I fell asleep at 22 o'clock last night, and the original plan was to wake up at 2:30 a.m. this morning. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

After falling asleep, I felt like I had a long dream. What did I dream, there was no memory left.

When I woke up, it was dark in front of my eyes. I thought that my dream had gone through the time I needed sleep before it became clear that my heart would naturally bring me back to reality before the alarm clock sang.

I turned around and was about to take my phone to check the time.

However, the light on the mobile phone screen is reflected in the existence of a button message.

I took it and looked at it, and it was still familiar and exclusive to the words she said to me. The time was 23:50.

It turned out that my dream had only gone for less than an hour......

Was it because she woke me up with a button-up message, or because I had already dreamed that I woke up naturally, and she happened to send a button-down message?

I don't know, but when I woke up, I didn't feel sleepy at all. Enough, it seems, is enough.

In fact, in the past two or three days, my thoughts have been rather messy, and I especially want to be quiet. So, I told her not to talk to me for the time being.

She said she got it, and said that if I missed her one day, I'd send her a message. In her message, there is a seed of "expectation" planted with heartache, waiting to germinate......

However, although she knew that I would not talk to her for the past few days, she still sent me a button message to say good night before going to bed at night, and said good morning to me when she got up at dawn. It seems that even if you can't chat for the time being, you can't say "not for the time being" in these greetings.

If "anticipation" is a seed that she planted with heartache, then these daily greetings are the sunshine that she strives to smile and bloom and the rain that falls by crying, in order to let the seed of "anticipation" germinate early.

She was always so hard and careful with me, for fear that if I wasn't careful, I would disappear......

She, not the other her. She is a little poem.

Who is Xiao Shi? Xiao Shi is another Xiao Hong, maybe it can also be Xiao Hong after breaking the chrysalis into a butterfly.

At the beginning of October, Xiao Hong finally successfully quit her job at the sweetheart shop. In the course of meeting her before, she said that she wanted to learn new knowledge and live a more normal life. She resigned several times, but the manager of the sweetheart shop was always untrustworthy, and even if he agreed to her resignation, he would later find some reasons to trap her from continuing to work. So, she felt so tired.

After she finally left the shop, she was like a bird that had been trapped in a cage for a long time, back to the blue sky and white clouds, squeaking freely and flapping her wings of happiness.

After that, she went back to her hometown to change her name.

In the days since she returned to her hometown, I have always had a question: When will she come to Shenzhen? After all, we have made an appointment to go to Shenzhen on October 16th.

Naturally, I would ask her when she would come to Shenzhen.

She playfully asked me with a shy expression, "Do you miss me?"

Then she would still ask with an embarrassed expression, "Isn't it shameless?"

I didn't know what to say, so I replied, "This kid ......."

Think about it, the Aries girl's direct enthusiasm is like the sun's strong ultraviolet rays shining on my dark skin, even if I use an umbrella to prevent it.

Later, after she submitted an application to change her name, she shyly told me in the buckle that she hoped that I would be the first person to call her new name.

This child, such a unique and precious first time, was given to me like this. And I don't have any intention of refusing, come on, come on......

I sent her new name and two cute emojis.

Well, this first time of hers is already mine. Sort of, carved into the glorious monument of my life.

Therefore, she is not Xiaohong, but Xiaoshi.

A few days later, she came to Shenzhen to her parents' house, and also signed up for a study class.

It feels like her fortune is slowly starting to change for the better after she changes her name. For her, learning new knowledge is undoubtedly the best wing to fly after breaking the chrysalis into a butterfly in the future. In this way, she will live better and better. I feel so happy to see that she can go the way she likes!

After studying for a while, she sent a mood in the buckle space, mainly to express that even if she knew that she had made a decision with a high risk factor, she was willing to do her best for someone!

Maybe someone is me, but I actually hope that she wants to learn not because of anyone, but because she really wants to learn because of her heart's desire.

Because, only when you learn to love yourself will others love you. No one can be by your side anytime and anywhere, no one can take into account your joys, sorrows and sorrows at all times, and you are the only one who has always been by your side and never left. You know when you're happy, when you're sad, when you want to play, when you want to be quiet, you know a lot, but you also want someone to know, and if you feel like no one knows, you're going to be disappointed.

It's a dependency, and dependencies can be good or bad. There is nothing wrong with moderate dependence, but there will be some happiness. But once you are overly dependent, you will find that your life is not your own life at all, and the reaction of the person who depends on you will dominate your own life. For example, in an online couple, the girl is a girl with no hobbies, and the boy is a boy with a wide range of interests. Girls and boys have to talk every day, as if there are endless topics to talk about. However, there will be a few days when a boy is more irritable and doesn't want to talk, but a girl feels that only by chatting with her boyfriend will she not feel bored and sad, because she has no hobbies at all, and even if she does, those hobbies will quickly get tired of it, and it is not as happy as chatting with her boyfriend. Although girls want their boyfriends to continue talking to them, boys get bored when they want to be quiet but can't get quiet, so they keep silent about their girlfriends. Because the girl has become very dependent on chatting with her boyfriend to pass the time, and she has no hobbies to pass the time naturally, her mood becomes sad with her boyfriend's silent reaction.

If the girl has very independent interests and hobbies and does not need to rely on chatting with her boyfriend to pass the time, then the boyfriend can be quiet if he wants to, which is more appropriate for both parties. Those who want to be quiet meet the conditions of quietness, and those who don't want to be quiet can also find other ways to be happy, and this relationship of not being overly dependent is more natural.

Therefore, people constantly improve themselves in order to love themselves well, so that they can better love and be loved by others. As the saying goes, if you bloom, butterflies will come.

I don't think Xiao Shi will rely too much on me. However, I'm afraid. Because, I often like to do my own thing quietly, and I don't like to talk much. However, Xiao Shi is also afraid. She was afraid that the decrease in communication between us would make me feel less and less for her.

I'm afraid because I'm afraid of losing my freedom.

She was afraid because she was afraid of losing me.

In other words, what I like is freedom, and what she likes is me.

She likes me, always like me so hard. And I couldn't reply to her in the affirmative......

The day before she went to class, October 16th, weekend.

She came to me in the car.

It had only been a few days since I had my tooth extracted, and I still had stitches on my teeth. I'm always thinking about one question – where are we going to play?

Originally, I wanted to take her to Xichong on the Dapeng Peninsula, but she wanted to save it until the next time we met. Because it takes two days to go to Xichong to play, and she has to go to class the next day, so she doesn't have time. Also, she took into account that my teeth were ** needles, and I could only drink porridge at that time, and it was not good for me to go so far.

Well, I don't know what to say either......

When I went to pick her up that morning, the first thing that caught my mind was her hairstyle. Finally have bangs, and the middle score is not bad.

The second glance was a large bag of fruit she was carrying.

As soon as she saw me, she smiled and handed the bag of fruit to me, saying, "Take these fruits back to your uncle and aunt." ”

As soon as my hand caught the bag of fruit, it sank. It feels like gravity has changed and suddenly it has aggravated......

At that time, I rode "Little Perfect" to pick her up, thinking that I would just take her to lunch first and then go to play. However, the bag of fruit in front of me became a problem.

I asked her, "Where are you going now?"

She covered her mouth and smiled, "How do I know you?"

I looked at the bag of fruit, then at her, and said, "Go to my aunt and uncle." ”

She replied a little surprised: "No, it's so late now, I'm sorry." ”

I look at the time, oh, it's almost noon.

She asked curiously, "Your uncle and aunt know that I came to look for you?"

I nodded yes.

She was a little confused and wanted me to explain to my aunt and uncle that the reason she didn't go to see them was because she was late for the bus that day.

I smiled and said, it's okay, they won't mind.

She still looked uneasy.

Whew, there is no way, then you can only walk back to the "heart world" and put the bag of fruit before going out.

Actually, when I first saw her holding that bag of fruit, I was a little unhappy. Because she came to see me and play with me, but she bought fruit for my aunt and uncle to eat. This shows that she knows how to be sophisticated, very good. It's just that I know too much about human feelings, which makes me feel a little unnatural. After all, she hasn't really met my aunt and uncle, and she really doesn't need to buy fruit for me to take back to her family as soon as she comes to see me. This is very similar to my aunt. So sometimes when I see my aunt at home being very hospitable, I feel very unnatural. However, my aunt's popularity is good.

Therefore, Xiaoshi bought fruit here, it was nothing, it was just that my psychology was too awkward. Why? There will be an answer that night......

On the way back to the "Heart World", I didn't turn my head to talk to her much because of my awkward psychology. It feels like I'm making the atmosphere a little awkward.

When I got to the door of the rental house, I glanced back at her. She was looking at me with a feeble look in her eyes, and only smiled slightly when she saw me look at her.

Looks like I accidentally hurt her......

Come to think of it, I'm a cold-blooded person. She came to my uncle and aunt with such a big bag of fruits from afar, but I still had to show a look of ignorance, and I couldn't empathize with her feelings at all, and I wouldn't even pity the fragrance and cherish the jade......

After recognizing my problem, I adjusted my emotions and walked up to the seventh floor with a smile and a smile with her, returning to the "heart world".

In the same way, bring her a stool to sit on, and I sit on the edge of the bed, and then we talk for a while.

She also gave me a wrapped gift and I asked what it was.

She said a little shyly, don't dismantle it first, and I'll dismantle it when I come back from playing in the afternoon.

I smiled and put the gift aside, a little curious and a little expectant.

I was going to give her a girl's bag that I bought in Cambodia, but because it was a bit big and she didn't like big bags, it was still sleeping in my suitcase.

Then, looking at her sitting in front of me, my pupils dilated!

Don't get me wrong, what I saw was that her calves were so thin and didn't feel like any flesh, similar to my arms.

She smiled and said that she looked thinner in black pants.

Forehead...... I've never heard of it......

After talking and laughing, we went to the restaurant where we had lunch together and continued to eat lunch that day. Lunch that day was two servings of pork offal soup without pork liver and lungs, well, I should have been able to eat noodles in addition to porridge at that time.

The shop was run by a young man and two young girls, and I don't know if they were related to each other or to be a fellow countryman. Before I had my teeth extracted, I had pork knuckle rice at that shop.

After entering the store, I observed one of the girls looking at the poem from top to bottom, perhaps out of curiosity. After all, when I go to eat at that restaurant, I almost always eat alone. This time, there was an extra girl to have lunch with me, so it's no wonder that the girl was curious. (Amount...... Say it as if people are interesting to you)

Although I was slower to eat because of my teeth, what I didn't expect was that she ate slower than me. I'm done eating, and she still has most of the bowl unimported......

Whew, after eating, I paid the bill, and rode "Little Perfect" to drive her to a place called "Bright Farm".

Along the way, I teased her for being very lightweight. As for her, she teased me that I couldn't ride her anymore.

That part of the road, I thought it was natural. To passers-by, she and I were like a couple. It seems to me that if her right hand dares to put her arm around my waist, then it is close to a couple.

Before she came to me, I asked her how she was dressed to meet me and if she wore a dress.

She replied with a snicker: "No, I'm wearing pants." ”

Actually, when I asked her this question, I wasn't wolf-like. It's about what she's wearing and deciding where we're going, what we're going to do, and how we're going to get there. If she was wearing a skirt, then naturally she couldn't play some alternative games, and I couldn't ride her car, because the wheels would stain her skirt, so I had to take the bus. But if she's wearing pants, then everything is fine, whatever you want, and I can ride her to her destination.

Well, wolves don't just howl. This, it depends on the timing. Howl when you should howl, and when you shouldn't, settle down.

When I arrived at Bright Farm, I bought two bottles of water. One bottle per person. I quenched my thirst from cycling, and she quenched her thirst from the heavy taste of soup powder.

After quenching our thirst and deciding, we went to climb the small hill. Well, it's the bike greenway, but the greenway wraps around the waist of the small hill, one after the other, up and down, zigzag. Anyway, it's just tiring to get up.

During the few hours of this cycle trail, we also chatted naturally. The content of the conversation is relatively scattered, and I can't remember it clearly.

I remember she was on the side of the bike greenway, picking a leaf. I asked, what is that.

She grinned and showed me the leaf, a heart-shaped leaf.

I smile.

With the existence of a bicycle greenway, there will naturally be people who like to ride bicycles.

I'm not interested in a man's bike, but I'm not interested in a woman's bike.

Later, a few women really passed by on bicycles, and Xiaoshi was happy to remind me. Then, I exaggerated my feelings about watching girls ride bicycles. Actually, I just wanted to stir up the atmosphere. What's more, those women who ride bicycles are not girls, but aunts. Call......

On the way, she also asked me a question: "Will you take me up a hill to make your teeth more uncomfortable?"

I looked at her quizzically.

She continued, "I'm afraid you're in pain to play with me, just like last time." ”

It turned out that she looked at me with those weak eyes in the morning, because she was worried that my teeth would hurt......

I smiled and said, it's okay, it won't hurt much to talk.

She continued to smile as she walked forward.

There is a difference of several kilometers between the entrance and exit of the bicycle greenway, and I sent Xiaoshi at the exit to take the bus back to Guanlan.

While waiting for the bus, I had a slightly melancholy look in my eyes, and my face was tilted at a 45-degree angle, looking at the car slowly accelerating to the left. I know that in the vast sea of cars, there must be that bus. (Isn't this nonsense)

Then, one or two boys on bicycles passed by and they all looked at me. Then, three or four uncles who drive electric cars pass by and look at me.

I felt a little depressed, lowered my melancholy eyes slightly, and said, "I feel like those people who pass by will always look at me." ”

She smiled and said, "Because you're handsome!"

Alas, I chuckled and sighed softly.

After sitting for a long time, she kept scratching her hands and feet, indicating that small mosquitoes had bitten her. She also turned the "work" of the little mosquito to show me.

I think it's strange, I'm a very mosquito addict, but why don't any mosquitoes bite me?

Then, I remembered what she had said. She said that she was very attracted to mosquitoes, she went out to sit with her friends and colleagues, and mosquitoes generally only bit her and not others.

It feels like this is really a great feat of self-sacrifice for the benefit of those around you!

However, not long after, I was also bitten by a small mosquito.

However, I think that's normal, at least when she's tickling, I'm tickling......

Before the car came, she still wanted me to make it clear to my aunt and uncle that she didn't go to see them because she was too late that day. I said, don't care, it's fine.

However, she just cares.

The car came, a little crowded, and after a hurried goodbye, I quietly rode the "little perfect" back to the "heart world".

With the wrapped gift, I had several guesses, but all of them turned out to be wrong after I opened the gift.

I've never seen anything like it, with a clear plastic plate and a screen that is supposed to show the time. I took a look at the product box, oh, it's called a USB clock message board. Judging by the picture effect on the surface of the box, it should glow.

Pick it up and take a closer look, the plastic board on it, oh, should be a fluorescent message board. On the message board, there was light blue handwriting. Like, it's a little poem that wrote to me.

The content is to wish me a speedy recovery, and I hope that I will be happy every day and warm the people around me like sunshine.

I smile.

After that, I also saw a card under the box, which looked like the format of a train ticket.

The content above is about romance, though.

This is a train from happiness to eternity, and on the arrow that is going, my name "Golden Dragon" is written and there is a cute expression.

This ticket is sold by Happiness Station, RMB 520, new air-conditioned first-class bedroom, love you for a lifetime, valid for life.

The train number is love921314, the train departure date is the day I fell in love with you, the departure time is 5:20, and the seat number is 13 cars and 14.

I smile.

Turning it over to the other side, there is a passage written:

Jinlong, as long as you are happy and happy every day, I will be the first to support you in whatever you do. May the sunshine of life always accompany you and everyone around you. (small poem)

After reading this paragraph, my nose was sore......

After that, I read the instructions to understand how to use them. When I saw the blue light that surrounded the message board, I was moved.

I sent a message of thanksgiving to Xiaoshi that didn't go so quickly, and wrote some hidden expressions of thanks in the buttoning space.

I knew that the answer she wanted should not be these...... However, all I knew at the time was that I could reply......

That night, I brought home the big bag of fruit, and at dinner I told my family something that I wanted me to explain. As a result, the aunt said happily that the little poem won her heart. My second sister is also very praised! I feel that as long as Xiaoshi is willing, the position of the prospective daughter-in-law can be said to be decided......

I eat quietly......

In the past few days, Xiaoshi has been unhappy for a while because of outsiders, but she doesn't want to mention that incident with me. After all, don't mention the bad things.

Maybe it's because of the emotional infection, when I wanted to convey my happiness to her, her unhappiness indirectly made me unhappy. Then she was feeling better, and I was messy because of what was going on on my side. So, we can't seem to talk much, I need to be quiet.

Therefore, I propose that we should not chat for the time being for the next few days.

But in the face of her daily greetings, I feel so entangled. If you reply, it seems easy to start talking again. If I don't reply, I feel like I'm watching her heart bleed......

However, I was cold-blooded, and I was really watching her heart bleed......

After waking up last night and reading her evening remarks, I went up to the buckle space again and saw her post such a mood:

Every time you fall into a happy and beautiful life, you will find that all this beauty is just a short and beautiful dream, and it is time to wake up again to get out of the wonderful world of dreams. Maybe it's more appropriate to be the lonely stupid girl who was self-reliant and self-reliant, because at this moment, I don't have the capital to ask for what I want, I can only wait and believe that the future will become more wonderful and better because of today's efforts......

After reading it, I was completely wrong......

She really just wants to like someone seriously, but why, for her, it is so hard? Is it the wrong person to like me who is cold-blooded?

I remembered that she had confessed to me a few times before and asked, "Would you like to?"

I always say that time will tell......

But now that I think about it, if the final answer is to be together, then it would be good for her. But what if the final answer is cruel to her? Then the more time passes, the more love she gives, the more cruel it is to her?

I didn't know, so I pushed the unknown to time. But, that's selfish......

When I think of her if she doesn't pay attention to me anymore, if we slowly regress to the time when we didn't know much before, I feel like a corner of my inner world is crumbling little by little......

At about three o'clock in the morning, I looked at the train ticket from happiness to eternity, and my eyes were wet.

Flipping it over, looking at what she wanted to say to me again, looking at it, a "pearl" slipped from the corner of her eye, leaving a melting trail......

She doesn't need to be inferior at all, she knows how to give. The one who should have low self-esteem is me.

If the sun and moon appear on opposite sides of the sky at the same time, and you can only take one photo, do you choose to take a picture of the sun or choose to take a picture of the moon?

I'll choose to shoot you, if you're there......

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