"You all think that I should accept everything unconditionally, from blind date to marriage, to now, which one is not all according to your wishes? Why, now you don't even have the freedom to chat?" I looked up at him, and the grievances from childhood to adulthood seemed to come to my heart.

I was so sad that I couldn't help myself, endured the tears that forced my eyes, and sniffed again, "You can't ask me to live such a life without worrying at all, Lu Xudong, I am a human being, not a tool, I have seven emotions and six desires, I will be afraid and worried, and I will be even more panicked......"

There were more words that didn't have time to be roared out, and they were swallowed by Lu Xudong's sudden kiss.

The scorching breath came to my face, and I was a little startled by the warm and fiery grinding on my lips.

Lu Xudong's hard sucking made my eyes widen in shock, he closed his eyes, his palm tightly supporting the back of my head, and kissed intently and forgetfully.

My head went blank, and I felt my chest gradually heat up between my lips and tongue.

I slowly closed my eyes, no longer trying to sort out the chaos in my head, and slowly put my trembling hands on his waist and began to respond awkwardly.

Lu Xudong's breathing became heavier and heavier, and for a moment, I almost thought I would melt into his kiss......

But he quickly removed his lips from my lips, and the hand holding the back of my head gradually loosened.

He shoved me away and looked at me with confusion and chagrin in his eyes, but more, as if disgusted?

I looked at him uncertainly, trying to find a more definite answer in his eyes.

But Lu Xudong quickly turned his head away from my gaze, and his voice was calm and sober: "I'm sorry, I ......"

I waited silently for what he would say, but he suddenly took a step back, then quickly turned and ran towards the entrance.

Barely before I could react, Lu Xudong had already slammed the door and left.

Looking at the smashed door, I suddenly wanted to laugh, but before the corners of my mouth could be raised, tears rushed to fall.

The disgust in Lu Xudong's eyes clearly appeared in my head, he was just a momentary distraction, right? I was still addicted to it, thinking that he was at least a little sincere to me.

I was so naïve that I would think that a misogynistic man would like me.

That night, I sat in the living room until it was white. Lu Xudong never came back, and needless to say, he could guess where he would go.

He was accidentally seduced by my sorrow and accidentally kissed me, he must be very annoyed, disgusted and regretful, right?

I suddenly felt so bored.

Because it was Saturday, and Lu Xudong had already returned from a business trip, my aunt didn't come. I snuggled up on the couch until it was almost seven o'clock, and then I slowly moved to wash up.

No matter what, life has to go on.

When I put books in my bag, I was a little emotional, I used to want to study and want to take the academic examination for many years, but I have not been able to put it into action, in addition to economic reasons, in fact, it is more because my determination is not big enough.

But now, I think it's ironic when I think of the urge to make myself good and make myself more worthy of Lu Xudong.

Excellent as Mu Jie and Guo Yuqing, didn't they fail to get Lu Xudong's favor? What he wanted, and what I could work hard, was not on the same line at all!

Then just think you just want to improve yourself. I bit my lip to comfort myself before I got up with my bag on my back and walked out cautiously.

When he opened the door, he unexpectedly collided with Lu Xudong, who was about to take the key to open the door.

I was stunned and wanted to smile at him casually, but after trying for a long time, I just bit my lower lip and looked at him in a daze.

A look of embarrassment flashed on Lu Xudong's face, and he quickly returned to normal. He cleared his throat and smiled gently at me, "I'll send you to class!"

The voice is irresistibly unresistible.

I nodded obediently and limped slowly behind him to the elevator.

When I got to the negative floor, Lu Xudong still leaned over and picked me up, hugged me all the way to the front of the car, and then put me down again.

I had mixed feelings in my heart, and I couldn't tell what it was like, but when I got in the car, I thanked him in a low voice.

Lu Xudong's seatbelt hand paused, smiled for a moment and said, "You're welcome, I should!"

Unlike the respectful guests I used to have, I felt like I had been embarrassed by last night, as if a thick wall had been put between us, and he was hiding on the other side of the wall, and I had the heart to climb it, but I was really exhausted.

That's it, I turned my head to look out the car window and tried to convince myself that it would be fine, that he had what he loved, that I had the home he gave me, that I would never be greedy anymore, that was it......

After class, Lu Xudong still came to pick me up, took me to dinner first, and then sent me home.

He didn't even enter the door, only told me to rest at home by myself, and told me to remember to rub medicine on my feet, and then left.

He didn't say where to go, and he didn't even make excuses like before, lying to me that he was going to work overtime and meet customers, he wouldn't even like. Although I tried to comfort myself not to care, I still couldn't stop the sourness in my heart.

I endured the grievances in my heart, went to take a shower, and then changed into pajamas and hid in bed to try to catch up on sleep.

The brain, which had not slept all night, repeatedly replayed Lu Xudong's disgusted eyes last night unusually clearly, and I tossed and turned, never finding the right sleeping posture.

The mobile phone on the bedside table rang suddenly, I took it and pressed it to answer, and a triumphant voice came from the other end: "Hatherse, I'm Zhang Ruiran!"

It's really haunting......

I removed the phone from my ears and planned to hang up directly, but Zhang Ruiran seemed to have expected it, and said very quickly: "Don't hang up, if you hang up, I will go directly to your house to find you, I watched it last night, you went up to the fifteenth floor, I don't believe that I knocked on the door one by one, and I won't be able to find you!"

I was speechless, put the phone back to my ear, and asked him weakly, "What do you want to do?"

"Hey, why do you sound like that?" he replied, "Do you have a cold or haven't slept well?"

I had seen his tricks up the road, so I had to answer him patiently: "I just didn't sleep well last night, are you okay?"

"Didn't sleep well last night?" Zhang Ruiran stretched out the end of the note, and asked me very self-consciously: "You can't think about it, right?"

I really wanted to scold, and I was afraid that he would really come and knock on the door when I hung up the phone, so I had to grit my teeth and hold back, "Mr. Zhang, I'm really tired, you ......"

"Call me Ruiran!" he interrupted, his voice a little cold.

I let out a long sigh, "Okay, Ruiran, please, I'm very tired and sleepy now, I want to rest, if it's okay, hang up first, okay?"

There was silence over there, as if considering whether to agree, and when I felt that I was about to lose it, Zhang Ruiran finally spoke: "Okay, then you sleep well, I'll call you next time, remember, you are only allowed to call my name in the future!"

I think I'm messing with a madman!

I hung up the phone and was about to drag Zhang Ruiran's number into the blacklist, but he sent a text message before me: "Don't think about blocking me, I have a lot of numbers, and besides, you shouldn't want me to go directly to your house, right? I really want to go......"

I was so angry that my head hurt, so I just turned off the phone and threw it aside, where was the mind to brew sleep.

Lu Xudong came back at about 5 o'clock in the afternoon, when I was cooking noodles in the kitchen, and the water had just been boiling, when I heard a knock on the door outside.

When I went out of the kitchen, I was actually very nervous, thinking that Zhang Ruiran's neurotic couldn't get through to me and ran over, but when I cautiously walked to the door and lay on the cat's eye, it was Lu Xudong outside the door.

He leaned against the door frame, obviously holding the key in his hand, but he slapped the door panel so loudly that I felt pain for him!

I hurriedly opened the door, Lu Xudong's hand slapping the door did not retract in time, and fell heavily on my shoulder, the hand was so strong, if I hadn't held the shoe cabinet next to me, I would definitely have been patted down by him.

There was a big smell of alcohol on his body, and I didn't know how much I drank, so I stood firm on the cabinet, and his whole body had already followed his hands to pounce on me, where could I support the weight of two people with one foot, and almost the whole person leaned against the cabinet behind before he fell.

I grabbed him in embarrassment and opened my hand to close the door.

The door was locked, and Lu Xudong's other hand also put on my other shoulder, and the whole person hung on me like that, and his head was still rubbing against my shoulder.

He was so tall that I was almost completely covered by him, and I could move a little with only one head and two hands.

"Hey, wake up!" I shouted to him with difficulty, struggling to withdraw the hand that had just reached out to help him and close the door, Lu Xudong moved slightly because of my movements, but he just moved his head from my left to the right, and I wanted to retract my hand again, so he simply shook it three times for me.

Seeing that he was about to fall to the ground, I hugged him without thinking about it.

It took a lot of effort to get Lu Xudong from the door to the sofa, I was covered in sweat, slumped on the ground, holding the foot that had just pulled the wound and grinning for a long time, just after the pain passed, Lu Xudong, who was lying on the sofa by me, yelled for water.

Drink, drink, I really want to give him a bottle of 82 year old pesticide to try!

I got up from the ground in a huff and limped to pour him water.

After pouring the water, I couldn't help but sigh when I saw Lu Xudong lying there humming and chirping.

I put the cup on the coffee table, and then helped Lu Xudong, who was already drunk into a lump of mud, and let him sit on the sofa.

I was so tired and out of breath that I sat down next to him and took a breath before reaching out and bringing my cup over to feed him water.