Do you find it easy to live your life as you wish?

Well, I think it's so hard.

Sometimes, though, you can still try...... For example, write a casual opening......

Back on September 26, 2017, the first day after I left AX, instead of starting to look for a job again, I was not depressed, but my family went to Yangjiang to attend my cousin Jian's wedding.

My cousin Jian is the son of my aunt's sister, that is, the son of my sister-in-law, who is two or three years older than me. In the 2008 Beijing Olympics, he also went to see it with my uncle and visited the Great Wall. Therefore, he can give me a little special feeling - I will imagine the picture of my uncle going to visit the Great Wall with him.

During the two days of the wedding in Yangjiang, I was a passive existence. I don't like to be lively, because I have to meet a lot of people and face a lot of people's feelings, but I grew up in a family full of people's feelings, so I can't avoid these dislikes.

I skip the images that I don't feel in my impression, and I only pick up the images I want......

Also coming to the wedding was Agui's cousin, who had been a soldier and had really completely transformed into a mature man, responsible for his family, and knew how to deal with interpersonal relationships. He worked hard to fulfill all the requirements made by his wife without regrets, and I really couldn't bear it if it were me......

For example, the question of how much red envelopes must be given to the wife's family, the question of whether to buy a motorcycle for the wife to go to work after marriage, etc., if this is a family with a good economic environment, it is not a problem. But the problem is that there is no money. Cousin Agui has borrowed a lot of money for the wedding before, and he is still trying to repay his debts after marriage, but at the same time, he has to add those problems that are closely related to money, not only that, but her wife has been pregnant for a few months, and the burden of the whole family is on him alone, so he is really stressed to doubt life.

He and I chatted about these experiences after marriage on the rooftop, after all, I am also a person with a wife. Although he said this to me with a slight sigh, the smile on his face never disappeared, as if there was a special optimism lingering around him. It feels like he's become very attractive!

Think about yourself, what about my optimism? Where is the death? Alas......

In the process of listening to other people's chats, I also witnessed a special existence - a boy who has blurred vision since he was a child and can barely see the road, has not gone to school or read a book but can grope and recognize a lot of words by himself, and even groped himself to play with mobile phone typing, and even taught himself to master the skill of massage.

Feeling, it's inspiring.

No one knows why he is so powerful, he has never gone to school or read books, how does he know how to read and write? His eyesight is very low, at most he can only see a little blurry light in his right eye, and he can't see anything in his left eye, but he can walk without falling, and he has never tried to get lost, how did he do it? There are many things to remember in this skill of massage, and he must know a lot about the bones of the human body, but he got started very quickly, and he has been doing it for eight years, and he can be said to be a master of massage! Some normal people may not be able to learn so well, but he has proven himself......

My second sister often couldn't breathe smoothly at that time, so after asking him to press the bones behind her back, she suddenly felt a lot more comfortable. I watched him massage and talk about bones at the same time, and it felt like watching a master.

He was physically flawed, and he actually lived a life that many normal people couldn't live in, such as me, and at that time I seemed to have the illusion that he was sound and I was flawed.

I, I can't even find what I'm good at, so down......

He was born with a defect because he could not see this beautiful world better, but he was fortunate to grow up, because God did not give him complete health, but gave him a talent that was different from ordinary people, allowing him to live out his normal state.

Heaven is fair, and what has taken you will always be compensated to you. In the same way, what is given to you will also take some as interest.

Perhaps, I am one of the latter ones......

I was so happy as a child that I was now deprived of everything.

On the first night of the wedding, my cousin Jian invited everyone to go to KTV to sing, and it was okay to have fun. Anyway, I'm just a quiet being, like "The Onion".

At noon on the second day of the wedding, it was embarrassing......

We were about to prepare for the return trip, and when we went out, we saw a strange young woman at the door, and I thought it was a relative of my uncle, so I glanced at her and walked over without saying hello. After all, I'm such an unsociable person.

But then I found out, oh my God! She's my cousin's wife!

The difference between putting on makeup and removing makeup messes me and embarrasses me...... I have to say that my cousin is blessed to marry such a beautiful wife.

After that, we went on a small tour......

Because it feels very light, so let's fade away......

What I can live like, I really can't think of the current me, and I can't think of the future me.

But, at that moment, at this moment, at that time, at that time, at this time, I can decide what I want to live.

The difference between a thought, no if, yes, no, no change, change, sinking, sinking, one's present or future appearance is carved out by oneself, whether it is good or bad, all in one's own hands.

Well, the way I look now, do I like it?

If I don't like it, how can I fix it?

People are valuable because they are self-aware, but I am not expensive at all......