We are born with a protective color, because the true self can only be buried, if you accidentally tear open that layer of film, you will find that no matter how strong the original person is, there is also an unknown side of cowardice and vulnerability. [Full text reading.]

Shi Xiaonian lost her part-time job at the bar, she needed to find it again, she found a dessert shop as a waitress, and she had to be busy late every day. Leave very early in the morning and come back very late in the evening. Such days made Shi Xiaonian collapse, but she had to grit her teeth to hold on.

If she can't hold on, she has to hold on, and she has to fight for a future even if she gives up her life! For her mother, for her family!

Shi Xiaonian returned the house she rented, Luo Shanshan didn't say a word, and directly asked Shi Xiaonian to live with her. Shi Xiaonian did not refuse, she kept this affection in her heart.

She worked late last night, Luo Shanshan couldn't stand it anymore, she said to Shi Xiaonian: "Xiao Nian, you can't go on like this, your body will collapse!"

Shi Xiaonian shook her head, she didn't care so much, she picked herself up in the bathroom, suddenly, the mobile phone in the bedroom rang, and Shi Xiaonian ran out of the door in a panic before she could hear two words.

I was in a daze all the way, and I fell down the stairs, and halfway through the run, I seemed to think of something again, and hurriedly ran back, just in time to collide with Luo Shanshan, who ran out with him.

"Early in the morning, what the hell are you?" Luo Shanshan rubbed her shoulders, just collided with Shi Xiaonian, her whole person was about to fall apart, and Shi Xiaonian looked fine, she was just about to ask Shi Xiaonian what was wrong, she saw Shi Xiaonian's face turned pale, she seemed to be very sad, and tears kept falling.

"Xiao Nian, what's wrong with you, what's going on, tell me?" Luo Shanshan wanted to calm Shi Xiaonian's emotions, but who knew that Shi Xiaonian grabbed her collar.

"Shanshan, no, something happened to my mother!" Shi Xiaonian pulled Luo Shanshan's collar and shook it with a pale face, "Dad called just now and said that Mom is missing!"

Luo Shanshan was stunned for a moment, and Shi Ma Ma was gone!

"You wait for me, I'll go with you!" Luo Shanshan turned to go back to the house to change clothes, she washed up briefly, and rushed out the door frantically.

When he arrived at the hospital, Shi Xiaonian rushed straight to the ward, in the ward, Shi Dad walked back and forth, and as soon as Shi Xiaonian entered the door, he asked, "Dad, where is Mom!"

Shi's father had a sad look on his face, he was holding a note in his hand, he handed it to Shi Xiaonian, and said, "This is the ...... left by your mother."

Shi Xiaonian trembled her hands, she took the note, and looked at the crooked small words on it: Daughter, mom is gone, you and your dad have to take care of themselves, don't look for me.

Shi Ma Ma didn't read much, she didn't graduate from elementary school, Shi Xiaonian grew so big, it was the first time to see her mother write, her heart was very uneasy, she asked Shi Dad while crying: "Dad, when did you find out that your mother was gone?"

"When I woke up at half past five, she was no longer in the ward, I searched the whole hospital, but I didn't find your mother's ......" Shi Dad's face was guilty and blamed, he stretched out his hand and slapped his face: "Dad is useless, even your mother can't look at it, Xiao Nian, I'm sorry ......"

"Dad, don't be like this, let's go to our mother now, okay? Mom doesn't have any money with her, she can't go far, let's go find her now!" Shi Xiaonian thought that her mother was out alone, she was still sick, her throat was like someone was strangling, and she couldn't breathe.

She, Shi's father and Luo Shanshan went out of the hospital directly, and the three of them went to look for Shi Mama, Shi Xiaonian was on the street, she looked around and looked for it, her mind was in chaos.

Where will Mom go? Where can she go? She doesn't know her life here, what if something happens?

No! No, mom won't have an accident! How could mom have an accident! Shi Xiaonian shook her head, she told herself not to think too much, even if she did, don't think in a bad direction, mom will be safe, she will be fine!

Shi Xiaonian ran all over the streets and alleys, but she just couldn't find any trace of her mother, where was her mother? Shi Xiaonian was anxious, and later, she found Shi Ma Ma in a remote corner.

Shi Ma Ma hugged her shoulders with both hands, her whole person shrunk into a ball, she seemed to be cold, and her body trembled slightly. When Shi Xiaonian saw this scene, her tears almost didn't fall.

She stepped forward, took off her coat, and draped it over Shi Mama's body. She reached out and hugged Shi Ma. Shi Ma Ma was awakened, and when she saw Shi Xiaonian, the words she wanted to say were choked in her throat, and she couldn't say a word.

"Mom......" Shi Xiaonian hugged Shi Ma tightly, she said: "Mom, let's go back, no matter what happens, we will always be together, no matter how big the difficulties are, we will face them together, okay?"

Hearing her daughter say this, Shi Mama's tears suddenly flowed. She said: "Daughter, it's not that my mother doesn't want to be treated, but the money spent, I don't want to see you work so hard......"

"Mom, you are my own mother! no matter what, I won't watch you ......" Shi Xiaonian couldn't go on, her heart was uncomfortable.

When she brought Shi Ma Ma back to the hospital, Shi Ma's father originally had a depressed expression, and when he saw Shi Ma Ma, he almost flew up, he hugged Shi Ma Ma's arm, crying and said, "You old woman, are you willing to leave me alone?"

Shi Xiaonian watched her parents hug each other and cried bitterly, she cried on the side, Luo Shanshan hugged Shi Xiaonian, she was also very uncomfortable, she knew that Shi Xiaonian felt more uncomfortable than anyone else, but she couldn't do anything but comfort.

This matter is over, and Shi Xiaonian is working even harder, and her whole person is getting thinner and thinner. In order to prevent Shi's father Shi Ma from finding out, she hasn't been to the hospital much recently.

And Luo Shanshan couldn't dissuade Shi Xiaonian, she could only cook food for Shi Xiaonian and help Shi Xiaonian make up for his body.

In such a peaceful time, Shi Xiaonian worked day and night, in her life, this may be the most difficult time, but she has no regrets, and she will not regret it.

For the sake of her mother, she will definitely persevere to the end!

Today, after Shi Xiaonian got off work, she wanted to go home as usual, but she didn't expect to meet Xu Hanfeng.

Xu Hanfeng was sitting in a wheelchair, Shi Xiaonian could hardly believe it, how could Xu Hanfeng become like this?

His face was a little pale, and his face was stubble, and Shi Xiaonian almost didn't recognize him. When Xu Hanfeng saw Shi Xiaonian, he smiled faintly and nodded with Shi Xiaonian.

Shi Xiaonian and Xu Hanfeng looked at each other silently, the two of them seemed to be looking at strangers, but Xu Hanfeng pushed the wheelchair over first: "Xiao Nian, are you surprised to see me?"

Xu Hanfeng's smile was more innocent than before, Shi Xiaonian thought it was his illusion at first, but no, Xu Hanfeng seemed to have really changed.

He said to her, "Why are you looking at me like this, don't you feel very happy that I am a waste now?"

Hearing Xu Hanfeng say this, Shi Xiaonian frowned, and she asked with a cold face: "Xu Hanfeng, what tricks are you going to play?"

Xu Hanfeng laughed, he shook his head: "I didn't mean that, Xiao Nian, let's find a place to talk, right?"

Shi Xiaonian refused his invitation, and she said that she still had to work part-time. Xu Hanfeng raised his eyebrows, and he asked Shi Xiaonian if there was anything he needed help with, and he could say it.

Xu Hanfeng may not be as bad as before, Shi Xiaonian thought to herself, but it's none of her business, she is in a mess now, she needs to work, make money, and support her family.

Shi Xiaonian didn't pay attention to Xu Hanfeng, she walked to the bus booth outside by herself and had to wait for the bus.

Xu Hanfeng pushed the wheelchair over, he looked at Shi Xiaonian, she looked tired between her eyebrows, Xu Hanfeng said softly: "Xiaonian, you have been a lot haggard recently, and you have lost weight." ”

"It's none of your business. Shi Xiaonian took a step back, Xu Hanfeng was embarrassed to get closer, and there was a flash of loss in his eyes.

"Xiao Nian, in fact, you don't need to be like this, if there is anything you need my help with, you can tell me. ”

"Thank you for your kindness. Shi Xiaonian would not bow his head to him.

"Xiao Nian, why do you want to do this?" Xu Hanfeng lowered his head, he laughed at himself, and said in a mocking tone: "I heard my cousin say that your mother's illness has spent all your savings, and you have been so tired and half dead recently that you have gone crazy in order to make money?"

Shi Xiaonian clutched the bag in her hand, how could she not know what Xu Hanfeng said, the conditions of her family were not rich in the first place, and the savings she had saved over the years were nothing in the face of treating diseases, she was really exhausted.

"I don't need you to remind me of things at home. Shi Xiaonian met Xu Hanfeng's gaze, with anger in his voice.

Originally, she didn't want to mention these things, why did Xu Hanfeng come to hurt her, pick up her wounds and sprinkle a handful of salt, and remind her who wanted to anesthetize herself, is this really painful?

"I'm not trying to remind you, but I'm trying to tell you that you're running out of options. Xu Hanfeng took out a bank card from his pocket: "I know you are stubborn, maybe you also hate me and hate the things I did before, but I want you to know, Xiao Nian, I like you from beginning to end, I didn't want to hurt you, really, I hope you can live well." ”

He took the bank card to Shi Xiaonian in front of him, "The password is your birthday, if you don't want to take it, I will lend it to you, and when you have money, you can return it to me." ”

"I don't need to. Shi Xiaonian looked away, gritted his teeth stubbornly and said.

Xu Hanfeng shrugged his shoulders, he was noncommittal, he didn't force it, he took back his bank card, and before leaving, he said to Shi Xiaonian: "I welcome you to come to me at any time, Xiao Nian." ”

Shi Xiaonian watched his back leave in front of her, Shi Xiaonian's hands slowly clenched, and she took a deep breath.

Xu Hanfeng......

She whispered the name in her heart.

She never thought that there would be such a day, and at this moment, she was very confused.