Yi Jin said: "I know it's difficult, but we have to be strong, Xiaofan. 74b83”

He wiped the tears from my face and said, "No matter what, we should be strong when and where we are speechless, shouldn't we?"

Yes, it is easy to say strong, but it is so difficult to do, when you live in pain every day, when your life is trapped in a small wheelchair, when you are tormented by illness every day. At the point where you can't even take care of yourself, what else do you have to support the word "strong", so that you can continue to move forward with confidence.

Why should I be strong when the pain is greater than the happiness, I should give up instead of allowing myself to suffer more pain than death day by day in order to live.

I just cried, Yi Jin pressed down and hugged me in his arms, he stroked my back with his hand, kissed my forehead, and didn't speak, I think he shouldn't know what else he could say at this time, and said all the comforting words, but I'm not a child anymore, and I won't believe those children's lies.

If you say too much, you will only get more and more wrong, and the more you say, the worse it will become.

I cried in Yi Jin's arms for a long time, some because of pain, some because of despair, there were many reasons, I almost lost my breath after crying, and then I was really tired, and I don't know if it was the effect of the drug, or what. Despite being covered with tubes, he cried and fell asleep.

After that, I have been in a state of high fever for the next few days, except for the time when I woke up and cried and said a few words to Yi Jin, I have been in a semi-comatose state since then, and the situation of high fever does not go away is an extremely dangerous thing for me now, because under the high fever, it means that it is followed by respiratory infection, and the infection is likely to cause various diseases, and even respiratory failure is possible.

I kept hearing people talking in my room, it was the doctor, sometimes it was Yi Jin, sometimes it was Anne crying, and it went on and on for days, and it was playing out in my ears like a flower, I couldn't hear what they were saying, but I could tell who was talking.

Sometimes I'm awake too, I'm always thirsty when I have a high fever, I have to drink a lot of water, and I wake up once a day in the morning. I woke up once in the afternoon, drank a glass of water, and then continued to fall asleep in a daze.

When I was sober, Yi Jin would always say a few words to me, but only a few words. I couldn't hold it anymore, and I didn't even know what he said in the end.

After four days of going back and forth, on the fifth day, my high fever seemed to go away a little bit, and I woke up again. This time is also the longest time to be awake in the past few days, I opened my eyes, and the first thing I saw was Yi Jin's red eyes, my hand was still held by him, and I opened my eyes to look at him. He also looked at me, he was very haggard, and it seemed that he hadn't slept for a few days and nights, so Yi Jin was covered with exhaustion, and the clothes on his body. It's still the same one he used to bring me to the hospital that day, and it hasn't been changed for so many days, that is, she hasn't left my bedside for the past few days.

Just as I looked at his haggard face in a daze, he still smiled at me as usual, as if I had just slept all night and woke up naturally in the morning, and asked in a low voice, "Awake?"

My voice was hoarse from this high fever, and I moistened my voice for a long time before I said, "What time is it?"

As soon as I said these words, I was frightened by my weak voice, and even wondered if it was my own voice.

Yi Jin replied to me, "It's ten o'clock, and it's dawn." When Yi Jin said this, he stroked my face and asked, "Do you want to eat something?"

Actually, I didn't feel hungry, and I was even a little nauseous, but when I saw Yi Jin who was so tired, it was like someone had drained all his energy, and I didn't know why. I subconsciously said one word: "Hungry." ”

Sure enough, a smile flashed in his eyes, and he bent down, carefully picked me up from the bed, sat me down, and then brought a bowl of porridge from the side and said, "I have already told someone to prepare it, but I am afraid that you will wake up and want to eat." It's your favorite chicken and celery porridge. ”

He scooped a spoonful and put it to my lips and said, "Taste it." ”

I glanced at him, and then I opened my mouth and took it, and I chewed it, and found that it didn't taste at all in my mouth.

But Yi Jin feeds me. I still caught it one bite at a time.

Yi Jin only gave me a small half bowl of porridge and didn't let me eat more.

After that, I took a warm towel with him and carefully wiped my sticky hands, which were indeed much smaller than before, and were unusually pale. The blood vessels are clearly visible, but the skin on the blood vessels is a small blue dot, which is left by the injection.

Yi Jin wiped his hands carefully for me, and I kept staring at the movements of his hands. Just when no one was talking in the room, a person suddenly broke in outside the door, a woman as old as me, Chen Su followed behind her, as if trying to prevent her from entering. But she came in anyway.

As soon as she came in, she saw me sitting on the hospital bed, but the moment she saw me, her eyes froze, and the expression on her face was very strange, that strange. It's like saying how I got to be like this, it's incredible.

But I can be sure that I don't know her, and I haven't met him.

And Yi Jin acted as if he hadn't seen anyone, and still wiped his hands for me gently. "At this time, I don't want to see anyone," he said. ”

Although this sentence is not specified to anyone, I know that he said it to Chen Su.

But who knew that before Chen Su could speak, the strange woman said, "N, I'm here to see Xiaofan." ”

She called out my name as soon as she could, I looked at Yi Jin and asked with an inquiring look, do I know her?

After Yi Jin wiped my hands clean, he combed my messy hair and said, "It's just an irrelevant person, don't think nonsense." ”

The woman shouted again, "n!"

But Yi Jin still ignored her, didn't even look at him, but said lightly to Chen Su: "Don't let me say it a third time, I don't want anyone to appear here at this time." ”

Chen Su didn't dare to indulge the strange woman, so he immediately dragged her and said, "Let's go." ”

The woman tried to shake off his hand, but her strength was not as strong as that of a man, and she was dragged out in the end.

When there were only two of us left in the room, I glanced at the door, then at Yi Jin, he handed me a glass of water and said with a smile, "Okay, take the medicine first." ”

I didn't expect it to be this time. Still have to take medicine, I looked at him in distress, but I didn't want Yi Jin to worry, although I was very hard, I still took the medicine from him. I mixed them with water one by one and drank them, though I didn't know if they were useful.

After I finished drinking, I immediately pushed the cup into Yi Jin's hand, and then said, "You go back." I'm fine, I'm full of food and drink, and now it's time to rest for a while. ”

After I finished speaking, I didn't look at him, and quickly lay down with my back to him. Actually, I hope that Yi Jin will go to rest and have a good rest.

But Yi Jin sat behind me and didn't move, he didn't speak, and he didn't leave, I felt a little strange. Why didn't he move, I quietly turned around and thought about him, but who knew he was sitting there watching me.

His expression was a little strange, I can't say anything strange, but it was strange, just as I looked at him suspiciously.

Yi Jin suddenly smiled, his eyes became redder and redder, and redder and redder, until I saw a tear slipping from his eyes, and I was stunned in embarrassment, not knowing how to react for a while.

The heart is constantly excited and shouting, oh my God, Yi Jin's tears, Yi Jin is crying, how can I comfort him, he is a person who never cries, what can I do.

Just when I was thinking about it in a mess, Yi Jin suddenly said in a hoarse voice: "Xiaofan, come here." ”

I didn't know what he was going to do, and I looked at him a little defensively.

He held out his hand to me and said, "Come here." ”

I said, "No." ”

I don't know how to comfort a man.

I wanted to hide, but before I could dodge, my body was tightly hugged by Yi Jin from behind, and then he whispered in my ear: "Don't leave me." ”

(Tianjin)