Interrogation room.

But at this time, there were only doctors and assistants, as well as Yuan Changwen, who was chained to the table.

Those who are quick to catch are not present, which is a basic requirement to confirm the patient.

Of course, this is only a preliminary confirmation, and the doctor's signature must be obtained before the suspect can be sent to the designated hospital for examination in accordance with the procedure.

The doctor took out the file, opened it and said:

"Hello, I'm your psychiatrist. ”

Yuan Changwen snorted coldly and said disdainfully: "Who are you?"

The doctor smiled: "It doesn't matter who I am, I am now a professional spirit assessment physician, and I am sitting here to assess your mental state. ”

Yuan Changwen: "You don't even know who you are, and you still proudly think that this is not important? Everything is false, your name and your work are all false." ”

Doctor: "So what? False is false, no one says it has to be true?"

Yuan Changwen frowned, obviously not thinking about this question.

yes, so what!

Why do we have to pursue what is true?

The point is, why let others pursue authenticity?

It's that demon again!

Don't give up yet!

Yuan Changwen only now realized that his tone just now was full of disdain, because he looked down on the other party.

I know the real person!

What are you!

What is the difference between this kind of thinking and the rich despising the poor, or the successful despising the loser?!

I'm still complacent......

Devil, you're so good!

While I'm not paying attention, I trick the "self" into secretly weaving a new definition, "I'm the best, I know the truth of the world, you are all scum." ”

Oh my God, if you don't pay attention, walk around with this definition, and agree with this definition, isn't that your old self!

It's just that from the pursuit of success and money, to the pursuit of so-called truth.

Yuan Changwen closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then lowered his head and said sincerely:

"Thanks, I'm sorry just now. ”

The doctor smiled and said, "Kill another one?"

Yuan Changwen was surprised: "You know?"

The doctor shrugged.

Yuan Changwen thinks about it, after all, he is a doctor of psychiatric evaluation, and he may have more contact with this aspect.

Doctor: "One thing I don't understand, how do you kill it? That's the definition in your head, and even if you change your mind about things, it's just a different definition." How can it be killed?"

Yuan Changwen had also thought about this matter before, that is, no matter how he killed, there was still a definition after all.

At the most extreme, "I am a person without any self-definition", but this is a definition in itself.

So, the killing thing doesn't seem so reliable.

Moreover, Yuan Changwen didn't dwell too much on this in his mind at that time, because there was still a lot to think about.

Further!

At that time, I thought that dwelling on this issue was equivalent to entangled with demons.

To be entangled with a demon means to be trapped in a demon's lies so that you can become entangled with it.

What now?

Yuan Changwen has found the truth, "I exist" or that background, or that awareness, you can say that. Anyway, these are just different statements, but you know what is true.

After finding the truth, Yuan Changwen found that nothing had changed.

What can change?

I'm that stupid background, how can I change?

What really changed was Yuan Changwen, that is, the so-called "self". In the definition of self-weaving, there is one more, "I am the stupid background." ”

In that desert, far away, there is a building, "I exist".

That's it, Yuan Changwen now feels that the so-called killing is to stand firmly in the building of "I exist" and look at other buildings.

No matter what happens, it's the self-amusement of those buildings.

No matter what mood swings there are, they are nothing more than the interaction between self-definition and reality.

I just nail it to "I exist," and I don't argue or justify those emotions, I just look at those emotions.

Emotional monster that you want to play?

Play as you like!

Anyway, I'm nailed to "I exist", and the rest is whatever you want!

For example, when anger strikes, I won't find a reason to say that it's the other person's fault, and I should be angry. I also don't comfort myself by saying that anger is not good for my health.

For example, when I encounter happy things, I also remind myself that these are just the cheers of those buildings.

The latter is actually very difficult and awkward, because he is obviously in a happy state, he pulls himself back, and then watches that happiness gradually dissipate.

It's a suicide act!

Doctor: "I kind of understand that. This is a bit similar to the so-called emptying of oneself, because for emotions to work, there must be confrontation. Just like the waves hitting the rocks, there must be rocks to splash the waves.

When you empty yourself in this way, or surrender to the moment, you remove the rock. But I didn't expect you to do the same even in happy situations. ”

Yuan Changwen: "No way, unreal is unreal, whether you are happy or sad, it is unreal." If I keep my happiness and kill my sadness, will I not be deceived by the devil again!"

Doctor: "Have you ever thought about how to survive in this society as a human being, if you have to have these emotions as a human being?"

Yuan Changwen: "If you must have these falsehoods to be a man, then you don't have to be a man!"

The doctor blurted out: "If you go along with it, you will become an adult, and if you go against it, you will become an immortal?!"

"What?"

The doctor waved his hand to hide his embarrassment and said, "It's nothing, I just thought of some words from Xiuzhen." ”

Yuan Changwen: "Cultivating the truth, cultivating to the truth, tsk...... There must have been people in ancient times who knew the same thing, or how to talk about the world, games and so on. ”

Doctor: "Let's not talk about that...... Let's assume that even if you can be unhuman, what about your wife? What about your baby who is not yet a year old?"

Wife, baby, family, responsibility.

These are all things that I have pursued, and as a man, it is incumbent on me to shoulder the burden of the whole family.

It is said that middle-aged men are miserable, they have parents, children, and their own women can't suffer.

The pressure of life, all kinds of things are anxious, and I am anxious at any time.

Bullshit!

Who gives those pressures?

Didn't you give it yourself?

You want your family to live a little better, you want to make the money in your hands a little looser, you are afraid of the wind and rain in the future, as if the whole world is hostile to you.

You are anxious, not only are you uncertain about the future, but you are also full of eagerness for quick success. In everything we do, we think about the long term and never focus on the present.

It seems that the brain that doesn't have much information, hasn't undergone much training, and only knows how to play with mobile phones all day long can really allow you to successfully predict the future?

All this anxiety is self-inflicted.

Having said that, it was terrifying to let go of everything and throw away the burden that he had given himself.

Yuan Changwen was a little painful and said, "Are you arousing fear?"

The doctor laughed, "Is it me?" Are you sure I'm scaring you?"

Yuan Changwen was stunned for a moment, and said with a smile: "Yes, you can't be afraid of Yuan Changwen, only Yuan Changwen himself is afraid of himself." Hey, you're not like everyone else, you're a doctor!"

Doctor: "Don't digress the topic, think about your wife and children, what do they do? In today's society, families lose a source of income, and it is difficult to bear the blow of life in the face of a mortgage. ”

Yuan Changwen took a deep breath and said, "Yuan Changwen is very uncomfortable now, this is because self-definition conflicts with reality. ”

Thinking about his wife and baby, he will live a tight life every day in the future, and he will even be bullied by others.

Or, in order to earn a little more money, my wife had to work overtime and give up some cosmetics.

In order to live, my wife may endure what she likes. I finally mustered up the determination to buy something, and maybe I regretted it after paying.

My wife can't buy expensive items, but those bargains are even more uncomfortable. Because of quality, materials, craftsmanship and other problems, I saved money to buy it back, but in exchange for emotional discomfort.

Thinking that his wife might cry alone at night, Yuan Changwen felt so uncomfortable.

However, it did not work.

Yuan Changwen is standing in the building of "I exist" at the moment, looking at other buildings from a distance, echoing each other in this realistic scene.

This is not reality yet, it is just my own imagination.

The buildings in the desert began to glow, and the lights formed light and shadows, shuttling through the buildings.

But Yuan Changwen didn't interact with those emotions, just watched from a distance, watching those lights and shadows fly wantonly.

It was precisely because of the absence of confrontation that those lights and shadows slowly dissipated by themselves after shuttling, dissipating from the top of the desert.

And the building of "family responsibility" instantly looks dilapidated, but it still stands on the desert.

That's slashing!