The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait.

I've seen a lot of protagonists who can use this poem to describe their mood before, but this time, I've become one of them......

The first time I learned about the existence of this poem seemed to be when I was in junior high school, when I didn't feel very deep about "children want to raise but don't treat relatives", because I felt that everything was fine at that time. However, its meaning was quietly imprinted in my heart......

When I was in college, the presence of this poem in my heart began to grow stronger and stronger! Because one of my college roommates, his father was gone, and I suddenly felt very scared when I saw his mood at that time, and the feeling he was suppressing in his heart......

Because of this powerless regret, you can't control it......

So, when I was in college, I wrote songs for my family, and at that time I wrote a song "Love.My Jia" for my uncle.

Maybe it was because it was written in Mandarin, and Uncle didn't like it very much at the time, but the lyrics already contained my love for him.

Time passed quickly, I got an internship, and I thought that when I got my first truly meaningful salary in my life, I would be able to love my family properly. However......

The internship was not even enough for a month, and I was faced with an extremely unacceptable thunderbolt in my life! Uncle's body was found to have a tumor, and it may be at an advanced stage! What I didn't want to think about even more than one tumor was that some of them had already spread......

The dark waves of life have come over the world, and I have fallen into them......

After that, he underwent two open surgeries, removed a large area of the tumor, and temporarily triumphantly snatched back Uncle in the hands of death.

But the surgeon said before the operation that even if the operation was successful, my uncle would only live about three more years at most.

Three years, it feels so short!

How can I repay my uncle well and love him in three years?

I quit my first job as a sales intern and returned to Shenzhen to look for a manual job with no technical skills because I needed money to pay off my debts. Sales was not suitable for me at that time, and the financial pressure and confusion about my personal work direction made me focus on exerting my physical strength to make money.

Almost all of the monthly wages for the second job are handed over to the uncle, and it is enough to leave a little pocket money.

Later, by the third job, the debt was almost paid off. I can make good use of my salary to buy clothes, belts, watches, and erhu for my uncle......

Later, when I went abroad, the electronic organ and guitar I bought for myself were handed over to my uncle for safekeeping. In other words, he can play as much as he wants.

My uncle is really a master! He has never touched a guitar, but he has used all his erhu skills to play the guitar and the electronic keyboard, and he has a good time.

At that time, when I was abroad, I heard my aunt on the phone say that my uncle played the guitar and the electronic piano very happily, and when I heard my uncle's happy words, my heart was very sweet. It feels like I'm in love with my uncle.

Whatever Uncle likes, I can buy, I buy. I also want to take my aunt and uncle on a trip, but my aunt and uncle have various reasons not to go every time, so I can't go.

After I returned to China, the three-year deadline for my uncle was getting closer and closer, and my uncle's physical condition began to deteriorate more and more, and the fear in my heart enveloped me irrepressibly.

And Uncle's greatest wish is to see me marry and have children. However, time is always fair and impersonal.

The time when I grew up couldn't catch up with the time when my uncle was leaving......

This helplessness, this sense of powerlessness, and this uncontrollable regret are eating away at the hope in my heart. What else can I do......

By May 6, 2017, Uncle had already been so weak that he couldn't take care of himself at all......

My aunt and I began to take turns to take care of my uncle every night, and when my uncle wanted to get up for convenience, the people around my uncle would help my uncle solve the problem.

Uncle was already difficult to speak by then, there seemed to be a lot of phlegm stuck in his throat, and he often coughed non-stop, as if he was choked by death, and he could take Uncle away at any time......

In those days of taking care of my uncle, there were two images that made me feel very sad......

The first picture appeared one evening, Xiaoshi and I, and my aunt were all preparing dinner on the first floor, leaving my uncle sleeping on the second floor. At that time, we wanted to feed Uncle Ao porridge before going downstairs to eat, but Uncle was sleeping very soundly at the time, and I couldn't bear to wake him up when I thought that Uncle was rarely sleeping so deeply, so we went up to take care of him when we finished eating quickly.

But unexpectedly, Uncle suddenly woke up, but we didn't know!

At that time, Xiao Shiyou heard a sound on the floor upstairs, as if something was falling on the floor.

Auntie guessed if it would be Uncle Wake Up, so she hurriedly urged me to go upstairs to see! I was very scared at the time, not wanting Uncle to fall on the floor, and rushed upstairs quickly, while breaking my thoughts......

When I ran to my uncle's room, the scene that caught my eye was unforgettable and extremely sad in my life!

Uncle Ah collapsed on the floor with his back to the sky and couldn't move, and the small bucket containing phlegm placed next to Uncle's bed was also overturned, a picture of embarrassment......

The once mighty uncle in my heart can't even shout or get out of bed by himself......

I hurriedly ran over to help my uncle get into bed, and kept saying that it was our fault that we were not good, and that it was our fault......

I was feeling guilty as I tidied up the floor, and the tears in my eyes kept whirling and whirling...... Then, sneak down......

I think it must be difficult for Uncle to accept such a self in his heart...... It's just that it's also helpless......

The second picture appeared on the afternoon of May 7, 2017, Uncle coughed very badly, and he couldn't stop coughing while lying down......

Auntie said sadly, yes, you can definitely persevere!

Uncle sat and seemed to relieve the cough, but he was very tired. Auntie sat on the edge of the bed and let Uncle sleep on her back, while talking to Uncle and asking Uncle to persevere, his daughters were on the way back, while secretly wiping their tears.

Looking at this picture, I was moved to take a photo to preserve, this is the love that belongs to my uncle and aunt.

That night, all three of my sisters rushed back, and they all cried when they saw the frail uncle......

Alas, in today's society, there are two most effective things that can bring relatives together, one is a happy event, and the other is a sad white event. However, the number of relatives gathered at happy events is generally not as large as that gathered at white events, but what about the number of relatives gathered at white events?

In the days of taking care of my uncle, I bathed, massaged, and fed porridge to my uncle, just like my uncle took care of me when I was a child. Filial piety can only be done so under the condition that time does not allow.

As long as Uncle wants me to do it, almost all of what I can subjectively satisfy at that time will be satisfied, except for the uncontrollable objective factors.

Once, when I was taking a bath for my uncle, I said to my uncle: "Uncle, my aunt is the person who loves you the most in this world, and she loves you more than Grandma!"

I know, Uncle should understand in his heart.

On the night of May 7th, our sisters and brothers discussed how to allocate time to take turns taking care of Uncle.

I rested first, and when it came to the early hours of May 8th, I had a dream, a very deep dream.

I dreamed that our family was eating, and then suddenly a buffalo fell on the road in front of the door, and the buffalo landed right in front of the door of our house, and then woke up.

When I woke up, it was about two o'clock in the morning, and I could hear Uncle's cough, and my sister and the second sister should be taking care of Uncle.

Shortly after waking up, I recalled the dream, and my left eyelid jumped a few times. It feels weird.

It was Monday, and the left eyelid jumped to mean that something was happening! Jumping at more than two o'clock in the morning, it was ugly, check the explanation, the family has been in trouble recently, there are big and small things happening, and I am constantly troubled, and I am at a loss in the short term.

So, I was curious to look up Zhou Gong's dream interpretation on the Internet.

I typed in a dream about a buffalo and got an explanation that scared me!

There is one story, I dreamed that a buffalo came to my house, and the Lord mourned!

After that, I had insomnia......

After the evening of May 8, we washed my uncle's hair and wiped my hands and feet to make him feel more energetic.

At that time, I was holding my uncle's hand next to him, his breathing began to get faster and faster, and his eyes looked at me and a few sisters, and at that moment, I felt ......

I feel so scared, it looks like it's coming......

The second sister also asked Uncle Fearfully at that time: "Uncle, what's wrong with you?" Don't scare us......

Uncle's breathing was faster, and the light in his eyes seemed to be getting weaker and weaker, Uncle looked at me at that time, as if to say to me, "I'm leaving, I want to see you a few more times......"

I...... I...... What am I going to do?

I...... I...... What can I do?

Other...... No...... No......

All at once my mental activity was all out of whack......

The second sister felt as if the situation was getting more and more wrong, and immediately called the aunt and the sisters who were tidying up the old bed of the grandfather on the first floor to come up and see the uncle......

As soon as the aunt saw the uncle who was getting weaker and weaker, she cried: "Uncle...... Uncle ...... "Auntie has always liked to humorously call Uncle "Uncle".

Then, Auntie hurriedly asked me to carry Uncle to Grandpa's old bed on the first floor.

I immediately picked up my uncle, and the weight of that love seemed to be repaid in the reversal of time. Uncle carried me when I was a child, and I carried Uncle who was about to leave, the weight of this love, I don't want to be weighed by this sadness. But what can I do......

In the process of carrying Uncle down the stairs, I could feel the feeling of him slowly weakening behind me, Uncle, are you really leaving?

Soon after gently placing Uncle Ah on Grandpa's old bed, I saw Uncle Exhale his last breath with his mouth open......

After that, he was quiet......

All that's left is the cries of the family......

I thought that if this moment really happened, I would cry to death. But, I didn't, I was quiet, my tears were flowing, but I didn't cry......

I was beside Uncle, looking at him quietly, and then slowly leaned into his ear and said, "Uncle, go slowly, and in a few years, I will go to you again." ”

Because I just think that Uncle went to that world first, and when I am old and ready to leave in the future, I will naturally go to him.

The elders of other families also came, and discussed with the aunt about the future of the uncle, so let's omit those......

Unexpectedly, the dream of the buffalo coming to the funeral of the head of the house in the early morning came true......

When I went back to my room that night and went to sleep, tears began to well-up and I couldn't control my emotions......

When I was a child, the uncle who loved me so much, the uncle who rode a Jiefang brand bicycle to and from class, the uncle who held my little hand to make me feel that the world was safe, the uncle who held me high, the uncle who warmed my cold little feet with warm thighs in winter, the uncle who worked hard for me for most of his life, the uncle who loved me so much, left......

The man who loves me the most in the whole world, gone......

If only my crying could be like crying when I was a child, how good it would be if I could get my uncle's arms!

However, no matter how much I cried and how heartbreaking I was, Uncle couldn't hear it......

I cried hard in the quilt, and Xiaoshi was quietly with me by my side......

I cried for a long time that night, crying until my head hurt and my head felt like it was cracking......

When I opened my blurry teary eyes at dawn, I realized that Xiaoshi was still looking at me quietly......

She said that she didn't worry about me, and looked at me like this all night without sleeping......

So, why is it that even if I have a very strong "strict wife", I am still willing to accept it. That's the answer, she loves me.

In the early morning of May 9th, I also posted a message in the buckle space, with a picture of my hand and his skinny hand interlocking fingers. I quietly photographed it on an afternoon when an uncle was asleep.

The content of the talk is: If the child can lie on the father's shoulder, who will get out of the car...... It's a little dark, walk slowly, and in a few years, I'll look for you again......

After dawn, I found a small basket cut from peach pits on my junior high school bicycle. I just remembered that it was given to me by my uncle after making it by himself......

So, I took that little basket off my bike and kept it safe. Now, I tie it with a red lucky rope and wear it around my neck, just like my uncle is still by my side.

On the night of the 9th, Uncle was completely gone......

After that, my world was a little blank......

Come to think of it, it turns out that the song I wrote for Uncle Ah has only been sung to him once, and I haven't finished listening to it yet......

So, cherish the people you love.

Finally, I want to leave my uncle's song - "Love.My Jia".

Daddy Dady Uncle

Different names are the same love for you

It is the sign of my heart looking for you

Take it one step at a time from a young age

You're laughing merrily

It doesn't seem to get any happier than that

Time flies, half-consciousness and half-consciousness have been twenty-one years

Step by step, I walked into the world, and you smiled in the distance

Passing time scratches your face

Gray your hair and vicissitudes of your hands

You exchanged your youth for my healthy growth

The imprint of love will not be erased

The big palm of my hand when crossing the street is my greatest sense of security

The wind and the rain have never been denied

A big hug in front of the school is what I look forward to the most

I hope you are healthy and happy every day

This is a song about Ah Co loving Uncle