I'll make a mess of Yuan Changwen's character's life.

Of course, this "bad" is completely the definition of others, and in the eyes of others, the role of Yuan Changwen must be a negative teaching material. Whether or not I touched the real at that time, I would be defined as a mess because it was completely contrary to the life that the character defined and pursued.

Maybe I'm the only one who will enjoy it.

Can you kill someone? Of course, even family doesn't matter. Like a speck of dust, inconspicuous and unimportant. All of them are just the visual elements that I am aware of at the moment, including myself, so what's the matter?

It is precisely in view of this kind of thinking that how can the life of Yuan Changwen's character be good?

The world is not real, and now I am only logically certain, and occasionally I have a trance like a power outage, or a sense of rejection that is not immersed in life. When the slash is complete, this feeling should persist and take over.

I can completely abandon the world, abandon the so-called family responsibilities, and not care, struggle, and feel guilty. It's like dusting off your clothes, who cares if the dust follows them all the way?

Even if it's your own life, it's not precious. I don't know why so many people believe in the preciousness of life, even for those who believe in reincarnation and believe in heaven, cherishing life seems to be a subconscious behavior.

Another trap.

It's like, I don't care about anything, so when someone else asks me to borrow money, even, "Anyway, the character of Yuan Changwen thinks that the world is not real, so what do you keep the money for, take it all out" and something like that.

However, in this case, I just hold on to the self-definition of "I don't care about anything" and do all kinds of things to satisfy this self-definition. Aren't those so-called cultists, those so-called cultivators, wantonly manipulated by the bewitching woman who fears them?

There will always be some self-definition, and the existence of the character itself is a kind of self-definition, which is simply impossible to get rid of. Unless oneself is dead, the absence of the character will naturally lead to self-definition not being able to find an attachment.

It's not about what the character does and thinks, or how the character should do and think. Because I'm not trying to be a better person, or to be a so-called compassionate and kind character.

Real, it's all true or not. There is only one key point, and the only question that needs to be considered.

No matter how likable the character's kindness is, how respectable the character's kindness, those days when he doesn't complain, those who are always calm and indifferent, and those who behave like saints and gentlemen, all of them don't matter.

I'm still trying to be a good person, and every time a certain kind of words and deeds suddenly appears, I will doubt and reflect, just like some bullshit "three provinces a day". But in fact, there is no need to reflect at all, because I did it because I could only do it.

Even, this kind of introspection is only introspection. I don't have free will, and all of this happens because it's the only way things can happen. Some people know this, some people don't, but it doesn't matter, knowing it or not doesn't change anything.

It's real, it's always been there, whether we know it or not. If I don't know, the truth doesn't exist, so what is the truth? However, this idea of "not knowing is not existing" is itself the key point of this elaborate planning.

I didn't leave the truth, but I thought I had left the truth. This is the most incredible, what kind of black technology is completely exploded, what kind of punch blows up the planet and so on.

The distortion in my mind is still affecting me, and I always want to choose a better one. It's like, it's wrong for me to do that, it's the right thing to do. What is there to believe in the idea that it is merely a visual element of awareness?

What's there to talk about? What's there to talk about?

Yuan Changwen suddenly found that he couldn't understand this kind of conversation, but the strange thing was that he was obviously like this and was proud of it. Whether it's teaching disciples or the so-called imperial situation, I can always say a lot, and it makes sense.

There's a fart for it.

Look at your former self, who is a manipulated puppet, but unconsciously talks loudly about free will and the like. There is no one in it, and all the characters are puppets in their words and deeds, but they just look like humans.

It's a machine, it's an actor who recites lines, it's a set thing. Can't you see that the world is unreal? What the hell are those so-called achievements? What kind of shit are these human civilizations, the pinnacle of life?

Why should I care about the construction of the empire? What kind of bullshit empire dream does it matter to me? The character of Yuan Changwen is completely designed, and his mind is full of all kinds of thoughts, but he never seriously thinks about these thoughts.

When encountering a pounding heartbeat, I can only be choked by the distortion in my head, and then I also took a nice name and thought twice. How many words are based on fear, and how many are cross-dressing for fear? In order to show that they have no fear, they invent all kinds of new words to escape.

On the other hand, there is nothing wrong with Yuan Changwen, who used to spend his life like this. Right, you can only spend it like this, because these are the visual elements that are perceived at the moment, so what's the problem?

So, what exactly should I do?

I don't know, the words and actions of the characters are not manipulative at all. I can't control the character of Yuan Changwen, nor can I control the content of the screen elements. How and why all this happened, I don't know anything.

This is the most paradoxical and the most overlooked. I'm always prone to get stuck in black and white, and every time I deny my words and deeds, I can't come up with an effective plan to replace it.

Of course, there can't be a solution to replace it, that's just another self-definition. When I believe in the alternative, I already claim that the alternative is real, and I am once again mired in false manipulation.

I haven't done it yet, and right and wrong still have some influence in my mind. The distortion in my mind has changed the concept, and I regard the downstream as the only right, and if I don't follow the current, I will be judged wrong. In addition, I will continue to think about how to go with the flow.

The problem is that there is no such thing as a word or deed that is called a downstream, and there is no such thing as an event that is called a downstream. It's always going downstream, but the twist in the mind doesn't judge it that way. It's like the stupidity of a movie character, isn't it going with the flow but against the current?

Going with the tide and against the current is not real in itself.