, I hate that ugly monster, I hate Dad!"

In every diary before, Duoduo's handwriting was very neat, until I appeared, her words began to become a little distorted, to this one, her words were completely distorted, and, the page was not soaked in water, it must be Duoduo's tears, at that time, how sad she was, how desperate?

I don't know why Uncle Lin was so good to me, but I can deeply understand the sadness of a little girl being robbed of her father's love.

Duoduo, like me, has long lost her mother, and can only rely on her father wholeheartedly, when her father no longer loves himself so much, how painful that mood is.

I took a deep breath and continued to flip through it, only to find that it was gone, the back of the diary was all blank, it turned out that it was Duoduo's last diary, and since then, she has not written a diary, no more. At this moment, my heart was even more uncomfortable, and self-blame and guilt poured into my heart.

I always thought that Duoduo was inherently brutal, and her character was always rebellious. It turned out that in the past, she was well-behaved and cute, loved cleanliness, loved to be tidy, loved to study, had a regular life and rest, and was full of happiness.

It's all because of my intrusion that I ruined her happiness and made her more and more rebellious, it's me, it's me who hurt her.

Although it may not be me who suffers from doing that kind of work, but without me, she would not have become what she is now, she would not have been willing to fall, and she would not have left home and never come back today.

I closed my eyes painfully, and a picture kept flashing in my mind, in the picture, Duoduo tied two pigtails, happily coquettish in her father's arms, slowly, her smile was gone, she was far away from her father, away from this originally happy home, her face, gradually blurred...

Finally, I gently closed the diary and slowly opened my eyes, only to realize that I didn't know when, I had burst into tears...