I kept having nightmares about my mom being gone, and I cried out in my heartbreak......

Suddenly I was awakened by the touch on my face... It was my mother who gently touched my head with her hand, and then whispered:

"Qiao Yu, I'm hungry... Want to drink some porridge. ”

My mom has been having a bad appetite since she got sick, so she's telling me she's hungry now, and I'm a little surprised...

I looked at the time and it was only six o'clock in the morning, and the kitchen had been useless for a long time, so I didn't know if there was any rice at home.

When I opened the refrigerator, I unexpectedly found that there were a lot of dishes in it, and the kitchen was very clean, it should be Liu Sha

I quickly disinfected the dishes with hot water with Wu Hao, and then began to slowly boil the porridge...

I can't imagine that if my mother is gone, this will still be a family?!

All I was left with were painful memories, and all the people who stayed in this room were scattered...

When I got back to my room, my mom looked like she was going to give an explanation... At her instruction, I took it out of the closet

A box with some jewelry in it, including a necklace that Lin still bought for her before, which is still in its original form

She put it in there, and some of the ornaments she wore before, and by the way, she gave me the title deed of the house.

This house was originally written in my name, and she also took out a contract for the demolition of S Town, which was the last thing she left

Give me all the property......

At eight o'clock, Liu Sha came, and I am very grateful to her... Even though I can't accept that my mom is leaving

But many things still have to be faced strongly......

S Town... I've been to this town many times, but today I'm going to the cemetery...... hasn't been in it yet,

I felt a gloomy feeling, I stood at the door and lit a cigarette to strengthen my courage, and suddenly involuntarily shrank back,

Then I went inside... Looking at the cemetery all over the mountains and the yellow leaves falling on the ground, at a glance, the cemetery is here

It looks very sad in the autumn sun... I think this is where people end up dwelling! It's a little scary quiet.

Only occasionally can be heard the cuckoo call...

Under the leadership of the administrator, I chose a more remote location, because my mother has always liked to be quiet, just follow

She has the same personality and she will definitely like the position I picked for her...

I stood for a moment in front of the cemetery I had chosen, which was made of marble and built in small tombs

It's very simple, the administrator gave me a brief introduction next to me and said the price......

When I was sure, I calmly said, "That's it..."

He instructed: "Write down all your names, and the names of your juniors should also be engraved..."

After I wrote my mom and my names in my notebook, I suddenly fell stupid... I don't even know about my daughter and son

name, looking at the names of the descendants engraved under other people's tombstones, there is a feeling that the seeds are full of grandchildren...

I felt desolate and felt sorry for my mother... Feel sorry for yourself too.

So I hid my sadness and said, "I'm not married yet, I'll talk about it later..."

The administrator gave me a surprised look, maybe it was rare for me to do so!

In my eyes, I turned and walked out...

He followed me and said, "You go to the office and hand over the money, call us early when the time comes..."

When I heard the words 'when the time comes', I suddenly felt a sense of congestion, which meant my mother at that time

life has ended......

Under his leadership, I paid the money for the cemetery, took the ticket, and fled away from the man

Where you feel suffocated... Walking out the door, I looked back and again, and finally left with a sad mood...

Back in the city, I went directly to a piano shop and chose a guitar with a better texture, and I wanted to play a song for it

My mom listened, playing her favorite lilac song, wanting her to leave a good memory in her last days!

As soon as I opened the door, I heard the sound of vomiting before I had time to change my shoes, and I quickly walked into the room

Taking care of my mom, I quickly told her to leave the room, this kind of thing shouldn't be done by her... My mom ate it all

Spit it out, indicating that the internal organ system has lost its function, and the food eaten cannot be converted into nutrients, including the porridge drunk in the morning

I vomited it all, and I watched this scene with heartache......

After three nights... On the fourth night, my mother couldn't eat anymore, so I sat in my room with her.

She lay quietly on the bed, and suddenly reached out to me, and I sat next to her, and she was calm and quiet

said: "Qiao Yu, after your mother leaves, you have to take good care of yourself... Hurry up and finish your studies in the United States!"

The phrase "you have to take good care of yourself" has been instructed countless times...

Although I didn't want to cry, the tears still poured out of my eyes frantically, and I nodded obediently.

Then she instructed: "You are still a good woman, you have time to see the children more, you have to mature quickly!"

At this moment, my mother finally mentioned the child, and my heart was full of guilt, so I took a deep breath and said:

"I'll pick up the baby tomorrow, you have to hold on!"

My mother, as usual, raised her hand and touched my head: "Mom knows your difficulties, if you can take it,

You've been there a long time ago... Don't take some things to heart, even if you are separated, you have to deal with the relationship well.

It's not easy to ...... with kids."

Then she said, "After Mom leaves, you have to get along with your dad too... After he is the only one who will not

The people who are tolerant of you ......"

In order to reassure her, I nodded desperately: "Don't worry..."

This night, I couldn't speak, she seemed to have endless words, like her last words before dying, I just

A vigorous nod... Looking at her pale face, by two o'clock in the morning, she could no longer speak, but

Her eyes kept on me, and it seemed that she had a lot of words to say......

I sat on the edge of the bed and held her in my arms....... It wasn't until my body gradually became cold that I put her down smoothly

Under.

Picked up the guitar and started playing:

You say you love lilacs the most

Because your name is what it is

What a melancholy flower

Sentimental people

When the flowers wither

When the picture freezes

What a delicate flower

But he can't hide from the wind and rain

A life of floating, shaking, and shaking

What a beautiful weaving dream

And so you left in a hurry

Leave me to worry about for the rest of my life

What a beauty you long for when the grave is full of flowers

Look at the mountains and fields

Do you still feel lonely?

Listen to someone singing your favorite song

How much is the world complicated

You don't have to worry about it anymore

You say you love lilacs the most

Because your name is what it is

What a melancholy flower

Sentimental people

When the flowers wither

When the picture freezes

What a delicate flower

But he can't hide from the wind and rain

A life of floating, shaking, and shaking

What a beautiful weaving dream

And so you left in a hurry

Leave me to worry about for the rest of my life

What a beauty you long for when the grave is full of flowers

Look at the mountains and fields

Do you still feel lonely?

Listen to someone singing your favorite song

How much complexity is in the world

You don't have to worry about it anymore

What a beauty you long for when the grave is full of flowers

Look at the mountains and fields

Do you still feel lonely?

Listen to someone singing your favorite song

There is a lot of complexity between the cities

You don't have to worry about it anymore

The yard is full of lilacs

Beautiful purple flowers bloom

I'm here with her

Protect her for the rest of your life

This song is like interpreting my mother's fate... It's also a portrayal of her, I play it repeatedly, and I see it

Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes...

At three o'clock in the morning, she finally took her last breath, and I calmly held her hand, and at this moment I had

I don't want to cry anymore, although the tears still keep staying... After she left, I kept looking at her stupidly,

Her pale face will never speak to me again, and her eyes are not closed, is this a dead eye?!

I gently touched her eyes with my hand, took out my phone and sent him a brief message:

My mom is gone!

My phone rang and I didn't bother to answer... It feels like the whole person is being hollowed out, and I don't know

The funeral procedure was just quietly watching my mother, and although she was not breathing, I believe her soul was sure

Still ...

His phone kept going, and I stared at the phone and finally picked it up...

His voice was a little excited: "When did your mother leave?"

I just replied lightly: "Just left!"

He hung up after a moment of silence, and I couldn't care about his mood now...

I've been sitting on the edge of the bed with my mom, who single-handedly raised me... And the only one who is closest to you

And so I left......

It wasn't until dawn that I called Wu Hao and informed Luo Jing and Han Yixuan, I don't want to

It's so lonely for her, a few people have to send her off... She is still so young, and she is still a month away

At the age of fifty, her life was too sad, I picked up the guitar and played it again, playing the song repeatedly,

Tears have soaked my chest...

Bouncing... Bouncing... I burst into tears again, and I felt like my whole body was numb down to my fingers

There was a sense of pain... I looked down and saw that my fingers had broken skin, and there was still a trace of blood...

I finally put down my guitar and went into the bathroom where my mom was using and got a clean towel for her to wash

The face, which was no longer conscious, was sleeping peacefully at the moment and would never wake up again......