"In other words, all your obstacles are the scars left by your first love, and you have never gone out for so many years, and even fantasized about physical contact with her in the novel, falling deeper and deeper, almost a little mentally clean?" she analyzed, and I smiled: "It seems that the body is also clean." ”

She ignored my joke and said seriously: "Actually, that's also a matter of heart. ”

I followed her words and asked, "What then? Could there be naïve schizophrenia?"

She touched her little head, fell into thought, she was really trying to find a way for me, and softly comforted me not to be too afraid, after thinking for a while, she raised her head, her white face was serious, and said, "Have you seen the movie "The Beggar"?"

I shook my head, indicating that I hadn't seen it, and asked, "What do you mean that I'm just a beggar for love?"

"No, that's not what the movie is about, I just think this movie can give you some answers. ”

I carefully jotted down the name of the movie and told her that I would definitely watch it, maybe I could find the answer, and she suddenly laughed and said shyly, "You really think of me as a doctor." ”

"I'll pay for it. I laughed along.

"Years of mental illness, how can you watch a movie and be cured. ”

"But I think you want me to get better as soon as possible. ”

When I said this, I looked her in the eye, she subconsciously avoided it, and then smiled slightly: "Who made me kind, save your poor kitten." ”

It's a poor kitten again, and I heard the same thing twice, do I have cat sex in me?

After Shi Nan left, Store Manager Chu came to tease me: "The routine is very deep, and the acting is the same as the real thing." ”

"Hehe, don't praise me, I'll swell. ”

Although I'm an idol, I've always taken the powerful route. The last time I met Lin Qiaoqiao, I was still a psychiatrist, and now I have turned into a patient.

Just as I was hilarious, Store Manager Chu suddenly asked me, "When will your senior sister come next time?"

"Don't you know her?"

"She's a relative of my friend, and I only met that time. He wanted to speak and stopped, I asked him if he had something to do with his senior sister?

"How long have you known your senior sister?"

"I met when I was in college. ”

"No wonder. He sighed, I was puzzled, he said: "You two look like childhood sweethearts, but you are missing something." ”

"Look at you, it seems that you know a lot about childhood sweethearts, have you ever had it?Is it your wife?" I meant to ridicule him for not marrying a childhood sweetheart, who knew that after saying that, he suddenly felt sad, but for a second, he turned his face and smiled: "My matter is a trivial matter, wait until your senior sister comes next time." ”

In the following week, Shi Nan and I met twice, and after knowing my "special" situation, in her eyes, I was a literary young man who was left with psychological obstacles due to the trauma of her first love, and the author of a novel with dreams and nothing to do, as if she was a little poor and pitiful.

Sometimes she would play a little trick and bring me snacks, and I know she brought them to me because she didn't usually have a habit of snacking.

She asked me where I could read my adult novels, and I laughed at her for being a man and a woman. For the first time, she looked like a girl, and said angrily, "Do you think it's a boy's patent to look at those things? ”

"I know, you just can't find the website. ”

She blinked and smiled mischievously, "So, hand over the site." ”

It's hard to imagine that I was actually discussing an adult site with a little fresh beauty, and I said to her, "If you want to know, then come home with me and show you at night." ”

She readily agreed, "Just go, you don't dare to touch me anyway." ”

I wiped it, I actually set myself up.

We both knew it was a joke and didn't continue to talk about it, our relationship was already a moderate joke, which was a good sign, but the situation seemed to be stuck somewhere like before, and I didn't care on the surface, and my heart was as anxious as fire.

Under her mysterious temperament, sometimes showing a smart and naughty side, sometimes revealing a kind maternal side, chatting with her can always get a strong sense of satisfaction, I don't study psychology, I can't explain why, in the end I can only give myself an old-fashioned answer, I fell in love with her.

Natsume Soseki said, Oriental people will not say I love you, only say, the moon is beautiful tonight.

This is very in line with our Oriental subtle euphemism, and I also don't know how to say it, because after Shen Qingqing, every girlfriend of mine has never confessed, and the confirmed relationship between the couple, Yu Fat admires my lofty realm, only I know, I dare not say it.

The last time we met before the weekend, Fang Shinan asked me if I had watched "The Beggar", and I said that I hadn't watched it yet, and I was afraid that I would be even sadder after watching it. She comforted me and didn't ask any more questions. In fact, on the night she said it, I went back to watch the movie, I really admired her, and found a unique explanation for my made-up condition, which made me even more obsessed with her.

This gave me new inspiration for the next step of the plot.

When it comes to movies, I take the opportunity to say, "It seems that someone said that they still owe me a movie." ”

She giggled, "I'm afraid it won't work tonight, I made an appointment with a classmate." ”

"No wonder it's so beautiful, it's a male classmate. I was deliberately sour, and she looked at me slyly, "You guessed it, a very handsome doctoral senior." ”

"Handsome than me?"

I didn't know if what she said was true or not, but she noticed the change in my expression and smiled with satisfaction, "Compared to you, it's a little worse." ”

"That's a boy, too. ”

"He helped me sell some paintings, and I should be thankful. ”

"Oh, yes, you don't like to owe someone something. ”

When she left, she could see some hesitation, as if it was the first time that she felt that the time for the two to meet was too short and she was not satisfied. I felt the same way, she said about watching a movie, tell me next time. But when is the next time we meet? There is no contact information, it is full of randomness, and it tests my improvisation.

Fortunately, I haven't seen Lin Qiaoqiao in the past few days, I'm really worried that one day I'm chatting happily with Shi Nanzheng, and she suddenly appeared, and the result doesn't have to be thought about.

Lin Qiaoqiao's reappearance on the weekend, it was my expectation, she seemed to guess that I would come on the weekend, in fact, I didn't wait for her at all, because the senior sister's work was urgent, I called Yu Fat to discuss the script, Yu Fat just left, she jumped in front of her, dressed as a Japanese girl, if you wear a JK uniform, you can play cosplay.

I spread my hands, "Look, I'm really writing the script, and I'm still discussing the direction of the plot just now." ”

She pouted and said dissatisfiedly, "So, that's how you lied to me, right?" ”

I didn't say anything and acquiesced, thinking that she would lose her temper, but she said, "Even a smart girl like me can be deceived, you must be an excellent screenwriter." ”

It's rare for her to praise me, and I was recognized, but I suddenly felt sad, and immediately spit out my bitterness: "Excellent fart, I'm the most dick one, I'm not satisfied with what I write, and I can't pass how to change my female boss, do you know why bad movies are in charge? Do you know why TV series are low every day? It's because these producers who don't understand the script make jokes about the audience's IQ, and make money back with two little stars, we are the code word farmers at the bottom, take the least money, and suffer the most anger." ”

I said a lot in one breath, Lin Qiaoqiao listened obediently, maybe she didn't understand this, but she would definitely change her opinion of me, sure enough, she immediately said aggrievedly: "I was actually deceived by such a stupid screenwriter, I suffered so much!"

I was so angry that I almost fainted.

Even the purest Lin Qiaoqiao despised my level.

"Yes, you're the stupidest one, I've been tricked, and I'm not angry. I fired back, and she immediately puffed out her cheeks, panting and shaking her chest, and shouted, "Boss! I want to eat the most expensive!

Store Manager Chu's face was full of joy, and he directly served a lot of desserts, and at this time he was more diligent than anyone else.

"Doesn't it cost me money?"

"How can you guess the girl's thoughts. She didn't know who she learned a sentence from, I got up to go home to code words, she stomped her feet and glared at me, her puffing appearance made people want to bully her, her little face always showed baby-like childlike fun.

"Don't go. ”

"I have a job. ”

"It's all so bad anyway, it's okay if it's a little worse, don't leave, unless you hate me. Her watery eyes widened.

I really can't say that I hate her, because in the end she dumped me in a rage, and she brought me so much of the fragrance of a girly girl, and I couldn't say anything negative about her.

I relented and asked her, "Are you reciting your senior sister's thesis again?" She didn't answer with a tight face, and I continued to laugh at her: "Since you are studying medicine, do you know a top student in massage major, I am always tired of my cervical spine, please come and give me a button." ”

"You hate it, how can there be a massage major in medical school!" she finally couldn't hold back her little face, and laughed angrily, "I memorized it for a long time last night, just to treat you." ”

Cure?

Pretending to be a patient in front of Shi Nan, in Lin Qiaoqiao's eyes, I really became a patient? Life is like a play, I can't tell the truth from the false.

I instinctively rejected Lin Qiaoqiao's persistence, but I was faintly curious about her senior sister's analysis. This feeling of dialogue in the air is particularly wonderful.

Lin Qiaoqiao put down what she was eating, stabilized her mind, and spoke.

"Human Psychological Defense Mechanism ......"

"I said this last time. ”

"Oh, don't bother me!" she waved her little hand frantically, reciting silently as if she were reciting a text.

"People's psychological defense mechanism, there will be a lot of externalized behaviors, the most common is language performance, such as in the movie "Zhiming and Chunjiao", on the eve of Chunjiao and Zhiming's engagement, Zhiming suddenly changed his mind, his mother wanted to comfort Chunjiao, but Chunjiao said, it's okay not to get married, I'm also worried about how to take care of family and career after marriage, Chunjiao is to use negative defense methods to escape the pain of reality. ”

"This is called self-deception?"