I didn't wake up until the next morning, there was no one in the room, my stomach was hungry, my head still hurt, I got up and walked out the door, found a small noodle restaurant, bought a noodle soup, and had several missed calls on my phone.

When I came out of the noodle shop, I was emotionally lost, as if I had been stimulated by something, and for a while I felt the pressure of the nameless pressure pressing on my heart, and it was difficult to breathe, I walked in a panic and bumped into someone, it was Oga.

He looked at me and said, "What's wrong with you, like a ghost?"

"It's okay, where have you been? There was no one in the room. ”

"Go, I'll take you somewhere, they're all there. ”

Oga took me a few streets to a small district, and we went up to the third floor.

When I entered the door, I saw that the hair boys were there.

I asked Ohga, "Whose house is this?"

Oga said that it belonged to a friend of Mao Ling, and he pointed to a girl, "This is her home." I nodded to her, and after an afternoon of talking and laughing at her house, we went to the diamond cash drawer when it was dark.

Honestly, I don't like places where the sound is too loud, it makes me feel irritable, so we come out together. She took my hand, I felt very uncomfortable, a few of them walked in front, I walked with her behind, I wanted to walk faster, I couldn't open my legs because of the situation, so I slowly and leisurely swung back to her house.

There is no continuity in what happens, but it is the fragments of these days that make up my whole life.

At first, I thought I was writing a story, writing and writing and discovering that it was not like that, and the past was vividly remembered, and it became a memoir, and because I couldn't recall all the big and small things in the past, I began to pick and choose in my mind.

The bad thing about memoirs is that you have to go through the past again, if the previous way of life was good, it's okay to recall, if it's not good, wouldn't it be a blockage for yourself?

I'm just blocking myself, but I want to write it down and entertain the public at the same time, and I don't want to talk about it, I hope you won't think I'm blocking you.

After the meeting, Guan Wenhui rarely sent me messages, never called me, and wrote me a letter. She felt pressured in her studies, after all, she was repeating, and she couldn't pass herself casually, which would be a bit irresponsible.

I think there's a reason why she's ignoring me.

Her relationship with us is natural, she doesn't look for anyone else, I don't look for it, just like that, I live warmly, waiting for a year later or just the right time, we live together, don't ask about the past, don't want to think about the future as much as possible, just love each other in the present, this is her pursuit of love at that time.

Sometimes, I think she's making do with our relationship, she hasn't thought about the next step, everything she does is done step by step, there are few accidents, she is a good child in the eyes of people, she is the kind of person who has too much sense of reality and is barren in her heart, and I always go against her.

I can't mention her anymore, I'm in a state of confusion right now, I'm making decisions, and I naively think that Kwan will sympathize with me and understand why I'm leaving her.

I thought to myself that I couldn't delay her study, that she and I were not all the way, that she could find a better person than me, and that I was making excuses for myself to leave her.

So one afternoon, I asked Guan Wenhui to come out.

We both walked side by side, neither of us talking. I had thought of a lot of words in advance, but now I couldn't say a word, and I felt like the spit could suffocate me to death, so I peeked at her, and she lowered her head.

I said, "Let's break up." ”

She didn't speak, she continued to walk, she blushed a little, I felt an unnatural smile on her face, she didn't know how to answer, after a while, she said, "You haven't seen my little brother, 6 months old, he is my little golden bean, I named him." ”

I smiled and said, "No." ”

She also said: "This morning, he pulled poop and made it all over his body, which was too frustrating." ”

I replied, "That's naughty." ”

"Hmmm......"

……

"Will we still be friends in the future", she asked me.

"yes, the friendship is still there!" I looked at her, pretending to be relaxed.

She stopped talking.

We walked like this for a while, and finally I said, I'm leaving, and she looked at me with a little sadness, after all, this is not a movie scene, otherwise I would say that she would hold me from behind and tell me not to go.

Guan Wenbin is not that kind of person, she is an angel, she has always been, but she failed to save me, I am too unmotivated.

I turned and walked away, and my heart felt like it had fallen to the ground as I left, empty in pain.

I didn't dare to turn around, I never had the courage to look back, I imagined her waiting for me to turn back, I imagined her crying for me, wiping tears from the corners of her eyes, I imagined her calling my name, over and over again. She didn't, maybe I would have relented if she held on, how I wanted to hug her one last time.

I still want her to comfort me, and see how ridiculous I am, and she can no longer comfort me, never think of me again.

In the future, only my loneliness was left to accompany me, and there was no more Guan Wenbin, no more love......

This is the bitterness of youth, this is the bitterness of adolescent love, and even the ending of love is not the kind of heart-rending that calls and migrates, but it is precisely this simplicity and insipidity that has become the definition of adolescent love, and I think that this is exactly what it is about.

In the future, I rarely mentioned Guan Wenhui in my circle of friends, but I have never been able to forget her, she has died in my impression, and it has become a part of my thoughts, although it is very small, I can still touch her and her voice and smile from time to time, and touch those youthful years that we have walked together.

I told Xiao Wu that I broke up with Guan Wenbin, and he was not surprised, he always thought that Guan Wenhui and I couldn't go far, in his words, "her head is too big", where is this, I told the man, and the man said that I can move freely, and I told the pony that he had nothing to say to me.

The man and Bai Xiaozheng were brazenly tossing, and I also acted as a light bulb for a while.

I took the car back from Xiaocheng to find a man when I was fine, two hours away is not far, every time I look for him, he is with Bai Xiao. Once I was playing billiards with him, and he received a call from Bai Xiao, saying that she was almost there. The man immediately stopped fighting, saying that there were people in his dormitory, so he went to find a hotel to live in, and shamelessly asked me to buy him a box of condoms to send over, and immediately opened the room after speaking......

Two months later, it happened.

I heard him say on the phone: "Bai Xiao is pregnant. ”

I said, "Aren't you doing a good job?"

"Mistakes. ”

"And what are you going to do?"

"What can I do? I've got all the money ready. ”

"Then what are you calling me about?"

"It's nothing, I feel panicked. ”

"Don't think about it, take good care of her after you do it"

"Then you still need to say, I'll hang up first, I secretly beat you, and she won't let you say it. ”

"You're a buddy, okay, call me if you have something." I put my phone down and felt like nothing was the same.

A few days later, the man called me again and borrowed a few hundred yuan from me, his words were full of melancholy, I don't know what happened between her and Bai Xiao, I think how can I be safe? I thought that this was the turning point in the TV series, so I didn't continue to ask.