Chapter 190: Re-Shedding Twelve

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Because it can be very simple to express one's feelings, and it can also be very deep to keep the good memories that you want.

There is a proverb that says, "A good memory is better than a bad pen", and when I first saw this proverb when I was in elementary school, I thought it was a mantra for taking notes in class. Now, going to school is no longer my obligation, and the place of this proverb in my heart has changed, and it has become a mantra that I want to keep my memories of.

The river of time never stops, what I see, experience, and think will become more and more as I grow, and the information in my mind will become more and more cluttered. If some good memories are not properly organized and preserved, maybe one day when I want to reminisce about those good memories, I will find that I can't remember them.

So, when I really want to remember certain deep memories, I write them down and freeze them. When I get tired and look at the words with memories, I feel like I'm back in time......

Just like the elementary school part of this Dongdongli, I don't remember a lot of good things now, because the more time passes, the more I forget. Therefore, while I am still old and my mind is still clear, I wrote down those beautiful things in series. Sort of, I have an explanation for myself when I was a child......

When I was a child, my favorite thing was to watch the main character in anime grow from a small weak child to a weak child, slowly become stronger, and finally become the strong person in my dreams. And what I wrote is just to let him be able to watch the big drama again when he is old like watching anime, and he will grow up slowly as the protagonist!

It's easy to get emotionally involved when you write about things.

When you're in a good mood, you'll write about good memories with a lot of flavor, but when you're writing sad memories, you'll just be downplaying.

When you are depressed, you can write good memories that don't feel like they're good, but when you write sad memories, you can write about that sadness very deeply to the heart.

In other words, what kind of memories are written with what kind of mood you have, and the feeling is the most real.

However, the mood, like the weather, is unpredictable and unpredictable.

So I used to try to write with a mentality of "write memories according to what mood you are in". However, that period of time happened to be my low ebb, so the memories I wrote down were all wrapped with the smell of loss, even if it was a good memory, it was also kidnapped by a touch of sadness.

Feeling, that doesn't seem like what I wanted......

Because, the negative energy is so great that even the beauty of oneself has lost its light.

Later, I forgot somewhere and saw a paragraph that said: You are responsible for the article you wrote, you threw out a problem, you have to solve it, give a solution. Rather than letting that problem stop there and create more problems.

Think about it, if I write with a low mood, then the whole article will be sad from beginning to end, but what is the point of this? Is it to show that the world is dark?

If not, then the whole thing still needs a light to illuminate the darkness ahead, that is, the beautiful meaning.

Slowly, what I wrote began to take such routes - some of them were full of pain, and some of them were full of pain, and the second half of the process began to gradually transform the pain into a worthwhile meaning. In short, what is written to the end must be beautiful.

Yesterday was the Mid-Autumn Festival in 2016, which is a happy Mid-Autumn Festival. Because I can communicate openly with my family......

Thinking of the Mid-Autumn Festival in 2013, well, maybe it was the most confused and darkest Mid-Autumn Festival I have had in more than 20 years, although the moon at that time was not as round as a reunion, so bright that my eyes were shining, but the health problems of my family and the confusion and powerlessness of my new step into social work were like a beast relentlessly biting me. At that time, it felt like I was the only one in the world. Looking around, only the pale moonlight accompanied me as I stared from the top of the building to the dark downstairs......

Fortunately, I didn't get distracted at that time.

So in comparison, my Mid-Autumn Festival in 2016 was so much better!

On the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I didn't admire the moon. Ever since I fell in love with solitude, I have rarely admired the moon, except when I suddenly want to take a picture of the moon.

My aunt and uncle talked to me about marriage.

The two elders said that while they are still healthy, let me get married and have a child as soon as possible, and then they can help me bring them up. If they have health problems for a long time, not only will they not be able to take care of my children in the future, but I will also be busier to take care of their two elders......

Well, that's really a puzzle.

From the perspective of parents, they all hope that their children can get married as soon as possible and nurture the next generation as soon as possible. Then for them, it can be regarded as a great wish in their lives.

From the perspective of children, some like to start a family early, while others don't like to be in a hurry, feeling that they still need some time to grow. And I, on the other hand, belong to the second type.

However, my aunt and uncle are already in their 60s, and with some health problems, it is natural that they will be very worried about my future.

And I, in addition to the undecided heart, is also a big boy who is still in the immature stage of personality, and if I get married in such a state, I will feel that the future is very ethereal.

But this is the most difficult problem for me to deal with at the moment.

Therefore, it is necessary for me to have a good communication with my aunt.

"Actually, we want you to start a family first and then start a business, while we can still help you with your children. Auntie said to me bitterly.

"I know you're doing it for my own good, but I need a little time, so I can't be in such a hurry. "I also have my position.

"When will it be delayed?" "Are you going to get married?" Auntie began to get a little excited.

"Actually, as a parent, do you think you are happy when you see your children happy, or do you see your children follow the path you pointed out, and even if your children are unhappy, you are also happy?" I threw out a question that had an impact on Auntie's thoughts.

Auntie paused, as if she didn't know how to answer me immediately.

Then I continued, "What if, I mean, what if, if your son is gay......"

Auntie immediately laughed and waved her hand to interrupt me: "Impossible! hahaha...... It's impossible for our family to be in this situation...... "Auntie is always so serious.

I laughed and waved my hand to interrupt her: "I said yes, of course I can't be gay! I mean if I'm gay, then I can't pass on the lineage." If so, do you want me to be happy, or do you want me to marry painfully to carry on my family? Or do you want your children to be healthy and happy, or do you want your children to go through the necessary path of life, even if they are unhappy?"

"Impossible! It's said that it is impossible for our family to have this situation...... "Auntie is really still an aunt, and if she is serious, she is as serious as if she is not serious."

Well, I lost.

After more than an hour of compromise and negotiation between the two sides, we finally reached a balance point.

I want to pursue the dream, and they are not against it. As for my marriage, they can also give me a little time, but not for too long.

Well, it's an ideal situation.

It's still a good feeling to talk to your family face-to-face. In addition to warmth, there is also the enhancement of feelings.

The lonely and dark Mid-Autumn Festival night in 2013 and the Mid-Autumn Festival night in 2016 with my family are happy and heart-to-heart, three years ago.

It's been three years since I came out of social work, how much better am I now than I was three years ago?

I don't know, I've experienced a lot in the past three years, and many of them are things I didn't expect to experience when I was a student. Luckily, at least I'm clearer now than I was three years ago, and I know what I really want.

Nothing is in vain. No matter how many times I write this sentence, I will never get bored of it.

That night, on the way back to the "heart world", the bright moonlight was like an invisible angel, quietly holding me, quietly ......

Thank you for not getting distracted on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival three years ago......

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