"What's wrong with you?" he asked.

Kang Ruoran looked back at him lazily, didn't say anything, and smiled first.

"Passing years. She spoke, but her voice was barely audible. "I've got ...... in my pocket," she gasped, "there's medicine." ”

"Medicine?" He wasn't used to touching a woman's body like this, but there seemed to be no other way.

He reached in and pulled out his medicine. He knew the medicine.

Kang Ruoran gestured a number with her hand, and Liu Nian quickly poured out the medicine from it, and then put it into her mouth that she took the initiative to open.

"How's it going?" he waited anxiously until her complexion eased slightly, but Liu Nian still didn't know the bottom of his heart.

"How's that? How are you? You just scared me to death. ”

Liu Nian thought to herself, I can't complain that she asked me if I needed a car, it turned out to be ......

She smiled weakly at him, and Kang Ruoran's smile made Liu Nian think of the word "alluring the country and the city" for the first time. She is so beautiful, she doesn't know the beauty of fireworks in the world, such a girl should not be reincarnated in this world, and she feels that she must be at a loss in this world.

"Go back, us. Liu Nian stepped forward to help her.

The young Kang Ruoran did not refuse, but he didn't want to go back so early.

"Don't, or they'll know I'm not feeling well just now, and they're going to make a big fuss. ”

Maybe it's not that they're afraid of making a big fuss, how could they not guess if they're as smart as a passing year? Kang Ruoran is afraid that he will blame himself for a passing year, and he is afraid that his father will blame his son for speaking out.

The two of them sit, this is a small courtyard specially prepared for senior cadres. The courtyard is lined with sycamores, the environment is quiet, and there are people standing guard at the door. They sat under a French plane tree, this tree should be not young, the wide canopy is thick and shaded, not even a little mottled shadow can not penetrate, the breeze is gentle, Kang Ruoran's ponytail has a few traces of brushing on his neck, and the flow of years did not dare to pull them away gently, so those few hairs are like naughty children endlessly messing with him.

I always have to find a topic, fortunately, both of them are students, fortunately, both of them are in the same grade, but Kang Ruoran studied literature and studied science for many years. The two talked about studying and school. But Kang Ruoran can say very little, it is said that she basically has no friends at school, and her health is not very good, so Kang's father will send a driver to pick her up sooner or later, Kang Ruoran is a girl who thinks very highly of herself, and she can't be close to idlers, and besides, her body is like that, many people deliberately avoid her, for fear that if you accidentally wait for the eldest lady to be unhappy and get sick, then you really can't eat and walk around.

And this is the state of existence that Kang Ruoran always thought, so she has been lonely since she was a child, and she has been lonely until now.

"Does anyone in your school have a puppy love?" Kang Ruoran asked.

"Puppy love?"

Liu Nian was a little dazed, is he and Chen Mofei considered early love? It should be true according to normal terms.

Kang Ruoran turned his head sideways and looked at him with a smile.

"You're in love!, aren't you?" her heart pounded, and she knew everything she had to say about him from her parents' conversations. However, she has never heard her parents mention this kind of thing. Does he have a beloved girl?

Kang Ruoran wanted to know very much.

Liu Nian blushed and lowered his head. For some reason, he said, "No." ”

"Nope. He emphasized again, but he didn't know whether he was emphasizing to himself or Kang Ruoran. He didn't feel that he was betraying, betraying Chen Mofei was also betraying himself. Liunian's thoughts may have been complicated at the time, but many years later, he finally figured out a clearer context for his actions back then.

At that time, he wanted to get rid of Chen Mofei completely, but he couldn't, but on the other hand, he clearly knew that he and Chen Mofei were no longer possible. So, maybe a girl who has hope for him, maybe the next stop is the weight that he can get rid of Chen Mofei.

Tried a lot and tried for a long time. He found that he could not do it on his own. I can't forget Chen Mofei in the past few years, in fact, there are girls in the new class who like him, and they are quite enthusiastic about chasing him. But the young boy's heart is narrow and stubborn, and there is only one person living in it, and if another one goes in, it will be too crowded, not to mention, the other girls can't squeeze in at all.

Maybe Kang Ruoran can.

As for her illness, she never cared about it.

"You -----," Kang Ruoran, who was lying on the hospital bed, said. Liu Nian pondered whether he should be awake or continue to pretend to be asleep, and to this day, he sometimes doesn't know how to face Kang Ruoran.

Fortunately, there was only one word "you", and he waited with bated breath for a long time, without any follow-up. Liu Nian decided to continue pretending to sleep, the hospital was very quiet, so quiet that people could hear their own heartbeat, so quiet that they seemed to be able to hear the sound of the past flowing slowly.

In fact, after leaving that place, he had seen Chen Mofei.

I've seen,

I've seen it once.

That time, that time, was the time when I moved my body restlessly.

After the exam, that scorching hot July, knowing the endless screaming and screaming, at that time he had basically figured out everything in his area, of course, he also figured out how to get to his hometown, from there to his hometown may not be far away, but he has no money, he went back to see Chen Mofei The money he saved for a long time was the lunch money he had saved for a long time.

He felt a little guilty about spending that money, and what if he gave it to his mother? Maybe one day he could add a dish to the house. However, in the end, he still didn't, bought a ticket, traveled around, went to her city, found his old classmates, and before he could ask, some of the old classmates began to gossip.

"Do you know Chen Mofei, the cadre of that class. What do you think of her, do you know, she already has that kind of relationship with people, and she is pregnant, she fainted outside the examination room, and she saw red, and I heard that the fetus was not saved. ”

Liunian's head slammed.

Then he fled.

has no hesitation, like someone chasing him after him. He ran and fled, fled far away, far away, and never wanted to see Chen Mofei again in this life. Who is Chen Mofei? He himself was not ready to be a father, he thought of that picture, it was full of blood, Chen Mofei's face was pale, without a trace of blood, and there was also the condemnation of the people around him.

His heart couldn't help beating like a drum, the air in the car became thin and depressing, he seemed to be choked by something, he couldn't make a sound, but he wanted to vomit, he was suffocated and his face turned red, and a big brother sitting next to him asked him.

"What's the matter with you, young man?"

What's wrong?

He didn't know either.

I almost became a dad.

He wanted to say it to the other party, but all he could hear was his own smirk, and then his stomach churned, and he stumbled towards the bathroom. The smell in the bathroom was terrible. But, for him, it was just right, he vomited, vomited, vomited, as if he was going to vomit his stomach.

It seems that not only the stomach, but also the heart, the liver, the lungs, the intestines, everything is spit out. He wiped his face, and at first thought that he was in too much of a hurry, vomiting too hard, and wiping his hand wet was nothing but sweat, but Liu Nian quickly realized that it was not.

It's tears. Tears and sweat are salty. How do you distinguish between the years?

I heard it, I heard myself crying. He heard himself hugging and crying. Liu Nian stood up, there seemed to be filth at the corner of his mouth, but he didn't care. You can also see the scenery outside the car from the bathroom. For a moment, he wanted to jump out of the car, jump down, go back again, find Chen Mofei, and take her away.

Take her away.

Hehe, but, where to take her?

Young love can't bear forever, and young love can't promise the future. He has nothing, nothing, nothing.

The train took him away, and that day, Liu Nian finally made up his mind to let go of Chen Mofei. If the first time you leave is sudden, you still have to have it. Then the second time I left the flow of years, I knew how embarrassed I was. Because of this embarrassment, he thought that even if Chen Mofei stood in front of him again in the future, he was not qualified to love her anymore.

What kind of love do you take?

The posture of running away by himself is so ugly.

What did she endure?

How did she survive?

What if you can't make it?

From that night, Liunian learned to have insomnia. He was afraid to sleep, scared. Because as soon as I went to sleep, I saw Chen Mofei's pale face and the red blood flowing from her lower body. He woke up suddenly, holding the quilt and biting the quilt like a girl, but he didn't dare to make a sound.

He began to think that this state was occasional, but he didn't expect to have another nightmare the next night. He dreamed that many people surrounded Chen Mofei, gossiping, spitting and drowning her, Chen Mofei squatted on the ground with her head in her arms, but the person was getting smaller and smaller, smaller and smaller, smaller and smaller, and in the end, she couldn't be found anywhere.

"Chen Mofei. He screamed, sweat all over his forehead.

Another time, he dreamed that Chen Mofei fell down from a very high building, and he watched from a distance, but did nothing. He didn't do anything, and when he woke up, he really wanted to go back and give the man in his dream a hard mouth.

In those days, he didn't wake up for a moment, slept during the day and didn't sleep at night, staring at the ceiling, staring out the window, staring at a certain place in the room, and he began to fear that Chen Mofei was always so stubborn and uninvited. He forced himself not to sleep, he would wear big panda eyes every morning, he would not go out to see his classmates or do anything else, he locked himself in the house all day.

The passing years are afraid of the sun, and the sunshine will portray their timidity, cowardice, meanness, selfishness, and ruthlessness vividly and vividly. The sun would shine into the darkest places of his heart.

That place!

That place!

I don't want to touch it. For many years before this, for a few years after that, Liu Nian always thought that he was a special man, but as long as he remembered this incident in the middle of the night when no one was around, he suddenly coaxed.

He knew all too well what he had been.

For many years after that, when I had enough courage to look through the past, I could always think of this paragraph. At that time, he was eager to get news from Chen Mofei, and sometimes he was afraid to get news from him.