Everything in the school has nothing to do with life, the campus is full of illusions and naivety, deception and lies that will never be revealed, and there my friends and I live a life of "hope for tomorrow" without hesitation. I've always been boring, I don't want to do nonsense, I don't want to talk nonsense.

It wasn't until I met Guan Wenbin that I thought I had changed a lot.

There are too many memories that I can't remember, and there is nothing to remember, but I think I can catch those memory fragments scattered in the wind little by little, and then carefully collect them, which is also the importance and expectation of life, otherwise there is no content in life and what kind of energy is there to live blindly!

I don't understand romance, but occasionally I lose my embarrassment and play some kind of repertoire, and once I did!

I don't remember the exact date, but I know that it was one afternoon, I forgot where I got a bicycle (probably asked the pony to borrow it), bought a snack, got on the bike, and took her to a grove. Then he started talking nonsense and talking about some dispensable things.

At that time, I told her that I longed for a kind of artistic conception, there were roads, trees, and people walking, and there was no end, just kept walking! The snacks I bought were too unpalatable, she only ate a little bit, and there were too many small flying insects back and forth around us that couldn't get rid of them.

She said to me, "Do you really like me?"

"So what do you think I'm doing now? What do you like about me?"

"Handsome and talented. ”

"Really, it sounds like you're scolding me. ”

"Really, that's what other people say. ”

"It seems that I know too little about myself. ”

"Not really. ”

The two laughed, fell silent, and kissed.

Guan Wenhui and I are not experts in kissing, and it feels like they are biting each other's teeth, not lips, but neither of us said anything, for fear of ruining such a good atmosphere.

A lot of the time, I put my arms around her and sat quietly like that, as if I was thinking, but my mind was blank.

I have become accustomed to this way of dealing with love, and my love will be spent in this way for a long time to come, gently and sweetly!

We didn't go back until it was getting dark, and I rode and staggered. I'm so skinny, the bike is always unsteady, not to mention there's a guy in the back seat. From a distance, it looks like a dynamic landscape painting, the color is orange and yellow, the background is the road and trees, and the protagonists are a pair of silly bicycle lovers, haha, thinking of this, I think there is still a little bit of romance.

I was truly happy during that time!

Forgive me, dear readers, for such incomprehensible narratives, my life is so fragmentary, so even the memories are very incomplete.

After two days at home on the weekend, I somehow got another arthritis that I fell from when I was in elementary school.

I felt that the winter of my youth was very cold, and I didn't take care of myself, and I got arthritis unexpectedly, and it started to attack when it rained or cold weather, so I didn't dare to wear it very thin anymore, especially the lower body, after my careful care, I didn't commit it for several years.

This time may be the reason for the spring rain, and for the sake of aesthetics to wear less, the leg hurts badly, as soon as I walk, it hurts, and I am limping, my mother had to take me to the clinic outside the village to see a doctor, the doctor said that it is very serious, to take a week's drip, which can make my mother anxious, saying that I have more than a month to take the college entrance examination, but at this time I am sick, tomorrow I have to go back to school, what to do if I can't see it? The doctor said, I can only hang these two days to see the effect, I have to do this.

The next day I felt that my leg was not so painful, but it was still inconvenient to walk, and I hung up the water again, in the afternoon my mother had to send me to the intersection and wait for the bus to the county, she told me to continue to take a drip at school until it was better, and let me wear a little more clothes, don't delay the exam and collapse the body, she always nagged, so I asked her to go back, I didn't hate it, but I didn't want her to worry!

When I arrived at school, I went back to the dormitory to wash my dirty clothes, and then lay down on the bed, most of my classmates came, some were in the classroom, some were in the playground, some were shopping, and I had nothing to do, I took out my Walkman from my backpack, put on my headphones, and after a while I actually fell asleep.

I had a dream, and I had it more than once in the days that followed, very tired, very trance-like, always uncertain about my sense of existence, what kind of environment did I live in? In my sleep, I smiled and chased the yellow butterfly to a meadow. At this moment, I saw a beautiful girl walking towards me, she was holding my hand, her hands were so silky, and the hem of her skirt was drawing beautiful curves again and again. Suddenly, she pulled me and ran up, and she smiled, and she smiled sweetly. We ran to the river, I got more and more excited, I jumped on the raft, the river splashed me, I looked back at her, she was sitting on the grass, it became as quiet as snow!

To be honest, I don't like to spend all day working on revision questions, which drains me of my brain power and time, and the atmosphere in school is very depressing, especially during this most critical time, which is like fending for itself.

I couldn't stay in such an environment, so I simply told the head teacher that I wanted to stay at home for a few days to recuperate and review, and he agreed, and my mother also agreed.

Guan Wenlan heard that I was going to review at home, so I was really depressed all night, and asked me why I wasn't at school, I told her that I was upset, but she thought that I didn't care about her, and always kept my head down. I'm not good at coaxing people, I'm stupid, and I'm impatient, but fortunately, Guan Wenlan is not that kind of hypocritical girl, but occasionally she will be angry with me for being too cold. I said I'd call her, I had her phone number and her home number.

The bitter green ivy has to continue to live!

After taking care of everything and saying goodbye to my brothers, a week later, I was once again in the car with a bag full of textbooks, borrowed a friend's MP3, and downloaded dozens of new songs from an Internet café.

May, Baidu said, May is the fifth month of the year, English for May, the goddess Maya in Roman mythology, in charge of spring and life, in order to commemorate this goddess, the Romans named May with her name - Latin Maius, English May May evolved from the name of this goddess.

I know that May is a beautiful season, just after my eighteenth birthday, I can feel the scenery flourishing, I can feel fresh when I walk on the road, the weather is already hot, there are more people busy farming, and the road is starting to become lively.

I want to stay at home until the end of the month and then go back to school, not because I can review with peace of mind (I know that my level is based on stability, and I can't make any progress), but I like the feeling of being alone, and it has always been, solitude puts me in a subjective and emotional world for a while, I revel in my own story, I like this, I like this, find a way to ignore the annoying things that exist in real life, boring, and mutually beneficial, for me who is often in a downturn, how lucky and not easy!