Yuan Changwen was held up by two arresters, walked out of the special passage, came to the parking lot, and waited for the transfer.

Take a deep breath, breathe into the dantian, and the inhaled air is pressed towards the stomach. This abdominal breathing is easy to relax completely.

Then perceive your own body and imagine that from the perspective behind, there is another observer.

This is a good way to remind yourself that it is not yourself who speaks, it is not you who thinks, and it is not you who acts. That observer is himself, and that consciousness that perceives all these actions, words, and thoughts is himself.

Abbreviation, stupid background.

Walking out of the special channel, the ideal has been killed, but it does not mean that it has gotten rid of the emotional collision.

Yuan Changwen just knows more clearly that the ideal is not himself, and when he is ready to meet the emotional collision again, he must be firmly nailed to "I exist".

I don't know when I will be able to completely get rid of my emotions, the self-definition of being killed, the building has been dilapidated or destroyed, but its roots are still there, and the ruins are still in the desert.

No one knows if they will be resurrected, whether they will be replenished by emotional light and shadow again, and thus rejuvenated.

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, inexplicably uncomfortable.

Hey, welcome, I'm uncomfortable.

Knowing that it was not true, but still being hit by emotions, Yuan Changwen smiled with satisfaction.

If you are alone and there is no reality happening, how can you kill these emotions?

Without realistic interactions, how can emotions arise?

Yuan Changwen felt that it was a little unimaginable, in today's society, there is no Internet and no TV, so he is alone. Can you handle it yourself?

Will you be driven crazy by your own thoughts?

Quite possibly.

Thinking is inherently out of our control, otherwise we wouldn't have generated a lot of negative thoughts. There are many things that can be diverted, such as TV series, jokes, and so on.

It can make people laugh, make people angry, make people uncomfortable, make people feel responsible, etc. The mind is changing and thinking, and we feel normal.

When a person is alone, there is no way to shift the mind. Stay at home by yourself, close the curtains and turn off the electricity, and don't go out for a few days.

Oh, my God!

Can you imagine what you would be like if you were destroyed by your mind?

"You can try. ”

Caught a quick blank look, and it was this kind of abrupt speech, this person was really mentally ill.

Yuan Changwen just wants this kind of destruction, when he doesn't agree with thinking, will thinking continue? Will thinking get tired?

If he really entered a mental hospital, then the interaction in reality would definitely not be so frequent, just like the master practicing in the deep mountains and old forests.

However, after all, it is necessary to go out of the mountain to experience.

Yuan Changwen thought that he was in a state of experience before, because he had found the only truth.

But now, it seems that I haven't started yet.

"Haha!"

Nyima is funny!

It's like going to a ball game and walking for so long that you think you're almost at your seat. But I suddenly found that I was still in the commissary outside the stadium.

Hehe, kind of interesting.

Suddenly, I felt that I was full of masochistic constitution, and after being defeated by the demon, I stood up again. Then beg for reality to collide, and when reality mixed with emotions reappears, I feel uncomfortable and fearful.

After surviving this round, he prayed for the next wave of attacks to appear soon.

Isn't that masochistic tendency?

Is it possible to take the initiative to attack?

Yuan Changwen thought about it, and there really was, just take a pen and write.

Look at the self-definition in your mind, write it down, and then explore what is in the deepest seat.

Just using your brain, you will go astray when you think about it, you have to write it down, and you will force yourself to concentrate.

A self-woven definition, and then start asking questions, question after question, until the end.

Yuan Changwen decided that when he arrived at the mental hospital, he had to get a pen and paper.

Hey?

Why do you suddenly feel a little lighter?

Holy!

What's going on?

It was inexplicably uncomfortable just now, but now it's suddenly a little easier.

Hey, emotions, have you paid the tolls?

And those self-woven definitions, have you paid the rent?

Depend on!

I used to think about the future, I was so scared, I had no job and no income, and I was despised after I was discharged from the hospital.

But now, apart from being relaxed or relaxed, I don't feel the fear of the future at all.

Holy!

See clearly, nothing has changed, your heart has changed, and the whole world has changed.

The definition of self-weaving, you gave me the motivation to kill again, this kind of random pulling, Lao Tzu is gone!

Don't try to keep it light, because, "I'm scared of fear, so keep it light so you don't fall into fear again." ”

It's still fear that's fueling the fire, it's still a choice based on fear.

This sense of relaxation will give people the illusion that there is no rival in the world, as long as they want to do what they want.

Fearless, the unity of nature and man.

As a result, people with the same experience began to chase this ease together, encouraging everyone to leave behind their fears and embrace the unity of nature and man.

Unfortunately, this is just a costume show of fear.

The two are opposed, and choosing either side is trapping, and only by choosing neither is the way to get rid of emotions and the way to kill self-definition.

"Haha, demon, you can't fool me!"

As soon as he spoke, Yuan Changwen's pride disappeared.

Because this sentence has been said many times, and each time it is thought that the devil cannot deceive himself, but in fact the demon deceives himself every time.

In other words, I have always been in the midst of demonic deception, but there are many layers to this deception. I think that if I peel off a layer, I am awake, but in fact, I am still under the hypnosis of the devil.

It's a bit like Inception.

"Well, demon, I admit you can lie to me!"

"Shut up!"

I can't stand it, I scolded.

Yuan Changwen said sincerely: "I want to apologize, I said before that you have low self-esteem, and it is not good for me." At the time, I was being deceived by the devil, thinking that I could see through the world for what it was, but I was actually just a clown. ”

The cold face of catching fast is somewhat relaxed.

Yuan Changwen continued: "Although you are indeed inferior, I still have to apologize......"

"Shut up!"

…………

Get on and off.

Yuan Changwen came to the psychiatric hospital, and although there was already a court verdict, the psychiatric hospital itself had to do a detailed test.

A female doctor led Yuan Changwen and walked around the courtyard first, chatting a few words.

Because another doctor is, he won't be able to test it for a while.

The psychiatric hospital has only three doctors, one on a rotational basis. For testing, two doctors must be present at the same time.

The doctor was young and enthusiastic: "My name is Keiko, what's your name?"

Yuan Changwen looked around and said, "Call me Yuan Changwen." ”

Dr. Keiko: "What are you looking at?"

Yuan Changwen: "Didn't you say that someone squatted with an umbrella and called himself a mushroom? Why didn't I see it?"

Dr. Keiko burst out laughing and explained, "The level of care in each psychiatric hospital is different, and some are responsible for patients with violent tendencies, while others are just insane. We belong to ...... Sorry, I didn't mean you were sick. ”

Yuan Changwen waved his hand and didn't care.

Keiko stuck out her tongue and said, "You look like a normal person, so I can't help but talk to you as a normal person." ”

Yuan Changwen smiled: "It seems that I'm still good." ”

Keiko: "Really, you don't look like a mental patient at all. Speak in an organized manner without being crazy. I've read your profile and it doesn't feel like it's right at all. ”

Yuan Changwen smiled so hard that he couldn't close his mouth and said, "Haha, really? I actually ......."

Before he finished speaking, Yuan Changwen suddenly realized a problem.

Why are you happy?

To be precise, why do you feel happy when you hear other people's compliments?

(Again?Happy to be killed?)

[Of course.] 】

Yuan Changwen frowned and stood still, but his mind was overturned.

This is not a detailed definition of self, but the "self" itself needs to be recognized by others. Even the youngest children will like to hear praise as long as they understand the words.

Who is complimenting?

It's the "self", and it's not me.

Just as the body is burned and subconsciously contracted, this is also the instinct of the "self".

But when the same thing is praised repeatedly, the "self" becomes impatient and seeks new attention. Because the old compliments can no longer provide energy, or only a little bit of energy.

Keiko: "What's wrong? Why did you stop all of a sudden?"

"Slash. ”