I don't know if it's emotional anger or pure habit.

With that, Belo tore the two napkins in her hand to shreds and piled them all up in the ashtray.

And Zhuo Qun couldn't help but sympathize.

Because it's hard for him to imagine what happened to a famous movie star like Bellu.

In his perception in the past.

Beilu is full of infinite charm, it seems that there is no time to be ugly, and she never even has acne.

No matter how much you don't like her, you have to admit that she is a national treasure-level beauty.

In this way, she should be loved and sought after by all living beings.

Surrounded by flowers, music, trophies, and spotlights.

At least most of life should be happy.

But now he knows that the gentleman is not guilty, but he is guilty.

In fact, Beilu has always borne the heavy burden of ordinary people's imagination.

Her outstanding merits have become a curse, and she has attracted a lot of malice.

There are many people in this world who do not see good things.

Especially those things that cannot be taken for oneself must be destroyed and destroyed in order to be at ease.

It's not just Sha Haoyang, but even those who unfairly criticize Bei Lu.

The more they sincerely fell for her, the more they wanted to hurt her.

Because such people are afraid to admit their mediocrity, and they are even more afraid to face up to their own obscenity.

"It's not that I'm talking about the wind. Your life has come to an end and sounds terrible. Just because of such a disgusting rat, you have lost almost all the joy of life. ”

"Then if it is common sense, in this case, you should be very happy that you can get the opportunity to start over in this life. But why are you still so impatient, eager to go back to the past?"

"Does that mean that you should be a lot happier in the rest of the story? Okay, let's not talk about these sad things for now. How about we hurry up and start the happy part? We should talk about your marriage and your children. What kind of person is your husband, and are your children pretty?"

Zhuo Qun couldn't wait to ask about the story behind.

This is not only because he wants to withdraw Beilu from his sadness, but also because he wants to make it easier for himself.

But he was soon disappointed.

Because in an instant, Beilu's expression became even darker.

The answer given was something he had failed to think of.

"Life isn't a family movie. I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint you. The romantic dramas and happy endings you want to see simply don't exist. ”

"I have a daughter, but her father is Sha Haoyang, and she is still a child with autism. ”

"There was no element of love in my later marriage. I'm just a person here, haven't you noticed ......?"

Zhuo Qun couldn't help but open his mouth wide, and he really wanted to scold "".

Because life treats Beilu too cruelly.

"What did you say? I thought, I thought you knew each other late, and it wasn't time to ......."

And just as he picked up the beer in his hand and froze in mid-air.

Belu took the tissue he had used to pad the beer.

Then, in a more delicate and slow way, they were torn up one by one.

"When I ran from Huhai to the capital, I was already pregnant. However, I deliberately kept a regular diet and was in perfect shape, so I didn't gain much weight. I didn't even feel sick until I was stupid enough to think I was just getting fat. ”

"By the time I really knew I was pregnant, it was almost five months old. At this time, the child is already in a heartbeat, and there is a considerable risk of having an abortion, and I can't bear to kill my child like this. In this way, I made another decision to be a single mother. ”

"But I thought about raising children too simply. That's not just breastfeeding, watering, and peeing. And my child doesn't have a hukou. Even getting vaccinated has to beg someone. Plus I have to work, so I have to earn money to support the two of us. ”

"So I can only hire someone else to take care of her, even if I am in the capital, I can only see my daughter when I go home at night every day. If you're on a business trip, it's hard to see each other in a month. And after only a few months, I found out that it was not a problem, so I was forced to confess everything to my parents and begged them to take my poor daughter in. ”

Needless to say, my father scolded me in a rage and declared that he was going to cut ties with me, and was very angry that I would take the consequences. But fortunately, blood kinship is not something else after all, breaking bones and connecting tendons. Later, under my mother's diligent persuasion, my father, although he felt ashamed, still agreed to send the child back to his hometown out of pity for the child. At this point, my daughter didn't see anything wrong. Maybe she didn't have the disease in the first place. ”

"As for me, I was already a little famous at the time, and I began to be convinced that I was very talented, and God knows how many people praised me for my beauty. What I want is to become famous, wait until I earn enough money, and then quit the entertainment industry and live well with my daughter. So from this time on, as my career broke through rapidly, I saw my children less and less. I might be able to go back to my hometown once a month. Later, I was found and blackmailed by Sha Haoyang, so I didn't dare to go back, for fear that the child's affairs would be known to him. I'm even glad that my child would have been safer if he had been sent to his parents. ”

"Later, it turned out that I had made a big mistake. When the child reaches the age of three, he can go to kindergarten. However, the kindergarten entrance test found that she had major barriers to interpersonal communication. Because she didn't react to anyone but my parents, it was like living in another world. I rushed over, but it was useless. I found that she was just a blank sheet of paper, expressionless, and even I couldn't get close to her. ”

"I was mad and thought she had something mentally wrong. So I started taking her to the doctor, and within a few months, I had all kinds of tests done on her and took her to a specialist's clinic. Then, I can't remember whether it was the Children's Hospital in Beijing or the Children's Hospital in Huhai, and a chief psychiatrist told me that my child was diagnosed with childhood autism. ”

"I didn't even know there was this disease, at first I only understood it as a sluggish mind and slow intellectual development. But the expert told me that children with this disease are so gifted in some aspects that they are almost equal to genius. Kids like mine have a clear interest in drawing and are far more talented than anyone else. ”

The doctor also said that it was difficult to determine the cause of the disease. But with rigorous training, my child will be able to learn something she likes, and then like some people, and there will be little chance of living a normal life. For children with autism, the golden period of intervention is from 2 to 6 years old. During this period, it is important to train your child to have more contact with their peers and the community, so as not to make their illness worse. ”

"So I was faced with a very conflicting problem, I couldn't give up my job and my children. The doctor recommended that I spend more than 12 hours a day with my child. But I only have enough money to be able to treat her. In this way, I bought an RV, took the children with me every day, and as long as I had time to take a break from filming, I would do my mother's obligations whenever I had time. ”

"With this approach, I have made some progress with my children. After a year, she became familiar with me and could tolerate me touching her. But people who don't know the truth see such a scene and think I'm playing a big game. Through several irresponsible reports by reporters, Sha Haoyang also mistakenly thought that I had a good income, which increased the exploitation of me. But that's not all, to make matters worse, my father was in another car accident and was almost vegetative. ”

"It was the hardest time for me, when things happened suddenly and I was broken. Of course, there will be a lot of work delayed for this. That's it. I'm in even bigger trouble. Because my savings were not only spent on huge medical expenses, but I also had to pay for part of the liquidated damages of the contract. Even Sha Haoyang didn't spare me because of this, and he couldn't lose any money he wanted, otherwise he would ruin my reputation. ”

"It was at this time that I met my future husband. He is a Singaporean, very wealthy, and probably the third most wealthy in Southeast Asia. Although I am a person with a lower body disability, I have to use a wheelchair to get around, and I am more than a decade older. But he was very kind. ”

"He's the only one of the funders I've done for all the advertising that doesn't claim liquidated damages from me. Even after learning about my difficulties, they didn't even get back the advance payment, and even gave me another sum of money to help me get through it. ”

"Later, he even connected my father and child to the best hospitals and rehabilitation centers in Singapore. also at the cost of not knowing the specific number, completely helped me end Sha Haoyang's entanglement. ”

"It's impossible for me to accept such kindness calmly. It has to be rewarded. So even though we didn't have love, in 2017, I accepted his proposal and married him. ”

"Of course, I'm not in it for the money. Our wedding was simple and almost isolated from news. And I took the initiative to ask for the signing of the property notarization agreement. This reassured him and his family about me. ”

"So after I got married, I didn't feel too much pressure from his family. I was also allowed to live in a special school in Switzerland instead of Singapore, where I could concentrate on my daughter's continued treatment. Just go back and spend time with him. ”

"To be honest, it was a complete accident that I got that Cannes film, and it was actually the last film I made. No matter what others say, it has nothing to do with me at all, and I never take it to heart. When I met you, billions of dollars and fame didn't matter to me anymore. My wish is to accompany my daughter and take care of my parents in old age. Repay those who have been kind to me. ”

"You understand now, right? The reason why I want to go back is not for anything else, I still have relatives waiting for me, waiting for me to do my duty. In addition to myself, I am a daughter, a mother, and a wife. My parents, children, husband, everyone was waiting for me, and I couldn't let them down. That's what my life is all about. Other than that, there is no other point. ”

"It may be ridiculous to say. There are thousands of people around the world who have sought after me, written to me, and left meagre messages on me. In public, everyone wants to approach me and compliment me. Men of all ages admired me and pursued me. But only these relatives who make me feel deeply sorry when I think of them are what I want the most. ”