A curse, a curse entirely.

It doesn't hurt or itch, but the whole person is wrapped in a kind of discomfort, and it seems that even respite has become a luxury.

I can't believe that I have had that kind of light-heartedness before, as if I am at ease in the world, nothing can stop me, even listening to the sound of cars running over the road, I can't help but want to dance along.

Now, at this moment, the whole person is like being transferred into the mud, and he will not die instantly, but the discomfort continues to linger around him.

I don't know what else to do, I don't know what else to kill, that awareness is everything, it's over! Why is it still here? Why hasn't the character died yet?

And I, what am I grabbing?

Is it morality, is it goodness, do I have to kill people to break free from that falsehood?

However, this point simply does not make sense, no matter what the character does is false, how can it be killed because the character kills someone or because the character has done something good?

It's because I still have to control, even though I say it in my mouth, follow the flow of life, and when life requires me to kill, I will kill. But when this flow is in front of you, you will find that the morality in your heart occupies such an important position.

There will be no consequences, no one knows, and I can end a life with a simple stab of the knife. Moreover, the other party turned his back to me, was defenseless against me, and even trusted me very much.

Why don't you poke it? I happened to have a knife, there happened to be no one around, it happened to be at night, there happened to be a black garbage bag next to it, right in the shadow under the trees by the river. Everything fits so well that I don't have to worry about anything and bother with anything, just poke it through.

Why didn't it be done?

Do you feel sorry for each other, or do you think it's sad to kill a life?

What about saying good without thinking? Not weighing what is good? What about saying good and no longer believing in the distortion of the mind?

Yuan Changwen, you trash!

Really, it looks like I'm really crazy.

Yuan Changwen couldn't help laughing at himself, when would he feel uncomfortable because he didn't kill. If I didn't kill myself, it would probably be a kind of happiness, after all, I couldn't help but kill and save a life.

Today's self is just the opposite.

Why not kill?

I'm still trying to control, but neither that awareness nor Yuan Changwen's role has any control. So, is this feeling of wanting to control but not being able to control it the source of trouble?

But in fact, if time passes linearly, then all the thoughts of the character of Yuan Changwen are fixed. Even if this mentality of wanting to control is also a certainty, it is inevitable that there will be a certain number.

In addition, I have nothing to do with the character of Yuan Changwen, and I don't know what the character of Yuan Changwen will think at all, so I feel that the character is uncomfortable and painful, so I am only aware of it.

I'm not even sure if these thoughts belong to the character itself.

So, I can only say that at this moment, I am aware of part of the character's body, as well as all kinds of uncomfortable emotional elements, combined in the picture at this moment.

The character was uncomfortable because he didn't do it, and that was just what I was aware of. From a real point of view, there is not much difference between whether the character is uncomfortable or not, and whether the character is hands-on or not. These are just the things that are perceived, so how do I know what will happen in the next moment?

The character will think that they know, and the character will think that they are in control of the world, or at least their actions.

But that's just what I'm aware of, and I don't know what the characters are going to do. Just like if the character will end the killing, I don't know either. At the moment, I just felt the character thinking.

Once the truth is known, the character's actions become meaningless. It doesn't matter if the character is in the moment, or if the character fantasizes about it. Because I am not the character of Yuan Changwen, and I can't control the role of Yuan Changwen, that awareness is just awareness.

However, I'm not done yet, so this method doesn't help me in any way. It is true that the characters are fake, then the best answer should be to play unbridled and try all sorts of things. After all, the characters and the world are fake, why kill them, why do you want to cultivate them to be real?

I am that awareness, do I still need to cultivate to the truth? But this thinking belongs to the character, that is, the character wants to cultivate to the truth. In other words, what I perceive is about how the characters break through the false to the real.

But what is the meaning of this? Carefully planned dreams, painstaking deception, are designed to make oneself no longer think of oneself as the only reality, to make oneself forget that one is the one who is aware, so that one can enjoy the state of life that is "not that awareness" uncontrollably.

Is it the path I chose to slash?

Or was it pushed to this position by everything?

I do not know.

The only thing I can say is that at this moment I realize that the character has killed so many chapters, I feel sad that the character is not killed, and I feel that the character wants to touch the truth.

I don't know what else to do!

I've figured it out before, don't worry, after all, this is just the content of awareness, after all, whether the character is cultivated to the real has nothing to do with me. That awareness doesn't become strong because the character cultivates to the truth, nor does it become weak because the character indulges in falsehood.

Suddenly, I don't understand why someone would leave a text to tell that the world is not real?

If this is a well-orchestrated dream, then why would the characters be encouraged to pursue reality, or rather, why leave this clue behind?

Of course, a lot of the so-called pursuit of truth is just trying to become a better character. In this way, it is actually a kind of misdirection, and the saints of all sects are misleading.

On the other hand, the character's thinking is fixed, in fact, everyone is like an NPC in the game, and all the actions and interaction results are already set. It's just that the characters themselves don't know it, creating a sense of free will.

Of course, this is based on the assumption that time passes linearly.

However, the character doesn't care if he or she has any free will. It seems important that if our ideas are just a program, if they are just a fixed number, then what are we doing? Unfortunately, in fact, the characters have too much to do, and where is there any effort to think about the shit of free will.

Don't you need money for a mortgage? Don't you need money for food? Don't you need money for your children's education? Don't you need money for family expenses? Don't you need money for traveling? Don't you need money for dinner? Don't you need money to maintain your contacts in the workplace? Don't you need money for filial piety on your parents' side? Don't you need money for clothes, bags, and shoes?

Free will? What kind of bullshit is that, can you exchange it for money?