The pony is also nagging that he is almost sick these days, and he is closer to me than he is to his father, and he says that I just want to find a hole to get into.

Guan Wenlan sat next to me, silent, just smiled, looking very petite and cute, although this word is not suitable for her to use often, but this time it is enough to make her behave completely reasonable.

This meal seems to be eaten very quietly, without the usual noisy energy of Xiao Wu and the man's presence, it feels quite comfortable, and after a while we finish eating, Xiao Ma proposes to go to the Internet café, I say let him go first, I'll be there later. He hit me and left.

Guan Wenlan and I came to the pony's house, and she was still so shy, like a little girl who met a stranger. We didn't have much to talk about, which made me very embarrassed and wanted to do something to break the silence.

I sat on the edge of the bed, deliberately making a flurry of incongruous noises, Guan Wenlan looked at me and said, "What are you doing?"

"Nervous!"

"What are you nervous about?"

"You"

"What's wrong with me, I'm not going to eat you!"

……

"I... I want to kiss you!" I said.

I said this stupidly, I don't have to say this at all, I want to kiss directly.

I always feel that I have to say hello to the other person before doing something, otherwise others will think that I am impolite and casual, and it is different after saying hello, I can wait for her answer, either yes or no, both of which will make me feel grounded. But I think this sentence is too stupid, how can I say to her, "I want to kiss you!", some words are expressed with actions, that is called body language, there is no need to say it with your mouth, can you wait for her to answer before proceeding to the next step?

Guan Wenlan didn't speak, but smiled at me! Of course she wouldn't reject me, she knew my stupidity and uncertainty.

She looked at me, I looked at her, I didn't know what she was thinking, she leaned into my arms, I put my arms around her, and she said, "Don't be angry. ”

I replied, "No." "I try to calm myself down so that she doesn't feel uncomfortable watching.

She said softly, "I'm not sure yet... Well, you can do anything, that is...... I'm not ready. ”

"I know, it's okay, I... I'm not sure if I want to do it. ”

"Then you just ......"

"I still think, you know, I don't have good self-control," I smiled at her.

Guan Wenlan turned around, put my hand on her, and said, "Chen Zhuo, have you ever thought about the future?"

"In the future...... Didn't think about it, it's too far,"

"Oh...... If only you were by my side like this every day,"

…………

Every time Guan Wenlan says something like this, I don't know how to answer, I'm not sure, and I don't want to give her an answer casually, I just know that time will solve everything, and how far we can go.

I hugged her and I whispered, "Yes, I'll be here, just hug you like that!"

"I want to do the same in the future," she said.

"We may not be in the same school, in the same city, so what then?" I said, expressing my doubts, and she stopped talking, as if lost.

That's the choice we have to face, and we don't know what to do, we're scrambling, and we can't figure out how to do it.

I hugged her tighter.

It was already dark, and we were entangled like this for I don't know how long, I turned on the light, put on our clothes, looked at each other, and smiled!

I kissed her and said, "Beautiful! ”

"Help me get it right. ”

"Yes, alright...... Let's go find the ponies?" I said, taking my hand off her shoulder.

She turned around my neck and said, "I'm still not going, I'm going to kneel on the bench when I'm late!"

"Then you take me home, and I'll kneel for you!"

"You're not afraid of my dad anymore?"

"I'm afraid, so I still don't go. ”

She smiled, put her hand down, and said, "Okay, let's go, I'll go home, you go to the Internet café!"

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I wrote down my little bits, living a stressful and incomplete day by day. I always thought about how nice it would be if I was always at a young age, to be by my loved ones all the time, to see my friends all day long, and to listen to them speak always with ridicule, instead of talking nonsense to a group of people on different occasions.

I have never been an optimistic person, I see my pity, what kind of helplessness is this? Life in confusion all the time is frightening, and the result is extreme loss; I want to find an outlet, but I run into a wall everywhere, thinking that I have gained experience, but I am still stagnant in a corner of life!

At night, in the strange city, the roads are like a magician's knotted rope around and around, and the cars are like children chasing each other in a slide, people will not pay attention to these, let alone me in a corner!

June is coming to an end, but our good life is just beginning, but sometimes there are some frustrating elements in the good life.

I didn't expect to fall off the list!

According to the news, this is the most serious cheating incident in the college entrance examination in Shancheng over the years, the director of the education bureau was dismissed, and the relevant teachers and principals were investigated; and the admission score line of various universities was increased by 20-40 points on the original basis for students in Shancheng, and some students could not resist the pressure and committed suicide... And so on, a series of reports instantly shrouded us in black.

As early as a few days ago, I heard rumors of large-scale cheating in the college entrance examination, but I didn't take it seriously, I thought that it was better to report to the colleges and universities in the province to be more practical, but most of the people were with me, and they all made conservative choices, and most of them stayed in the province.

Xiao Wu's score was only a little higher than the filing line and he was admitted, and he always used it to laugh at me. Therefore, except for Xiao Wu, several of us were all beaten, as if to confirm Xiao Wu's words "Go out!".

In those days, I completely collapsed, and after more than ten years, I couldn't even get through the door of the university, and I didn't know what to do? I began to hate those who cheated in the college entrance examination, they ruined the exam, ruined the original order of life, and let things that should not have happened to me; those things, those people wrapped in authority, made me feel disgusted, they behave in the world but forgot the way, a group of thieves, stole my self-motivation, stole the only useful thing I left in the world, I will be buried under the mud with them, and never again harm good people!