Although the loss of dreams made Yuan Changwen uncomfortable, the most fundamental thing was that he was afraid of the existence of "selflessness".

Yuan Changwen must commit suicide, otherwise this tug of fear will never end.

[If there is no person like Yuan Changwen, then the so-called loss of dreams is not a painful thing. 】

It turns out that this is what surrender means?

Let go of the rudder and let the "Tao" drive the ship of life, which is what it means.

Hum!

The "ego" still wants to rebel, so it uses dreams to fear me.

This is its means of survival, does it mean that my slashing is close to its demise, which is why it is resisting so fiercely?

Don't be funny, what can I know?

There was no guidance from the teacher and no map to tell me where to go. Nothing, and I don't know anything.

What if, this rebellion, only represents the beginning of the self-definition of the slaughter?

Yuan Changwen was suddenly a little reluctant to think like this, because it meant that the efforts of so many chapters were actually just hovering on the edge. Even, this attack of fear may represent that it has not yet entered the main topic.

Alas......

Whatever, I've let it go anyway, what do you love!

[Unwilling emotions, unwilling to see his efforts said to be meaningless, these are all Yuan Changwen. Who cares if it's just a part?]

[Only Yuan Changwen wants to control, he wants to survive, he must constantly affirm his existence. is not only killed, even if ordinary colleagues reject some plans, Yuan Changwen's heart will resist. 】

[Without Yuan Changwen, there would be no emotional pull. Yuan Changwen must die, he must quit, and he must let go. Believe in the "Tao" to drive, and stop using Yuan Changwen's selfishness and greed to control life. 】

[Where does Yuan Changwen know what is good? He only knows what is good for him and what is good now. In a word, Yuan Changwen has nothing but money and vanity and greed. 】

Yuan Changwen is also a good person, he doesn't steal or rob, and every time he throws garbage, he throws it into the trash. Never had an affair, nor did he have an affair. Not smoking, not gambling, these are good qualities. ）

These are just qualities that conform to the moral values of contemporary society, and they are all false and not worth mentioning at all. 】

(We live in this society, shouldn't we follow the moral values of this era? we are not in ancient times, nor in the future, so what's the use of talking about this?)

[Of course, moral values should not be followed, not even laws.] We follow morality because we are afraid of being blamed by others. If we obey the law, we just can't afford to be punished, or we can't escape capture. 】

[Being a good person because of fear, can't you be a good person because you want to be a good person? Of course, after Yuan Changwen committed suicide, this kind of thinking will not exist. 】

[I no longer have any objections to how the "Dao" is controlled and where the ship of life is headed. It's just a matter of following the trend, no longer having choices and trade-offs, just as a component that should function. 】

Ha!

That's right, I'm just a function of a component. Conform to the command of the "Tao" and show its due function. Maybe it's a good guy, maybe it's a bad guy, who knows?

Maybe there's money, maybe there's poverty, who knows?

If we are bad people, how can we have the face to meet our parents? Everyone will say, ouch, Yuan Changwen actually did such a thing, and he was wanted. Even, we probably won't be able to escape at all!)

(Prisons, prisoners, no more mental hospitals!)

Hey!

I suddenly remembered that I was also a person who had killed people!

Those gangsters wanted to take revenge but were stabbed to death by themselves who had fallen into the magic barrier.

However, it seems like a long time ago, and it feels so far away to look back on it now.

When I think about myself a year ago, oh no, it was just a month ago, and it seems incredible.

At that time, I lived with some childish ideas, and I have been living for more than 20 years!

Now let me go back to live that kind of life, it feels disgusting to think about it.

[However, it will take time to let go completely. I didn't think there was anything to talk about before, but the fear just now was like a shining slap in the face. When I thought it was over, it was precisely when I was deceived by the devil. 】

(Hmph!That awareness is everything, so the devil is itself, and we haven't found any reason to deceive ourselves??)

[Maybe...... It's because it's boring, ha! That's it, because the whole universe is itself, and everything is that awareness. Then, that awareness may be boring, so it is self-awareness and creates the illusion of separation. 】

[No, it's not because it's boring, it's because everything is that awareness.] It has nothing to perceive but to be aware of itself. Because everything is that awareness, and our existence is a pastime. 】

[There must be the existence of demons, there must be constant deception, objective things must conform to certain laws, but they cannot conform to all laws, so wouldn't there be no fun!]

[Create the existence of duality, hot and cold, high and short, positive and negative, as well as the confrontation between science and the supernatural.] Let us have a choice, of course, when we choose a side, we should fall into the deception of the devil. Or, you have successfully deceived yourself. 】

Yuan Changwen was suddenly a little happy, this theory seemed to be extremely absurd, dividing the entire universe into that awareness. Instead of the ordinary one having an object outside, and then we come to perceive.

It's ridiculous, who would believe that the world is just that awareness?

(Fart!Objective things fall within the realm of "inconclusive truth", have you forgotten?)

Indeed, this is a hurdle that cannot be avoided, and it is also something that I have been trying to stop believing in.

I have to say that the habit of more than 20 years is too strong, and I have never doubted the truth of objective things, and even if I doubted, I was quickly overwhelmed by all kinds of miscellaneous things.

But Yuan Changwen knew that these things could be stopped. The feeling of looking at the rusty steel pipes, potted plants, and window frames by myself is now gone, but the memory is still there.

That's what it's really like, letting go of all labels, letting go of self-woven definitions, and letting things be in a state where they should be.

This feeling is much more comfortable than the sense of accomplishment, vanity, self-motivation, joy, etc.

When you catch a glimpse of that state and it lasts for a while, what else is there to pursue in this world?

Yuan Changwen was like a javelin flying to the bull's-eye at this time, nothing could make him turn except hitting the target, and no temptation was enough to make him change the target.

Unfortunately, this kind of thinking is only temporary heroism. Under the bullying of fear, no one dares to guarantee anything.

This is a society full of fear, everyone is afraid, and it is too difficult and difficult to get rid of fear.

The only luck, Yuan Changwen is in a psychiatric hospital, and the environment is relatively isolated, which may be a good opportunity to get rid of fear.