Waves of sadness slowly eroded Yuan Changwen, like waves crashing on the shore, never stopping.

Even if knowing everything is just a self-woven definition, it still can't escape the pursuit of emotions.

Ideal?

Now is it the turn to kill the ideal?

I have an ideal to make myself different and not waste my time. Like Paul Kochagin's famous quotes, he received these educations from an early age.

But there is not the slightest doubt.

Yuan Changwen himself felt funny, when the baby grows up in the future, he must educate her, all of this is false and unreal.

Baby?

I don't know what happened to the baby?

Will a wife divorce and then remarry?

The baby will definitely be awarded to the wife, and the court will not agree to give custody of the child to a mentally ill person.

Is that all?

Yuan Changwen shook his head, reacted, and began to survive with "self".

I always subconsciously think about the future, and the habit of more than 20 years is really hard to break.

Taught from an early age to be a useful person. When I grew up, I found that everyone was chasing money, as if there was money and everything.

I am confused, graduation, work, marriage, and childbirth, which one is my own choice?

No!

All of them are pushed by society and parents.

And then there are those excellent moral qualities, kindness, kindness, compassion, in short, no negative emotions.

Yuan Changwen couldn't help laughing at himself, how much he once believed in this, and thought that one day in the future, he would be able to improve himself and become a praised man.

Is there something wrong with that?

No.

But it's not the path Yuan Changwen took, anything that distinguishes others belongs to the definition of self-weaving, and it is all false.

It's all that needs to be killed.

Yuan Changwen is a little confused, this is a normal thing, anyone will be confused when they find that everything is false and is just self-definition.

Next, it's the split point.

Some people are confused and want to get rid of this emotion as soon as possible, because confusion is a negative word in society. So, you have to find a job and keep yourself busy. Or, find a meaning in life to cling to, such as an ideal.

What Yuan Changwen chose was not to choose.

Just in "I exist", watching the confusion travel around the body, feeling the confused mood swings.

I admit I'm confused, but I'm not confused mixed with making up stories, that's surrender.

It's so easy to say that even many masters can talk about it and make people feel infinitely adored.

Yuan Changwen also once told himself that everything is a self-woven definition, and they are unreal.

But when it really happened, when he pressed all his ideals and was beaten into a bubble by reality, a wave of sadness welled up in Yuan Changwen's heart, and then it turned into a wave of fear.

I thought I had killed countless people, but in fact, I didn't start a step at all.

So, to put it mildly, the theory of knowing is only knowing.

However, fortunately, Yuan Changwen stood up again. This collision of reality made him understand that he was still burdened with ideals, and perhaps many other self-definitions.

Think about it another way, the collision of reality is to keep the "self" alive, and the demon tries to deceive himself again, to let himself be mixed with fear and make up stories, so as to cling to some meaning and not let go.

This kind of moment is also a good time to kill!

If you are firmly nailed to "I exist", you will not provide energy to your emotions, and the buildings in that desert will be a little dilapidated.

In other words, reality is washing away the "self" in the body, like a high-pressure water gun, it hurts. But if you don't hide or resist, and let reality wash away, then the "self" will inevitably be washed away.

Reveal that stupid background!

So, that's the reason for being grateful...... Is it?

This destruction of ideals, from the point of view of normal people, is a sadness. Judging from Yuan Changwen, it was a soberness.

It's just that this sobriety is a sobriety that has been punched a few times.

To be precise, it should be painful to wake up.

Why do people have ideals?

Hehe, Yuan Changwen suddenly found a good problem.

I have never thought about this question, if I ask others, the answer may be, "If people don't have ideals, what is the difference between them and salted fish?"

Or, "If people have no ideals, they are like walking corpses." ”

So, why can't you be a salted fish? Why can't you live a life of the walking dead?

This kind of problem can only be exchanged for the white eyes, contempt, and contempt of others, and you are a piece of garbage!

Maybe someone will be a little more generous, "It doesn't matter, you want to live as a salted fish or a walking corpse, whatever you want, I don't want it anyway." ”

Yuan Changwen asked himself, why can't he choose a certain ideal in the first place?

(Of course not, wouldn't that lose the meaning of life!)

[But where does the meaning of life come from?Is there something called "meaning of life", put it somewhere for me to find?]

(You have to find meaning yourself, otherwise you will waste your whole life, waste your time, and regret it until you die.) ）

[In other words, life is meaningless, it's just that we find a certain meaning for ourselves and then take it as the meaning of our life, right?]

(Yes.) ）

[Then this is the definition of self-weaving, I can take filial piety as the meaning of life, I can also take career as the meaning of life, or make money as the meaning of life. 】

[In this case, how important is this meaning of life that can be changed at any time?!And why do we hold on to it and not let go?]

(You have to find some meaning to recognize, right?)

Since you are idle and bored, looking for a meaning of life to pass the time, why do you take it as a part of yourself?]

[Once you lose the meaning of life, it's as if the whole world has collapsed.] Too much agreement with this self-definition reverses priorities. 】

Yuan Changwen shook his head and stopped thinking about this question with a very obvious answer.

Because of fear, everything is because of fear, and it is not at all any other noble reason.

Yuan Changwen himself is driven by fear, choosing this and that, as if he chooses himself with peace of mind, and can also say, "I did my best", or, "The plan is in the people, and the success is in the sky." ”

It's so funny, just say it if you're scared!

I'm not afraid, but I don't want to waste time. There's so much beauty in this world, of course I'm going to see it. ）

Why don't you want to waste your time?】

(Time is so precious, of course, it can't be wasted.) Think about it, what a pity that you can't come back with the time you wasted. ）

Why can't it be wasted? Because time is precious. Why is time precious? Because time is gone. Is that the reason?]

(Of course.) ）

[So, a breeze blows, and it doesn't return, why do you keep wasting? A leaf falls, and you can't see this scene anymore, why do you still waste it?]

(This one is different, the breeze leaves or something, it doesn't matter.) ）

Why is time important?

(Because time is precious...... Uh, no return...... Belch...... ）

Because we are afraid that we will achieve nothing in the future, and we are afraid that we will achieve nothing in the future. I think that if you firmly grasp the time, you can not be disappointed. It's a psychological comfort, isn't it?]

Is it wrong to work hard, is it wrong to become a better version of yourself?)

[That's right. 】

[But it can't be denied that these are all added by themselves, and they are all choices made based on fear.] 】

[I am afraid that nothing will be achieved in the future, and I feel inferior when I look at the success of others. So I have to work hard, and I believe that hard work will pay off, and time will not fail me. 】

[But I never succeeded, so I felt uncomfortable.] The effort didn't pay off, so I was miserable. Is the anxiety caused by the rush for quick success a divine injustice, or is it a matter of self-definition?]

(I hate honesty.) ）