Yuan Changwen lay on the bed, his mood gradually relaxed, no longer fighting or struggling.

I don't want to think about what is so-called true, mainly because I am afraid that I will lose my mother or Xiaoyu. You must know that the killing in a mental hospital can be regarded as a slaughter of emotions.

However, if you think about it carefully, my reluctance to lose my mother is more of an instinctive tension. Just like the change of the environment, you will instinctively refuse to change.

Moreover, I don't love my mother as much as I imagined. Although it was uncomfortable to admit this fact, the ally who was so honest that he was cruel had to nod his head and admit it.

First of all, I didn't wake up. Just like his thoughts during his travels, there is no way to tell if the world is real or not. If the reality you live in is a dream of a higher level, or if you are a travel created by a higher level, this is entirely possible.

Second, these questions are simply not important. Whether the world is real or not, to me, it is real. There's no way I'm not going to eat and because it's not real.

It's like Mario doesn't just rush straight to the big boss or jump off a cliff just because he's just a Super Mario game character.

Anyway, that's it, if you want to devour, devour it, I'll live my own life. Isn't it appropriate to talk about awakening, eating and sleeping well?

Do you have to make yourself a ghost or a ghost, and you will be happy when you go to the madhouse? Pull it down, that's it, whatever you want, I'll just lie here like this.

Pursue what should be pursued, seize what should be caught, and one day I'll be really bored, then I'll talk about it. Anyway, I don't take the initiative to kill any self-definition, let alone hate "self" and then scold myself like a madman.

Yuan Changwen recalled his days in a mental hospital, first two thoughts in his mind were constantly fighting, one wanted to pull himself back to normal, and the other wanted to completely destroy the false self-definition.

Later, the hatred of self-definition has developed to the limit, and it is no longer a discussion between two voices, but one side begins to insult. insulted the "self" and killed the role of Yuan Changwen.

In my life, I have never heard anyone embrace death all the time, and praise themselves for breathing again and one step closer to death.

However, when Yuan Changwen thought of embracing death, he didn't seem to be so resistant, but his heart was full of a sense of relief.

Depend on!

What the hell is this!

Yes, death is indeed a relief. But that's for the elderly, who work hard for most of their lives, working, earning money, supporting their families, raising their children, and then living their days old. Eventually, when physical health declines and life becomes a little painful, death is a relief.

But even so, many children would rather let their old people survive by means of instruments than see them die. It seems that as long as the old man lives, no matter how he lives, he will be better than death.

In China, taking the initiative to euthanize is simply a challenge to morality. Which old man proposes to die on his own initiative is definitely the uneasiness of the whole family, and it is not an exaggeration to describe it as a chicken, a dog and a dog.

Who cares if the old man really wants to die? All this is handled by the children, and it seems a little selfish. In order not to lose the old man, let the old man live in pain.

And how many times do those children stay with the old man? If they don't accompany them, and the old man wants to die but vigorously opposes it, isn't this kind of thing nonsense!

It seems that there are many people who agree with this, even if they don't say it, but the actual behavior agrees with this. Anyway, the old man can't take the initiative to die, as if it seems that the children are not filial.

Ha!

That's it, in order to make himself appear filial, so he doesn't care what the old man thinks. And who will judge whether he is filial or not? Obviously not an old man.

It's other people, it's the whole society, it's someone else's eyes. When others say that you are filial, that is filial piety, how can anyone say that you are filial?

Therefore, in order to let others say that he is filial, in order to hear "Look, the old man in his family is sick like this, he has not given up, he is really a filial child." ”

Therefore, the elderly are absolutely not allowed to take the initiative to seek death.

Isn't this situation familiar? When adults take care of children, they don't care about the children's own thoughts. Under the banner of "children don't understand" and "I know what is best for you", control children.

It's just to make myself appear very motherly or fatherly, so that I can hear, "Look, he has done so much for his children, what a good parent." ”

Shit!

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt a little disgusted, would he become such a person in the future?

Why do you say that children don't understand, why do you think that children's choices are wrong, and why do you think that your choice is the best of all choices?

Is it just because I am a parent that I have lived for more than 20 years?

Shit!

If this is the case, then why is it that parents are just one of the many people, and if parents are so good at choosing, why haven't they succeeded?

Maybe you will say that you were young and ignorant, and you didn't study well when you were a child. So why do parents think that their current choices will enable their children to succeed in more than 20 years?

In other words, parents now have more than 20 years of life foresight?

Is there anything more than this?!

No.

Yuan Changwen couldn't find anything more spoofy, parents have done so much, and all choices are based on other people's eyes. Look at other people's children, they all learn this and that, so my children must do the same.

Then listen to some so-called authority figures, plus the hidden comparison between colleagues, you sister!

You live in this kind of society?!

And then everyone still thinks it's normal?!

Yuan Changwen was a little uneasy, because he was getting more and more inclined to the path of killing. Although it doesn't matter, wait for "I exist" to slowly devour myself. But when it really starts to devour, it is always accompanied by discomfort and uneasiness.

No one can smiling when they kill self-definition. Because, that's a suicide mission!

But how is this world unreal?

Why is what I have experienced untrue?

Yuan Changwen found it hard to believe and didn't want to believe it. But at the other end of the spectrum, we have to believe that "I exist" is the only definite reality.

That background, that awareness, that's everything.

It's like a high school science problem, where even if you can't see chemical elements, you can still see what kind of chemical reaction will happen through equations.

You can't see the presence of electrons, protons, etc., but by calculating, you can confirm the distribution of electron clouds and the energy generated when electrons orbit transitions.

You don't need to see it with your own eyes, but you just believe it.

Yuan Changwen felt that his head was about to blow up, on the one hand, he didn't believe that the world was unreal at all, and on the other hand, he believed that the world was unreal like a mathematical formula.

Depend on!