At half past three in the morning Beijing time on a certain day, it belongs to the night shift break. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info I'm writing with sleepiness......

The fat beast and I were on separate missions, so he left work before either o'clock. Later, a few other people from my group also got off work. In the end, I was the only one left to continue the struggle.

Well, there's going to be a meeting the next morning. Even if I go back, I still have to come in the morning. I'm not in a hurry, just keep a steady mind and work.

The weather during the day was so nice that I regretted not going on a trip. But I believe that there are losses and gains. Although I missed the opportunity to go on a small trip, I will also gain something. That's when I tidied up my little world, and the internet was renewed. In short, there will be much less trivial life in the near future, because the measures have been prepared in advance.

It's tiring to tidy up the world, but I like to see it change its mood. It changed my mood, and so did my mood. A lot of things, suddenly seen a lot......

For example, my aunt will not be with my uncle on her birthday, and I originally felt that there was always an inexplicable dissatisfaction. But at the time, it seemed that my dissatisfaction was my problem.

My aunt was originally a more traditional person, and she was very sensitive to many taboo things. What's more, the object of taboo is my uncle. My uncle had a physical condition before, and the whole family didn't know how scared they were. Now it's so hard to adjust my body, with my aunt's sensitive mind, why don't you want my uncle to be healthy all the time?

My aunt told me on her birthday that if you avoid it twice a year, it will be good luck for the whole year!

When I heard it, I didn't feel anything, probably because my emotions were not stable.

Yes, I think that in this world, no one loves my uncle more than my aunt. Even my grandmother doesn't have my aunt to love my uncle.

Grandma has several children, but my aunt only has one husband, my uncle. Grandma's love for her children is divided into many parts, but my aunt's love for my uncle is only one. There is no comparison...... Different natures.

I thought that no matter what my aunt did, it was for my aunt to be healthy. Maybe fortune tellers are just confusing, but my aunt would rather believe it than believe it, why? It's not that my aunt is stupid, but because of love! If it is true, then at least it is avoided. Believe it, but what about the fake ones? That's okay, at least you can know that there are no bad things. If you don't believe it, but it's true?

My aunt just wants my uncle to be healthy and not willing to let go of any opportunity. Whether it is scientific health preservation or non-scientific worship of God, my aunt has grasped them all! Just for my uncle's health! This is love! My aunt's love for my uncle! I am very grateful to God for letting me be born in such a loving home!

So, the mood is calmer, looking at problems, thinking about things is different.

After returning from the night shift and sleeping for a day, a heavy rain came. I didn't expect it to rain on such a sunny day......

The wind rose and the rain showered and killed, causing people to scream in panic. The cauliflower fell, the green leaves failed, and my heart was drunk. Life is like this, if Heaven wants to destroy you, it will destroy you in any way. If it has no intention of destroying you, then even if it changes more ways, it will not destroy you. Unless, you destroy yourself.

Although the cauliflower has been broken several times by wind and rain, it does not stop growing. It's just that the wind and rain came quickly and ruthlessly, and the cauliflower was broken more seriously, plus the cauliflower quickly bore fruit and didn't bloom much, so it was almost over its life.

I have seen the growth process from the seed to the flowering and fruiting vegetable in my eyes, and it is its beautiful life. Although it is likely that it will wither completely before long, its life meaning will remain. For example, the seeds it leaves behind may continue to take root and sprout, and its withered leaves will turn into nutrients that make the soil more fertile. It's a life, nothing is a wasted life, a life I love.

Thinking about the meaning of cauliflower, and then looking at my own life, in fact, nothing is in vain.

At that time, I got off work at four o'clock in the morning the day before yesterday, and an idea flashed through my mind: go ice skating in a square where no one is around.

As I said, a lot of my adventurous little trips come from this fleeting thought. So, I went back to Xiaotiandi to pick up the single-row roller skates that I had bought for a few months, and set off for the square.

Why choose a time when no one is around? Because I'm a beginner. I don't want others to see what it's like to learn to skate, in other words, to save face.

For skating, I've only skated twice, and neither of them adds up to two hours. A complete newbie, so to speak.

Therefore, after I got to the square and changed into roller skates, I was full of fear even when I stood up, and the feeling of swaying was really terrifying! Actually, it was not that exaggerated, but my psychological effect exaggerated that fear.

When I bravely tried to skate a few times, it was a bit of a feeling and I didn't fall. I skated a lot more when I first learned it, but the second time I only fell a little at most. It's not that I've gotten better, it's just that I slipped away for five minutes the second time and decided not to slip away.

On my third skate, I was going to break through, at least to skate decently.

Finally, I fell, and I sat on the ground, and the strong tremor really made me feel a pain in my eggs!

However, a miracle just happened!

After I struggled to get up, I told myself, it's okay, how can I learn to slip without falling?

Then, keep slipping. At that moment, I felt like I was reborn, and I suddenly found the feeling that I had just learned to slip slowly for the first time. Everything I learned and felt in skating before seemed to have come back all at once. It looks like it's really going to be a bit of a skating, and it's not very fast, but it's a real improvement!

The feeling that slipped through before has not been lost, but exists in the depths of the subconscious of the mind, and as long as they wake up one day, they will come back. It's like, I fell and then it felt like it was coming back.

A fall doesn't really make the feeling come back. It's fear, and fear limits oneself. As long as the fear is overcome and the body relaxes a little, then the natural feeling will return.

When I slipped away, I was too afraid of falling, so I didn't dare to slip away. But when I really fell and found that it was nothing, the fear in my heart was not so great, and I naturally slipped away more freely, so the feeling came back.

It was very reassuring to me that the ice I skated on made me feel like it was there all the time.

So after thinking about it, can life be full of meaning?

A lot of times, when I'm doing something I don't like to do, it feels like I'm wasting my time. In fact, when people are doing something, a certain aspect of ability required for that thing has already been remembered by people's subconscious.

For example, I asked a child who was too lazy to move and didn't have much strength to help me carry a bucket of water for five meters, and the weight of the bucket was enough to be lifted with the child's full strength. The kid might not want to help me, but I lured him with candy to help me carry it. Although he would not resist the temptation to help me carry it, it was really not something he liked to do. He really didn't have much strength, and it took a lot of effort to lift the bucket of water by five meters little by little. In this process, although the child felt that everything except for eating candy was a waste of time and physical strength, his subconscious had already remembered the state of his whole body exertion in the process of lifting water. So after a while, I asked him to lift the same weight of water with the same temptation, and he would find that it was a little easier and less difficult to lift than the last time.

This is the power of the subconscious, and every time a person breaks through their limitations, the subconscious mind raises its abilities to that level. In other words, there is a subconscious mind at work behind nothing in vain.

I don't know if my subconscious mind is at work in the experience of falling in love......

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