See?

I am always speculating about the future, and I think that speculation is true. So when reality doesn't go the way you guessed, it causes quite a lot of emotions. Maybe it's fear. Maybe it's anger, maybe it's unwillingness, maybe it's sadness.

The point is, I'm always thinking about the future, what kind of bad habit is this Nima?

Whether it's imagining a beautiful scene in the future or worrying about the future life situation, it's a bad habit. When did you start to think about the future?

What is the future?

Does it mean the next moment of time? There's an assumption that time passes linearly, and that's a completely untested hypothesis. Right, how do I know that time passes linearly?

I just "remember" that time passes linearly like this, but there is no evidence that my memory is correct, and there is no evidence that time passes linearly. All evidence can be destroyed with the phrase "I am aware of it now".

Taking a step back, even if the time passes linearly, it is exactly as I imagined, from left to right, from yesterday to today to tomorrow. Even if so, how do I know what's going to happen in the next moment?

All memories and experiences can only prove that something happened at a certain time in the past, not that the same thing will happen in the future. Even if it is a simple "truth" like the apple landing, I don't have any evidence that the next time the apple will land and not fly to the moon.

It's just a belief that after tens of thousands of apples have landed, I "believe" that the apples will land next time, because they have landed tens of thousands of times before, and the planets have not changed or there is no alien interference or anything like that. But no matter how you interpret it, you can't escape that it's just a belief.

It is also impossible to say that gravity exists or anything like that. Because, how do I know that gravity exists? Is it because the apple falls to the ground every time and not to heaven? So, how do I know that the apple falls every time? because of gravity?

This is circular proof that because the Bible is said by God, the Bible is true. How do I know that the Bible is said by God? because it says in the Bible?

Take a step back, even if the laws I summarized are valid, Apple will land next time, and all the fundamental laws of physics are valid and true. Well, I still don't know what will happen in the next moment.

All I can say is that I know what will happen in the next moment, as well as in the absence of other sources of interfering information. For example, I know that the next moment the cup will be used by me to catch water, and I know that the next moment I am going to write a full stop.

But is the future I'm worried about, the bright future I'm imagining, these things? How much unknown information is in it, and how many variables are in it that I can't control at all.

So, what's the future?

Virtual data created by humble and pitiful knowledge in the brain.

The future is such a shit thing.

At the end of the day, I'm still playing with the virtual data in my head. What I worry about and love is not the real future, but just the virtual data in my head. Isn't that enough? How long do you have to play with the dummy data in your head?

Do you have to play until the moment of death, only to know that your life is just playing with your own imagination?

God, I really don't understand, what reason is there not to kill the character, what reason is there to let yourself be manipulated by the character!

Before, if you couldn't see this, you just forgot it. Now, I see this, and if I can't let go and kill it, then I'm really a coward freaked out by fear.

It's like a chick flying in a storm, afraid of lightning, strong winds, and torrential rain, and returning to a warm nest. In this life, I never had the courage to come out again. And, see flying as fear and bird's nest as safety. In order to make this behavior seem normal, you can only encourage everyone to approve of your behavior.

When everyone doesn't fly out of the nest, when everyone thinks that staying in the nest is the right life, no one will despise not being able to fly. Because at that time, no one believed in flying at all. Leaving the nest, leaving the warmth, this will be regarded by everyone as having a problem with the brain.

But the point is that the impulses deep within are not so easy to erase. Maybe the character can divert attention, maybe the character can restrain in behavior, but the deep yearning in the heart cannot be restrained. At most, it is just to use fear to erase this wave of yearning.

How much self-definition does the character weave that makes me ignore such obvious things? Am I an idiot? How simple and easy to understand is only now clear?

Putting time into the future gives the character plenty of leeway to intimidate and create things to scare me. After all, everyone knows that the future is unclear. The funny thing is that I just want to seize the future, I want to control the future.

There has to be something in the head, which is a key element of the character's existence. If there is nothing in the head, it means that there is no thinking, only the empty body is here, and the character is unwilling!

The role should be full, and the focus is on those perceptions. The more opinions that make sense, the more attention the character will receive and thus more recognition. When you think about it, everyone sees me as air, they can't see me, let alone communicate with me.

But I'm very rich and can buy anything online to ensure my survival. And then what? In this scenario, in this scenario of zero interaction and zero interaction, how long can I stay sustained without committing suicide?

If I'm a ghost, it's okay, at least I can fly around and walk through some rooms at will. But if I were still a normal person, I would just be invisible to everyone, and everyone wouldn't pay attention to any of my interactions, like me spilling Coke in the air or something.

Perhaps, in this environment, I can think more about why the character exists, and how I want to spend this life.

The role needs recognition, first of all for myself, and I feel that everything that makes up the character is right. If I think that everything that makes up a character is wrong, all the opinions of the character are wrong. This will make the character as a whole grumpy, because this is also wrong, and it is wrong.

Next, the character will turn these wrongs into right ones for recognition. For example, I think that everything in my head is wrong, and then I will set "everything in my head is wrong" as a new self-definition and cry in front of everyone.

As a result, people will say, "You're right, it's true that you're wrong," and the character is recognized again. The content doesn't matter, as long as the character exists, it's good.

That's the negative character.