Swallow died of lung cancer before, and now Sisi suddenly died in an accident, Rufeng can't figure out why such a young life fell so quickly, and never seen again.

Looking back on the past, the various youthfulness in college is still vivid, the conversation with Sisi is still in my ears, and the last time we met, Sisi kicked carefully and tasted the faint pain, everything is like a dream for Rufeng.

After Tang Jian left, he remained silent, and Liu Nanzhi didn't bother him. It wasn't until the company's employees had already gotten off work that Liu Nanzhi called softly: "Like the wind, it's time to go." ”

Rufeng didn't go home with Liu Nanzhi, he wanted to be alone, and after leaving alone, he couldn't help but come to the café where he met Sisi for the last time.

After work in the afternoon, there are a lot of people in the café, mostly couples in twos and threes, and some office workers with laptops, busy typing while drinking coffee. As soon as I walked in, the aroma of coffee with a little bitter taste was overflowing, and the taste was very familiar. Rufeng couldn't help but close his eyes, Sisi's cute and sweet smile was within reach, and he finally couldn't help shedding tears. A crystal teardrop condensed in the corner of his eye, and he quickly lowered his head and swiped it with his fingers, skillfully covering up the past.

Rufeng walked to the place where Sisi sat when he last met him, sat down quietly, and seemed to see Sisi smiling at him again, and then said to him, "I've liked you for a long time." He clenched his fists and pounded on the bar, cursing this strange world in his heart, wondering why the young life had withered before it had even blossomed, before it was a swallow, and now it was Sisi.

Thinking of this, he thought of another person, who, after some self-contradictory struggle, finally convinced himself. So, I saw him slowly pull out his phone from his pocket, slowly find a familiar and breathless name in the address book, and then press the dial button.

Here, I had just finished brushing the dishes in the kitchen and was wiping my hands with water with a yellow cotton towel. I have a habit of watching music on my phone when I'm in the kitchen, cooking, stir-frying, or washing dishes while listening, and I always feel that this is the way to make this otherwise very boring thing a little more interesting.

The phone rang, I wiped my hands, turned my head to look at the phone number on the stove, the phone number on it, made my heart suddenly inexplicably nervous. I pondered for a moment, torn between what the call meant, whether to answer it or ignore it. Later, seeing that the phone did not mean to hang up, the ringtone was mixed with vibration, and it was noisy on the stove, and it seemed that I was very dissatisfied with the fact that it was ignored, I picked up the phone and slid to the answer button, and just put the phone to my ear, I heard a low voice like the wind: "Xiaolan, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, you, your voice, what's going on?"

Sisi, she's gone. ”

"Sisi is gone, where have you gone, are you together?" I suddenly became nervous, and directly thought of another thing.

"We're still brother and sister, don't get me wrong. Rufeng understood what I meant and immediately explained.

"No, no, you don't have to explain anything to me, you happen to be single now, and you have the right to choose your other half. I didn't mean anything else, but when you suddenly said this, I thought you were together, and if so, then I am happy for you and would like to bless you. ”

"No, Xiaolan, it's impossible for me to talk to her, I've always regarded her as a sister. I feel very uncomfortable today, because when Sisi was going to the United States, her plane crashed, and she crashed and died. ”

The news was so sudden that I heard it so suddenly that I always felt as if I had a hearing problem, so I asked again: "Are you joking with me, what you just said about Sisi? The probability of a plane crash is so small, why did you just let her catch up? Who did you listen to about these things?"

"No, it's not a joke, it was Uncle Tang Jian, Donald Duck's father, who told me personally, he and Sisi are distant relatives and have very frequent interactions, plus he is an elder, how could he say this kind of joke in person?"

Hearing Rufeng say this, I covered my mouth to prevent myself from making painful sounds, and tears flowed uncontrollably. Although Sisi and I are not particularly good friends, we have had a deep misunderstanding because of the relationship with Rufeng, and sometimes I even secretly hate her. But when all the misunderstandings were cleared up, I found that there were many shining points in her, and there were many excellent qualities that I didn't have. I've seen all this, and I hope that she can have a good future with Rufeng, and let me stop worrying about Rufeng. Since then, like the wind, there can be someone to take care of and start a new life.

But God seems to always give people a lot of surprises, and never arranges our lives according to our will. He is like a magic hand, often giving us all kinds of surprises or confusions, whether we can accept it or not, we can only let it go, unable to refute it, and unable to resist. From the moment we are born, we are destined to be controlled by this hand, and all we have to do is accept it or try to be strong. No matter how great the pain is, you can only wipe away your tears and slowly forget it, and no matter how great the suffering is, you can only grit your teeth and tell yourself that there is still hope ahead. We are small in front of him, like a tiny speck of dust in the air, and from a distance, we can't even see what it looks like, let alone depict its shape.

Sisi was gone, and such a beautiful and young life was not favored in any way. The cruelty of God is really miserable.

I remembered that rainy day again, and the first time I saw Sisi. She was so lovely, full of youth, and her face was full of confidence, like a helmsman who always knew the course and was not afraid of what the future would bring.

In just a few months, first Yanzi, then Sisi, both of them are so young, and they have never been married, and they both left this world so suddenly, leaving the vision of all of us. They had never even seen the most basic aspects of life, and in a hurry, they flashed in the sky like meteors, and only those who could see them knew that they had also radiated light in the sky.

"Xiaolan, are you okay??" Rufeng listened to the words and asked a little worriedly.

I spoke again, no longer able to speak.

"I, I'm fine, it's just that the news was too sudden, and I felt a little uncomfortable for a while. Sisi is a little younger than us, how could she be involved in such a thing? God is so blind. ”

"Xiaolan, do you know? Sisi made a special appointment to meet me before leaving, but she didn't tell me to go to the United States at that time. On the day she left, she sent me a text message, and I didn't pay much attention to it at the time, because the day I was asked to meet, she told me that she liked me, and that she had liked me since she first met me when she entered the school. Her farewell that day, I thought it was a goodbye to her inner feelings. Today, Uncle Tang, Donald Duck's father, came to tell me that Sisi was trying to escape from me, to escape from his relationship, and wanted to start over, so he chose to stay away from home and go to the United States to study. If I had known that such a thing would happen, I would not have told her directly and with great certainty that we would never be able to do that day, and that we could only be brothers and sisters in this life. I think about it now, how cruel my words were, which directly cut off all her hopes. So, her death has something to do with me. Even if I lied to her a little bit at the time, maybe it wouldn't have ended like this. Even if Uncle Tang forced me to marry her, even if I lost a lifetime of happiness, it would be worth saving her life, wouldn't it?"

I understood Rufeng's words, and it turned out that my guess was not wrong, and women's intuition is very sensitive to feelings. However, Rufeng's deep self-blame made me feel very distressed, this matter was not his fault, and he had no reason to be responsible.

So I said, "It's not your fault, it's not someone else's fault, it's just a coincidence." I believe that Sisi can tell you that she likes you, that is when she really completely lets go of her mind and lets go of this obsession that she knows is impossible. Your approach, although it may seem impersonal, is the best choice. We can't let others have a false dream, live in a real world, know that there is no ending, and let her have all kinds of hopes, this is the biggest disrespect for her, and it is very likely that she will be mistaken for life. ”

"Did I really do it right??Am I really not responsible for this??You don't know how bad I felt when I found out the news, I really wish that person was me. Why do you say that God is so cruel, how can he bear to take away a young life so easily? He didn't even say hello to us, and he didn't give us any warning. ”

"Sisi is also my classmate, I am also very uncomfortable to hear such news, but we have to face the reality, don't we? ”

"Xiaolan, thank you for your comfort, I feel much better to hear you say this. I had been in the office all afternoon, had just come out, in the café, and found the place where we had sat for the last time we met, everything so familiar, and in that seat I seemed to see her again, her smile, her mischievousness. Xiaolan, you say, will we also one day, just quietly disappear? I don't even have a chance to say goodbye, how are you doing now? How is your health?"