It is from these subsections of life that the relationship between me and Fang Ju gradually breeds contradictions.

However, in some respects, I admit that Fang Ju is a very perfect woman, because she is well-born and well-educated, so she always gives people a sense of elegance and generosity in front of outsiders, and at the same time, she is also a very conscientious mother, and under her careful care, our daughter is taken care of like a little princess carefree.

However, I can't accept her attitude towards my parents and family, I know that it has something to do with my growth background, the growth background of the two of us is too different, this contradiction is irreconcilable, so I can only sigh.

Later, my parents passed away one after another, so this aspect of the family conflict gradually faded over time.

However, at this time, Fang Ju was sick, it was a tumor on the uterus, after the doctor's diagnosis, it was preliminarily determined to be benign, although Fang Ju has always lived a comfortable life, but the disease is sometimes unpredictable.

Since Fang Ju was sick, I have been doing my best to take care of her, after the test results came out, the doctor said that it was not too good, for the sake of prudence, the doctor removed part of Fang Ju's uterus during the operation.

After the operation, under the careful care of doctors and family, Fang Ju's body gradually recovered, but after that, she had obvious frigidity.

I was not yet forty years old at the time, because of regular fitness and exercise, my body was very strong and very strong, and the frequency of sex once a week was not satisfactory to me, and the actual situation of our husband and wife at that time was that we did not have sex once or twice a month, even if there were, Fang Ju's attitude was also extremely cold, and she often dealt with things in a hurry.

There was no way, I had to find solace in other women, and because Fang Ju couldn't meet my needs in this regard, she turned a blind eye to me looking for a woman outside.

Because I am now a successful businessman, there are not a few warblers and swallows around me, but I always feel that there is a lack of a sense of communication that goes straight to the bottom of my heart, and those young ones can satisfy my body, but not my soul.

It was at this time that I met Su Man, the mother of my daughter Ran Ran's good friend Tongtong.

The first time I saw her, it was at her house, when I personally drove my daughter Ran Ran home, the moment I opened the door, I had a feeling of being stunned, because Su Man's temperament was too similar to my first girlfriend, quiet and shy, although she was already a mother, she still retained a little shyness of a girl, which made people laugh.

However, at that time, Su Man was someone else's wife, and I was also a family person, although my sex life with my wife was not coordinated, but for a family like ours, these would not be shown on the surface.

I have quietly asked Fang Ju about Su Man's situation and learned more about her, and I also learned about Su Man and her husband Deng Liang through other channels, but I did not take further action against her during this period, but only secretly paid attention to the information related to her family situation.

Later, almost suddenly, I heard Fang Ju say that Su Man and her husband divorced, and I didn't know what was going on.

I sent someone to inquire about the specific situation, and learned that Deng Liang did not give her the part of the property that his company should have given to Su Man, I felt very angry in my heart, I really wanted to give Deng Liang this kid a little color to see, bullying an unarmed woman who has lived with him for more than ten years, is he still a man?

But from my perspective at the time, I didn't have any position to take any action against Deng Liang, so I had to secretly pay attention to Su Man's every move.

Later, Su Man disappeared, and later, I learned that she actually opened a spicy hot snack bar in the mixed environment of the city and village.

When I heard the news, I had mixed feelings, I can say that I was both heartbroken for her, but also admired her courage, Su Man, such a weak woman, dared to open a snack bar in the extremely complex environment where the bottom people live in the city and village, the courage is really commendable, at the same time, I am also secretly worried that she will encounter any trouble, after all, she is just a weak woman.

So I often drove around the city and village, looking forward to meeting Su Man one day, and finally, once my car was seen by Su Man when I passed there, so I naturally asked to go to her small shop to see, and then we had a connection.

At that time, I hoped to take this opportunity to help her, give her a sum of money, and let her do something she liked according to her wishes, but Su Man is a very introverted and shy person, probably to avoid suspicion, she resolutely refused to accept the money I funded her, which made me feel very helpless.

Later, I found a few more opportunities to ask her to meet, but Su Man excused herself for one reason or another, and finally met me, but maybe I was too eager to express myself at that time, which frightened her, causing her to never dare to come out to see me later, which made me even more helpless.

But I can't help but think of her all the time in my heart, her gentle and reserved temperament, the faint smile and resignation, and even the faint perfume smell of lavender on her body, which make me remember it for a long time.

I couldn't help but reflect in my heart: With my status Zhu Yunxiu today, what kind of woman can't I get? How many young and beautiful little stars, small models, and little white-collar workers usually flirt with me openly and secretly, and some even openly show love to me, and they are not afraid of my married status at all.

But why do I turn a blind eye to these young and beautiful women, on the contrary, when I face Su Man, I am like a little boy who is just beginning to fall in love, and I can't give up on her for a divorced woman in her thirties?

I carefully analyzed my psychology and felt that there were the following reasons, one is because Su Man's temperament is very similar to my first love Yun, especially her facial features and demeanor, which are similar to Yun, so I found a feeling of first love in her that I had not seen for a long time.

What's more, Su Man's gentle and subtle temperament is a special charm unique to oriental women, this charm is very fascinating to men, I am just an ordinary man, of course, I am not immune to being deeply attracted by it.

Finally, there is another point, that is, although Su Man is in her thirties, she still retains a very pure temperament of her girlhood, when she looks at people, her eyes are very soft, but she also inevitably has a trace of shyness, this feeling is in stark contrast to those women who are women and mothers in their thirties in the usual sense.

At this age, ordinary women have already experienced the baptism of marriage for many years, and are the mothers of children of a few years old, and when they gesture and even communicate with others, they no longer have the shyness and shyness when they were not married, and their eyes are no longer innocent and innocent, replaced by the tiredness and calmness that life brings to them.

So from this point of view, Su Man still retains a trace of innocence in her girlhood, which is very valuable, which is also the main reason why I can't stop lingering on her, especially her repeated refusal to pursue me, which makes me feel irritable, and even when I work during the day, I will be distracted, often think of her, and her soft figure appears in front of me.

Su Man couldn't accept me, so I silently protected her, after the car accident that accidentally hit her, I sent someone to investigate the cause of the accident and found that it was just a pure accident, but at the same time I also found a boy named Ye Xing who was very close to Su Man, he and others did not know some secrets, I have no interest in those secrets, I just hope they don't endanger Su Man's safety, so I sent an anonymous letter to Ye Xing to keep him away from Su Man.

In order to make Man die, I also sent Man two important addresses related to Ye Xing, I think, if Ye Xing really has such an important position in her heart, she will go to explore.

Unexpectedly, she really went to explore, but the result was that she found out some truths that Ye Xing had been hiding from her, and in the end they were finally completely separated.

I didn't do this because I didn't want to be beautiful as an adult, nor because I was jealous, but because I felt that Su Man and that boy were really inappropriate, and at the same time, I was afraid that they would cause significant harm to Su Man.

It turned out that I originally wanted Su Man to be a fixed lover for me, anyway, she was divorced, and my marriage with Xie Fangju had already existed in name only, the so-called perfect couple was just an illusion created for others for the sake of face, our husband and wife had already been separated for a long time, and they rarely communicated on weekdays, just because of our social status, to avoid bad social influence, and after all, there was a daughter between us, which contributed to my inability to file for divorce from Fang Ju easily.

But after I showed my love several times, Su Man just refused to accept me, I wonder if it's because she cares about the status of marriage?

For this reason, I meditated, and also reflected on the bits and pieces of my marriage with Fang Ju over the years, thinking that we are now sleeping in separate rooms as husband and wife, and there is basically no communication on weekdays, I think that there is not much point in maintaining this marriage, so after weighing left and right, I filed for divorce from Xie Fangju.

I never expected that Fang Ju would react so strongly to my request for divorce, she cried when I proposed it, and then cried and asked me in a loud voice: "I have already allowed you to be a lover outside, what do you want? Why can't you keep a name for me in the main room? Do you have to be so ruthless when we have been married for more than ten years?"

In the face of Fang Ju's crying, I felt very uncomfortable, I patiently analyzed with her: "Fang Ju, do you think that our marriage has reached the current point, husband and wife sleep in separate rooms, usually except for the education of our daughter, there is no communication between us at all, just like strangers living under the same roof, what is the point of such a husband and wife relationship continuing to exist? Instead of maintaining such a layer of hypocritical marriage veil, it is better to completely uncover it and let each other have a way out, Fang Ju, do you say?"

Unexpectedly, in the face of my bitter persuasion, Xie Fangju not only did not listen, but broke out like hysteria, she cried and shouted at me: "Don't think I don't know your mind? You like Tongtong's mother, right? I have read your diary, you said in your diary that Su Man refused to be your lover, and repeatedly rejected your pursuit, which made you very distressed, so you are hesitating whether to divorce or not, and then give her an official name, this is your original intention of filing for divorce, right?"

As soon as I heard this, I was stunned, and after being stunned, I asked Fang Ju seriously: "You actually peeked at my diary? Do you know that husbands and wives should also respect individuals?"

Fang Ju wiped her tears and said to me angrily: "You dare to write, are you still afraid of being seen? There is a person between husband and wife! But you are obviously ungrateful! Have you forgotten how my Xie family supported you in the first place? Now that you are soaring, you want to divorce your wife, Zhu Yunxiu, do you still have a little conscience?"

When Xie Fangju said this, she completely lost the soft and dignified side she presented to outsiders in the past, her hair was red, her ears were red, her eyes were red and swollen, and she looked no different from any shrew in the market, I knew that arguing with her like this would only make both sides lose.

So I stood up and said to her calmly: "Forget it, you are very emotional now, and we can't talk about anything in this case, so let's wait until you calm down." ”

As I spoke, I put on my coat and was about to go out, when Fang Ju shouted to me hoarsely in the living room: "Zhu Yunxiu, if you want to divorce me, don't think about it in this life!

I thought Fang Ju was just saying something angry, so I sighed, didn't respond to her, and went straight out.

But I never imagined that Fang Ju would actually commit suicide later! Fortunately, she was discovered by the domestic servants in time and sent to the hospital for treatment, so it did not lead to more serious consequences.

After experiencing this life-and-death catastrophe, Fang Ju also wanted to open up, and finally let me live, and we divorced peacefully.

However, although I was divorced, Su Man still did not accept me, she said that she was willing to be a pair of gentlemen with me.

Alas, I sighed silently in my heart, but I respect Su Man's thoughts, and it is also a good thing to be a gentleman's friend with a strange woman like her, who is soft on the outside and strong on the inside.

Of course, in the years to come, in the process of our warm and watery relationship, if she can slowly be moved by me, accept me as a person, and join hands with me to be a loving partner for a lifetime, it will be a more satisfying thing for me.

I silently waited for this day to come......