In the summer vacation at the end of her junior year, she hurried back to her hometown as soon as she got off vacation because of the deterioration of Ran Rong's condition, and went directly to Ran's house after getting off the bus.

She is not good at words, she doesn't know what to say, and in the face of life and death, words can't play any role at all. Ran Ning looked calm, from the day Ran Rong was diagnosed with leukemia, Ran Ning changed her character, she has been used to such a quiet Ran Ning for so many years, but under the circumstances at that time, even she couldn't calm down, but Ran Ning didn't show much pain. She knew that everyone's pain was different, as if she had chosen to hide and cry secretly instead of talking to others.

She still has to go back to T City to prepare for the competition, and she has to leave after staying at Ran's house for long, even if she stays by Ran Rong's side, she can't do anything, and she can't change the fait accompli. At that time, her mind was full of Ran Rong's affairs, and she always thought that it was because of her unrestlessness that caused the car accident, and from beginning to end, she didn't remember how the car accident that changed her life happened, and the blank in that memory made her unable to piece together a complete picture no matter how hard she tried, only the piercing sound of tires rubbing against the road and the harsh whiteness when she opened her eyes.

I don't have too many friends in T City, but fortunately, Qu Fei stayed in T City and rushed to the hospital at that time.

She knew that Cheng Shuo was busy with work and usually wouldn't bother him. For several days after the car accident, he didn't contact her, which made her feel uneasy, she didn't know that Qu Fei secretly called Cheng Shuo but couldn't get through.

Ran Ning called her as usual, she was doing an inspection and it was Qu Fei who answered, only to know that she had a car accident, she told Ran Ning not to come to see her, take good care of Ran Rong, she had nothing to do, and asked Qu Fei to guarantee that it would take half a day to count.

The most serious injury she suffered was the ankle of her left foot, which was comminuted, while her wrist and elbow were also bruised. Since the day she learned the piano, both Teacher Liu and Teacher Yue have been telling her to protect these hands, looking at the left hand wrapped in gauze, in addition to being sad and worried, the game must not go, because it was an accident, although Teacher Yue was angry that she had an accident at this juncture, more distressed that she didn't take care of herself, and let her aunt send food to the hospital every day.

It's been a few days since she was hospitalized, she is always restless, too many things are pressing on her heart, and what makes her feel uneasy the most is Cheng Shuo's abnormality, he never doesn't contact him for several days. She told herself over and over again that he must be busy, and when he was done, he would contact her, but what she was waiting for was a breakup call.

His voice on the phone was calm and almost indifferent, "We are not people of the same world in the first place, I can't give you the stability you want, since we have to part ways sooner or later, it is better to separate early, and now I will return the peaceful life to you." ”

She still couldn't believe and asked him if something had happened but he interrupted, "I have walked very the road of singing, others think that I am smooth sailing and everything is going well, but who knows the hard work and hard work I have paid? You have never understood my dreams, and you have never been willing to take the time to understand, I am very tired, things at work have consumed too much time and energy of me, I really don't want to continue like this." ”

She felt scared, "I'm sorry, I've been hiding in my own world, I don't care enough about you and don't know enough about you, I'm changing, you give me some time, I'm willing to change and wait-"

"No need, you have never belonged to my world, I still have a long way to go, without you, I can move forward without any scruples, from now on, I will not let anyone be an obstacle again, do you understand?"

She felt cold, but she still pretended to be calm, "I can wait, I can wait as long as I want-"

"I don't love you anymore. ”

He had never called her by her full name, and at that moment, she could barely feel her heartbeat, and a word of no love broke through all her defenses and insistence. She was still holding her mobile phone, there was already a busy sound from it, it was he who gave her all hope when she needed love the most, she finally began to accept it after hesitation, she thought that God had cruelly taken away the family she relied on for survival, and would not give her despair anymore, because his company allowed her out of the haze of the past, and she was even willing to go out of her own world to change herself to follow in his footsteps, because love gave her enough courage, but he said that he didn't love her anymore.

There were no tears, no noise, not even words, she was quiet like a soulless doll, Qu Fei was anxious to get on fire, and the corners of her mouth were blistered, and she really had no choice but to call Ran Ning.

Ran Ning was silent for a while before saying, "My sister is going to T City to check her body, and she said that she is going to see Zhuan, maybe she can help." She hung up the phone and felt a tightness in her chest, and she had to take a deep breath to catch her breath.

Fate always likes to joke that if you think things are bad enough, it must have a way of letting you know what is worse.

At that time, Ran Ning knew that Ran Rong asked her to accompany her to T City for a physical examination just to give her parents a time and buffer to accept, but Ran Ning didn't know that Ran Rong had other plans. She loves her family so much, plans for her parents, how could she not arrange it for her sister.

When Ran Rong, who was supposed to be recuperating, appeared in her hospital room, all the defenses in her heart collapsed instantly, and this angel, who always appeared in her most desperate time, appeared by her side again when she was most helpless.

Ran Rong, who had no blood on her face, gave her a very warm and warm hug, just like that afternoon when she fell down the stairs and was admitted to the hospital, and refused to eat because of despair after waking up, Ran Rong also stepped on the sunshine like this, gave her a warm hug, and pulled her back from the brink of death.

She leaned on Ran Rong's obviously much thinner shoulder, she originally thought that she would never cry again, she originally thought that the person who took her out of the haze and promised never to leave her would really not leave, and she couldn't pretend to be any pretense in front of Ran Rong. She couldn't pretend that nothing was going on in front of Ran Rong, she could tell her sister Rong everything.

That afternoon, she forgot about the diagnosis report and relied on it with peace of mind.

Ran Rong held her, but she was not in good spirits, but she always breathed a sigh of relief, she told Zhuan Zhuan, "Love sometimes can't go with the flow, if you really love, you have to work hard to chase, and it has never been a boy's exclusive signature to redeem it, since you love, don't worry so much." ”

In this love, she has always been passive to accept, and has never taken the initiative to fight for anything, since she is unwilling and does not believe, why not ask clearly?

Ran Rong stood at the door and turned around, his smile was as warm as before, "Zhuan, if you can, can you go back after your legs are good?"

Looking at Ran Rong like this, she realized that she was also a patient, or a patient who would leave them sooner or later, she nodded, "Okay, I'll go back when I remove the plaster." ”

Seeing Ran Rong's figure disappear at the door, she raised her hand to pull the quilt, but found that her hands were wrapped with black hair, the length was not her own, she only looked at it, and then lifted the corner of the quilt to see where Ran Rong had sat before. The strands of black hair pierced her heart like a needle, she only cared about her own sadness, but she didn't even notice that Ran Rong had begun to lose her hair so badly, T City checked her body, and in an instant, she understood everything.

She leaned on the bed with the quilt in her arms, why was God so cruel? Ran Rong, who had always rescued herself from danger, was she really leaving? But she couldn't do anything, why did all the people she cherished leave her?

That night, she looked at the starry sky all night, and when the sky turned white, she picked up her phone and sent a text message.

Early the next morning, she dragged her uncast leg out of the hospital to avoid the nurse's sight. She stood in their old place like that, from early morning to afternoon, from afternoon to dusk, from dusk to sunset, from sunset to the stars.

The people behind her seemed to have nothing to do with her, and the red eyes on her bloodless cheeks under the wind-blown hair forced her to hold back the tears that refused to flow, she bent down and hugged her arms, and her ankles had been aching faintly because of a knock when she came out.

She bit her lip, Cheng Shuo, now you don't even want to see each other, is the promise you made in the past just a joke? If you can't accompany me to old age, why did you come in the first place! Cheng Shuo, this is how you fulfilled your promise......

When she returned to the hospital, she had been asleep, and for the first time in her life, she took the initiative to fight for something, and she tried to redeem it, but the result was a failure, but this result made her unacceptable anyway.

Qu Fei was by her side, and she didn't react to anything she said or did until Teacher Yue arrived. The seemingly angry teacher threw down a stack of thick sheet music: "It's inconvenient for your feet to move your wrists, your fingers can always move, sort out these scores for me, don't stay in the hospital every day and do nothing, how long will it take to recover when you go back to be rusty!"

She obediently got up and sorted out the score page by page with her not very neat left hand and her right hand that had nothing to do, she was the number one player of Teacher Yue in that international competition, but she missed it because of such an accident. In the process of sorting, she found that these are all music scores that she has never seen before, which is very precious, although Mr. Yue doesn't say it in his mouth, but he still can't let it go in his heart, afraid that she will be bored, afraid that she will fall professional, in short, it is to help her divert her attention.

How did Teacher Yue know that it was not her physical pain that disturbed her at all, but her empty heart.

Her leg injury is getting better day by day, Ran Ning came to see her for the last time before being discharged from the hospital, she looked very calm, and when she saw that it was Ran Ning who entered the door, she asked: "You can be discharged from the hospital in two days, why are you still running here, why don't you stay at home with Sister Rong?"

Ran Ning said while packing up the things that Ran's mother asked her to bring: "Zhuan, I have signed up for this year's 'Rising Star Cup' competition, and I have already obtained the pass card for the audition." ”

Hearing the words 'New Star Cup', her whole body stiffened a little, "Why haven't I heard you talk about it before?"

Ran Ning didn't look at her, just sat down to help her massage her legs, "This year's competition has been postponed, and I decided to go on the last day" She paused, "It's what my sister meant." ”

Thinking of the black hair on his hand, he vaguely guessed what Ran Rong meant.

"It's funny to say, she is proficient in playing the piano and dancing, but singing is just a hobby, but she told me to let me help her fulfill her wish. ”

Knowing each other for many years, she and Ran Ning know each other, many times they don't need words to communicate to understand each other's meaning, just a 'wish', she understands everything, her chest hurts fiercely, is there really no chance?

"Zhuan, after you are discharged from the hospital, go and accompany her for me, you stay by her side for me, and I will fulfill her wish. ”

Looking at Ran Ning, who had always lowered her head, she understood that since she was a child, Ran Rong had never made any requests to her, and this was the first time, and maybe the last time, she couldn't refuse. In addition, Ran Ning knew the situation at Zhuan Xin's family better than anyone else, she was worried that she would have no place to go and no one to take care of her after she was discharged from the hospital, and at the same time, she also gave her the last chance to get along with her sister.

She looked at Ran Ning and didn't know what to say, so she called out softly "Ning Ning" for a long time.

Ran Ning was pinching her leg very seriously, "I can't refuse this 'wish', so Zhuanzhuan, please accompany her through this journey on my behalf, guard her for me, I will go to the game, let her feel at ease, and let her have no regrets." ”

Ran Ning's voice trembled a little, and he went to take her hand, but didn't say anything, because he knew too much, and at this time, he didn't know what to say.

She has been standing behind the dazzling Ran Rong since she was a child, compared to her sister's light, she is almost forgotten, and when she grows up, she seems to be very indifferent to anyone and everything, except for her family and her family. In order to save her sister's life, she did laboratory tests again and again to draw serum and even bone marrow, and when the pain was so painful that she was weak even for breath, because she had no strength, she could only put her hand in the palm of her hand to absorb some strength.

is such a Ran Ning, such a Ran Ning who never shed a single tear when holding the doctor's diagnosis certificate, she left pretending not to know anything even when she knew her sister's arrangement, she waved her hand and smiled and said, "Wait for me to come back", she wants to leave her best appearance in the memory of her sister's life, she has been forbearing, and when she clenched her hand again, she finally shed tears.

"I never believed that she would leave me, even when the doctor's diagnosis was in my hand, I always believed that she would get better. But now I'm really scared, I'm so afraid that she'll leave me, I'm really afraid that I'll never see her again, I'm not even a chance to accompany her through the last stretch of the road, I don't want to go, I'm really afraid of losing her. ”

She hugged her, she had never seen such a helpless Ran Ning.

Two days later, Qu Fei helped her with the discharge procedures, she looked extremely thin wrapped in loose clothes, and it had already taken all her strength to stand there. Qu Fei asked her to wait for the car at the entrance of the hospital, and went to find her after completing the formalities, she stayed in the ward for too long, she took a deep breath of fresh air, looked at the hurried crowd, the hospital is always the place with the most people, and the people who come and go are rushing to the place where they want to go, and they are unwilling to make any stops.

She stood there, almost thinking that she was dazzled, and actually saw the familiar back in the crowd, she wanted to chase after it but couldn't move, she could only watch the back disappear into the crowd, as if everything was just her own illusion.

She couldn't help laughing at herself, he didn't even want to go to the old place that belonged to them, how could he come here, he must have seen it wrong. Maybe it was because she had stood for too long and had not healed, and the sudden cramp in her calf made her bend down in pain, and she reached out to help the pillar next to her, because her ankle could not move, so she had to endure the pain of cramping.

She bent over, how could this pain be more than the stabbing pain in her chest.

Only then did she understand that love can hurt so much.