All the sufferings will be told with a smile at the end.

Gratitude is not so, it is just the complacency of the characters. The character can speak it this way, and then gain the adoration of others, as a way to affirm the character's own existence.

If no one listens, no one cares what I've suffered, and when I say it, no one responds. So, will I say it with a smile?

Am I going to force my way into a chat group and change the subject to it just to laugh and talk about it? Will I always expect the other person to ask me about my past suffering?

I am grateful for the entire false duality world, which allows the character of Yuan Changwen to exist, and as for what happened, I will not be particularly grateful. Because, things can only happen like this, and it can't become anything else.

It's like in the game, I don't appreciate fighting monsters and then leveling up to become stronger. I would like to thank the game company for making this game so that I can have fun playing it.

What am I panicking about?

It's a bad habit, and you have to panic to show that you care about something. Obviously panic doesn't make any sense, but it just has to be panicked, and let panic become a certain character attribute.

I've been like this all my life, panicked to show that I care about certain things, many things, I don't feel panicked, but in order to make the role of Yuan Changwen gregarious, in order to make the role of Yuan Changwen conform to my own role attributes, I have to create a panic.

True Nyima.

It seems that I have to care about something, otherwise I just don't have a long heart, I am not responsible for life, and I lack planning and consideration for the future. Really, I live in this kind of distortion, and I haven't gone crazy until now, am I tough or mentally retarded?

Be concerned and be concerned because this is my life, and it's going to be something that will affect me for the rest of my life. If you think about it, what event doesn't affect you for a lifetime? Is it because you can't see this kind of influence, so you deny it?

What is the difference between this Nima and covering your ears and stealing the bell?

Thinking about it, all the psychological states now seem to be able to find their correspondence in ancient books, can it be considered that human society has not made any progress at the spiritual level at all?

It doesn't matter, why do I care about the whole human race, I don't know if they exist or not!

I'm looking forward to ending the slash as soon as possible, and I'm wondering why I haven't gotten out of character yet.

I really don't understand, this panic comes from the character, this thinking comes from the character, and the character dissipates when the killing is over. Is this the character urging his own death?

Or is it that the characters panic has become a habit and have no idea what the end of the road is. Also, the character is always in a panic because he can't control the future. And I know very well that I will never be in control of the future.

Yuan Changwen subconsciously clenched into a fist, is this the body's struggle for death? Knowing that he is going to die, does he instinctively want to ask for life?

Go ahead, how can I just sit down and rest?

Before reaching the top of the mountain, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, all this is just a magic barrier. I'm not here to enjoy the scenery, I'm here to climb the mountain, and anything that stands in the way of me getting to the top is a magic barrier.

It's comfortable, it's relaxing, it's free?

Shit!

The character was deceiving me, he was saying, "Okay, this is all good, this position is comfortable, let's stay here for a long time." ”

I'm not done yet, that's an indisputable fact. Whether it's portraying the scenery in a gorgeous way, or saying something real and meaningless, it's all holding me back.

Nothing can stop me, not anyone.

Any words are whitewashed, unfinished is unfinished, and anything else that persuades me to sit down and rest is a demonic obstacle and a deception.

I started again, and if I was comfortable, I took the initiative to roast myself on the fire. It's really a problem with the brain, and also, if it's not crazy, who would want to explore what is true?

I still have a mortgage and income to consider, but now I have nothing but the real thing in front of me. Anything other than reality is a character's problem, a character's desire to divert attention.

And the twist in the character's mind seems to be constantly putting pressure on me, this thing is important, that thing is important. How to live in the future, what to do in the future, as if the whole universe was trying to kill me.

Damn it!

I stopped, and something stood in my way.

But what else? I always felt like nothing was holding me back, but I still hadn't done it. I thought that when I got rid of the role, maybe I was most controlled by the bewitching woman who was afraid.

Don't take it lightly, let alone be self-righteous.

How many people have I controlled over all these years? Is there no smart person among them? Is there no one among them who hates falsehood more than I am? And then what?

How many spiritual masters of the empire stepped into the "real"?

Damn it!

I'm trying to go back!

The paths I've walked, the character attributes I've killed, are all very familiar to me. Stay there, the characters are safe and familiar. I would be cowardly enough to go back and feel at ease and security.

What is holding me back, you come out!

Do you know that coming out is a dead end, so you avoid me like this, and then put pressure in the shadows to make me collapse and make me go back to my previous comatose state.

Whatever stands in my way, it's a fake, it's something I've imagined, it's something that doesn't exist. As long as I face this thing, as long as I think honestly, nothing false can stand up to my thinking.

No matter how sacrosanct it is, no matter how many people recognize it, no matter how authoritative it is, it is useless. I have long passed the age of listening to others, and I am always concerned about the brainwashing mode.

Now, I'm not trying to learn things, I'm going to discard things. So, whatever stood in my way, I was killed, and that was why I didn't dare to show up?

Character, you damn it!

What am I waiting for? What else is in my head?

This feeling is very unaccustomed, and it seems that the whole person is in a state of idleness. If you don't believe in the knowledge in your head, you can't seem to live even the most basic life. The only change may be to let time pass slowly, and there will be no more anxiety.

In the long run, how can you succeed? You can't succeed at all, this model completely becomes a life player, and you can't climb to the top of life or something like that. It's not about improving lives, it's destroying lives.

Strictly speaking, it is not about destroying life, because life can never be destroyed, no matter what kind of life you live, it is a life. What can be destroyed is only the kind of life I think in my head, just the life of successful people who I have always envied and longed for at the pinnacle of life.

I don't have any impulse to flesh out characters, or rather, I don't flesh out characters according to the twists in my head. Some impulses come out of nowhere, like suddenly wanting to go out for a run, suddenly wanting to go to a certain park, and then sitting there doing nothing.

The character of Yuan Changwen has not been able to gain any benefits, no new knowledge, nothing to show off, no growth of skills, and no perseverance on the road to success.

So, why kill the character?